Ally Yost (1:15)
Visit T mobile.com hello, everybody. Welcome to another episode of Christ with Coffee on Ice. I am your host, Ellie Yost. It is a joy and honor to be here with you guys today. Happy Friday, everybody. Happy Friday. Thank you so much, so much for being here today. If you are a new listener. Hi, welcome. My name is Ally. I am your host and I am truly so grateful that you are here today. I feel like I should say that because I don't typically, like, I don't pay. I try not to. Let me just say, I try not to. I'm not perfect at this, but I really do my best to not focus too much on numbers. You know, we've talked about this on the podcast, probably, but I was going through my notes in my phone and I had realized I was. I had written down, like, the amount of subscribers that Christ with Coffee with. Okay? Christ with Coffee on Ice had. I recognized that this podcast, like the name of this podcast is a tongue twister. Like, anytime. I'm introducing it and I'm introducing it, but like People are like, what do you do? And I'm like, oh, I have this podcast. They're like, what's it called? And I'm like, christ with coffee. What? Christ with coffee. It's just like, Christ with coffee on ice is such a mouthful. Anyway, even like, even it abbreviated. Cwcy. Tongue is tied. Tongue is tied. Anyway, what was I saying? Where are we? Who am I? What's going on? Like, truly. Actually, what was I saying? Anyway, I had written it down somewhere of how many subscribers we had on YouTube alone. And we've gained quite a bit since I made that note. And that note was like I don't know, a couple months ago. And we've gained quite a bit, which I didn't even realize. So I say that not to boast in myself, but to boast only in the Lord. God is good and I am just so grateful that so many people are hungry for him. I saw something today. I don't know, I'm quite gullible and I'll believe anything, but I do believe this is real and I believe this is true. I saw that 2 million Bibles in the month of October alone were sold, which is like outrageous. So God is on the move. He's waking up the world. People are hungry for the truth. Thank you, Jesus, that you are the way, truth and life. And so, yeah, I'm just so grateful that people are coming to the truth of who Jesus is and realizing that when people say he's like, truly so good, it's not out of a place of slavery. It's not out of. Out of a place of being scared into it. Like, it's truly the truth. Like, Jesus is actually genuinely the coolest person I've ever known in my life. And I was even I was sitting with him this morning and which I'm about to. We're going to dive into that. But I. I have something on my heart that I'd love to share with you guys. And this might be kind of just more of like a chatty episode rather than giving like sermon energy. I know we can kind of bounce around where sometimes my messages feel like very note taking. And I don't know, there could still be notes from this one, but I would really love to just testify and, and share with you guys what I personally have been kind of walking through and confess some things because, you know, I'm not perfect. And I think that through my confession and through my honesty, it will help people also feel seen and maybe relieve you of your own shame and guilt, knowing that like, even People like I. Plenty of people listening also will relate to this. We'll jump into it in a second. But I was spending time with Jesus this morning, and I was saying that to him. I was like, God, you're the coolest. Like, actually the most genuine, humble, loving man I've ever met in my life. And you will always be the most. Like, nobody compares to Jesus. He's it. Like when God says, I am. What was I reading? I was reading Exodus and Moses was like, at the burning bush. I haven't even really touched the Old Testament in months, which I am ashamed to admit, but it's the truth. I think it's really easy to just stay in the New Testament because it's less intimidating in the Old Testament, sometimes is a little scary. And just like, there's a lot, you know, I just love reading about the direct story of Jesus. Even though Jesus is sprinkled through. I mean, Jesus is prophesied and pointed to through the entire Old Testament. So it's not that Jesus isn't in the Old Testament, but I love reading the stories where it's like Jesus physically spoke, you know? Anyway, but I'm reading Exodus and Moses encounters this burning bush. I want to read this. Can we. Can I read this to you guys really quick? I just love this. This is Exodus 3. One day, Moses was tending the flock of his father in law, Jethro, the priest of Medan. He led the flock far into the wilderness and came to Sinai, the mountain of God. There, the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a blazing fire from the middle of a bush, and Moses stared in amazement. Though the bush was engulfed in flames, it didn't burn up. This is amazing. Moses said to himself, why isn't that bush burning up? I must go see it. When the Lord saw Moses coming to take a closer look, God called to him from the middle of the bush. Moses, Moses. Here I am. Moses replied, do not come any closer. The Lord warned, take off your sandals, for you are standing on holy ground. I am the God of your father, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob. When Moses heard this, he covered his face because he was afraid to look at God. Then the Lord told him, I have certainly seen the oppression of my people in Egypt. I have heard their cries of distress because of their harsh slave drivers. Yes, I am aware of their suffering. So I have come down to rescue them from the power of the Egyptians and lead them out of Egypt into their own fertile and spacious land. It is a land flowing with milk. And honey, the land where the Canaanites, Hittites, Amorite, Priestites, Hivites and Jebusites now live. Ali botched that. Okay, look. The cry of the people of Israel have reached me. And I have seen how harshly the Egyptians abused them. Now go, for I am sending you to Pharaoh. You must lead my people Israel out of Egypt. But Moses protested to God, who am I to appear before Pharaoh? Who am I to lead the people of Israel out of Egypt? God answered, I will be with you. And this is your sign that I am the one who has sent you. When you have brought the people out of Egypt, you will worship God at this very mountain. But Moses protested, If I go to the people of Israel and tell them the God of your ancestors has sent me to you, they will ask me, what is his name? Then what should I tell them? God replied to Moses, I am who I am. Say this to the people of Israel, I am. Has sent me to you. God also said to Moses, say this to the people of Israel. Yahweh, the God of your ancestors, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, the God of Jacob, has sent me to you. This is my eternal name, My name to remember for all generations. I bring that scripture up because he is. Jesus is. God is. I am who I am. Say to the people of Israel, I am. Has sent me to you. So as I was reflecting in my. In my quiet time with Jesus, I was like, you are. And that's it. Like, that's actually it. That's the end of the sentence. Period. Blank. He is the most genuine. He is the most faithful. He is the most humble. He is the most forgiving. He is the most patient. He is the most loving. He is the most providing. He is above all, like. He reigns over everything. He is. There is no other. It's just Him. Anyway, that's what I was feeling today. I was like, you are. And I will never meet anyone else. That's it. You are. Okay, guys. Welcome to the. Welcome to the episode. We have our Christ. Yes, we do. We have our Christ. We have our Word of God right here. We have our John1.1, which is that in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with the God. And the Word was God. And it was made into flesh. Jesus Christ himself was the Word in flesh. So we have Christ. We have our Christ, and we have our coffee on ice right here. And I did some fun little cold foam that I made by myself, and it's completely deflated. It doesn't really look like cold foam anymore, but I can promise you that this coffee is still on ice. It is not watered down, and I love her for a little ASMR moment. Guys, remember when we had our intro? I used to have an intro. Not me being like, hello, welcome to another episode. Like, I had, like, an intro song, and, like, the Sound of Ice was in it. And it just brought me back for a sec. All right, everybody, are we ready to get into it? Let's get into it. Well, okay. Confession. Confession. So this is. This is. Okay. This is what I've been feeling and going through and also slacking in. And I don't. It's just what we do. Okay? It's not an excuse, but I just want you guys to know that there is. There's also no exempt for me, like, either when it comes to these things. I'm not exempted from these struggles or my own laziness or selfishness or excuses of, like, that I'm too busy or whatever. But as of late, I have not been the best about staying locked in with Jesus. And that's just the truth. Like, I obviously, like, I pray. I literally talk to him if people from the outside, like, I can only imagine what strangers think of me, because I truly. It's probably giving schizophrenia. Like, I do talk to Jesus 24:7 all the time, probably more than I should, but I don't care. It's kind of giving. When Paul was like, I wish all of you guys spoke in tongues as much as I did. Like, that's what it's kind of giving right now, where I'm like, I wish all of you guys talked to Jesus as much as I do. I'm not bragging. That's not what I'm trying to do. But, like, I genuinely talk to him all the time. I will say, though, that I haven't been the best about being in the secret place. I have truly just been, like, putting other things above that, like, sleeping in. And then when I sleep in, I don't have time anymore because I have everything else that I need to get to. And that is, like, I'm so sick and tired of that being a broken record in my life where I go through phases of that. And then I. I feel like I get the Lord's, like, shepherd staff where he kind of, like, whips me back into shape and reminds me, like, hey, we're going off course a little bit. Gotta come back. Like, I'm literally just a sheep. Ugh, I'm such a sheep. Okay, anyway. You know what I mean, though? It's like, And I'm so sick of doing that, like falling out of it, being locked in, falling out of it again. Like, why do I do that? But I do. And I start to prioritize other things or I start. It's not even that. It's just that I think I get so comfortable in how like so solid I'll feel in Jesus. Does anyone relate to this where like I'll be in such a healthy routine and I will feel so healthy spiritually, physically, mentally. Like, you know the seasons when you're like so locked in with Jesus and you're just honestly like, I'm not saying that your life is perfect, but you're like spiritually fed, you're healthy, right? I think it's really easy when you get to those places of feeling so full to like let a couple days go where you're like, I've been so fed. Like, I think it's okay if maybe I just, I'll just sleep in a little bit today, you know, and then it just, it really becomes a slippery slope. Like you, you give yourself an inch and then all of a sudden you've taken a whole mile. And so that's truly what I have sucked at lately. Like this last like week and a half, two weeks, but also low key month. Like if I'm being so honest with myself, I think like, like this last month and I was using the move as an excuse and you know, being exhausted from that and like working and having all these deadlines and doing all these things and personal life stuff, like being there for other people and like serving others, like all of it is truly, it does come from a heart posture of wanting to do what's best, but, but I'm still neglecting what's most important, which is, which is being locked in with Jesus. You know what I mean? So that's just the truth. And I think how I know that I'm not locked in enough with Jesus, how I know that I'm not being spiritually fed enough or I'm not allowing myself to let the Holy Spirit like really pour into me and let the presence of Jesus fill me and convict me and like just allow myself to get into a space of repentance. And just like getting back to what truly matters is I know that I'm not doing all of those things. I'm not in a good place spiritually when I start acting in certain ways or like certain things start to flood my mind. And I'm going to tell you what that is, I think a huge indicator for me Specifically. And I think a lot of us can relate to this. Ways that I know that I am. I'm going a little off course, and I'm not. I'm not locked in with Jesus. And I'm not the best version of myself spiritually, mentally, which then leaks into physically. I start having a lot of fear of man. Like, I feel restrained and it creeps up on me. It's so crazy. Like, it's not even that. It's just an overnight thing where all of a sudden it's like, it truly is like an inch that slowly turns into a mile. Fear of man is my thing that will just creep up. And I am start. And I don't even realize it. That's how sneaky all of this stuff is. I don't even realize that I'm thinking this way until it gets so bad where I'm like, I'm starting to feel really anxious and I'm starting to feel like, literally, Peter drowning in the water after he stepped out of the boat. Like, then it's like, oh, I'm not okay. Jesus, help, I'm drowning. Oops, I took my eyes off of you, you know? But fear of man goes crazy for me. And I. And I think that the times that I am not being responsible enough and like, taking that extra time to. To be with Jesus and to read the word of God.