ANNOUNCING: Dark Valley

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Dark Downeast: ANNOUNCING: Dark Valley – Episode Summary

Introduction to Dark Valley

In the latest episode of Dark Downeast titled "ANNOUNCING: Dark Valley," host Kylie Lowe introduces listeners to a new investigative series set in the heart of New England. Dark Valley delves into the chilling cases surrounding the Connecticut River Valley Killer, a serial offender responsible for the murders of at least eight women between 1978 and 1988. This series focuses on deeply human stories, aiming to bring justice and remembrance to victims whose cases have remained unsolved for decades.

Unveiling the Connecticut River Valley Killer

Kylie Lowe begins by setting the scene in the picturesque Connecticut River Valley, an area traditionally known for its serene landscapes and productive farmland. However, the tranquility was shattered in 1978 with the brutal murder of Kathy Milliken, a 26-year-old avid birder. Her case remained a solitary instance of violence until the late 1980s, when a series of similar brutal attacks began to emerge, all seemingly connected by their vicious nature and the vulnerability of the victims.

Jane Borowski’s Harrowing Survival

The episode shifts focus to Jane Borowski, the sole known survivor of the Valley Killer's reign of terror. On August 6th, 1988, Jane, then seven months pregnant, was violently attacked in her prized white Pontiac Firebird at Gamarlo's Market in Keene, New Hampshire. As Jennifer Amell narrates, Jane faced a harrowing ordeal where she was stabbed multiple times while defending herself and her unborn child. Miraculously, she survived the attack but carried the scars—both physical and emotional—of that night.

Interview with Jane Borowski [08:04 – 37:51]

Jane and Jennifer meet in a modest motel in Keene, where Jane’s resilience and candidness shine through. Jane recounts her childhood, her move to Hinsdale, New Hampshire, and the life she built there with her husband, Dennis. Despite the trauma, Jane remains a strong, warm individual determined to uncover the truth behind her attack and the other unsolved cases.

Key Quotes:

• Jane Borowski [08:04]: "My name is Jane Borowski. I survived. And I remember everything."
• Jane Borowski [32:42]: "Nobody has really told the real story of the Connecticut River Valley murders. Nobody has told my story in a correct way."

Connecting the Dots: The Serial Murderer’s Profile

Jennifer introduces Dr. John Philpin, a respected forensic psychologist instrumental in developing the profile of the Valley Killer, Gary Schaefer, who was eventually caught for a series of child murders but not directly linked to Kathy Milliken’s case. Dr. Philpin shares insights into his reluctance to embrace the 'profiler' label and his unique approach to psychological analysis.

Key Quotes:

• Dr. John Philpin [16:02]: "The FBI essentially took off from that concept and marketed the word. I was starting my work right about the same time they were."
• Dr. John Philpin [17:44]: "We've all learned the lesson that they can and they do and often, repeatedly."

The Investigation’s Challenges

The series highlights the complexities and frustrations inherent in long-term cold cases. Jane expresses her survivor’s guilt and relentless pursuit of answers, questioning why she survived while others did not. The investigation spans over three decades, marked by shifting priorities, fading memories, and the daunting task of connecting disparate cases across generations of investigators.

Key Quotes:

• Jane Borowski [36:03]: "I have so many questions still, even, I mean, it's been 33 years and I still have so many questions."
• Jennifer Amell [29:04]: "Stories are important. Stories can change minds, change culture and policy, can change lives."

Emotional and Ethical Dimensions

Jennifer emphasizes the ethical storytelling approach of Dark Valley, focusing on honoring the victims and providing a voice to those left behind. The narrative underscores the emotional toll on Jane and the families of the victims, highlighting themes of memory, justice, and the human spirit's resilience.

Conclusion and Call to Action

The episode concludes with a poignant reflection on the importance of remembering the victims beyond their untimely deaths. Jennifer and Jane commit to unearthing the truth and ensuring that these women are not forgotten. Listeners are encouraged to engage with the series, share information, and support ongoing investigations.

Notable Ending Quote:

• Jennifer Amell [37:51]: "Stories are important. Stories can change minds, change culture and policy, can change lives."

Final Thoughts

ANNOUNCING: Dark Valley serves as a compelling introduction to a deeply investigative and heartfelt true crime series. By intertwining personal testimonies with expert insights, Dark Valley aims to shed light on a dark chapter of New England's history, seeking justice for those who were silenced too soon. For those fascinated by true crime and dedicated to uncovering hidden truths, this series promises an immersive and emotionally charged journey.

Transcript

[Kylie Lowe]

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[Kylie Lowe]

Hey Dark Down Easters. I know that if you're here, you are ready to hear the untold stories of New England. And if you've listened to Dark down east for long, then you know how important it is to me to center these stories on the people at the heart of them. Their families, their communities, their lives. That's why I want to introduce you to another series I know you'll connect with as much as I have. It's called Dark Valley. Like Dark Down East, Dark Valley takes place right in my home of New England. And for this series, the focus is on the borderland of Vermont and New Hampshire where host Jennifer Amell takes you deep into a case that deserves to be heard. It's thoughtful, human centered storytelling that never loses sight of the people behind the headlines. I think that you'll enjoy this series so much that I want to share the first episode with you right here. But don't worry, the entire series is out for you to listen to now. So if you're ready for your next immersive true crime experience, listen to Dark Valley.

[Jennifer Amell]

Hi, I'm Jennifer Amell, Host of Dark Valley. Thank you for joining me on this journey as we dig deeper into this case and into the stories of those most impacted. If you're finding yourself drawn into the story and want the best listening experience, I invite you to join the Crime Junkie Fan Club for ad free access to Dark Valley plus early and ad free episodes of Crime Junkie, the 1 true crime podcast along with additional exclusive content from across the audiotruck network. To learn more and to join, visit crimejunkiepodcast.com fanclub. Your support means the world it's August 6th, 1988, and this is the night it all ended. It's getting late and all Jane Borowski wants is a cold drink. Yet the vendors at the Cheshire Fairground had closed for the evening. Jane is only 22 years old but seven months pregnant and uncomfortable in the sticky heat of late summer. She finds her car parked in a field, a white Pontiac Firebird. Her boyfriend Dennis had bought it for her, and Jane loves her car. She thinks it's the best present anyone's ever given her. As she drives from Keene toward Swansea in central New Hampshire, Jane turns up the radio. Jane spots the fluorescent glow of Gamarlo's Market. The store's closed, but Jane knows there's a vending machine outside, so she pulls into the parking lot, digs around for some change, and purchases a soda. As she settles back into her Firebird and takes a sip, Jane notices a pair of headlights cut through the night. An older model Jeep Wagoneer pulls into Gamarlo's parking lot and parks right next to Jane on her passenger side. She pays it little mind, but strangely the man gets out of his truck and instead of walking toward the vending machine or the payphone, he crosses behind Jane's car and comes to her window and leans down. Is the payphone working? He asks, but before Jane can answer, he opens her car door. He tries to pull her out. Jane struggles fiercely against him and somehow kicks upward as hard as she can. Her windshield shatters. The man leans into the car and presses a knife against her throat, its blade cool against her skin. Jane eases herself out of her car. You beat up my girlfriend, he says. Bizarrely, Jane's confused. She never beat up anyone's girlfriend and says as much. Aren't these Massachusetts plates? He asks. Jane shakes her head as she walks to the back of her car and looks at her New Hampshire plates. Then he turns around. It makes as if he's going back to his own car. Jane can't believe it. Relief floods through her. But then she looks at her prized Firebird and here's the thing you need to know about Jane. She's a fighter and she's not going to take anyone's bullshit. Hey asshole, she calls to him. What about my windshield? The man stalks back to Jane and threatens her with the knife again. Miraculously, Jane sees another car coming down the road and sees her chance. She breaks away, running toward the road, screaming wildly for help. But the car doesn't stop, doesn't see her, doesn't hear her. And then Jane is hit like a truck from behind. As the man takes her to the ground, he straddles Jane and her pregnant belly and sinks the knife into her body over and over and over again. And Jane fights not just for her own life, but for the life of her unborn baby. And just as suddenly as it all started, he stops. The man calmly gets up and walks back to his truck. He pulls up to where Jane still lays on the ground, and from the driver's window he stares down on the woman he had just stabbed 27 times. The blood begins to pool around her body. It's a long, cold stare. There's no expression, no feeling at all for what he'd just done. Then he guns the car out of the parking lot, leaving Jane Borowski to die alone, clutching her pregnant belly.

[Jane Borowski]

My name is Jane Borowski. I survived. And I remember everything.

[Jennifer Amell]

From audiochuck this is Dark Valley an investigation into the Connecticut River Valley Killer. I'm Jennifer Amelling, and this is Episode one. I had no idea what to expect from Jane Borowski. I knew that her story of survival was incredible. Miraculous even. Her survival made her powerful somehow, stronger than the rest of us, larger than life itself. Jane and I finally meet in a rundown motel in Keene, New Hampshire, just miles from Gamarlo's store, where she was almost murdered 34 years ago. It's summer in New England, and the room is stuffy. All right, tell me your favorite joke.

[Jane Borowski]

My favorite joke is we set up a microphone on an ironing board.

[Jennifer Amell]

We are in a beautiful day's Inn.

[Jane Borowski]

With bedspreads that say, welcome, sunshine.

[Jennifer Amell]

It's such a happy place.

[Jane Borowski]

Okay.

[Jennifer Amell]

I mean, it seems to. The levels are good. Jane is, of course, a survivor, but she's also warm and quick to laugh. She lives modestly and gives freely. She loves her family. And she's also a spitfire and sassy as hell. She smokes cigarettes with her arms crossed and blows smoke from the corner of her mouth. But more than anything, Jane is honest. She would say it took a lot to be so open that she had to go through many dark years overshadowed by that night in August of 1988. But here she is in this shitty motel room wearing a hot pink T shirt and smiling so wide that it makes her eyes even bluer.

[Jane Borowski]

You got that smile on your face.

[Jennifer Amell]

Oh, I'm smiling because I'm excited to ask this question because I. Oh, what's that? I want to know about your childhood.

[Jane Borowski]

Oh, my childhood. Well, my parents divorced when I was very young. We lived in Massachusetts. My dad lived in Hinsdale, New Hampshire, where I live now. And I saw my dad probably two or three times a year. We'd come up for school vacations and spend the week with him, and my mom moved us around a lot. When I turned 18, I decided to go to Hinsdale to visit my dad and spend more time with my dad. And I had some really good friends that lived in Hinsdale. So I stayed with one of my good friends that summer, and I ended up meeting Dennis. And so my visit turned into, I still live in Hinsdale 36 years later.

[Jennifer Amell]

I don't believe you. It's beautiful here.

[Jane Borowski]

Yeah, it is.

[John Philpin]

A playground where steep mountains stand on end, beside roads that are ideal for riding, where golf courses are surrounded by a countryside famed in song and story.

[Jennifer Amell]

If it weren't for the tragedies that happened here, I'd say the Connecticut River Valley is almost idyllic. We're technically in the upper valley, the borderland between New Hampshire and Vermont, which is bisected by the Connecticut River. The river is wide and blue, and there's so many bridges that stretch across to connect the small towns. In the summer, the valley is so lush that I have a hard time naming that many shades of green. In fact, this land is fertile. It's the Northeast's most productive farmland. Jane's husband, Dennis, comes from a farming family himself, and now they live together on that land that they've worked for generations. Winters, on the other hand, are harsh. But the people here take pride in weathering the Cold. It kind of makes them who they are. The roads that weave through the valley are full of potholes from harsh winters and sometimes unpaved the further you get from the interstate. Before the 1970s, country life moved at an expected pace, measured out by the growing seasons and the snow seasons. Planting rye or tapping the maples to sugar. Before the construction of the interstate highways, the valley was isolated. By 1978, Interstate 91 was completed, and the Connecticut River Valley changed forever. The highway made it easier to get to the valley, and it, of course, sparked the valley's tourism economy, but also brought new types of people and with them, new types of crime. There's a definitive date you can point to when the valley became, and pardon the cheap illusion, darker. Kathy Milliken was only 26 in 1978. She was an avid birder, meaning someone who enjoys nature by donning a pair of Wellingtons and binoculars and going out to observe and catalog different species of birds. Kathy had long auburn hair with pale skin and a thin face. Kathy worked for a local publishing company in Wilmot, New Hampshire, which is about 45 minutes east of the Connecticut River. On October 24, 1978, Kathy ventured out into the Chandler Brook Wetland preserve in nearby New London. She had gone there to spot a particular kind of bird in the nature preserve. As Kathy was innocently scanning the skies and treetops, someone was also watching her. Kathy never made it home that evening. The next day, her body was discovered only yards from the trail. She had been stabbed over 20 times with wounds to her upper chest and neck. It was a vicious attack, but sloppy. The assailant didn't take any pains to hide or remove the body. Kathy was left where she was killed. Killed. Around the time of Kathy's murder, there were also a rash of child murders in the Upper Valley. And this was right around the time that the FBI started their behavioral analysis unit that ultimately gave birth to the field of criminal profiling. Enter Dr. John Philpin, a man I have come to deeply respect. John is a forensic psychologist, and he was instrumental in. In developing the profile of the man who had committed all these child murders. Law enforcement credits John with helping catch that serial killer, Gary Schaefer. But John kind of disagrees with the whole approach that the FBI takes. As I got to know him, he's an old school hippie kind of guy. He's got a long white beard, looks a little bit like Gandalf, and is just as wise. That said, John is very protective of Jane and deeply distrustful of true crime. All told, it Took about a year for me to win his trust and actually get him on tape.

[John Philpin]

My name is John Philpin. First of all, I want to say that from day one, I have loathed the title of profiler. I don't think that's what I do at all. The FBI essentially took off from that concept and marketed the word. I was starting my work right about the same time they were. That was when I decided that I had to come up with my own approach again. That I used to play with my office manager. She would be reading some newspaper article of some atrocity and I would tell her, if they catch this guy, this is what he's going to be like. But she would write down what I said and kind of tuck it away. And then if the guy was caught, she'd whip it back out. We'd look at it and more often than not, I was right on the money then. Right about that time, we had a local murder. My office was in Springfield, Vermont. We had a local murder, Theresa Fenton. It was a brutal homicide. But my office manager's reaction was how can these things happen around here? Which is a common enough reaction. Things like this can't happen here. Well, we've all learned the lesson that they can and they do and often, repeatedly.

[Kylie Lowe]

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[Jane Borowski]

I had just gotten out of the hospital and of course everybody around me was like. Like when I was in the hospital, they didn't want me to see the news because I was on the news. They didn't want the newspapers to be brought into my room. I happened to be reading the newspaper and I saw that it was article about me. I think it was something like the headline was something like Stabbing Victim Released from Hospital or whatever.

[Jennifer Amell]

I have to interrupt Jane here for a little sidebar story. One day Jane and I ventured to the library to do some archival research together.

[Jane Borowski]

But it didn't take long. Oh yeah, this Is the one. I think this was the very first article I read.

[Jennifer Amell]

Yep.

[Jane Borowski]

This was when I was released. That's the one I saw.

[Jennifer Amell]

Okay, can you read the title?

[Jane Borowski]

It says, stabbing victim is released from Keene Hospital. It had said something about maybe connected to the Connecticut River Valley Serial Killer. And it was like, connecticut River Valley Serial Killer. And then I started reading, and they had a brief description of each victim. And I just. I couldn't believe my eyes. I was like, are you kidding me? I had a hard time processing this. I'm reading in the paper, you know, Ellen Freed. She went missing this date, and then they found her remains on this date. And then each one I read it wasn't. And none of them were survivors. It was. They were all murdered.

[Jennifer Amell]

Jane's attacker didn't start with her. Maybe he started with Kathy Milligan. Maybe he started elsewhere with some other unknown woman. But Jane's thought to be the only survivor of a serial killer who prowled the Connecticut river Valley between 1978 and 1988 and killed at least eight other women. He's known as the Connecticut River Valley Killer. And up until this point, the women he killed have only been known by their brutal deaths. The Valley Killer has never been caught, and Jane's attack, along with the murders of these eight women, remain unsolved to this day. Since Jane's attack In August of 1988, no other murder or attack in this area has been linked to the same man. By the mid-80s, New Hampshire and Vermont had kind of caught on to the fact that they had yet another serial killer. They formed a task force. And then when Jane was attacked in 1988, the New Hampshire State Police. Police decided to have Dr. Philpin clinically hypnotize her in hopes of recovering more details of her attack.

[John Philpin]

I was suspending my own senses of logic, morality, and bringing him into my mind and being him as often as I needed to be. There was only one time that I confronted that. It was pretty terrifying, But I was aware of what had happened, had been filled in on all the details, because there was a feeling that Jane's case might be tied to some of the other cases that had been happening in the valley. When Jane came in, she was nervous. Of course, it was something she agreed to do, but at the same time, it was a little scary. I assume when she came to the office the first time, she was a very sweet person, as you well know. She came in and was a little nervous and sat down, and we just chatted. At first, the main thing I wanted to do was a reassurance kind of thing so that she could feel like it was okay to be where she was. Then I explained the process to her. Somewhere along the way in there, I noticed the scars on her throat. And I remember thinking, you know, how did this nice young woman get those horrible scars on her throat? And what hit me was, I did it. The little bit that I had spent thinking about the case involved bringing the carp into my head. And I think by that time, I'd already been down to the market one time and scared the crap out of somebody who was getting a soda at midnight. But that was what hit me. You know, I did it, and it was like I had to snap out of it, believing, you know, that I had done it. And for that whole week, until I saw her again, I had nightmares, disturbed sleep, headaches. It was probably the most profound and negative reaction that I had in all the years that I was doing this. And it was mainly because I was me and I wanted to help, but I was also the bad guy. And that was one of the liabilities that I learned at that time of bringing this fellow, whoever he happened to be, whatever case it happened to be inside me instead of pretending that I was inside his head. It was a pretty horrible experience.

[Jennifer Amell]

So here's what we know. The Connecticut River Valley Killer's victims are believed to be connected by a few salient characteristics. The murders before Jane escalated in the 1980s and were relegated to the upper Connecticut river valley along the I91 corridor, with core cases situated near the town of Claremont, New Hampshire, off of Route 12. Each woman killed was in a vulnerable situation. Those whose remains were found early enough were killed by a frenzied and vicious attack. They were all stabbed with a small knife, usually in their upper chest with their necks cut. Nearly all suffered a severed jugular vein in their necks. Whether or not there's only one Valley killer, two or several Valley killers is hotly debated among the authorities and the locals to the area and the victims families alike.

[Jane Borowski]

You know, the detectives absolutely believe that whoever attacked me is the one that killed them.

[John Philpin]

It's hard to. Yeah, I mean, it's hard to know.

[Jennifer Amell]

What happens here, but, yeah, definitely. Yeah.

[John Philpin]

Hers had blood spray, and it sounded.

[Jennifer Amell]

Very like Jane's, you know, stabs, but going for the throat.

[John Philpin]

They were not forthcoming at all with us, the family, and like I said, the former police chief at the time, he believed that she had just taken off.

[Jennifer Amell]

Jane herself is not even wholly convinced that her attack is connected to those women in Claremont a mere 40 miles up the road. She strongly believes that it is, but it's important to say explicitly that it's not confirmed that all these cases were perpetrated by the same individual. So I began this project with all the gusto and enthusiasm of any true crime podcaster or investigative journalist. I wanted answers. I wanted to know who did it. I wanted justice for Jane and all the other women. But in getting to know Jane, I realized that this story is about something much more important. In fact, there's this, like, incredible moment in the library in Claremont where Jane and I were reading through the archives. It's become something of a touchstone for me. We were going on hour three in the stacks when the librarian came over to check on us.

[John Philpin]

So have you solved the murder yet?

[Jennifer Amell]

Pretty much.

[Jane Borowski]

Not doing it to solve it.

[Jennifer Amell]

You can probably hear my nervous laughter, and I think it's because I was just reminded of why we're doing all of this in the first place. It's not necessarily to punish someone or to seek vengeance. It's not even for some vague sense of justice. It's so that these women, these eight women, are remembered beyond the facts of their horrific deaths. And that may sound trite, but it's my earnest conviction. And I have Jane to thank for the constant reminders and bringing me back to center. So, will we solve a serial killer case? I don't know. Maybe we will. But maybe it's not the most important thing.

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[Jennifer Amell]

I wanted to kind of start and record why you decided to do this prep. Like, why now? Like, why did you say yes to me? Because you asked. Is it just because I asked?

[Jane Borowski]

No, it's because nobody has really. Nobody has really told the real story of the Connecticut River Valley murders. Nobody has told my story in a correct way.

[Jennifer Amell]

Jane, what's your mission with this?

[Jane Borowski]

You know, I was thinking about that the other night, and I was thinking, what do I expect to come from this, come out of this? And, I mean, the fact of the matter is, maybe we'll find answers to some unanswered questions that I have. We may find more questions. And, you know, I have a lot of questions. I want to be a voice for those victims. If I could talk to them today, I would tell them how sorry I am. I'm sorry that they passed away so young. I'm sorry that they had to experience such fear and terror before they passed. I'm sorry that monster's face is the last face they had to see before they passed away. And I'm sorry that their families had to. And have to endure so much pain with their loss. But sometimes it's hard for me to think that, my God, you know, I survived what they also endured. And it's hard sometimes. I ask myself all the time, why did I survive and they didn't? They call it survivor's guilt, and it is a very real thing. I don't know who these women were, but I know that they were doing the exact same thing I was doing before they were murdered. They were just living their lives.

[Jennifer Amell]

And what compelled you to want to find out about these other women?

[Jane Borowski]

I wanted to. I wanted. I. For myself, personally, I wanted to know, okay, what was the connection between them and me, their case and my case? I just felt like I just needed to know more about what happened to them, and I needed to know. I just wanted to know, how were they picked up? How were they abducted? Or when did they go missing? Or where did they go missing from and where were they found. And I just, for some reason, I just wanted to know what happened to them and how was it connected to what happened to me. I guess it was. I needed to confirm. I needed to confirm exactly, you know, the comparison between me and them, their case and my case.

[Jennifer Amell]

Do you think, to better understand what happened to you?

[Jane Borowski]

I don't know.

[Jennifer Amell]

I don't know.

[Jane Borowski]

I have so many questions still, even, I mean, it's been 33 years and I still have so many questions. You know, I know that there are questions I probably will never get answered. You know, somebody had asked me one time if they ever found out who did this to you, would you want to talk to him? Absolutely. Absolutely. I would love to sit down and ask him so many questions, you know, why did you do this to me? Did you follow me? Was I just a victim of opportunity? What happened to you in your life where you would want to go out and kill woman? Why? What happened to you in your life? Why you would want to stab attack and stab a pregnant woman knowing she's pregnant? What did you do after? Did you drive home and eat supper? Did you drive home and take a shower? Because I know you had blood on you. You know, were you scared that you were going to get caught? Were you watching the news after my attack? And were you aware at that time that I was still alive? Were you thinking about coming back and attacking me? Did you see me after that without me knowing? I mean, I have so many questions. So many questions.

[Jennifer Amell]

Stories are important. Stories can change minds, change culture and policy, can change lives. So I think what Jane is communicating is that through telling her own story and the stories of those other women, she wants some kind of change to occur. But it's a jumbled, confusing story. A 40 plus year investigation that's carried on in fits and starts. Over time, these cases have been shuffled from generation to generation of investigators, from agency to agency. Memories have faded, people have died. And the wilderness has reclaimed these soiled sites along the Connecticut river like it would any other dead thing. These women were strangers in life and who in death are connected in some kind of perverse galaxy. And here's Jane speaking like a woman possessed, trying to strain her ear beyond the veil and hear these women speaking. Kathy, Betsy, Bernice, Eva, Ellen, Linda, Heidi and Barbara. Jane and I traveled the roads these women were taken from. We tripped and crawled through the dense wilds where their bodies were abandoned. Tried to see these places through these women's eyes. Tried to imagine the fear and the fight. I've spoken to the families and friends of these women and learned that there are more ways to grieve than I ever imagined. Where do we even start? If we did have to change, choose a beginning, it would be with Kathy Milliken's 1978 murder. Her case had receded in public consciousness like a fading nightmare. That was until the late summer of 1981, when the body of a missing woman turned up in the woods of Unity, New Hampshire. Who was this woman and who had killed her? Next time on Dark Valley. Jane and I venture into the woods to investigate the Valley killer's second potential victim. And one small detail might break these cases wide open. If you have a tip for any of these cases, please call the New Hampshire State Police Cold case Unit at 603-271-2663 or the Vermont State Police Major Crimes Unit at 802-244-8781. Dark Valley was produced, written and edited by me, Jennifer Mill original theme song by Jennifer Peg show art by Pamela Robinson Want more Dark Valley? Go ahead and subscribe to Crime Junkie Fan Club and get exclusive access to bonus content. The link's in the show notes. Dark Valley is an Audio Chuck production. So what do you think Chuck? Do you approve? Your new beginning starts now. Dr. Horton has new construction homes available in Ellensburg and throughout the greater Seattle area. With spacious floor plans, flexible living spaces and home technology packages, you can enjoy more cozy moments and sweet memories in your beautiful new home. With new home communities opening in Ellensburg and throughout the Seattle area, Dr. Horton has the ideal home for you. Learn more@doctor Horton.com Dr. Horton, America's builder and equal housing opportunity Builder make your.

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