Podcast Summary: Archispeak Episode #389 — "I Want To See Tears"
Hosts: Evan Troxel & Cormac Phalen
Date: May 1, 2026
Episode Overview
In this engaging, candid episode, Evan and Cormac reflect on the true, often messy realities of both professional and personal projects as architects. Moving from tales of covering for absent coworkers to a detailed dive into Evan’s huge “van conversion” undertaking for his daughter-in-law, the conversation explores hands-on making, work-life balance, architectural perfectionism, and why project timelines always balloon. The hosts discuss the value (and stress) of fabrication, learning through mistakes, and seeking that unforgettable “tears of joy” reaction from clients—whether they’re family or not.
Key Discussion Points & Insights
Picking Up Other People's Slack (00:00–03:20)
The Never-Ending Van Conversion Saga (05:00–22:00)
Origin of the Project
The Reality of Hands-On Making
Material Choices & Constraints
- Deciding on a beautiful, aromatic cedar lining—“smells amazing, looks beautiful”—meant redesigning everything from scratch (12:40).
- Evan and his daughter-in-law had to work around limitations of prior cabinetry, hardware, and the inherent non-modularity of vehicle interiors.
Emotional Aspirations
- Evan’s goal: not just a functioning van, but one that evokes real emotion.
- “My goal is to make her cry… tears of joy, not tears of frustration.” (18:18)
- "Like she, when she opens this van up that is just like, 'Oh my God.' Because like we are literally going to the nth degree to make things how we would want them." — Evan (18:49)
High Stakes DIY
Realities of Fabrication vs. Architectural Documentation (23:20–28:46)
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Discussing the ever-present risks in the workshop—“You can literally cut your fingers off just about 100 times a day”—versus the digital safety of modeling (23:22).
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Relearning tool safety, investing in push sticks and better practices after “getting way too close to the blade in previous [projects].”
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Comparing design/build approaches:
- “You can spend a lot of time in design so that the construction part goes faster, or you can spend less time in design and solve problems during construction.” — Evan (31:27)
- “When I did design build, you prepare drawings for approval— not for construction, because we were doing the fabrication in the building.” (31:26)
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Tension between old habits ("close enough" construction docs) and today’s exhaustive “zero clash” coordination models.
The Endless Project and Pursuit of Perfection (28:47–35:31)
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Perfectionism and Its Consequences:
- Both hosts reflect on the “anal retentiveness of the architect,” the inability to accept “good enough,” and how mistakes compound when building sequential parts (27:00–28:18).
- “You cut a piece and it’s not right… those mistakes compound over time… now every other one has to be customized to the mistake you’ve already made.” — Cormac (28:18)
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Learning Through (and From) Mistakes:
- Adapting on the fly; even with best-laid plans, sometimes “you can’t do it until you get the wrong piece up there to see.” — Evan (30:06)
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On Technology vs. Handwork:
- 3D scanning and CNC fabrication would have been nice but impractical for a one-off, DIY family project:
- “I didn’t want to spend four months in Rhino… This is punk. And it’s gonna, like, not only is it enriching for your soul... But again, as you said, big goal. You’re away from the computer a lot more.” — Cormac (32:46–33:16)
Quick Hits and Tangential Riffs
- Upcoming cross-country road trip to swap vehicles with his daughter-in-law—a future adventure, and an excuse to be the first to enjoy the nearly finished van (20:52–22:09).
- The tyranny of flat, boring drives across the Plains: Wyoming, North Dakota, and the unending quest for good scenery on American road trips (22:32).
Full Circle: Architecture’s Puzzles, Professionally and Personally
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The Joy (and Frustration) of Building:
- “That’s what is so cool about doing a project like this… it really takes me back to design-build… The client in this case is my daughter-in-law. My goal is to make her cry. I want her to cry tears of joy.” — Evan (18:10, 18:49)
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Tools, Tolerance, and Making it Work:
- “What you’re doing right now… the challenge for you is you’re doing mobile architecture. You’re making a tiny house.” — Cormac (35:18)
- “Tiny house on wheels that goes 80 miles an hour down the freeway. Yeah. Fans are rocking, don’t come and knock it.” — Evan (35:31)
Notable Quotes by Timestamps
- “Do you remember the scene in Die Hard where John McClane is barefoot... he has to walk through all the glass—bloody feet and all? That’s where I’m at right now.” — Cormac (01:09)
- “My goal is to make her cry… tears of joy, not tears of frustration.” — Evan (18:18)
- “Nothing is at a right angle in one of these cars... nothing is 90 degrees.” — Evan (15:18)
- “Let me just say this is what HGTV has done to the world: magical thinking.” — Cormac (08:13)
- “I can’t make the hole smaller later. I can only make it bigger.” — Evan (19:54)
- “You cut a piece and it’s not right… those mistakes compound over time…” — Cormac (28:18)
- “When I did design build, you prepare drawings for approval, you did not prepare drawings for construction…” — Evan (31:26)
- “The challenge for you is you’re doing mobile architecture. You’re making a tiny house.” — Cormac (35:18)
- “Tiny house on wheels that goes 80 miles an hour down the freeway. Yeah. Fans are rocking, don’t come and knock it.” — Evan (35:31)
Timestamps for Major Segments
| Timestamp | Segment/Topic |
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| 00:00–03:20| Office Culture & Picking Up the Slack |
| 05:00–13:30| Van Project Origin, Magical Thinking vs. Reality |
| 14:00–22:00| Fabrication Lessons, Perfectionism, Emotional Investment |
| 23:20–28:46| Shop Risks, Safety, Documentation vs. Building |
| 28:47–33:16| Compounding Mistakes, On Not Accepting "Good Enough" |
| 33:16–35:31| Architecture’s Endless Puzzles, Personal Updates |
Episode Takeaways
- Project timelines are always longer than you think—even for architects.
- Doing things “the right way” always means rethinking everything, making bespoke solutions, and learning on the fly.
- There’s a unique joy in making—not just designing—especially when the stakes and expectations (family!) are high.
- The work of architects, at root, is still about solving puzzles and aiming for that rare, genuine emotional response.