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I am your host, Ali Yost, and we are really repping the merch today. I haven't worn this T shirt in a while, but it's my favorite and it's still available. This is our he is the icon T shirt with, like, a bunch of Jesus's face plastered everywhere. Okay, okay, Jesus. Okay, wait. He's literally laughing right now. I don't know if you guys know this about me. I don't know if I've ever been honest. My friends are so funny. They'll be like, no. Like, I talk to Jesus and I like, email with him. You know, there's a little bit of time in between. But you are, like, actively texting him. Like, it's giving aim messaging. I will just. I will just see him and hear him in my mind. Okay. Don't admit me into a psych ward. Okay. Feel like I could say that. And people are like, oh, so you're schizophrenic? No. The spirit of God is living inside of me, and that's just how we talk. I do believe that there are a lot of ways that the Lord can talk to his children. And some people might not agree with the way that I hear from God. And that's okay. You don't have to agree with it. But I also cannot deny that this is what happens to me in my brain with God. Okay? It's never happened to me in my life until I started to know him. And now he's just aiming with me in my mind. And anyway, I say all of that because he was like, tell them. It's just funny. It's funny. And Jesus genuinely thinks that this is so funny. So if he thinks it's funny. I think it's funny. And he still loves this T shirt. He's like, no, I love it. You should wear it all the time. So I googled pictures of Jesus. Just googled it. And honestly, these were some of the first ones that popped up. And I was like, cool, that's my man. You know? That's my man. And so I made this. I picked out all these pictures of him and I put it on a T shirt. And I said, this is epic. Look at the lightning behind him. Like, look at his hands being like, I'm God, okay? It freakin eats. And he is the icon. Okay, guys, can I tell you about something crazy? When you Google the definition of icon. I'm sorry? I'm going to show you. Define icon, guys. This is under. This is what just pops up on Google. Do you see my phone? Okay, I'm going to read it to you. It says a painting icon. First thing that said, a painting of Jesus Christ or another holy figure, typically in a traditional style on wood, a person or thing regarded as a representative symbol or as worthy. It comes from Greek, then Latin icon, mid 16th century. Via Latin from Greek likeness image. Current census date from the mid 19. Okay, cool. Anyway. What? Jesus Christ is the first thing mentioned. So that just eats. So he is the icon. He is like, he is my idol. He is my icon. We are not allowed to have any idols outside of Lord Jesus himself. He is everything I want to be in life. Okay. He's the icon. So anyway, make this whole collage of Jesus and I'm like, this T shirt rocks. It literally rocks. And after making it, people were like, he looks really white, Ali. And I'm like, I guess I'm like, no, I mean, he looks Jewish. This one is definitely super white. Okay. He does look a little white in some of these. And I didn't. I didn't even think about it. I don't know, it just. Whatever. I just was like, that is a really cool picture of Jesus. Anyway, some people got really upset about it. I get it. But also it's kind of like, can we just. We don't actually know what Jesus looked like. We do know that he was Israeli and he was a Galilean and he was a Hebrew man. A Jewish man. He was a Jewish man. He spoke multiple languages. He spoke Greek, he spoke Hebrew, he spoke Latin. But anyway, he was a brown man. He was a brown man. So with that being said, I guess some of the coloring, I was like, oh, that's brown. It's White. That's a white man. Guys, I said, jesus, first off, Jesus is like, oh, Allie, I love you so much. You're just a precious being. You really tried your best. He goes, I love the T shirt. I said, does it, like, does it look like you? Like, does this look like you? He said, no, but I love it. Jesus, I love you. He's like, no, I love it, but please keep selling it, because it's what. It's what. It's. It's what it represents is what he says. He's like, hey, listen, I love it because it's. It is me. But that isn't exactly what I looked like. But it's close. It's close, honey. Just felt him be like, It's. It's really close, my girl. It's really close. So anyway, we don't really know what Jesus looked like, but we do know that he was a brown man with dark, long hair and a beard. And we do know that he saved the world. And we do know that he's an icon. We do know that. And I know that the Lord is pleased with this T shirt. So with all of that being said, we love the T shirt. It's fun. And God, I feel like if it was really blasphemous, if God was like, honey, that ain't not. I did not tell you to make that T shirt. I did not tell you to do that. That is a. If that were the case, I feel like God would have said that. And he didn't. He actually giggled. I felt like he was patting my head and he was like, you little bean. I really. No, it's great. It's like, the effort that, you know, it's like when your kid, like, draws a picture of you and they just draw you in a way that's like, that's not really me, but, like, I love it. And I'm going to put it on my fridge anyway because it's what it represents, you know, I feel like that was Jesus with me with this T shirt. I feel like he was like, I love this. I'm going to put it on my fridge. Honey, you have no reason to be embarrassed about it. Don't throw it away. Like, share it with the world. Other people should also get it and buy it and, like, wear it. It's good. Does it look exactly like me? No. But why do I feel like he's proud of it? He is. He is proud of it. Anyway, I'm proud of it. I'm still proud of the T shirt. I love the Lord. He's so freaking kind. Like, what the heck? The way that I hear him in my head, I'm like, no, you're the nicest person I've ever met in my life. Like, seriously, he is never condemning, ever. Like, he's never like, ally, you should be so ashamed of yourself. While maybe other people have said that, but he never has. Isn't he so nice? So let me just say, guys, that if there are voices in your head that are saying you should be so ashamed of yourself, and you're like, gosh, God, was that you? No, it wasn't. Your heavenly Father, he can like, get kind of, you know, stern with us, but he'll never condemn you and make you feel like an idiot ever. So if anyone's trying to make you feel like an idiot, it's definitely the enemy. And typically, he's just projecting. Like, whatever he's making you feel ashamed for or in shame, it's because that guy lives in shame every minute of his life, and he's just projecting on you. So anyway, that's God's voice. God's voice is peaceful and it's kind and it's never condemning. And he's always like, oh, honey, I see the effort. I really do. I love you. And then sometimes he's like, but we're going to go this way now. You know what I mean? He's never like, oh, why would you ever do that? Why would you ever go in that direction? He's like, okay, I love you. That's cute. Aw. Yeah. But we're going to go this way. But I still love. I love the attempt. We're going to go over here anyway. That's our God. Love him so much. I don't know what this episode is. I think we're just hanging out. I think we're just girls and boys. We're just hanging out as brothers and sisters. But I want to play a part of a song that I've been obsessed with. I don't even know how long this has been out. I didn't even realize that it was Elevation Worship. Elevation Worship Ex Tiffany Hudson x Chris Brown. Not the Chris Brown you're thinking of. Not that one. There's a different Chris Brown who sings worship music in Elevation Worship. Anyway, I love this song. I love it. It's called all of a Sudden featuring Tiffany Hudson, which I followed her on Instagram the other day, and she followed me back. So we're basically best friends now. We're basically best friends now. And I kind of fangirled a little Bit because I was like, oh, my gosh. I listen to your music all the time. All the time. She's incredible. I'm sorry if you don't know who Tiffany Hudson is. She's awesome. Crazy, anointed. Literally giving general in worship music and just. It's giving general in the spirit, you know, she's just elite. She just leads worship really well. I admire her a lot for that. I do. Because that's a hope and desire of my heart. One day is that I will be on stages worshiping and leading that way in a way that's just so unapologetic and just worship to the Lord. It's so good. She's so good. Anyway, this is the song. It's called all of a Sudden. This is the part that gets so good. Guys, listen to this. The piano come. He's gonna come all of a sudden. I feel it coming. All of a sudden. It's gonna. I love drums, y'all. Listen to the drums. I feel it. You won't. I. It's so good. Anyway, I love that song a lot. We basically just listened to almost the whole thing, but I love it. Just kidding. That was only half of it. Also, wait. Life update, guys. Okay, if you watched Jesus Freaks, then if you know, you know, if you didn't watch Jesus Freaks, that's okay. I love you. Anyway, you should watch it. It was a series that me and Ashley started on YouTube, a docu series slash, like, reality show esque of our lives. And it's called Jesus freaks. It's on YouTube. But if you did watch it, then you know exactly what I'm talking about. Where I a part of the storyline and something that I had shared that was very vulnerable and near to my heart was the struggle that I have had with my voice and singing. I just think that that has been one of the biggest things that the enemy has attacked me in my life is like, aside from worthiness and my confidence and all of that, like, especially just in my voice and my singing. A lot of my life, I have struggled with having confidence in that. And I think that, like, I've seen comments where people are like, oh, my gosh, how could you ever be insecure? Like, your voice is so great, but, like, genuinely when the enemy is in your head and convincing you that you are not good enough at something, I mean, it is so loud and blaring that you can't hear the truth. Like, you just can't. And so that has been something that God has actively walked me out of is like seeing My voice as the gift that God has given me and that it is something that he wants me to share with the world. And also, like, just humbling myself and not really looking at my voice from, like, a prideful pov, I guess, where I'm just like, I'm not good enough. Me, me, me, me, me, me. Like, I just kept looking at myself. And I feel like one of the biggest ways that the enemy gets in our head is by getting us to look at ourselves. Like, it is a form of pride. Whenever we're looking at ourselves, it's giving pride. Pride doesn't always sound like I'm better than everyone else. Sometimes pride can be false humility. Sometimes pride can be like, I'm not good enough. I, I, I, me, me, me, I suck. It's still looking at ourselves, which is a form of pride. And so I just kind of had to get rid of that and be like, it's literally not about me. It's about this gift that God has given me. It's also about the fact that I cannot shake my love for singing, even though apparently I believe that I suck. But I also, like, want to do it so bad. So if I really sucked, why do I want to do it so bad, you know? So I've always kind of gone back and forth with my flesh and my single spirit that way, where it's like, my spirit just wants to worship and sing, but my flesh was like, but you suck. It's like, girl, stop looking at yourself. It's not about you, but it's real. It's real. And so if there's something that you are actively walking, you know, through with the God, whether it's, you know, your voice or, like, anything else where you're like, I'm not good enough at blank. But for some reason, I love it. Just know that whatever is telling you that you're not good enough, well, it's probably the Enemy is just not the truth. Okay? So I voiced that a lot on Jesus Freaks. I was like, hey, I'm done being in this cage. Like, I felt like a bird that was, like, in a cage, and I just wanted to fly. And every time I sing, like, freely, especially in worship, I literally feel like I'm flying. I can't explain it, but, like, in the spirit, like, my heart feels like it's finally fluttering and soaring all through the sky. Okay, that's how I feel. I don't know. It's just how I feel. So that has been so fun to, like, receive freedom in with the Lord and I've been getting more and more brave with Jesus on just singing, just singing. Like, who cares? I'm not Mariah Carey, but, like, just singing, okay? I'm not Ariana Grande, but I'm singing and I enjoy it and it makes me feel good. And I love singing for God. Like, oh, my gosh, it's my favorite thing ever. Two of my favorite things to give God is my voice. I love giving him music, and I love giving him my tears. Those are the things I love to give God. And sometimes both will happen at the same time while I'll be singing and crying, and I'm like, it's all for Him. Okay, so life update is that I wrote a song, okay? And if you follow me on social media, potentially you've already seen it. I posted about it a few days ago. I haven't made this big hype around it. I haven't. There was no countdown of when it was going to go live. It was just live. And then I just said, hey, I wrote a song. It's the first song that I've ever tried to write in my life. It's the only song I've ever written in my life, which, to me, is kind of crazy. Like, I don't know how it normally goes with songwriting, but I feel like you typically have to write a few songs before you, like, really make a song that's good enough to release. So it's really giving supernatural. Like, the way that I wrote this song, it was only possible through the spirit of God. That's the first thing I want to say. This is literally the first song I've ever written in my life. Crazy also, I feel like I really overcame that fear or, like, lie. I was telling myself, too, that I wasn't a songwriter. Like, honestly, I. If I have the spirit of God, the Holy Spirit, spirit dwelling inside of me and, like, with me while I'm creating, I can do anything because he can do anything. Like, the Spirit of God is a songwriter. He. He. He can do whatever he wants. And so that was a line that I had to just throw out the window because it wasn't true. So apparently I am a songwriter. Thank you, Spirit of God. Second thing that was so crazy about this was that it's not a song I thought I was gonna write for the first time. It was not a song that I thought would be my first song. I guess I thought my first song was gonna be I love Jesus, he's my life, I'm obsessed with him, the end. And that wasn't really the song, it's called I thought you'd miss my voice by now. And it's actually quite sad. It's very raw. And it's about a part of my life that I haven't felt in a long time. So I will say this is a feeling that God kind of brought me back to that I haven't felt in a few years. Thank you, Jesus. But it was actually the. One of the very things, if not the very thing, that led me to Christ is this feeling of unworthiness and this feeling of like. There's just been so many scenarios in my life, especially BC Alley, where I had loved people so much, but I, for some reason wouldn't get that same love in return. Like, eventually, you know, it would feel that way in the beginning, but then all of a sudden I feel like they're not interested anymore. They don't want to hang out with me anym. And this goes like romantic relations, but also platonic, like friendships too. I just. I had felt rejected by multiple people in my life where I just loved them and I would have done anything for them. And like, yeah, maybe it was kind of like that in the beginning, but over time, I kind of felt like I was becoming old news. And that might not have always been the scenario. Maybe the friendship just simply fizzled out. I don't know. But there were a lot of times where I was like, dang, like, am I just not that lovable? Like, why am I not enough? You know? And sometimes I feel like I would approach new relationships kind of acting as if I had to try to be perfect so that they wouldn't leave me and then they would leave me anyway. And so it was like no matter what I did, I was not enough. And it was actually the very thing that led me to the Lord because I felt so disappointed by people. I was literally at the wit's ends of myself. Is that a saying? Wit's ends? I don't know. I feel like it's something my mom says, but I was at the end of myself. Like, I. I had nothing left. I had no one pouring into me. And honestly, the only thing I have had pouring into me was the Lord. But, you know, it's like, if you don't have the Lord, then I guess you look to other people to pour into you, tell you that they love you, that you're enough, this, that and the next. And I didn't have that. And I was like, wow, I am so alone and I feel so unlovable. And for some reason, no matter how much I try to be a great girlfriend or a great friend. And I'm not saying I was perfect. I'm literally not saying that because I know I was an imperfect person. I still am. But you know that feeling, though, where it's like, all you want to do is love people, and then you don't feel that same type of love reciprocated. Like, you do know that feeling. If some of you don't, God bless you, honestly, then the Lord has protected you because it's a very painful thing to feel. And so that's what the song is about. That's what the song is about is like, I thought you'd miss my voice by now. Like, I thought. I don't know. I just thought that you loved me the same way I loved you. Like, do you still love me the way that I love you? Because I haven't heard from you in weeks, and you said it wasn't me, but it kind of feels like it's me. Like, it feels like I am the problem. So that's. That's the song. And I can play a little bit of it for you guys now, but it's available on Spotify and Apple. And I think, like, all the things that you play music on, I'm pretty sure it's just a single. I thought you'd miss my voice by now and it's just me on my guitar. I'm playing two chords out of the three chords I know on guitar. I'll play some of it. You said that you need time to think that it wasn't about me but why does it feel that way? Cause I thought you'd miss my voice by now Now I thought you'd miss my voice by now okay, so that's a good little gist. That's a little intro. If you want to listen to the rest of the song, it's available for you to look up. But, yeah, so I wrote a song and I released it, and I recorded that in my closet with my microphone, and I just said, here are my loaves and fish, God. Like, do with this. This is all I have. So just here you go. But I love you. And I just feel like that's what the Lord tells us to do, is just. If this could minister to anyone about me, releasing this song is like, one, yes, Face your fears because you can do all things through Christ, just as we said last week, you can. Second thing is, don't wait until you have quote all the resources, like, genuinely so many times. And God showed us this even with filming Jesus Freaks is like, we told ourselves or had convinced ourselves that the only way we could do a great job is if we had a pole production house helping us do this. And granted, that is the ultimate goal, and it is something we would even love for Jesus Freaks Season 2 is to have more support. Because it was a lot for us to do on our own, but we did it on our own. And we had felt the Lord be like, you have everything that you need. Like, I've given you enough resources, and you have my spirit. You can do this. And so with this song, like, I guess I could have made a bunch of excuses that I needed more of a band. You know, I needed more instruments. I needed maybe some backup vocals. I needed a producer. You know, I needed a recording studio. Like, I guess I could have told myself all those things, but I actually felt the Lord lead me to just do it. And he said, you have a microphone, you have your laptop, you have your voice, and you have your guitar, and you have two chords. I also felt the Lord be like, it can be simple. It can be raw, it can be stripped back. You can show up with what you have, and what you have isn't, like, not enough, you know, like, whatever you have, God can work with that is what I'm saying. Whatever you have, God can work with that. And so even if you feel like you're not equipped, even if you feel like I feel like I should have more, ask God. Ask God. And if he's like, no, I can work with that. That's enough. That's actually all I need. Then I say, walk out in obedience and just do it, you know, because that's all I had. All I had was two chords on a guitar and my voice and a microphone. And I did it. And the Lord told me to do it, and he pushed me to do it. And I'm glad that he did. Because the thing is, is that we shouldn't wait for other people to tell us when we're good enough to accomplish something. And I feel like if you're waiting for more opportunity or more people or more resources or whatever, and it's not the voice of God telling you to wait or you're waiting for people to say that you're good enough. Once you get to that point, you know, I just don't know if that's the Lord. I don't know if that's the Lord, because also, I feel like God receives a lot of glory when we only have, like, a couple loaves and a few fish. You know, I feel like God actually receives a lot more glory when we don't have all the things that we're supposed to have to achieve. Blank. You know, God really likes to work miracles in the little that we have. And it goes back to that scripture, too, where it's like, if he's trusted us with the little, and we can show him that we're trustworthy with the little, then he will then trust us with more. What is that scripture? What is that scripture? Guys, hold on. If God trusts you with a little. Yeah, it's Luke 16:10. Whoever can be trusted with very little can also be trusted with much. And whoever is dishonest with very little will also be dishonest with much. So if God has trusted you with very little, like, this is all you have. He's trusted you with the very little bread and fish that you have. If you can prove yourself trustworthy of the little, he will then trust you with much. You will be trusted with much. Isn't that cool? So sometimes it's that, too, where it's like, okay, God, I'm just gonna be obedient with the little that you've given me. And that's what I'm called to do right now. So that's Life Update number. I don't know where we are right now. Okay, I am going to share this. I am going to share this for the sake of anyone who could be listening, who could be in this predicament. That's the only reason I'm sharing this. I do believe that I'd like to keep this area of my life quite private, like dating and stuff, you know, and we've talked about dating here on the podcast and everything. And I think that the irony of this situation, y'all, the most ironic part of the situation was that the day after I recorded that episode a few weeks back about, like, what should my standards be with dating, we were kind of doing a little Q and A moment with y'all, and we were talking about the standards of, like, how a man should pursue you, like a real man of God should pursue a woman of God, right? So we talked about that, and I even expressed some of the things that I feel I would really appreciate is, like, direct communication, not only in his actions, but verbally, you know, being pursued in a way that's very obvious that he's, like, pursuing you, like taking you to dinner or something. And it's not this casual thing where maybe it's not even communicated out. I think at the least, I would just love verbal communication. Like, hi, I'm pursuing you and I want to take you on a date, you know? And so we talked about that the day after I recorded that this happens to me. So basically, I went on a date with a man of God. Okay? All the girls are squealing. I did. I went on a date. And the reason that this is a big deal, guys, is because I don't go on a lot of dates. I don't go on a lot of dates. And no shame to anyone who does, like, do your thing, girl. Do your thing, boy. But I don't. I'm just like, God, protect me, protect my heart. And I just pray that, like, if I'm going to go on a date with anyone, it is, like, said by you that I'm supposed to do it. Honestly, my biggest prayer was like, let the next man that I date be my husband. I will say, spoiler alert, he was not my husband. I'll just say, like, we didn't have peace. There wasn't enough peace, I should say. And so I bring all this up to say one. There's hope, my girls. There's hope. There are men who love the Lord in our generation who will respect you and treat you well. That's the truth. Okay? I am not the exception, okay? It's not just because I'm aliost or whatever, Excuse you. I am literally you. You are me. We are all the same. Okay? So that just is like, I rebuke that you deserve this type of treatment. You do. And honestly, I think that it was something that I needed to experience. I believe that this is what the Lord was teaching me. Okay, first thing. Yes, they exist. Great. Thanks God. Thanks God. You're still raising really good men of God. Thank you, God, for doing that. Second thing is God wanted to show me that this is the type of pursuit that I deserve. And I don't know if I believed it fully or knew that it existed or believed that I deserved it, because I've seen it even happen for other people in my community, you know, and there are even some of my friends are married and they just have the best husbands. And I love them. They're like a brother to me, too. And I just. I love them as a whole. I'm like, you guys are perfect. Clearly made for each other by God. And I've seen that for other people. But for me, I'm like. I felt like I was always like, I hope I can experience it, you know, it's not that I didn't have faith, but I think, like, I know Some of my girls listening right now can relate to this, where it's like, you have faith and hope, but you're kind of like, you have. You haven't seen it yet. You know, you haven't really seen the proof. I think that sometimes God puts people into our lives to encourage us. Maybe it's not always your partner, but it's like God wants to show you something in it. And I believe that he wanted to show him something in it too. It wasn't just for me. Like, that's the type of God God is. Is. He wants both his children to receive from a situation. It's not just. It wasn't just about me. Like, I know that there also was fruit for him too. So that was another lesson that I learned in it. It was like, dang, okay, so this really is the standard, though. Like, this is actually what I deserve. And if any other guy comes around that's just not willing to do these things, then it's definitely not it. You know, I think the other thing is that the experience actually gave me a lot more clarity as to who my husband is. Like, I feel like God spoke to me more about just my husband and, like, who. Who he's gonna be. And lastly, I just. I want to encourage anyone who might be in a situation of being like, but what if there aren't any more godly men like this? I think that the temptation that could have happened in this is like, okay, I didn't have total peace. We didn't have total peace, but we did have some peace. But we didn't have total peace. And for some reason, it wasn't fully clicking. I think in a lot of scenarios, we can ignore that feeling and think, okay, but like, he's literally incredible. Or like, okay, she's. But she's great. Like, there's nothing wrong. She hasn't said anything wrong. You know, he hasn't said anything wrong. They haven't done anything wrong. But for some reason, it's just not clicking. Like, God, I don't get that. And I don't want to just throw it away. Sometimes it can feel kind of superficial, where you're like, seriously, like, okay, so what if blank isn't clicking? Everything else is clicking. I just think that we can really, like, guilt trip ourselves to be like, well, that's just silly. Like, this person is awesome, you know, and they love God so much, and they're respectful and they're kind, and they're nice to everyone around them, and they're great with my family, you know, like, Whatever that is. But something in your gut, something deep down in your tummy is like, but why is it not fitting completely? You know, it's kind of like when you're trying to fit a puzzle piece and it's like almost, but it's not perfect. It's like we could either, I guess just leave it, but then the rest of the puzzle isn't going to be able to put together. But whatever. It's like we could either leave it or we could just trust God. The person who's supposed to perfectly fit into our puzzle piece exists. And I think that is like really big faith, because we could probably just settle. And settling isn't always like you're settling if you're going for the worst person ever. It's like, no, sometimes settling can look like being with a really great person, but for some reason it doesn't feel like your heart was made for them and their heart was liter made for yours. You know, and maybe not everyone will agree with that, but I genuinely believe that God has had a plan for my life and knew who my husband was going to be the minute I was born. There are some Christians who don't believe this, and I will respect that. But this is just, personally what I believe in and this is what I feel the Lord has told me is like, there is a man, there is a one man that God has intended for me to be with. And granted, there is free will. There is free will. So if I wanted to, I could marry a different guy. But I'm going to take my free will by submitting it to the will of God. And I'm just going to follow that voice because I just don't want to do anything outside of the will of God. I don't. I don't want to do things out of fear. I don't want to do things out of flesh. And so if this is something that you're actively walking through or it's a temptation of yours, the Lord might have had me talk. I don't know if I wanted to even talk about this, but I felt the Lord be like, no, there's someone listening that really needs to be encouraged in this. I promise you that that person is not the last godly, good, God fearing person on the planet. And you cannot let that fear dictate the plans that God could potentially have for you. If it doesn't feel right, like 100% right, it's probably because God has someone else for both of y'all. It's not even just about you. It's like, he has someone else for both of you guys. Yeah, I'm just like, that was the. That was another thing where I was like, okay, God, I'm just going to step out in obedience and trust. And it was especially tempting for me because I'm like, dang, I've never experienced this type of treatment before. And so I feel like because of that, it could be tempting for me to be like, I'm too scared, like, I don't want to move on, and kind of go back to square one. Because what if, what if? There's always that what if? That was the only one I heard a quote through a friend who had heard a quote from another person. So I don't know who said this originally, but the quote goes along the lines of any question that could start with what if? Like, it kind of starts with, yeah, like, doubt, I guess. But what if this. You know, like, that's kind of the tone of it where it's like, yeah, but what if. But what if you're wrong? Like, you know, it's not from God. It's definitely potentially and mostly from the enemy or your flesh, I guess, but it's not from God. So if the thing that's going through your mind is, but what if there isn't another person. Honey, that ain't the Lord's voice. It's not the Lord's voice, and it's giving lack of faith. We need to believe that God is sovereign and that he can do whatever he wants. And if there is another person for you, you have to believe that God's going to make it happen. Like, you're not going to be doing that out of your own power. That's going to be something that God does, and it's going to be something that you're going to have to surrender at his feet and you cannot control. And believe it or not, that type of surrender and trust and faith in God is actually going to give you more. It's going to give you more. It's like, you know how people say in business that, like, it takes investing in your business to grow it. You know, it takes investing in your relationship with God by giving him faith. Like, let's say that that's the investment. That's the money you're putting down is like, okay, God, here's my faith. I'm gonna invest this faith in you so that you can have more, like, abundantly more by laying that down at the feet of God for Him to give more, more faith and also bigger blessings, just bigger blessings. And Promises. Could there be fruit in that relationship? If you just said, no, I like this one for sure. I'm not saying that it's gonna, like, you guys are gonna get divorced and it's gonna crash and burn. Like, yeah, I'm sure that there would be fruit. But potentially and probably God had more for you. And I guess that could even be outside of relationships. That could be careers, that could be following your dreams that the Lord has planted in your heart. You know, like, those types of things. It's like, yeah, we have free will. We do. And God will still bless your life. It's not that God is just gonna be like, oh, my hand is off their life, and I'm never gonna bless them again. But it's like, but God could have actually had more for you. He could have actually had more for you and potentially even for that person. So, anyway, I share all of that to hopefully give somebody more faith. We are in this together, and sometimes you have to make decisions that feel really, really scary for the sake of just having faith and obedience to the Lord. But, yeah, and I'm grateful for the experience. Like, truly, truly grateful for the experience. Well, I love you guys. Thanks for being here. Thanks for listening to this episode. It was a bit more casual. It was kind of giving life updates. I hope it was fun. Yeah, I love y'all. I'm so proud of you. And happy Friday, by the way. Happy Friday. I hope you guys have a great weekend. And, hey, guys, can we do something cool today? Can we show somebody how cool Jesus is? We're going to walk like him, we're going to talk like him. We're going to trust the Lord as Jesus does. And, yeah, I love you guys. I'm proud of y'all. 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