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Hello. Missed you real bad. I pulled myself out the rut and I'm gonna tell you how I did it. I'd be falling in to a bunch but I always dig my goddamn way out. I just realized I don't have my chain on. Hang on. Okay, now I'm dressed. Now I look presentable, fancy for the camera. But yeah, I was in a rut again kind of my thing. But I'm excited to tell you what was going on, what I learned, the whole self love thing, that's a real and it's. I feel like that's a never ending process. I don't think it's never going to end because a lot of things changed with my view on that. We're going to get there. I'm also going to rant a little bit about how much I just had to pay in taxes for last year, California. But also we're going to talk about over giving to people, giving too damn much to everybody, everything. Cuz I was in this rut because I felt like my energy was bleeding out of me. I felt like I had a wound and I was just like bleeding out energetically. Like my life force. I didn't have nothing for me. I take care of everybody, take care of everything and I had to take care of me for a minute. So part of my patching up my little wound I had where everything's bleeding out, I had to take care of me. I had to love me for a minute. I love everybody else and look after everybody but me being offline, I'm not just gonna skip over the Fact that I ghosted you. All right, I did. I ghosted everybody. But I had to do it for me. And if you've been following along this whole year through the podcast and what's been going on, you know, when things don't make sense, you just make decisions and do things. Cause they feel right. Even though it's like shit in the moment, but it feels right. Everything made sense when I needed to take this break because I don't have any contracts that I have to fulfill. I don't have to be online if I don't want to fucking be online no more. So grateful for that. To two, I don't have any management. I don't have nobody breathing down my throat and yelling at me that I need to get online. I'm going to miss deals. I'm going to miss that. I turned down a few deals. While I was going through my little, like, recovery process with myself, I was healing my wound. But I realized I'm free. I can talk about whatever I want and I cannot talk if I don't want to. Because the last thing I wanted to do was force myself to come back online while I was trying to, like, rehab myself emotionally in a way. So I'm grateful for that. So, like, if you have been going through and you're like, it doesn't make sense, it's gonna make sense. It always makes sense for us in the future. When you look back, it all makes sense. But I finally got to take some time to myself. Oh, it was crazy. But to hit on the self love aspect of it, I needed time. I needed to come back to myself and take care of myself. And all the things I had to decline and say no to. I look at now as investments of love into myself. So a couple of examples. Because this self love shit's no joke and it doesn't feel right, but it will help you make really difficult decisions and stick to them. When you kind of frame it like this, everything that you give up and sacrifice is an investment to yourself. Because I had a giant Vegas trip planned for the UFC and Power Slap, and I was supposed to go to that. And then I came down sick. I wasn't fully sick yet, but I started to feel a little sick a couple days before I was supposed to leave. So I had a girl that I'm friends with come over and give me an iv, hydrate me, give me all the low vitamins and shit. It didn't really help. I was sick. I caught a cold, and I was like, okay, I can rush and Go get on antibiotics and go still make my trip and not be contagious. But I didn't want to, like, at the truth, like, the core of it, I didn't want to go to Vegas with how I was feeling, one, mentally, but two, like, sick buys. And I was in a kind of like a rock and hard place where I was like, I could force myself to go because I was looking at it like, who the hell don't want to go to Power Slap and UFC and go do all this stuff? Last time I was at the ufc, they put me on the camera, like, on the screen, and I was all over the TV and shit. Cool, fine, great time. But with this time going, there was a lot of things set up with a lot of different companies with free, basically. And there was probably like six, like, five or six different things I was gonna have to post for, like, Power Slap and ufc. That was one thing I like you post when you go to these events. Like, they want promotion, they bring you. It's like kind of like, scratch my back, I scratch yours type thing. And then there was some things set up with a tequila company, and then things set up with a nightclub, and I was like, with my mental state I'm in, I don't feel like partying, and I do not want to drink alcohol. I'm 12 days sober right now from absolutely everything. Yeah, I have a little cigarette here and there. Shut the up. But when I first moved to Miami, I was, like, partying, and I just got irritated with it and I started not to feel good, and I wanted my mind back. Like, I wanted my sober mind back because it's the most powerful. Like, I didn't want alcohol. I didn't want, like, ecstasy and stupid that I had been doing with my head and my emotions. I wanted to see things clearly, but I was kind of faced with, like, I can go to Vegas and force all this to happen, or I can choose to let everybody down. Because it was like the day before where I was up against this place mentally and was like, I have to make a decision. So I decided not to go because I saw, like, what it was. If something don't feel right, don't do it. Because I was looking at that whole experience, like, if I go to Vegas, because there's so many things lined up and so many companies I got to post for, I'm not going to be able to have fun. I'm going to be worried and focused on making sure I don't let nobody down and posting and doing everything for them. So I was like, I'm not going to go stress myself out and, like, ruin my own experience, push myself when I'm sick. I'm not going to be able to show up and do things for the companies. And I was like, at the end of the day, I'm not getting paid. I'm just getting free experiences. So I was like, I'm not going to force myself to go. And mentally, I was. I crashed out. I did. I did. But I wasn't like a bad mental state. Like, you know the ones where we get in where it's like a depressive episode, you get into a rut, you don't want to do nothing. My hair grew out. I had to shave it again. Like, that's how it was. It was going. It was like one of those times you get into the slump, and it's like, I don't want to force myself out of it for an opportunity. You know what I mean? It was just like a moment where I had to choose myself. And I'm so happy I chose myself. Cause a lot of things unfolded. But with making that decision, it was difficult for me. I was like, okay, I do have to let everybody down. Because if I don't and I make myself go, I'm gonna let myself down. And the thing that made me feel better about declining the whole thing was one. I actually was sick. So it was kind of like an out. And I did need to rest. I didn't wanna go be around a bunch of people being sick. But. But I looked at it like, as much as I don't want to miss this, and I'm looking at these opportunities like they're great, and I want to go partake in them, to sacrifice them and to choose myself. That's a lot of energetic investment. And that's one thing I talked about when I was on tour with confidence. The more you invest into yourself, the more you say no to that isn't right or aligned for you. It's a literal boundary you're setting with the universe. And every time I turn down certain opportunities in the past, I've turned down monetary. The whole Vegas thing. It's like, as soon as you turn down something because it doesn't align, that's an investment, a huge one, that you send a signal to God in the universe of, like, this is what I want. It brings you something. And for you to say, not like that, and to not accept it is a boundary you're setting with God and setting with the universe. And that's the most powerful thing but the ego boost you get, not ego, but, like, the confidence you get of, like, yeah, I'll choose myself, no problem. It's crazy, but the universe and God want you to get what you want. And it doesn't know how to bring you things and how to bring you exactly what you want. So if something's not exactly what you want, decline it. That's what I've learned from my life experience. It hasn't let me down once. But deciding to stay home and hang out with myself, take care of myself turned into this whole, like, shadow work, best few days of my life. And I had to look at who I am when I'm not giving to people and to things because, like I said, I felt like I was bleeding out energetically. It's because all I was doing was giving to people. And I got caught in this cycle and I didn't realize I was in this cycle. And the cycle that got me into the rut was giving constantly to everyone and everything. So that for me looked like monetarily to people in my life, energetically to people in my life, energetically to social media, giving in my videos, posting and, like, making content. It was like me giving. It's like lending my energy, putting my energy into this thing with the podcasts, with Tick Tock, with Instagram, with everything I'm doing. It was like just giving. And then I would go out in public and I get recognized a lot. Every single place I go, I get recognized and I always check myself. And I've never lost this thing about myself. No matter how long it's been, it's been like three and a half years where I've been getting recognized out in public. I always am focused on the person meeting me, and I want to make sure that they have a good experience and get to meet me. If they want to take a photo, we take a photo. I've had to learn to set boundaries of certain things, but I always try to make sure I'm not in a bad mood or pissed off or if I'm going through something, I don't let the people who meet me feel it. I do my best to have a genuine reaction. But the other thing with, when I go out in public, I never know what kind of interaction I'm going to have. There are some people who see the big bald bastard with the gold chains and a tank top running around. They're like, oh, Leo, hey, I love your tik toks. Whatever. It's a cute little interaction. Then I have people who cry and, like, get so excited and meet me and they're excited and they cry. Or I'll have people who are so appreciative and they cry and tell me that I've saved their life. And I always stop and make sure I give them a hug and we talk and I'm there for them in that moment because I've met people who have done things for me online and helped me and it's been. But I genuinely care about you guys, the people who recognize me and see me. But going out in public for me is never a easy thing. I'm always prepared for that. And I have to kind of brace myself for what kind of interaction am I going to have? Is it going to be a quick high end buy, let's take a photo. Or just like, hey. Or is it going to be something where I need to take time and like be there for somebody while they show their appreciation and like get upset, cry, whatever it is. I take that very seriously and I hold that with as much love as I can. And I don't want people to feel like they don't matter. That's what I've. No one who's ever met me in public has had a bad experience with me. And I can say that confidently and it makes me happy and it also does a lot for me. But. And the time is where I'm giving in all these ways when I need to relax or stop or pull back and just rest for a minute. Like you feel like you're bleeding out. It's like I have to recharge. And that's why earlier this year, another reason I was reaching for cocaine is because I had to keep going. It's like I'm bleeding out and I have to re refill somehow. So cocaine was a fake way of refilling. And when I get into these periods of like, where I've given too much, I'm tapped out and I need myself because people don't take care of me. I realized that like the people who have been close to me, nobody takes care of me and like looks after me. Yeah, they do things in their own way and people do help me, but I don't trust giving a broken heart to anybody except myself. So I gave myself mine. And the way that I show up for everyone, the way that I'm willing to drop things and prioritize people, I had to show that same love to myself. And I needed to love Leo for a little bit. And I loved this motherfucker and now he's doing good. Hey, it makes sense Why I got into a rut. There's no escaping that. But the other thing with this cycle was when I would be giving all of the time to everyone and everything when I would need to be taken care of, I would start to resent and hate everything that I was giving to. It was a weird, fucked up dynamic in my head because going out in public when I didn't have anything to give, I felt like I had to hide. And I would hide in my house or in my apartment, but going out in public, getting recognized all the time when I didn't have nothing to give, I was just like, okay, I'm not gonna leave the house. I'm not gonna go do anything because I don't have shit to give right now. And it was this bad cycle of, like, I would start to get mad because I felt so alone with a lot of things. And, like, the money that I would be giving people and the things that I would be doing for people. I felt like I wasn't able to stop. But it's like giving all the time to everybody when I needed. I felt like if I didn't just continue giving, it was just going to be taken from me. So that took a lot of different forms and it ruined my ability to relax and kind of be there for myself. Because, like, all the money that I give people and the things that I do for people when I'm down and don't have nothing to give, it's like when invoices would hit me and would payroll would go out and people would be getting money from me. It felt like if I stop, nothing gives to me. I just have to keep giving. It's like, if I'm not intentionally giving it, it's just being taken. My energy, my money, everything. So I felt like I just had to keep going. And I've been working on, like, forcing things and not forcing through life, but I slipped back into that pattern of, like, forcing because I was like, okay, if I don't keep giving voluntarily, it's just going to be taken. And if I don't voluntarily give it, when people take it, I feel taken advantage of. I feel unappreciated. I feel pissed off when I'm giving consciously. I still felt unappreciated, but I could deal with it until I hit that point of, like, being drained. Then I might see everything that I was giving and was set up with giving. Like, continuously. I looked at it like I was being taken from, and then I would start resenting it and getting pissed off. I was getting Upset. I was getting mad, but my fear was, like, starting to hate people, and I didn't want to. And at the end of my podcast episode, the last one that I did, I was talking about the merch, and you could tell I was so fucking defeated by it. And so just like, if you think I'm scamming you, fuck you. Like, I didn't care to fight anymore. I didn't. I didn't have nothing to give to care about anybody's feelings or cater to anybody's feelings. I do want to say thank you to everybody who ordered merch, and merch is still in stock. I haven't been online to, like, talk about it and promote it, but merch is live, Merch is in stock, and some more things are coming out soon. But I do want to say thank you to everybody who purchased stuff. Like, it blew me away, and sales were 10 times what I thought they would be. But the whole thing. Why am I. I'm getting off track, but let's just. Because let's just see where this is going to go. The whole reason I was upset with the merch is because on the back end of dealing with what I had to, with the factory and the manufacturers and the warehouse and all that, there was certain delays. And I was paying a lot of money to speed things up and make sure that everybody got things on time. And I was doing the customer service personally. All I was seeing was the disappointment of people not getting their stuff fast enough. And there was a couple orders who had issues. A couple people got the wrong thing, or a couple people, their package got lost. So we're having to contact the delivery couriers and all that. But I was only getting, like, the end of people giving me and being upset. One thing nobody was upset about was the quality. And I know that for a goddamn fact. I'm a stickler about that. I don't release nothing that I wouldn't wear myself. But the only complaints were, like, just with shipping and timing and all these things that I felt like were out of my control, and I had already done so much to try and, like, make them work. And from my perspective, all I was seeing was people's disappointment. And I felt bad, and I felt like I let everybody down no matter how much I stressed myself out and forced and tried and tried to make it as good as I could. There was people that were upset. There were so many more people who were not upset. But people were posting their videos, and y' all were tagging me, doing the review and unboxing and all of a sudden, y' all were so excited, and those made me happy. But it's like once you've been exposed to so much negative about a certain experience, it kind of jades it. It's like when there's hate comments, you get a hundred comments, and you get five hate comments. If 95 were positive, the five that were negative are going to piss you off or, like, they're going to hit you a little bit, and you're going to feel like the whole experience was negative. So I ended up handing off the customer service aspect. I couldn't look at it anymore because it ruined my excitement for everything. And I felt like everything I was trying to do to make sure everything went good was useless. Everything went great. When you have 15,000 orders and 100 have issues, that's a very small percentage. Most people very happy. Yeah, there was a delay with things getting out because there were so many things that got ordered, but everybody got their stuff. Everything's great. There was a few orders that had hiccups, but, like, I was focused on just that. And I felt like the entire experience was a disappointment. I felt like 15,000 people who ordered were disappointed. Disappointed. And it wasn't the truth. So once I got the negative out of my face and I hired someone to do the customer service, now I feel a lot better, because now I see the videos and unboxings and y' all tagging me, and it's like, I feel better about it. I feel really good. But I wanted to say thank you to everybody who ordered. And when you wear your merch out in public, if you see other people wearing it, say, hi. I want to make this, like, a thing where y' all can, like, meet each other, make friends, meet people who got the same integrity and morals that we do because it's hard to come by. And a lot of people ask me how to make friends. There you go. When you see somebody out in the merch, even if you don't own any, if you own it, wear it. And if you don't own any, but you recognize people wearing it, go up to them and say, hi. Tell me, like, they merch, you're gonna be friends. Every time I was on tour, people met in the audience. Everybody's, like, still friends. I'm still in a lot of group chats, and I see everybody, like, the little friendships evolving. But, yeah, that was the whole thing with the merch. Like I said, it's still live if you want to buy it. Links in the description. I got some Christmas Stuff coming out, you're going to gag. He's cute. But that situation kind of beat me down a little bit and got me to like a point where I was kind of like losing a little confidence, not feeling the best about myself. You know, things how the cookie crumble, that's how the hair falls out. But back to the cycle that I was stuck in. I had to go on this whole like self exploration thing of who I am when I'm not giving. And that's a difficult one for me because like I said, I look at giving in my life like in so many different aspects and who I am when I'm not giving was scary as shit to sit there with because I was like, do I exist? You have to think about it. Like if you're used to giving and doing and everything that you do is giving and you look at everything you do as giving, when you stop giving, like I had an identity crisis of like, who the hell am I? Do I still exist? Because when I wasn't giving to my social media, everything kind of like was slowing down. People were still posting stories, tagging me comments. And yeah, there's always engagement, there's always notifications going off, but I have all my notifications turned off. So when I open the app is when I see what the fuck is going on. But I had to kind of go on this self exploration thing of like who am I when I'm not constantly bleeding out to give to everybody and everything. And that was another act of self love. I had to invest of not feeding the algorithm, not worrying about not posting, not worrying about losing traction and all this like all the fears and the worries that come up. It's like when you stop giving to social media and giving to my business basically. I was so worried about what was going to happen, but I had to step back and choose. Whatever consequences come from me. Stopping all the giving while I am there for myself is what it's going to be. I will take those consequences as an investment of self love to show myself how much I'll be there for myself. To have someone care about you enough to stop everything going on, that's a lot of love you'd feel. Think about it if somebody else did that for you. If they didn't give a what happened, they stopped everything that felt like was bleeding them dry just to attend to you. That's what happened with myself. So I encourage you to do it if you got that thought. Having kids is different. I always got to mention that part. I don't think I'LL ever have kids. Cuz I, I don't know. And don't say, oh, you're gay, how will you ever have kids? You can make them in a lab and shit. Plenty of my friends will have my kids for me, but I don't know if I'm gonna have kids. But that's a separate thing. But yeah, this whole exploration thing of like, who I am when I'm not giving, I turned off all social media. Like I haven't been on it, I haven't been looking at it. I. I wanted to stop getting like validation and like proof that I'm still alive and that I still exist from the things I was giving to. So I just started going out and like, doing things in life, having fun, seeing what the hell happened and like exploring myself again. And even though I stopped giving and pushing on social media and like giving so much to it, I stopped posting entirely. The people that I met when I would go out in public, I kept getting recognized. I weirdly got recognized more. The impact that I made still existed. The love that I gave to people and shared with people and the love that they gave me, I could finally receive it. Because I also, when I went out in public, I wasn't drained dry and I wasn't forcing myself to act a certain way. If I was upset or I was down. Like I was at the store the other night and I was kind of like down and sad and somebody recognized me and I was like, oh. I was like, I'm having a shit day. To be honest. I was like, well, we could take a picture. Hi. And they were like, oh my God, me too. I'm having an awful fucking day. But you just made my day seeing you. And the interaction fed me weirdly. And then I started meeting a bunch more people that night I stopped at the gas station for my little cigarette run and five different cars. People were jumping out the cars to come and say hi to me and me not changing how I showed up. My energy was fed. Like I was fed by everybody saying hi to me and giving me love and giving me a hug. It was nice. It was so nice. Like y' all were there for me, a lot of you. There's probably like a hundred people in the past, like couple weeks that y' all have been feeding me and helping me. And this was the nicest experience. And I'm so happy that I recognized this cycle and I didn't isolate myself in the house. I did for a little bit, but when I was ready to go back out, I wasn't willing to bend myself and force energy that I didn't have. And it fed me, made me feel really good, made me feel energized. You guys, like, brought the life back into me and kind of, like, helped me see that the impact was still there, even though I wasn't giving and bleeding myself dry. Like, it showed me I can stop. And I'm so appreciative of that. So thank you. Even the comments that you guys left, even if I didn't meet you in public, like, the comments that you guys have been leaving and saying that you miss me and checking on me. I appreciate it a lot. A whole lot. Real bad. But one thing I do want to address and talk about is, like, this whole phase that I had where I was allowing myself to prioritize myself and stop giving to so much stuff. All the doubt and the fear and the worry that I had of. People always say, like, you're a slave to the algorithm. You have to feed the algorithm, not me. I've done this a whole different way than most people, and I've. I have to remind myself of that a lot. My energy is its own algorithm. And I've learned how to spiritually tap into that in a way that is hard to put into words. If I ever actually sit down and backtrack how I've done what I've done with social media, I could sell a course and shit on every single person who sells courses. Like the frequency of algorithms or something, I could teach the shit out of that. But I'm not getting involved in that anytime soon. Don't worry, you're not going to hear about me. Oh, I'm pulling a course. Not for a while, if that's ever going to be a thing. But my point is, I had to, like, remind myself that I've got a different approach to this. I don't have, like, this fake bullshit. It's like my energy is what feeds my algorithm. You guys know when something's off. You can feel it. I've been too honest and transparent. Now you know if something's wrong, so I can't fake it. I can't bullshit it. My happiness and my success are now in tandem. They're hand in hand. My success is dependent on my happiness and my ability to be authentic and honest and grow and learn and change and. And go through this hard ass and then talk about how I get through it. I love how I've set my life up. That's been like, a really cool thing that I've learned in this past Couple of weeks of loving Leo. But the thing I've been working on now is paying attention to when I give, when I want to give, versus I feel obligated to give. That's not something I've been super rigid about. And when I don't feel like the most confident and I don't spend time with myself and take care of myself, I give out of obligation a lot. But through these past couple weeks of just showing up how I'm going to show up, my soul knows when to give. And it will prompt me to. And I don't get in the way of that. Y' all know I walk around with a certain envelope in all of my bags that has cash in it at all times. So I have this thing on my soul. And, like, just my intuition. I've always had it since I'm little. I get this weird feeling when I see certain people and I will give them money. I don't know what it is, whether it's 100 bucks, 200 bucks, 500 bucks, whatever it is. It's just like something will tell me who needs it. And it's always fallen in line. Like, when people need it, I get pinged spiritually. However the it happens. Why am I you taking action? Is the universe taking action? That just wanted to come out so cool. But that kind of ties in with this. Like, when people have needed it, certain people have been like, oh, my God, I didn't know how I was going to come up with 500 for rent tomorrow. I can't believe, like, people start crying when I give them money sometimes. And it's the nicest experience. And nobody ever makes videos about it. Nobody's ever talked about it. I've never seen them. I've never seen anybody who have given to make a video or talk about it or come into me on it. People just love to talk about me, whatever. But that's not the point. That's not why I give it. It's not why I do it. But I make sure I always have money on me to give to people because my intuition tells me when to do it. And I always feel fed by those interactions. That's why I don't give a if I don't get credit for it. That's just like a soul thing. And when I got home from the store the other night, after all this went on with the gas station and the store, all these things people, like, everybody's energy was feeding me. I went downstairs at my apartment building and I went to go get packages. I was putting off getting packages for days. I didn't want to go deal with it. Going in a little locker thing. Type in the code that I was so irritated with it. But going out in public that night and everybody feeding me in a way, energetically. I came back up here and I was like, let me go get those damn packages. They've been sitting there for a minute. I keep getting the emails. Your package misses you. I'm sure it does. But I go downstairs and there's this girl that I've seen a couple times. She recognizes me, but it was like 10 or 11 o' clock at night because I like to go to the package room and there's no goddamn body in there. Get out of the fucking way. But I go down there and I see the girl and I was like, hey. And she had her. She had new hair. I was like, I like your hair. She was like, thank you. But as I was walking by, I said that. And then I was almost through the door and she was like, leo, I have a question. What should I do for my 21st birthday tomorrow? And I was like, get drunk. What do you mean? And she was like, no. I'm like, everybody wants to get drunk and everybody talks about drinking. She's like, I don't really care to. Like, I'm not like an alcohol person. I was like, okay, don't feel like you're obligated to drink because it's your 21st birthday. Spend it however you want to spend it. I was like, what do you got planned? Moral of a story? She kind of told me she didn't really have much planned and she didn't really have many people to spend her birthday with. Like she didn't know anything really gonna happen. And I was like, go out and buy yourself something nice, then fuck it. I was like, don't worry about it. I was like, you know what? Go out and buy something expensive and tell me how much it is and I'll split it with you. How about that? And she was like, oh my God, no. Like, I don't have anything that I want. And I've just been trying to work on paying off my debt and it made me feel bad and I got that spark of to give to her, but I didn't have any of my cash on me. So I asked her for her Venmo and I've been mowed her $500. She thought I was kidding, but I've been mowed her 500 bucks. And she almost started crying when I sent it. She was like, oh, my God, you actually sent it. And I was like, yeah, happy birthday. And I was like, and I'm the first person to tell you happy birthday. And she was like, you're the first person to give me something. And I think you're going to be the only person to give it to me on my birthday. That made me sad as shit. But she has said that she had a trip coming up and her friends were supposed to go to New York and she wasn't going to be able to go. And she was like, thank you for that because now I'm going to be able to go. My soul knows what it's doing, but I don't hesitate and I don't let myself get in the way of, like, when I feel the spark to give to people. And one thing I'm going to acknowledge since you dumb rat on social media have been saying, oh, Leo's racist. Leo's this, Leo's that. Shut the up. My soul don't see no skin color. My soul doesn't see nothingness. He's a human being. And I give to anybody I feel to give to. When I talked about a few months ago when I saw that girl on the side of the road doing the sign thing, she was black, I didn't feel the need to mention that. But since people want to go and smear my name, I'm going to stand up for myself once again. Go yourself. How about next black person you see, go give them 500 fucking dollars? You want to sit here and run your fucking mouth about me? Shut up. And the girl that was downstairs at my building was also black. How the hell are you going to call me racist? I don't get it. Like, that genuinely infuriates the fuck out of me. I wanted to get that off my chest. Anybody saying Leo Skeppy's racist, choke and fucking die. You're a liar. All these people taking everything out of context. Like, I called it crying about all this shit. And like the Charlie Kirk video that I made, that whole thing started like a whole cancellation. People got their panties in a twist. Do I agree with everything he said? No. Do I need to say that? Like, do you not have two brain cells to rub together or you just spend time rubbing your. Let me be a little considerate. I know a lot of young people watch me, so I'm gonna try and take the higher out you. That's all I got to say. If you can't look at me and understand. I don't agree with everything he said. Huh? I don't get that I don't like. Not my problem, not my issue. I'm not giving you any more of my energy to give a fuck that you exist. Die. I don't care to argue. Die. That's my response to you. If you don't like me and you want to say this, this and that about me, that's how indifferent I am to you. Take your last breath, bitch, today. But back to the whole situation I was talking about with the girl at the front office. The sweet girl, little angel, she's so sweet. She be helping me find my packages when I lose them. My identity being so wrapped up into giving, I can't stop giving. That's not who I am. That's not how I am. But I've got a good distinction now between giving out of obligation, whether it's time, money, energy, any of it versus giving. Because it's what I'm aligned to do. And I'm always going to do that. But now I want to talk about how much I just had to pay in taxes for last year. Who I'm irritated as a. I just had to pay $270,000 to the IRS. What is the government doing with the money? I don't know. And I don't give a no more. This just sparked anger in me. If I'm going to be giving and be forced to give all the profit I just made off my merch just went to the irs. I'm irritated, I'm pissed off. I'm not giving the government money to go do what they want to do with it. I don't trust them. I don't like it. The anger, the irritation of all of that feeling taken from just sparked a whole different idea in my head. And this one's so led. I'm going to make a nonprofit of some sort so I can get out of paying taxes so much. And I'm going to put the money into my nonprofit. So it's a write off for me. I don't got to pay that shit to the irs. And then I got an idea to start paying off balances at elementary schools and middle schools for the lunch for the kids. Any kid with an outstanding balance who owes money to the school for food, I'm going to go pay it the fuck off. And one of my goals this year for Christmas is my elementary school that I went to, Lipscomb. Lipscomb Elementary, Pensacola, Florida. I'm going to call them and I'm going to find out how much all the kids owe on there. Like who need any kid who has an outstanding balance or like families that can't afford to feed their kids. I want to pay off the entire school's debt with the food for the kids. That's my goal for Christmas this year. But that whole irritation with the irs thinking about me. The people who talk about me sit here and live off of the government. I just paid $270,000 for people that don't want to work, who just want to sit there and run their rat mouths about me. You've never been hit in the mouth by your parent, clearly. Clearly. I just paid like 6 of your income for a year, okay? And you want to sit there and talk about me? Shut the up. I'm taking the money out of your ungrateful, dumbass mouth and I'm gonna give it to the kids. So I'm learning my way around the system. This anger and this aggravation. I see how it all lined up because I want to start doing this on like a bigger scale and feed the kids, take care of the the bill at the school, and make sure that the kids in the middle school and elementary school can eat. That's what my soul came up with today. So I'm gonna figure out how to do that.