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And he went against God.
B
Yeah.
A
So basically, when that little girl. It's like when she was possessed, Reagan. And it wasn't. It wasn't a demon, it was the devil himself that possessed her. And he really fucked her up, right?
B
Yeah.
A
And she was shoving crosses up our cunt and everything. I was 8 years old when that movie came out.
B
All right, guys, Queen of Melrose in the building. We finally.
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Yes. Finally got to meet you after all this time we've been trying to make. We had a little cancellation for the fires. Now everything is copacetic. So, so glad to meet you.
B
How's everything settled down?
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You're very tall.
B
Yeah, six. Six.
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And you got good hair.
B
Do I.
A
Good hair. Don't care. Is that a perm or is it natural?
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Natural.
A
Wow.
B
Yeah.
A
So you're. What's your ethnicity, if you don't mind?
B
Chinese, half Irish and half Puerto Rican.
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I. I love it. That everything. Oh, my God. Good hair.
B
Afros are hard to pull off these days. Yeah.
A
You know, so I want you to do my one, maybe one of my Runway shows.
B
I'm down. You know, I'd have to check out the vibe.
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah. I'll let you know ahead of time.
B
You won't put me in anything crazy, though?
A
No, just like, maybe the G string and the cowboy boot. Oh, my God. No. I have beautiful fashion for men that you will actually wear and love.
B
It's a bucket list thing for me.
A
It's up to you, though, if you want to. There's like the. The PG version, and then there's like an R version. Yeah. And there's like a oh, my God, what is he wearing version.
B
That's the Kanye version.
A
That's the kind of. Yes, that's the naked. Yeah. Oh, yeah.
B
Did that surprise you?
A
Did you love her, though? She looked so.
B
She's not going to lie.
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Right. But did you see when she's out there? And I watched it on YouTube, so they didn't cut. They didn't bleep it out. They actually showed up, and I'm like, is that her pussy? Oh, my God. It's been a while since I saw a pussy. And then she's got a pretty pussy, but I didn't realize she was wearing a dress. Did you see how she was trying to pull down her dress? It was hilarious. So she's on the red carpet, meanwhile, the fucking dress is all mesh. Right. Why was she pulling it down? Like she was shy. Did you notice that? What are you pulling down, girl? You're, like, fudgeing Naked over here. Yeah. I thought it was hilarious.
B
Yeah.
A
She's trying to pull it down, like, what are you pulling? Down, girl. You're nude.
B
Yeah.
A
Hilarious.
B
I'm sure you've seen all sorts of outfits.
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All of it. Yeah.
B
Nothing surprises you.
A
Wax on, wax off. Yeah.
B
I don't even know what that means.
A
Okay. Did you see Karate Kid?
B
Yeah.
A
Remember when you were. You're a youngster. What are you, like 23?
B
28?
A
Oh, yeah. You look. If you're ed. She's still a baby.
B
Thank you.
A
I would buy you a drink for sure and give you a lap dance. But anyway, back to the interview. Yeah. What was we saying?
B
Karate Kid.
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Oh, yeah. Wax on, wax off. Gas. Yes. So how are things going? Good, good.
B
I can't complain.
A
Good.
B
Out here in L. A.
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You got your podcast. Podcast got a lot of followers.
B
Good.
A
Am I impress? Yeah.
B
The formula, man.
A
Congratulations.
B
I got the formula saying. Yeah.
A
You might have figured. Give me some pointers later. Okay.
B
You should be getting queen needs a lot of views. Yeah.
A
Okay. So excited. Thank you.
B
I'm surprised you're asking me. You got some big clients, man.
A
No, I do have. And I just started like last year, but, you know, and I'm very, very grateful. But the whole thing was just to get out there, I wanted soft white underbelly.
B
Yeah.
A
Okay. And then my friend, like, you need to go on software underbelly. And he's my sponsor in the AA program. So he goes. He's talking about Cosmo. Cosmo. Cosmo. So the guy Mark, that does soft white underbelly.
B
Yeah.
A
He says, well, I want to meet this Cosmo. So he called me and he goes, would you like to do my show? And I'm like, yeah. And then I saw why. Because my sponsor was saying, cosmo got me sober. I work for Cosmo. He taught me everything I knew in the shmata business. I've been on Melrose 30 years, so I didn't even see the interview. So, long story short, I go on the interview and I'm talking about my. He goes, well, what happened? You know? And usually everybody he interviews on that show is kind of like doom and gloom. There's no recovery. There's no sobriety. You know what I mean? It's usually just dark. So that's how my life was. It was very dark. But then I cut to the solution. Like a queen, like me, it's possible to get sober. You know, I was in the bushes. I was downtown la. I was smoking crack in the Cecil Hotel. You know what I mean? I was doing all those things and basically I came back from, you know, I came back from this drug addiction. Like basically I got sober, you know, and if I could do it, you could do it. You know what I mean? And it wasn't, it wasn't easy.
B
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You know, I was relapse, relapse, relapse, relapse, relapse. I got sober at 50.
B
Wow.
A
You know, but I've been in a for 20 years. So I got sober at the math on that. My first meeting was like 20 years ago.
B
Okay.
A
And like I got. We get two years and I would get three years sober. But then I would go out, just get worse and worse and worse. Never better, you know, I don't know if you ever read the book of Alcoholics Anonymous.
B
I haven't.
A
So the disease, there's no cure for what we have. There's a solution, you know, but there's no cure. Like, a doctor didn't come up with a pill and say, take this pill, you'll never drink and smoke crack again. But nothing exists. But the only thing that really works is a psychologist got together with a doctor and found out one hurt one. One addict talking to another addict. You can get sobriety that way. That's the solution. One person helping another person. So. And it grew into this big thing. And there's meetings all over a 24 hours a day. There's meetings from 5 in the morning till 12 o'clock midnight. And she got sober. So when I went on there with the solution, you know, with lashes on, looking fabulous, you know, and doing the whole thing looking like Farrah Fawcett. I was wearing some kind of Afghan, darling. And I got people coming to my store going, you know, I'm sober now. Queen, thank you so much. You know, I got three days. I got four days on my Instagram. Oh, my God. Queen. Thank you. So, like, if a queen like you could do it, you know, and it's also facing ageism too, you know, because I'm 61 years old. I'm still living my life, you know what I mean? I'm doing what I want to do, and I'm doing it queen and sober. We came up with a set of Clean and sober. Now it's Queen and sober. So that's kind of the gist of what happened. And then before you know it, I went to the. Oh, yeah. So I went viral with that. Because I went on there with the solution. It wasn't the gloom and doom, you know. And then I went to the Madonna concert the next day. Did you guys go see Madonna when.
B
She was here now?
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Okay. She's amazing. She is. You know, I remember seeing her years ago, 30 years ago. I see her now. She's a little crickety girl. Like, she can't, you Know sand, she's got a little poochie over here, but she's still Madonna, you know what I mean? So I went to the concert and there was like $80 for parking.
B
Damn.
A
And it was not only that, it was like you had to walk a mile.
B
Holy crap.
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There was no little cars taking you and whatever. Then we get to the front of the place and they're like, it's $40. You got to leave your purse there. You can only come in with a clear purse. So I was like, I had the. I don't know, they had the phones on me, my business part. And I said, fucking Madonna. I said, I need an oxygen tank and a cigarette over here. I just walked a mile. $80 for parking. Now I need a clear purse.
B
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A
That's great. Was the last time you worked in Macy's? You know, and I said, I know. I said something real crazy. And it's the next morning I wake up and everybody's calling me, like, on Twitter, you have 20 million views.
B
Geez.
A
And I'm like, what was it something I said? So anyway, and that's what started the ball rolling. So of course they have Eugenia, beautiful Eugenia over here. She's built like a Puerto Rican, as you could see from the Bronx, available. But anyway, I just thought, you know what I'm saying? She's like dynamo. So she's working on my store. And then since COVID and like all these things were happening on Melrose, the riots. Did you see on the news when they were burning down Melrose? Yeah, they're literally burning down all the stores. So they didn't touch my stores, but people were getting shot in the daytime. It was really bad. It was very, very bad. So nobody. All my money customers like for burning Man. You go to Burning Man?
B
I've never been.
A
We gotta go. We're gonna go. We're gonna go.
B
I've heard good.
A
I gotta dress you up. Yeah.
B
Burning Man.
A
Just wear a G string. It's all nude and fabulous.
B
I want to go and do the full experience there. I would probably do a little psychedelics if I went there.
A
Yeah, well, they have, like, the psychodelic camp. They have a sober camp. You got lap dances, you got whatever you want. Gay, straight, other. It's all there. Everybody gets along. There's not one fist fight. It's not one gang shooting. It's fabulous for like 15 years. So my business thrives off Burning man because I get people like all over the world, like Michelle Rodriguez, I got Puff Daddy. I got his whole camp coming in my store, shopping for clothes for Burning man. Because my clothes are very dramatic and, you know, everything is specifically made. You know, I designed 70% of it.
B
Wow.
A
But now I invite LA designers to come in that are very talented, and I give them a check, check every two weeks. And it helps, you know, the community, you know, so basically. But the store was doing really bad. And then the Burning Mans after Covid just got kind of worse and worse and worse. Like, then people aren't showing up like they should. So Eugene is like, you have to get on camera. She goes, because your personality and plus all this software underbelly and you just went viral in Madonna concert. And I'm like, Girl, I'm 61 years old. Girl, I got a belly now. Girl, I might have been have a little on the DL, a yeast infection. Okay. Damn, girl. All those things. I'm like, I don't want to get on camera. I didn't want to get on camera. She goes, you will. You got to save your store. She goes, and your personality will save. Right? So anyway, I got on camera and we started doing little blogs every day. And then we started doing podcasts, and we started doing. And then before you know it, I'm gonna cry. What the fuck? I got my period. Anyway, people started coming to the store, you know, and I had it for 30 years. And I thought I was gonna go to Palm Springs and retire. Why am I crying? Give me some Kleenex. Give me some Vagisil. Give me something.
B
You guys have this special bond together.
A
Oh, my God. She's. You don't understand.
B
That's hard to find, you know?
A
And she just like, I don't know. Yeah. So anyway, fans started coming to the store. We started doing this thing, and then Queen and sober and I'm almost actually helping people get sober. It's like a dream of mine because I'm like really a drunk and a crackhead and I came out here with a dream, but I found downtown la and unfortunately there's an underbelly there that could suck a lot of people up. You know what I mean? I've seen a lot of people die.
B
Damn.
A
And get addicted and they come out here to model and act and pursue their dream and it never happens. So I kind of get like the second chance in life, you know. So that's why I'm very grateful.
B
What a story.
A
Yeah. So anyway, so we're like, you know, and you know, she came through, you know, and she's a designer too. And she's like, let's just get you out there.
B
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And then every day with the camera, you know, so I was afraid to get on camera because I was overweight. I was going to retire in Palm Springs. Cut to now you can't get me off camera because like I just like, I don't know, I'm just like loving and living my life right now, you know, so cool. And, and then the fans are coming in and it's all like a full circle thing and I think my parents have a lot to do with it that aren't here anymore. But I feel like they're there, the energy's there, the spirits they're supporting. They're one of the best for me. I believe in that because I grew up really tough in Harlem with, you know, I grew up with the mobsters. My father was like, mobster, you know, And I grew up. It was really tough, you know, to be gay in Harlem, you know what I mean?
B
Especially in that lifestyle.
A
Oh, my God. You know, so we would have Bible study and my father would be like. They'd be like, you can't be gay. You can't set yourself. You know, it's like your homosexuality is off the list, Cosmo. And I'm here. I have 17 year olds. I'm like, well, the Bible also says, says the truth shall set you free. And I'm gay. And that's it, you know. So my father's like, what am I going to do with this kid? You know what I mean? And he didn't want to buy me the Barbie doll, but then he wind up buying me the Barbie doll instead of GI Joe. Long story short, I became a hairdresser. I became very successful, him letting me do what I wanted to do. And then he passed away 10 years ago with my mom, you know, because they couldn't live without each other. Same year he went, two years later, she went.
B
Wow.
A
Yeah, they were just like, together since they were 15. There was always love of my family, you know, we were always ate at 5:00, basically. Yes. There were FBI agents in my house. Like Goodfellas. They were in the yard. They would follow my father to school when he drove us, you know, Basically. Very exciting. You know, like some days my mother had main coats and we had best cars and we're eating filet mignon, you know. And then, you know, and then there's as. As a mob guy. There was some weeks where she had to go get food stamps.
B
Wow.
A
We had to hide the tv because in those days, you know, gr. Welfare, where you go welfare, you go get help. Like if you. If you're low income.
B
Yeah.
A
But they would come to your house. So if you had a tv, a colored tv or a nice car, it would cut your welfare. So we had to hide everything with the gold chains and shit, you know. So that's how I grew up. And it was normal.
B
That's crazy.
A
It was normal.
B
Well, the fact your dad made it that long in that lifestyle is impressive.
A
Yeah.
B
Most of those guys don't make it the full way.
A
No. What would happen was after the FBI was chasing him because there was The Lufthansa heist. You see Goodfellas.
B
Yeah.
A
When they robbed the plane, they got all the money. They tried to implicate my father in that. So he was going to court, and he thought it was going to go away for a very long time. And then the judge let my father go, found out that he wasn't implicated on it. Then he came out here. Did you hear my song? Move to la.
B
Oh, yeah, yeah.
A
So there's a whole thing. Moved to la. It's the meme from Soft White underbelly. And I tell my story. So anyway, my father got a job in the Palm Restaurant out here, and he's serving, like, so no more mob. He's like, fuck that. So then we all came out here one by one. There's four of us. I have a twin brother who's straight. He's the boy, I'm the girl. And then I have an older brother, and I have my sister Sophia, who's gorgeous, you know, and we're still very close. Long story short, my father had to get away from the mob, moved out here. My uncle worked in the Palm restaurant. He was a Jehovah's Witness. Because my grandmother, Catholic all these years, Catholic woman, going to church every Sunday, Italian. We had to pray before meals and stuff. You know, go to church. What happened was. You know how Jehovah's Witnesses come to your door?
B
Yeah, they knock door to door.
A
Well, they knocked on my grandmother's door, and I was 7 years old, and she was a devout Catholic, and she converted.
B
No way.
A
So now with Jehovah.
B
Holy crap. So that actually works on people?
A
It worked on her, yeah. It works on people. Yeah. They have an influence.
B
You know when they say that makes them.
A
I don't know. And I don't know what state of mind she was in from going from, like, Jesus Christ to Catholic to Jehovah. So now she's the matriarch of the family, my father's mother. So now we all have to try to be Jehovah's Witnesses. So now here I am, seven o'clock. No, seven years old. No birthday, no Christmas, no celebrations. You can't be gay. There's a thing. You can't touch yourself. You can't masturbate. And I'm like, We're like, we're fucked. First growing up in Harlem. This and that. First. So anyway, my mother's father tried to do it for the mother, but it didn't happen. But my Uncle Junior, who worked in the Palm restaurant out here in California, he's still a Jehovah's witness. He's 89 years old, living in Vegas, and he's still Jehovah's Witness. But we couldn't do it because we're already, like, spoiled with, you know, getting gifts and, you know, doing cocaine. Like, they weren't having it.
B
Giving up Christmas. Damn.
A
Yeah, it was torture.
B
Child abuse.
A
Yeah. Yeah. As a kid, it was horrible. So it didn't work. So anyway, the Italian side of the family won. We got our Christmases back, but it was like, literally four years of, like, not having a Christmas and a birthday. It was up. My mother tried to make her happy, which we couldn't. You know, you can't turn a pickle inside into a cucumber if it's a pickle. Yeah, me. So anyway, that happened. So my father moved out here. When you have time, just go. So, Queen of. Queen of Melrose on soft white underbelly. And I tell my whole story on there. But I'm about to spill my guts to you right now. Are you ready?
B
Yeah.
A
You got a cigarette? Get comfortable. But anyway, so my father moved down here. My uncle worked in the Palm. The Palm restaurant was Johnny Carson. It was Larry Flint. It was Tony Danza. It was the guy who made the Exorcist.
B
Really?
A
William Blatty. He. He opened the Palm.
B
Wow.
A
So it was all celebrities.
B
I used to love that movie.
A
Yeah. Oh, that's my favorite movie.
B
Yeah.
A
Were you terrorized?
B
Terrorized, Yeah. I would force myself to watch it.
A
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I do. Like, I could. Like, at night, I had to go in bed with my mother. Like, literally, as a kid, I used.
B
To sleep with the light on. That scared me. I don't know why I liked it. It was so scary. Yeah.
A
Because it was so good. And you know what it's like when it deals with the unknown and the supernatural and demons. Like, I believe that shit's true.
B
Oh, yeah.
A
And I learned, like, growing on all these Bible studies that not only there's a God, but there is a devil. And it was God's angel. And he went against God.
B
Yeah.
A
So basically, when that little girl. It's like when she was possessed, Reagan. And it wasn't. It wasn't a demon, it was the devil himself that possessed her. And he really her up, right?
B
Yeah.
A
And she was shoving crosses up her and everything. I was 8 years old when that movie came out. So my father. Mother said, don't take Cosmo to my aunt, to that movie. Joan is going to him up, you know, because they knew I was like, really? You know, and I was like, empath. Like, I would absorb everything like a sponge as a kid. So anyway, saw the Exorcist, didn't sleep for a year. Okay. Yeah. I think my mother beat my aunt up for taking me and. But the best movie ever. Like, you could have Freddy Krueger. You could have anything. But that movie is the most horrifying movie I've ever seen. I've ever seen.
B
I agree. One of the scariest I've ever seen too.
A
And there was no cgi. There was all. It was all real. Like, they made that all by hands. Like it was all. Yeah, there was no, like, AI. You know what I mean?
B
Yeah.
A
Like, they really just did. You got to see. There's a. There's a documentary on the making of that movie.
B
Okay.
A
And how fire started. And it was like all this happened. All this demonic shit happened when they were making way. Oh, yeah. Holy. Oh, yeah.
B
I believe all that stuff. Yeah.
A
Yeah.
B
There's a haunted museum in Vegas. I go to Zach Bacon's Haunted Museum.
A
Oh, really?
B
Yeah, there's a. Yeah, it's scary.
A
I gotta check it out. Did you ever go to the Cecil Hotel?
B
No. Is that haunted?
A
Oh, my God. We have to hang out. I promise I'll be good. Well, maybe a little creepy.
B
Is that hot?
A
Good. So there's a Cecil Hotel downtown.
B
Yeah.
A
Do you remember when the girl came from Canada to go visit Canada?
B
When was this?
A
This is like 10 years ago.
B
No, I don't remember that.
A
So basically, they made one side of the building, like all homeless guys that lived there since the war. But then they try to make the new one gentrified and, like, really cool. But there was only one elevator. So all the tourists that come to stay there will go the elevator, like with these homeless people. I mean, they live there for years, right? So basically, long story short, this girl came from Canada and she's in the Cecil Hotel. Asian girl, she came here to visit la and all of a sudden she's missing. So a month goes by, month and a half goes by. So people in the Cecil Hotel and they're complaining about the water, that it tastes like. It tastes like feces.
B
Yeah.
A
So they did a little investigation. So they had the water tank on top of the Cecil. It's very haunted. Would you pass by? Now I'm going to tell you the story. They have it on Netflix to see salt out. So there's the water vat of the building on the roof, and it has 700 rooms, that building. So the Janitor went up to the water van and said, why does the water smell? The pigeon shitting in the water. They found her body in the water. That. Whoa. Then you'll see her if you watch Netflix. Going to have a movie night. You and Eugena.
B
I got a theater at the.
A
Is that cool?
B
Yeah.
A
Oh, whoa. I would love that. I love movies.
B
Nice little love sack.
A
And creepy love shack. And the love shack. Okay. We could just, like, cuddle a little bit. I'll behave a little bit. So anyway, they found her in the water bat. Then they played back the tapes of how is she missing? So literally, she's running from. There's nobody chasing her, but she's running from a spirit. And you see her in the elevator and she's, like, scared, like, running for the. But there's nobody there. It's just a fucking evil spirit. Whoa. So this hotel, we found out that Richard Ramirez, the serial killer lived there. Damn the guy. All these murderers live there all these years. And it was very suicidal people jumping out the windows years ago. So now it's haunted now, this girl. So they finally closed it down after they found her. But my friend was staying in that hotel and she was drinking the water. Oh, yes. And I would go in there and party.
B
Oh.
A
Because it's downtown la. Right. So that's where I got my drugs. So I would party there. But Horrific. Cecil Hotel. And now it's closed. But you could. Actually, there's a guy that cross the street that's doing a podcast that lives across the street and you could see shadows at night.
B
It's great.
A
Yeah. It's still very haunted. Holy. I'm surprised you don't know about this. But, you know, mother's here and school is open, baby. But yeah. Horrific, horrific, horrific.
B
Yeah. It's nuts.
A
So watch that documentary.
B
I will. Have you ever seen a ghost before?
A
You know, I do. I do believe. Do you believe?
B
Yeah.
A
Yeah.
B
100.
A
I do. I remember I grew up in Harlem and I grew up in a brownstone that's built in like the 1600s in New York City. And my grandmother lived there. I never forget. She paid like 39 rent when I was a kid.
B
Wow.
A
And it was three floors. Brownstone. It was beautiful. It was all marble. Those buildings are gorgeous. In New York now, they sold for millions of dollars. But I remember there was a ghost. My grandfather would say, there's a ghost. He was an alcoholic, but he lived on the third. The third level was his bedroom.
B
Yeah.
A
And I remember waking up in the middle of the night and Literally seeing this ghost. She was a lady, you know, and she. I didn't get creepy feelings from her, but I remember if it was a dream or whatever, but I remember her pulling my aunt's hair when she was sleeping. Like really pulling her hair, like angry. And then. Yeah, I believe it was haunted. I totally believe in ghost.
B
I do too.
A
Yeah.
B
I think they can enter your dreams too.
A
Yeah. And the supernatural.
B
Yep.
A
Like all this demonic. So sure.
B
We've seen some demons in la.
A
Well, you know Los Angeles, right?
B
Yeah.
A
Lost angels. Wow.
B
I never thought of it that way.
A
And downtown la, you know, I would hang out with these people and they would be like, look, there's a shape shifter over there. This guy's got six fingers, you know, and you're all high and you're like, you don't know what's live or what's. You don't know what's really happening. But yes, it's very. I see demonic. I see it now in the streets when people are like contorted and they're doing drugs. It's not only your drugs. I think, I think that drug addiction is a genome demonic assignment.
B
They say you're more vulnerable when you're in that state of mind. Yeah. You know, to position. Yeah, yeah.
A
As a matter of fact, I have a sponsor, you know, her name is Ansley, you know, and she's like Christian. And she got me sober.
B
Yeah.
A
Because she's so empathic. And she's also a life coach. She does exorcisms. Damn. So anyway, I have a friend that he wouldn't get sober. He couldn't get sober like me, but he was on crystal meth and crystal is hard to kick. It's worse than crack because crack is like kind of natural. So three days, it's out of your system. Crystal is all chemicals. It's all man made. So that stays in your system for a very long time.
B
That makes sense.
A
So the detox is longer and I'm trying to get my friend sober and he's talented and he's older like me and I'm like, girl, it's time. You're gonna get a heart attack. You know what I mean? Like, get sober. So I took him to my spice and you got to meet my sponsor. So she put him in the chair and she's literally praying over him. And she's. She talks in tongues too. Really, like effective too. She got me sober. So, you know, I, I knew the exorcism. So anyway, she's get. He's in the chair. I Gotta see things to believe them, though. I really gotta see for me to believe. You know what I mean? So she's literally talking in tongues and praying over him. But I see her talking to the spirit. She's going, shut up. She's literally, like, fist fighting the spirit, like, with her eyes closed. And I'm like, oh, my God. Like, this is really happening in my fucking living room. You know? I believe that she's powerful, you know, and anointed. And then all of a sudden, I see him. I. This is me sober, stone cold sober. Maybe on a cup of coffee and a cigarette. And I'm looking at him and he turns literally turns black. I literally see the demon, like, leave his body. I should have filmed it. I was like, I should have fucking filmed it. And she's fucking fist fighting the demon. Get away. Shocker. She'll be like, talking in tongues or whatever. And the demon left.
B
Wow.
A
And I might cry again, but I'm not going to. But he got sober that day.
B
Holy crap.
A
He got sober. And I think he's still sober now. He's, like, drinking, but off the crystal meth. And he's a hairdresser. He's in Miami. He's thriving. And I believe that day she did that exorcism and it worked.
B
Wow.
A
You know, because sometimes I'm like, it's all, you know, in my mind, you know?
B
Yeah.
A
But it's some real shit.
B
It makes me wonder because my dad had some issues, you know.
A
Oh.
B
He was an alcoholic and a drug addict. I would walk in his room, some days, he'd be yelling at the wall. Makes me wonder if he had a demon in him.
A
Yeah, it's. It's a gene. I think it's a demonic assignment.
B
Wow.
A
I really do. I think you open a porthole when you're that vulnerable. Because alcoholism is a disease, right? There's no cure for it. You know, you go to meetings. It's like getting chemotherapy. But it does run in the family, you know? But it skipped my. It skipped my sister. My little sister, thank God. But she has the ism because as all we would. We were all drinking and we all did something. She didn't do any of that, so she had to experience all of it sober. So that's why she has no nails.
B
Oh.
A
You know what I mean? Because imagine being in a family with all alcoholics. Like, how did you feel like with your dad?
B
It was tough. Yeah, it was tough.
A
Did he get sober?
B
Kind of.
A
He.
B
He, like, transitioned into mushrooms later on and nicotine. If that's sober for some people.
A
Okay. Yeah. Yeah. Well, it's progress, right? It's not perfect.
B
I'd say it's better than horse tranquilizers and Xanax and stuff.
A
And talking to the wall.
B
Yeah. Screaming at the wall. And I'm walking in that as a kid. Yeah. It was wild.
A
And do you think you have the. The addict gene?
B
I have an addictive personality, but I could channel it.
A
Yeah.
B
Yeah.
A
So it's. Right now. It's manageable right now.
B
Yeah. I'm channeling it in the. In the right direction with the podcasts and stuff.
A
Yeah. Good for you.
B
Yeah. But I've had like a weed phase. I've had an alcohol phase, but when I was. When I was younger.
A
Yeah. Like when you parties, you have to like. Like, say there was some cocaine going around.
B
I didn't do cocaine.
A
Oh, you didn't? Good for you. You save yourself years of terror.
B
I was more psychedelic.
A
Yeah.
B
Like her.
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
B
Because I'm an Aquarius, so I like.
A
Thinking, oh, happy birthday. This is your month. Yeah, yeah. So there's so many Aquarius birthdays around me right now.
B
Oh, yeah.
A
Oh, yeah.
B
I love Aquariuses.
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah. They're amazing people.
B
What's your sign?
A
I'm a Scorpio.
B
Scorpio. I know a few Scorpios.
A
Yeah. So pretty hardcore. We get a bad rap.
B
Do you like.
A
We'll take your husband or your wife.
B
Really?
A
But we'll bring her back.
B
Okay.
A
Because we're loyal. We are loyal. Like, I have friends. The friends I have now I have for a very long time.
B
Nice.
A
Like, you know, I may, like, be cut you with my mouth. I'm. I'm like Archie Bunker. No filter. But then the next day, I'm like, I'm sorry. You know what I mean? Like, I like, I like to make amends. Especially now that you're sober, you have to make amends.
B
It's like, I don't want any enemies required.
A
No enemies. Yeah.
B
I don't like living like that, you know?
A
Right, right, right. Like watching it back.
B
Yeah, exactly. Yeah. Who wants to live? Like.
A
Yeah.
B
Looking over your shoulders.
A
Yeah. So what about your mom? Like, you know, I don't want to get nosy, but did your mom, like, make everything okay? Did she save the day or.
B
Well, they got divorced when I was 10.
A
Okay.
B
So single parent household, so that was interesting.
A
Okay.
B
And she tried her best, but raising a kid by herself as a mother, I think that's tough. You never get that father figure. Yeah.
A
It's really.
B
It's hard to replace that, you know?
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So what did you do, though?
B
Like, you know, I've spent a lot of time by myself, man. To be honest, I was pretty lonely. I was an only child and got addicted to video games. Yeah, it was a lonely childhood, to be honest. Yeah, I struggled.
A
But look at you now, though.
B
Now I'm podcast.
A
Oh, God. Lives on the corner, baby, you know? It really does.
B
I think so.
A
I'm so glad because I know this life of. I've seen it. It's in my household, you know what I mean? And it affected my older brother, who never had a drink in his life, and my younger sister. We really fucked them up.
B
Yeah.
A
You know what I mean? Because they saw what was going on, and at least we could have smoked a joint, I could have had a drink, you know what I mean? But they had to go through it sober and, like, see the fights and me coming home late and, like, you know, robbing my mother's purse and go, where's the money? I need more, you know? And it's like they went through all that. So I tell them, go to Al Anon because it's for people who grew up with drug addicts and alcoholics and your life. And then you. It teaches you how to deal with it when you get older, you know, or children of. There's a program for everything these days, so. But they don't want to go. They're setting their ways, you know.
B
Said Eleanon.
A
It's called Alanon Elenon.
B
I haven't heard.
A
So if you grew up with, like, an alcoholic parent.
B
Yeah.
A
Or there's also child children, survivors of alcoholics. There's all this out there, you know, just in case shit might get shitty for you.
B
Yeah.
A
You know what I mean?
B
That's good to know.
A
There's a. In la, there's so many meanings for everything.
B
Yeah.
A
Like sex, you know.
B
Oh, there's a sex one.
A
Sex. Sex and Love Anonymous.
B
Did you go to that one?
A
I went to that one.
B
I was joking when I asked that.
A
Yeah. No, I had to go. That was a big one. You know, because sex is before drugs. Sex is before, you know, like, you start masturbating.
B
Oh.
A
Fantasy and all that. So that kind of like.
B
So you were. You were addicted to that.
A
Oh, yeah. Everything I do, I'm addicted to now. It's food. See, I got sober, but it bounces around.
B
Yeah.
A
So it was sex, it was drugs, it was alcohol, it was pot, and then it was Food. Because I grew up with food being so loving. Like, let's eat at 5:00. So what? Everybody's killing themselves. Let's have a nice meal. So it was when you're Italian, any nationality, you know, it was like love through food.
B
Yeah.
A
You know, we just cook and my mother cook and eat this and pasta. Have a meatball. Shut the fuck up. You know what I mean? So. But then later on it becomes a problem because now it's like since Pandemic, I haven't been able to lose the weight because I go to food, you know. So now I'm on a food program.
B
Ozempic.
A
No, I tried Ozempic.
B
Oh, you did? You didn't like it?
A
I had to get rushed to the hospital. Holy. You know all those horrors you hear about happened to me.
B
Oh my gosh.
A
So I had to get rushed to the hospital a Ozempic. I thought the was gonna be skinty and my doctor's like, get him off of that. So I asked him why that happens to me. He goes, well, some people have really bad side effects. And I talk to people that have side effects and they're like, yeah, we get the side effects. But mines were really bad.
B
Jeez.
A
So I have to like do it naturally. So I got me a nutritionist and he's like, the only way you're going to lose it healthy Cosmo is like you're going to start eating like real food. And like, you know, don't get, don't, don't buy olive oil and plastic. Like you have to buy real olive oil, you know. And he's teaching me how to eat healthy. But the good thing is that you can eat five times a day, but you can have all the steak you want, but you have to eat healthy. So, you know, constantly learning.
B
Yeah, I love me some good food. Yeah, food is really important to me.
A
Yeah. What's your favorite food?
B
Italian's up there. I'll say that. But it's a little too heavy to eat daily cuz all the carbs.
A
Right.
B
You get fat if you eat too much. Yeah. You seem like you have good genetic blessed genetics.
A
You could probably eat a hamburger.
B
Yeah. So my resting metabolic rate, which is how many calories I'm learning. Oh, now do you know what yours is?
A
No. I'm going to go right now. The nutritionist guy just recently happens.
B
Yeah.
A
I met this guy in the program and he goes, I'm going to help you. So you got to test your metabolic weight and get weighed. And I haven't weighed Myself for a while because I'm trying to avoid the issue, you know, but then it's like, can't avoid it anymore. So anyway, so yeah, so so you know about that stuff.
B
So, yeah, basically if I sat down all day and did nothing, I would burn 3,000 calories a day. That's your resting metabolic rate.
A
Okay.
B
Which is really high.
A
Right.
B
So basically I have to eat like, cuz I'm active, I have to eat like 4,000, 5,000 calories a day so I don't lose weight. So I have the opposite issue as you.
A
Right, right.
B
I struggle to gain weight.
A
So you have to. So you eat. What do you eat?
B
Like a lot of protein?
A
No.
B
Barely any carbs. Carbs is how you gain weight.
A
Right, right.
B
You know.
A
Right, right, right. Okay.
B
Because you get bloated.
A
Right? Exactly.
B
Yeah. So I'll eat a little carbs, but nothing crazy.
A
Okay. Okay. So I'm learning about all that now.
B
Yeah.
A
And then he's telling me like the Food and Drug Administration, like he wanted you to stay. They wanted you to stay away from certain foods for so many years. But we find out, like, steak is good for you. You could have steak. You could actually have real butter.
B
Real butter? Yeah.
A
What?
B
Yeah, they taught us growing up butter was bad for you. Yeah, I remember that.
A
Right. That's the Food and Drug Administration. Because they want everybody in the hospital. Yeah. Right. So anyway, I'm learning that it is good. And that's great. Yeah, I'm glad you enjoy that.
B
I would never listen to the FDA on food advice. Yeah, yeah. What's your favorite food, though?
A
I like a little bit of everything, you know, I love Puerto Rican food, you know, from New York.
B
Yeah.
A
Basically there's a good restaurant in North Hollywood, it's called Mofongo. And like, there's not a lot of Puerto Ricans out here. Really? It's not a big food. I love Mexican food. Yeah, But Puerto Rican food is good. Did you ever try it?
B
What is it?
A
You'll love it.
B
Is it a ripos or is that Mexican?
A
It's not spicy, but they have plantanos rice. Do you eat pork?
B
So if it's high quality. Yeah, Yeah.
A
I heard pork is really bad.
B
I heard it's terrible. Yeah.
A
Because they don't have sweat glands.
B
I only eat the acorn fed one.
A
Oh, okay.
B
Yeah.
A
Where do you find that?
B
Rarely. It's on certain menus, but yeah, it's hard to find.
A
Could you like buy it in the supermarket?
B
Probably not the supermarket, but maybe online.
A
Okay.
B
Yeah.
A
Because I love Pork.
B
I think it's called Iberico pork.
A
Oh really? Does it taste the same as pork?
B
Better wav.
A
Oh really? Okay. You turning me?
B
Hooking me.
A
You're hooking the queen up cuz she likes her pork. Sausage.
B
I love sausage. Yeah, Italian sausage.
A
Yeah.
B
Yeah, that's good.
A
Yeah. Oh yeah. I could send you over a plate cuz literally like you can walk out of this building. I'm like literally five minutes away at Melrose. So come over, I'll bring some food.
B
Sure. Do a little intermission.
A
Yeah, but I love food. But now I'm learning to eat healthy. So it's never too late, right?
B
Never too late.
A
But you're a sweetheart. Are you seeing anybody?
B
Are you about to get married?
A
Congratulations.
B
Great years in getting married this year.
A
Wow. And where did you guys meet?
B
We met in Jersey. Grew up in Jersey.
A
Jersey, yeah. See I always tell Eugenia, I'm like, if you want to find a man in la, kind of they want to hit it and quit it. But if you go back to New York, you go to Jersey places like that, they kind of believe in like marriage. They have more old fashioned values. Am I right or wrong?
B
I think so. Yeah. The east coast. East coast is about families. Yeah.
A
So we got.
B
So that's funny you said that LA just got voted the worst dating city in America.
A
Because you know what it really is, it's like now you see them, now you know. You know?
B
Yeah.
A
And then with all those hot trannies on the Internet, you don't have a chance. Sorry.
B
I'm sure you've been offered to start an only fans.
A
Well, I have my, my Persona, her name is Ginger. So I would go to the tranny club.
B
Yeah.
A
You know, you ever go to a tranny club in la?
B
No. But my friend manages a bunch of trannies.
A
Okay.
B
They crush it on only fans.
A
Yeah.
B
They kill it.
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah. So I don't know because what do you think the queen of Melrose on.
B
Only fans you would do six figures a month easy.
A
But would I have to be sexual or could I just do like stockings and do fetish?
B
You wouldn't make as much if you did that, but you could probably still make a decent amount doing that.
A
Really?
B
Yeah.
A
Okay. I don't know. You know what I mean? Because it's like I'm always like private when it comes to my sex life, but I can give a hell of a lap dance.
B
Okay. You know, just do lap dance. Only fan stuff maybe.
A
Yeah. I wonder if that like I'm good in fishnets. I have great legs. You know, maybe do something with food.
B
Yeah.
A
You know, but I don't think I should just, like, air my vagina out yet. Yes. But thank you for the. All right, girl. Thanks for the six figures, honey.
B
Yeah, once you go. Once you go down that route, it's. It's tough to.
A
Yeah, yeah. But it's nice to know the queen could make six figures, you know what I mean? Yeah, Well, a lot of my clients are on only fans. I Bet1 has five kids. Damn. She's hot as. She works out like a fiend. And she's on there with her husband.
B
Okay.
A
You know, but now she's doing girl on girl.
B
Yeah.
A
So I was like, show me. And when I see it, I'm like, whoa, dude. Like, it's like straight up triple X. Oh, yeah. You know, Which I'm not opposed to, but you know when you see somebody in a different light and then you see, I'm like, this bitch is her pussy's wide open. You know what I mean? And then another fan came to me the other day. He goes, you know, I'm on only fans. And I'm talking to him. He's a client. Whatever. He's a fan. He goes, queen of hours, I love you. He goes, just look at my only fans. He was like shoving things up his. And I was like, whoa, dude. Like, oh, you know, so maybe I. I would do, but like a happy medium.
B
Yeah. You could figure out your. Your middle ground.
A
Right. Cuz I'm not a Jehovah's Witness anymore.
B
Right. That's a big change.
A
Would you do it?
B
No, no, no, no. I know Adam22 did it with his wife. Did you see that?
A
No.
B
He let his wife get banged by someone else.
A
Oh, really?
B
Yeah.
A
Who's Adam22?
B
He's a podcaster in LA.
A
Okay.
B
Yeah.
A
I mean, to each his own, you know, if it works for you and you guys are making the money you say they're making. The lady that came in my store, I don't believe she's making the money she says she's making. You know what I mean? But you can make a lot of money.
B
You can make a lot. Yeah, but whenever someone throws out numbers, you know, it's slightly exaggerated.
A
Yeah, yeah.
B
But I have seen six figures a month for.
A
Yeah.
B
For people.
A
Yeah, I believe it.
B
Yeah, it's nuts.
A
And there's a lot of celebrities on there too, right?
B
Yeah.
A
Cardi B showing their dicks. Tyga.
B
Tyga showing his dick.
A
Got a picture?
B
Nah.
A
He's probably packing I'll probably rub one out right here. What are you doing? Let's make money off of it. Come on. Go viral. Yeah. So I would do something literally happy. Medium.
B
Yeah.
A
Well, I would gross. Like something sexy. We'll talk. We'll do coffee. We're gonna do coffee. Come by the store with your girlfriend. We're gonna talk.
B
Sounds good.
A
And you will love the store, by the way.
B
Yeah, I'm gonna check it out. Do you got two stores in la? You got a store?
A
I had three stores. I had Shoehorn. It was a shoe store that I opened up, and the Instagram said we for shoes, and it's called shoe. And it just never. But I didn't have the time for it. It. Because three stores is a lot.
B
Yeah.
A
You know what I mean? Two stores are like monsters. You know what I mean? One is Glam Squad, the original store. It's very, very busy. It's the rock and roll store. It's very cool. Leather jackets and stuff like that that you would love.
B
Yeah.
A
And then the other store is more like Burning Man. Like, opulent, more expensive, you know? So handling those two stores is a lot. And trying to keep them open after Covid, you know. But area 15, they're my clients, so they own, like, half in New York, these people.
B
I was just there last week.
A
Yeah. So you want to say Area 15? Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So the owners are great, and they go to Burning man every year. So I dressed them every year, but I didn't know who they were. I don't know if they were Area 15. I don't know if they worked at McDonald's. I don't know. But I just give it away all. So I would dress them all. And basically, I find out years later that they own Area 15. They call me up and they want the Queen of Meros involved. So what I did was I make a whole clothing line for Burning Man. Right. So I designed some stuff. This. That beautiful, beautiful stuff. So they bought the whole entire line. Bonnie was no object. And so now they're selling my stuff in Area 15, you know, so it was just another opportunity.
B
I love it.
A
The owners are great. They still go to Burning man every year. You know, they're. They're loyal, you know.
B
Yeah.
A
And they just stick with Burning man, stuff like that. So it's. People like that. And. Yeah. So you go to. Next time you go to Area 15, pick up a garment, and it should say Cosmo.
B
Wow. Yeah, yeah. The store. Right when you walk in. Right in the middle.
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah.
B
Yeah, I've seen that one. Yeah, that's awesome.
A
Small world, but it's cool in there. Did you go in the room? It's like all the psychedelic rooms I went in.
B
Everything that spots out a trip. I go there at least once a year.
A
Yeah.
B
It's a fun time.
A
So if you like that, I think you're gonna love Burning Man.
B
I want to go to Learning Man. Yeah. Yeah.
A
I've never been to a Running Man.
B
I actually want to go there and, like, do interviews because I feel like it'd be viral.
A
Oh, yeah.
B
Talking to people there.
A
Yeah.
B
I don't know if they don't have service there, though, right?
A
I don't think so. It's all, like, no corporate, no wire, no money exchange at all. It's all, like. They're giving each other, like, you trade, like, weed.
B
Oh, it's bartering.
A
It's.
B
Oh, that's cool. That's how it used to be.
A
Yeah. Yeah.
B
Back in the day.
A
Yes. That's where it all came from.
B
Yeah.
A
So that's why at the end, they burned that man.
B
Yeah.
A
That big core, that big wooden man they build. They burn it. It's like. It's like burning the corporate. The corporate veil and just live and let live like we live the years ago, you know, and it's, you know, sex, drugs, and granola.
B
Yeah. You know, sex, drugs, and granola.
A
But a few years ago, the guy ran into the fire. Did you hear about that?
B
Yeah. What was that?
A
So I think he had a little too much sex, drugs in granola, and he wind up running into the fire. When they burned the man, he was like, wow. And he ran right into the fire. So anyway, that's what happened. But it's still going on. But it's kind of getting less and less now, like, you know what I mean?
B
Like, not what it used to be.
A
You know how some stuff just fizzles. Fizzles out.
B
Yeah.
A
So I would get, like, customers and be like, wow. Like, that month of Burning Man, I would just make so much money, it would keep me open for the whole year. But now it's kind of going. Since COVID it's not the same.
B
Well, that's all. Music festivals, they're all hurting right now.
A
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Since COVID like, nothing's the same. Right.
B
It's a tough business.
A
Unless you're doing what you do. Podcasts.
B
Yeah.
A
Mark Stoff, white underbelly blew up.
B
He's crushing it.
A
The Queen of Melrose is going to blow up. Yes. I'm Excited?
B
You got music videos now?
A
I got music videos. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So the first one was Move to la, and the second one was my Christmas song, have Yourself a Merry Little Christmas. Did you hear it? N. You got to hear it so good, basically. And then I just did a song. So the producer of Drag the Musical, it's on Broadway. It's called Drag the Musical. You ever hear of it?
B
No.
A
Anyway, she DM me. She goes, I am obsessed with you. I'm Italian, from New York. You're Italian. Let's do a song called Italian Men. So we just did the video yesterday. It's a really good song. So it's on Spotify. The queen's on Spotify. Right. So here it is. A year and a half ago, I was going to retire and go to Palm Springs right now. I started off trying to sell a dress, and now I'm making music. It's crazy. So anyway, we did the video yesterday. I had two mob guys in the video, like I said. And then I. In an Italian restaurant in North Hollywood called North End Pizza. She got the best pizza. Like, pizza.
B
I love pizza.
A
North End Pizza. It's on Magnolia and Burbank.
B
Good to know.
A
So anyway, do the video there. And yeah, I got this song out called Italian Men.
B
Yeah, check it out. We'll link it below because it'll probably be out by the time this airs.
A
Yes. And then we have another one we're working on. It's called My Kind.
B
What a name.
A
It's very interesting.
B
What a name. How are you going to film that one?
A
I'm still. It's still up in the air. If you have any suggestions, let the queen know.
B
Got to keep it.
A
I have a rapper from Only fans on it. It's really good. And it's called My Cunt Is Killing Me. Because my mother growing up, like, in an Italian household. I'll be like, ma, where's my keys? She's like, if it was up my cunt, you know where they were. You know, it was like a common word up my can. So. And she would be like, my cunt is killing me today. Leave me alone. So I took that and I said, can we make a song out of it? So the producer of Drag goes, let's do a Queen of Melrose. So we just did Italian Men, which is. You're gonna like it. It's a bop. And then next week we're doing My Kind.
B
I love it. So that was awesome. Where could people find you?
A
So you can find me on Melrose in the boutiques. Okay, so my Cosmos Glam Squad. And there's also Cosmo Ensenado. That's the label. The clothing label. Okay, Those are both on Melrose. And then our website is Queen of Melrose. And that's where we have our merch. And you can buy our T shirts. We have fashion jewelry, so go to Queen of Melrose. And we also started a Patreon. So come check out the Queen.
B
We'll link it all below. Check them out. Peace.
A
Yes.
Digital Social Hour: Entrepreneurship, Ghosts, and Viral Success Stories | Queen of Melrose DSH #1356
Release Date: April 28, 2025
Introduction
In this compelling episode of Digital Social Hour, host Sean Kelly engages in an unfiltered and intimate conversation with Cosmo Ensenado, also known as the "Queen of Melrose." The discussion delves deep into Cosmo's tumultuous journey through addiction and sobriety, her entrepreneurial ventures, encounters with the supernatural, and her viral success stories that have reshaped her life and business.
1. Overcoming Addiction and Embracing Sobriety
Cosmo opens up about her long battle with addiction, sharing raw and honest insights into her struggles and the path to sobriety. She recounts her relapses and ultimate decision to get sober at the age of 50, emphasizing the role of her support system and the transformative power of community.
"I got sober at 50. You know, but I've been in AA for 20 years." (07:05)
Cosmo highlights the efficacy of peer support in recovery, stating:
"The only thing that really works is one addict talking to another addict." (07:30)
She discusses the stigma of sobriety, especially as an older individual, and how redefining her identity as "Queen and sober" has empowered her and inspired others.
"So we came up with a set of Clean and sober. Now it's Queen and sober." (07:25)
2. Entrepreneurial Endeavors and Store Success
Transitioning from her personal struggles, Cosmo shares her entrepreneurial journey of running multiple stores on Melrose Avenue. She details the challenges faced during the COVID-19 pandemic, the impact of local riots, and the innovative strategies she employed to keep her business afloat.
"I started off trying to sell a dress, and now I'm making music. It's crazy." (52:00)
Cosmo credits her friend Eugenia for pushing her to embrace her personality on camera, which led to a surge in her store's popularity and online presence.
"She said, 'You have to save your store.' And your personality will save." (11:00)
She also discusses her collaboration with LA's Area 15, where her designs for Burning Man were showcased, further elevating her brand's visibility.
"So they bought the whole entire line. Bonnie was no object. And so now they're selling my stuff in Area 15." (48:20)
3. Embracing the Supernatural: Ghost Stories and Beliefs
A significant portion of the conversation explores Cosmo's deep-seated belief in the supernatural. She shares chilling ghost stories from her childhood in Harlem and experiences that have cemented her faith in the existence of spirits and demons.
"I believe that shit's true. And you know what it's like when it deals with the unknown and the supernatural and demons." (24:31)
Cosmo recounts her terrifying experience with the movie The Exorcist and how it influenced her perception of good and evil.
"I saw the Exorcist, didn't sleep for a year." (23:00)
She also details a personal encounter where her sponsor performed an exorcism to help a friend overcome addiction, reinforcing her belief in divine intervention.
"She's literally praying over him. And then I see him sober, stone cold sober." (31:12)
4. Viral Success and Digital Influence
Cosmo discusses her unexpected rise to viral fame through her authentic and positive portrayal of sobriety. Her appearance on Soft White Underbelly, where she shared her transformative story, resonated with millions, leading to increased traffic to her stores and social media platforms.
"I went viral with that. Because I went on there with the solution." (08:00)
She highlights the importance of leveraging digital platforms to share personal narratives, inspiring others while simultaneously boosting her business.
"She said, 'You have to save your store.' And now I have podcasts, blogs, and music videos." (11:00)
5. Creative Ventures: Music and Fashion
Expanding her creative horizons, Cosmo has ventured into music, producing tracks that reflect her cultural heritage and personal experiences. She collaborates with notable producers and integrates her fashion designs into her artistic expressions.
"We just did Italian Men, which is... It's a bop." (52:51)
Cosmo also emphasizes the synergy between her fashion businesses and her music, creating a holistic brand that celebrates individuality and resilience.
"So next time you go to Area 15, pick up a garment, and it should say Cosmo." (49:30)
6. Reflections on Family and Upbringing
Cosmo provides a heartfelt account of her upbringing in a challenging environment, navigating the complexities of being a gay individual in a household dominated by mob influences and Jehovah's Witness beliefs. She reflects on the impact of her family's dynamics on her personal growth and choices.
"I became a hairdresser. I became very successful, him letting me do what I wanted to do." (16:53)
Her narrative underscores the resilience required to overcome familial and societal obstacles, shaping her into the empowered individual she is today.
Conclusion
This episode of Digital Social Hour offers a profound exploration of Cosmo Ensenado's multifaceted life. From battling addiction and achieving sobriety to building a thriving business empire and embracing her supernatural beliefs, Cosmo's story is one of perseverance, authenticity, and reinvention. Sean Kelly's ability to draw out these intimate details provides listeners with valuable insights into the complexities of personal transformation and the power of embracing one's true self.
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