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Breathe In, Breathe Out
Hosted by Elaina Brady Redmond · EN
All the tears that were shed, will make sense eventually, the pain will make sense eventually. Everything we go through is turbulence, that’s where we find our strength. Breathe in, breathe out is taking everything day by day.
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Call Me When It’s Over
Feb 21, 202500:00:57Tap to summarizeWhen your words mean different than your actions, flipping each conversation contradicts the ending. Treating the ones around you poorly, to only pretend that you treat everyone right. No position or power can hide your true intentions. You only expose yourself when you are open book. I don’t care if you are above me, I don’t let you treat me anyway because you think you are above anyone. I can play the same game, the only difference is that you won’t know what will be coming. Walking away can be tough, but in the end no one will stand up for you. Call me when it’s over, is realizing you gave it your all, you saw the red flags and you decided to walk away. I won’t let no one hold a position over my head, or make me feel a certain way to fit your narrative. I love and respect enough to never let anyone treat me a certain way because they think they are entitled to it. That they are entitled to my last name or if I move up or not. You are not entitled to my life and what I chose to do with it.
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I’m Too Busy
Feb 21, 202500:01:54Tap to summarizeThe one with the most wisdom is the one who experienced the most at a young age. It’s not out of arrogance or knowing it all, it’s out of painful experiences. No one should experience abuse of any kind at a young age. Even if it’s by someone you aren’t related to. Going through something so dark, your whole life is in survival mode. Then survivals guilt, ptsd and never really forgetting what happened but learning to accept what happened. Many will never be able to share their story, no one should be forced to share their story. Being threatened, beaten, scars that will never heal, but moments that will last a lifetime. You never know what each and everyone one of us has experienced. I’m too busy, is not realizing that you are taking your life and the ones in your life for granted. Work consider us as numbers and can replace as in heartbeat but you can’t replace another life. Twenty-six years later and I still have nightmares, it takes longer to heal and get out of survival mode. That most of us have been stuck in for most of our lives. There are many stages of healing from being in survival mode for so long, but also Fibromyalgia comes from trauma and being survival mode where the body no longer knows how to process pain. That’s why the pain receptors are stuck and our pain is more than scale. No one will ever understand that type of pain or the fact many of us are also dealing with central pain syndrome on top of Fibromyalgia. Many will deny and say each thing is made up for sympathy or it’s not real, but it is. Being in survival mode for so long can destroy the nervous system . I’m too busy, to relive my past or to be reminded of my past.
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Don’t Be A Stranger
Feb 21, 202500:00:38Tap to summarizeThe last three years I’ve had five surgeries total. Having my tonsils removed saved my life because it was blocking off my airway, but now I struggle with liquids and don’t have a. appetite. It hurts and burns to swallow, and I choke on liquids, but with food I am perfectly fine. One issue is fixed, then another one comes along. My voice has completely changed, having your tonsils removed as an adult is much harder then if you were kid getting them removed. Don’t be a stranger, is being stranger to what your body has to overcome. The way everything use to be before, has completely changed and will never be the same.
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Oops, You Picked Up
Feb 21, 202500:00:41Tap to summarizeHaving your confidentiality broken by two people who were your bosses, will never half of what I went through. Oops, you picked up to only pretend what you did didn’t happen. Breaking HIPPA, violating laws, not my problem you can’t live with your mistakes. I blocked you and removed you for a reason. You will always be a drama queen. The drama isn’t for me, but you always be reminded of what you did. No connection to me or my life. The pain will stay forever and nothing can ease what you did. No apology can excuse what you did. You got what you deserved.
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I Used To Believe Those
Feb 16, 202500:01:27Tap to summarizeA guy who will go out of their way to get you, to only ghost you in the end. To only come back six months to six years later like nothing ever happened. You got engaged behind my back, you couldn’t speak straight to me. You had to go behind my back to tell my friend. You claimed to say nice things to my friend, to cover yourself. I don’t care what excuse or apology you came up with. You only came back to hurt me again and to take advantage of what was left. Which there was nothing left. You broke me into pieces, but once I healed I found someone who would never put me through that. A man who acts like a man, even when things gets tough, not a boy who never grew up and still acts like boy. A boy who will never be happy with what he has, he has to destroy everything. Burn bridges and act like nothing ever happened, and the sad part is he is a year older than you, but you act older than your age. He acts a like a kid who is younger than his age, who will never grow up. I guess your relationship didn’t work out, that’s why you came back? It all fell down and the grass wasn’t greener on the other side. Not my problem, you chose your karma and you will have to live with bed that you created. I have no sympathy for you. I used to believe those words and I use to you trust you, but you lost a good one.
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All The Words That Were Said To Me
Feb 16, 202500:01:37Tap to summarizeWords said, stay with an individual forever, there is no taking it back or back tracking what you said. It doesn’t matter if your manager or not. You know what you said and you will have to live with what was said. You can push everything under the rug, pretend like it never happened or claim you want to help the individual succeed, when it’s the exact opposite. You are trying to change the one, because either you feel threatened or you don’t like them. You never know the individuals background or what they experience, to be who they are or be where they are right now. It’s time for you to put yourself in others peoples shoes, but it will always be about the power or what you can to destroy the other’s person life. It’s never about how can I make that persons life better? Your words and actions have two different meanings. All the words that was said to me still have never left, but it cleared my vision. I see clearer now, and see the red flags that you were trying to hide. The words still hurt, but now I know I can’t trust you and what you say is completely different to how you act. The ones who are observant and quiet, know everything that is going on. We may not say anything, but once when you leave there won’t be no trace of us. You won’t even know that we left. Either chose your words wisely or chose your actions wisely or both. You can’t do one and mean another. All I gave you is gone, I have nothing left in me to care. I have nothing left to give another chance or wanting to stay.
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