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EXPANDED Podcast by To Be Magnetic™
Ep. 387 - Why is the Universe Testing Me? And How to Navigate It - Best of Expanded 2025
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We’re closing out the year by revisiting one of our most loved and impactful episodes of 2025. Especially during our end-of-year Return to Magic Challenge, this conversation on manifestation tests feels more relevant than ever. Jessica and Lacy break down the seven most common types of manifestation tests, from scarcity and ego to boundaries and core wounds. They offer clear insight into how to recognize these tests, reframe your perspective, and move through them with greater self-trust. This replay is a powerful reminder that every challenge is an invitation to step deeper into your most magnetic, authentic self. Whether this is your first listen or a return visit, it’s an episode you’ll come back to again and again on your manifestation journey. And if you’re feeling called, it’s not too late to join the Return to Magic Challenge. A season of nurturing, creativity, and magnetism awaits! Find the complete show notes here -> https://tobemagnetic.com/expanded-podcast
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Anywhere you're being tested, it connects to everything you're manifesting.
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Every time we're tested, at the root of it is a wound. Our whole journey in this lifetime is to undo all of that in order to get to who we are authentically. And the more we get to who we are authentically, the universe rewards us.
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Universe, I am being tested and triggered. What do I do? This is probably the number one question we get at tbm. When you are going after your dream life, when you are going after your manifestation. Because we are manifesting from our subconscious beliefs on what we believe to be worthy for us, the universe throws in front of us situations that mirror back, places we need to integrate, places that.
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We need to heal, places that we.
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Need to reclaim our power. And so tests are actually this beautiful narrative, narrative thread. Back to the lessons we are needing to put into play right now. This was our most streamed episode of.
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2025, and 2025 was a year of.
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A lot of tests for so many people. So we are bringing back the protocol of how we navigate tests here at tbm. So when those tests come and knock at your door and have you questioning yourself and not sure what is the correct path for you and. And what decision to make, let this be your anchor of how to return to yourself, your higher self, your intuition, and learn how to face those tests head on without fear and knowing that you can make the best decision and most aligned path for you that leads back to your highest self and your magnetism. We are in this liminal portal right now where we are ending off one year and jumping into the next. And I know I have been cocooning into our Return to Magic Challenge where we go through every single phase of Inner Child and give ourselves exactly what we needed in the subconscious state that has been so grounding, so regulating and incredibly illuminating of how many memories or visions or just even felt sensations that have come up of like, actually just this is what you want more of. This is what feels more aligned. This is what feels more authentic. And as we're talking about tests and.
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In this season, I'm sure so many.
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People are facing so many tests, you.
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Know, being around family during the holiday season.
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But those tests are so tied into our purpose, into our authenticity, into the bigger picture that we have in front of us, the bigger purpose that we.
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All have in front of us. So if you are getting tested right.
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Now, do not worry. Here. Here is how you can navigate it with grace and compassion and love. And if you have not joined our Return to Magic Challenge yet, I highly recommend it. It is probably our most medicinal challenge, the deepest unblocking, the most regulating, the most potential to get really, really clear about who you are authentically and reclaiming so many parts of your gifts and your magic and your essence and your purpose. Not only are people manifesting like crazy already from this challenge, but what I.
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Find way more impactful than any of the physical things that are coming through is the amount of people that are.
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Writing in telling me how much they feel connected to their soul again, how much they feel so much love and compassion for themselves, how they're able to show up for themselves and their inner child and their joy and their play in such a new way. This is the foundation of high self worth. This is the foundation of a secure sense of self, a secure attachment, attachment to self. This is where it all forms. So if you are getting the ping, if you haven't joined in, if you have joined but you haven't finished yet, jump back in. There's plenty of time. We're going to have the challenge open into the new year, and we have our big new year sale going on right now where you can join our pathway membership for only 12 for the first month, and then you get our 30% off sale rate for the rest of the year. So if you are getting in the ping to join, I'm telling you guys, now is the time, now is the.
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Season, especially as we are gearing up.
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For this new year. And if you want a little fun ritual practice to anchor in a little manifestation list and dream big and think about your Future Self for 2026. We just dropped our 2026 manifestation ritual in there. You can do it in one or two days max. To just craft your list, get some clarity through the lens of the TBM method. I know I'm going to do this one around New Year's, and I can't wait to see what shakes out, especially after doing this challenge. Okay, let's get into tests and how we can help you navigate. And now a word from our partners. You know that feeling when your entire body just exhales? That is exactly what I feel every time I use the BON charge infrared PEMF mat. It feels like plugging yourself back into nature's power source.
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Welcome back everyone. I don't know about you guys, but I feel like we're entering a lovely test period. We have started to craft our list.
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We're setting our intentions for the new.
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Year, calling the things in we want and, and then the tests come and we want to just remind you guys how incredible tests can be and how you can manifest on the other side of them when you navigate them with ease. So we're going to break down all of the types of common tests that we see in the manifestation process, how to navigate them, and what they're really asking you to look at. When you look at the different types of tests, a lot of questions we get asked is, well, how do I respond? What is my high self worth version? Is it bad if I just settle for the old thing from before? And we're going to kind of break down exactly how you can get super clear on what your pattern is, what it's asking of you, and likely what manifestation this test is connected to, even if the two don't look super similar. So super quick, if you guys have not listened to any episodes from us before, if you're a newbie tuning in, we'll link Some episodes that really break down the basics of tests. But for everyone else, how to spot a test? Is it impeding on a boundary you set for yourself? Do you feel shame or embarrassment around it? Does it make you settle or feel small? Or is it pressing on an insecurity, core wound or shadow that you need to work through? Tests really come in the form of opportunities and triggers which kind of look like big emotional reactions. It's when you feel dysregulated. It's when you feel like, oh, my God, what's going on? Opportunity. Tests could be like the shiny carrot thing that's so close to everything. You're calling in the almost perfect job opportunity, but it's missing one big piece. And the important part with this is to not settle for these tests. You can't fail tests. So if you're like, oh, shit, I definitely settled. I definitely had that big emotional reaction that is totally okay. It's normal. Another test will come back around. So what do you do when you face these big tests? Lacy, I want to kick off to you first before we kind of break into all of these common types of tests. But you reframed in a recent episode that we'll link here of how important it is to reframe our relationship to tests. Instead of this thing that's happening to us, instead of this thing that's punishing us or trying to keep us small, how can you look at them through the angle of possibility, of wonder, of curiosity, of growth?
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So I feel like we've had a couple of really good episodes on tests so far that capture so much information on tests. But I think my big intention that I want to share on this one, having just gone through the most insane testing period since the summer solstice of 2022, right before the winter solstice, just this couple weeks ago, was psychotic for me. I mean, like, I'm still wrapping my head around it. The one of 2022, it was like I almost drowned. I got my. The first stitches by my eye I've ever gotten stitches in my life. My mom's house burned down and my house almost burned down up in, you know, the Yosemite area. And it was such an initiation. And the craziest thing happened right before that week because I had been doing a lot of microdosing and DIS at the same time. It was when we were coming up with our new DI format with Janelle and using all of these new tools in our DI's that are so effective. I was kind of practicing that beforehand to Microdosing at the same time, just seeing, like, how quickly can I move neural pathways and connect them. And in one of my microdoses doing that di, I had a really specific voice come over me and it said, you are about to manifest greater and bigger than you've ever dreamed of. Everything you've ever wanted is coming. And it was like, crazy shit that it was showing me that, like, wildest dream stuff. And I went, whoa. And it was this feeling of like, oh, my God, because we talk about a lot that we all have our own pattern that we receive before we manifest something, right? Like, I can feel shivers down my spine. I can smell stuff. This one was like a very direct telepathic communication to me and images. And I was like, oh, my God. And now where I am now is where I have all of that stuff it was showing me. And on the tip of some of the things I haven't gotten, I'm like, right there about to get. And then that weak hit of tests, right? So that's like the thing I really want to focus on in this episode. If you are like me and you've been going through a crazy testing period or right now you're being initiated in it because of the week we're in and the challenge, because the moment you began doing this authentic challenge with us, especially dealing with authenticity, which is magnetism, Authenticity equals magnetism. So if anybody was listening to our podcast and they're like, ah, I don't want to, you know, I don't really want to join in on authenticity. It seems like fluff. There could not be anything more important to manifestation. Authenticity equals magnetism, period. The universe's only intention is to get you back into your whole, worthy, authentic self. So to finish that thought, if you began this authenticity challenge with us, it's impossible that you wouldn't be receiving tests. If you're really, really getting into your authenticity because you are getting more magnetic, you are initiating magnetism. Therefore, the universe has to connect you with what's orb around you. And if your self worth is lower than the ratio of what you're calling in, it's going to send you initiations to raise your self worth to match, quote, unquote, the frequency of the manifestation. And so that's like the big thing I want to focus on. And the episode is, yes, you're going to learn and hear about the most common tests and the ways that you're tested, but I also want to focus on what manifests after those, because that's the. Like, at this point, I'M regulated enough to get excited. My trust muscle is strong enough to get excited when I'm going through these huge initiation periods. Because it's like, oh my God, something so good's on the other side of this. Me, 10 years ago would have had a nervous breakdown of that. So that's what I'm excited to cover.
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I think too. The other really beautiful thing, especially when you get those big tests, because I feel like I haven't had big tests in a while, or like ones that kind of poke out to you. They're all kind of like micro tests in the authenticity. But because I've been doing the work, because I've been working on developing that connection to self, because I've been sitting with my authentic self, reconnecting with her in such a big way, navigating them becomes so much easier and so much more clear. The action I need to take, the way I need to respond. Maybe I have to sit with my nervous system and regulate for a minute. But what I need to do is so glaringly obvious. It becomes such this dance where you're like, oh, I see why this is coming up. Okay, this is how I'm gonna respond. Let me go, regulate. Let me go, whatever. And we're gonna handle this and it's gonna be fine. So for anyone going through that, just know it will get easier. The more you do the work, the more you unblock, the more you actually see what it's asking of you. Instead of thinking it's some sort of punishment or something bad, some fear mongering, anything like that. And the other thing is, when you have those big ones pop up, notice the little spiderwebs of smaller ones that may pop up around it. Because the second a big one pops up, I'm like, ooh, where else been? Like, even minusculely tested, Because I wonder if there's a pattern. I wonder if they're all asking me a similar thing. And that will help you understand what aspect of your self worth the universe is asking you to look at and ratio to the big things you're calling in.
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Do you feel Jessica? Because, God, is this just where I'm at in my practice? I feel like they're always all connected. When I look at the patterning, do you feel that, like, when I'm being tested, what we're talking about is I'll give examples of my testing period when I really, really distilled down the pattern. That's what I do. It's how I become my own pattern reader. I go in my journal, I'M going to write down every single test that's hitting me right now. And then I write down with it, I'm like, what is the. I say Achilles heel, but it's like, what's the insecurity that it's poking at? What's the wound? And when I look at that wounding and I connect them all, it's one through line. They're all doing the same thing. And during that week, every single one of them was something or someone is pushing on, taking advantage of you. What's going on here is the universe is asking me in every one of these scenarios to set boundaries and advocate for myself. So they were all connected. And I feel like I do the monthly check in usually at least once a month, once every two months. And whenever I'm doing that pattern reading, most often than not, all of the tests have a similar theme. And they all connect to me to unblock a very specific thing and expand out of a very specific wound block. Is that how it is for you?
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100%.
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It goes in chapters. So, like, the tests that I got, let's say, over the summer, when we were doing the summer challenge, all revolved around the same theme that all pointed to the same block. Whereas the tests I'm getting now are not that same block. Probably because I work through it in so many ways. It's a different kind of angle or thread into that block. So, yeah, I would say ultimately they do root down to the same thing. The only thing I'm thinking is earlier on, especially when manifesting multiple things in very different categories, sometimes it would be like, oh, this one's a little bit hitting me more in this one and this one's a little bit hitting me more in this one. So a few tests that have come up recently, some of them, I guess it roots down to the same thing. Okay, I'm in real time processing this.
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I love real time. It's my favorite thing.
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One of the things I'm manifesting is in health and I want to build more muscle for longevity and all of the things with a other myriad of things for health, just like really fortifying my health in a new way for the new year. And so I had this workout routine that I was already like, okay, I'm going to do this one. It's very light and gentle just to kick off the new year. It's a pretty 14 day program, very exciting. And then yesterday I fall down the stairs and like sprained my wrist or strain my wrist and I'm like, oh, I can't Lift a weight. And so I think for me, yes, it was hitting that manifestation, but it was also hitting what I think the root is of maybe all the other tests that aren't necessarily related to health is control. Can I be more fluid? Can I flow with ebbs and flow because I can't control things? Yes, I wanted to build muscles with weights, but you know what if I can't use my wrist, what else can I do? Can I walk? Can I put weights on my arms? Or I don't know, like, could there be a different way of doing this? Am I getting too fixated on the one path? And can I like release control and think about it or can I do just walking until my wrist heals and give that up? So it's like where do you need to release control? And then just in other sectors and like small tests this is popping up. And I noticed this almost like calm response to things where I'm like, oh, this is an interesting obstacle we can find the solution to. Whereas before I'd be like, oh no, what does this mean? And it's like the fear mongering. And now I feel like I can see those challenges and be like, huh, okay, I know something's good coming. What is this a good opportunity to like fortify or help? How is this ultimately going to help me in some way or help us in some way? And how can I creatively problem solve to actually get the solution that I want to get?
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Yeah. And the shifts that. I totally agreed. I totally agree.
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So I guess it does all root down to the like, even if it's control, but control from different angles.
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That's what it is for me. Yeah, that's what when I'm being tested from all different facets, it's weird shit. That's not, it doesn't even seem like boundary. But at the end of the day I'm like, oh, in actuality that's another thing. And when I'm saying boundaries, it's like these are boundaries people don't even know that they have to have with me because I've never emitted that energy from a self worth place subconsciously. So other people aren't thinking they're doing anything wrong. They're just interacting subconsciously with my subconscious. So it's really, it really is interesting that way. I've noticed lately. And so yeah, I'm curious as we talk about the episode if that continues to be sort of a conclusion that they, they are sort of all connected. And I'm finding similarly to what you're talking about that the universe is asking me to behave differently. Often, you know, like you're saying, yeah, you're gonna have this new regime protocol, blah blah, blah, but the universe is like, wait, but that's still connected to you having to micromanage or control thing. You know, you can and you're going to, but let's find it in the more authentic way or whatever. That's what I'm noticing and I think.
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Too someone asked, what if your test doesn't directly connect to your manifestation? Or what if you know it, it indirectly connects to something else. I think ultimately anywhere you're being tested, it connects to everything you're manifesting. Because if you unblock that aspect, if you show up differently in that aspect, it's raising your self worth. And so everything is going to be easier to manifest on the next level.
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Because that's what integrate. That's called integrating. You're integrating that new, that thing the universe is asking you to become. You're integrating it. Therefore it's an up level no matter how you look at it. And you're going to be more magnetic and manifesting in more things.
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Okay, let's start diving into some and you guys will hear some examples and kind of start to piece together which ones are your tests. We even got one question was like, what is a test? Like what are some examples of tests? So we will definitely hit into those as well. Okay, so this is a big one we see come up a lot, a scarcity test. This is when you fear that there's not enough, the rug will be pulled out from you. You're experiencing heavy envy and jealousy. And what is this? This is a test that's fortifying the belief that you can create and tap into abundance that's all around you. That resources aren't limited, opportunities aren't limited, things aren't finite. You don't live in a box. And that was your one manifestation and you missed out on it. It's really cultivating from a scarcity mindset to an abundance mindset. So what are tests that could look like that? An unexpected bill or expense that you didn't know about. You get triggered by someone else's success. You feel fear that you'll lose something that you've already had. It's like, oh my gosh, what if this goes away? Or this is shifting and changing. What if it means it'll never come around again? It could also look like you get a job offer that pays less and you fear that you can't get another. You have to say no to a relationship test. And you fear that you're not going to get another one to come around. Anything that feels like I just lost it and there's no opportunity for more.
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Would this also be too. Because like ways that I'm tested a lot in this category, I think this category is the universe is always going to pick your biggest wounds and fears and that's what it's going to poke at and test at. To be like, I need you to integrate into your whole worthy self in order to manifest the things you want. And the more each little by little step you integrate. You manifest the things on your list little by little. The bigger you're integrating, the bigger the manifestations that are coming through while you're expanding. So we'll see if this is the category. But like my biggest wounds used to be finances. Biggest, biggest. I mean absolute security and safety based on my childhood is everything for me. And so it's like unexpected bills coming out of nowhere, that kind of stuff. Is that this category for?
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Totally.
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Yeah, totally.
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Okay. Just so people know that it's can look like that too.
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100%. Yeah. Things coming out of nowhere. It doesn't have to be money specific, but it. That's a really easy one to spot. Is your relationship to money feels scary or tight or whatever financial security you thought you had is shifting or changing. It could be losing a job, anything where it feels like it's getting taken away from me. And there the initial reaction is oh no, like I'm screwed or what's going.
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To happen to me.
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And really what it's trying to. To reinforce to you what it's a lack. Allowing the opportunity for you to do is to know it's kind of like that worst case scenario, Di, you are okay no matter what. Even if this wasn't the job, even if this wasn't the income portal and that one's going to close down and you know, whatever it is, you can find another. It's never trying to kick you when you're down and say, well that was your good chance and it's not going to come around again. It's trying to help you fortify that resilience that no matter what happens, you can figure out a new way forward, even if it doesn't look like the old way.
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Yeah. And the thing that I would want to say about that too is not only are you going to manifest another version or there's a bridge out there or whatever, more importantly, you're going to bring in the one that's even. Is Going to serve your authenticity even more. So it's like, not only is there not a true lack there, what has to fill that space will be even closer to your authenticity 100%.
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I have, like, a little mini manifestation around this recently where my dad was in town, and I was so grateful. He wanted to work on all house stuff, all the handyman stuff he had to do around the house. And he realized that whatever security cameras we got were, like, the wrong ones. We had to get different ones, and the ones we had to get were, like, more than three times the expense of the ones we initially got. And he was like, I swear by these. This is why they're so good. We I'll install them. Just order them. It's fine. And at first I was like, ugh, I really don't want to spend that money on this thing that. Not that I don't care about, like, I know it's real.
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It probably doesn't make a difference.
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I know. I was like, is it really, like, can't wait. He was like, this is a doorbell camera. This is not a security camera. And then. But, you know, like, he knows all this stuff. And I was just like, does it really, like, matter that much? Whatever. And he was like, it's important to protect your home, and blah, blah, blah. I was like, okay, okay. So I noted. I felt the impulse of like, ugh, I don't want to spend money on this thing. That I don't really think it's going to matter that much. But what is. Where do I want to spend my money? Do I feel like I can't spend it on something else? Do I feel limited somewhere else? Do I have the money to spend it? And I was like, yes, I have the money to spend it. I'm probably not even going to think about it after I get it. Let's just order it. I ordered it, stepped through the fear. And then the next day, there was this one bench, rustic bench I wanted to get for the living room, which is more authentic of where I want to spend my money is the home, like, the interior stuff. And the bench was originally, like, a couple hundred dollars and not really in the exact design I wanted. And then a day after I bought these security cameras on Facebook marketplace, the exact bench for literally a hundred dollars comes online. Exact design, everything. And a friend is who's the one who listed it, and she's like, yeah, come pick it up today. So had I bought the bench and the cameras, it would have been double the price. But because I got it for so Cheap. It covered the cost of the cameras.
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That's such a great example. Even though it sounds so minuscule. Energetically. That's so big. Because that's how this works. It's how it works. And this is why we have episodes. We'll have to link how to create situational magnetism. That's such a perfect example. You stepped through a lack fear, right? Like old you budgeting. You. You still budget, but you used to budget to a place where you're like, I just have to be safe and everything's good and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. You still have remnants of that. I still have remnants of that. And the universe is inviting us so much to be like, I'm your bank. And I have to be so careful the way that I'm saying this because I don't want it to go so bad in the other direction. People just start spending the money and buying the stuff because that's why seeing what the test is asking of your wounding, getting to the bottom of, why am I being tested in this? You specifically seeing that you were being tested and like, this doesn't fit into my budget. Totally. I want to spend that money on this. It was like old Jessica in a way, right? And the universe was like, what the fuck are you caring about? You're going to be so abundant. Like, what? Come on. And so you're like, okay, whatever. I'm just going to walk through this, buy the thing I don't even really want is signaling to the universe, okay? And walking through that fear and bam. Something that is on your list, whether you wrote it down or not, you consciously or unconsciously called in the universe is like, see, here you go. I've got you. I've got you. You know, So I don't want people to take this as like, oh, I just better go buy the thing and I'll get that. No, the real takeaway from this episode is looking at what the test is asking of your. Want to make that more clear every time we're tested, at the root of it is a wound, something we picked up in childhood that we have now created a mask around. You know, an onion layer. Like we like to say old Jessica because of the rug being pulled out from you when you were little for various reasons in your specific upbringing, had to become a micromanager. You had in order to have safety. But our whole journey in this lifetime is to undo all of that societal programming, familial peer, everything, to undo it all in order to get to who we are authentically and the More we get to who we are authentically, the universe rewards us. So, like, getting back to that, the universe is going, okay, Jessica's calling in these bigger things, and in order to get these bigger things, she's got to get rid of any of that old residual lack micromanaging things. Like, she needs to learn that I have her, right? So anybody who's in the situation, that's exactly what's happening to you of any of this, like, lack stuff that Jessica just listed. Me too. I was being tested in all the same ways right before winter solstice. And the universe is like, look, lady, when are you gonna get it? That's what I'm trying to do with you. I'm trying to connect. So. So anybody who's going through that, I would say the biggest thing you should do is just get to the bottom. My favorite di for this. You'll have better recommendations. But I'm realizing that our test Di specifically, is really good at figuring out if you're being tested and why when a big test is coming up for me. Number one, I love the worst case scenario Di more even than our calming dis that regulates me a lot more because I'm like, oh, I'm fine, I'm free. You know, like, when I really can't get out of the funk of like, my biggest wounding right now is being activated. And I can do all the safe DI's calm DI's I want, but I still am like, holy fuck, holy fuck, holy fuck. I do the worst case scenario, and then at the root of it, I'm like, who cares? I've got an out. I've got an escape plan. I'm good here. Then my nervous system really goes down. And then I like the test di after that, or I really, like unblocked the eye. I love it for this because when I'm in that subconscious state, it really immediately, since I have that activation going on, will go right to the wounding and tell me, oh, my God, this test is directly related to this wound that I have to unblock. And then the universe is like, oh, thank God they passed the test, you know, and bam, the bench comes through. That's sort of my tangent that comes up around.
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And I think the biggest thing with the scarcity test, or the lack test you could call it as well too, is for me with the cameras, this was in part like a need. It's like necessary to take care and protect your space. So if that was a need, I was not valuing, taking care of that because I was nervous That I wasn't going to be able to get the other things that I wanted that felt really special and unique to me. And what it was pressing upon for me was like, like you're fighting over pennies here. What are we doing when you stop getting so fixated on like, okay, can I pay for it this way? And with this, you don't even look at all the other possibilities. Like your bench already came through for a fraction of the cost. How exciting. Do what you need to get done and take care of yourself.
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B
Completely agree. Completely.
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C
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A
Okay, so another very common type of test is the ego test. This is when your ego feels bruised.
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B
And this is a hard one to detect sometimes for people. So I'm glad we're naming this one.
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A
This is when you feel rejected. You're. You may be pedestalizing someone, you're trying to prove yourself. You're leaning on something to validate you how good you are, valuable you are, are worthy you are when something really appeals to your ego, but it's not aligned with you or your authentic self. And what the test is trying to do is help you cultivate the belief that it's safer for you to be your unique, authentic self. And from there you can have your needs met. It's really inviting you to let go of external validation. It's inviting you to let go of where you place your self worth on the material external things. And the best way to pass this type of test is identifying how you would think about things, how you would respond if you were in your total authenticity, not worried about anyone else's judgment or opinion versus societal programming of how you were supposed to respond. So this is the test where you want to double down on authenticity and really stop caring about the material external things. It's trying to disconnect you from needing that validation.
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B
I have this one. I've had this one come up a few times recently. So a good example of this, especially when I was in like my hormones were in a real swing in postnatal, postpartum. I've had this happen with Teddy too. I don't know if the estrogen's getting really low, but I go into this thing, my body's different, I'm different and I go into this thing where I'm like the cool people that I used to be friends with don't like, like me anymore. And I feel like we can all relate to that based on like high school and societal programming. But anyways, it was coming up for me really strongly. And I know it wasn't totally true, it was really hormonal based. However, the universe again was inviting me to look at where is this wound from? It has nothing to do with A, B, C and D people and what's happening right now. And I. I did the di and I got to where it's from, and after I pinpointed that and I did the work through it, and I also, like, coupled it with a chatgpt custom flower remedy. I have him make me remedies that helped with the hormones. I got more to the root, like walnut and all of those things. Bam. The Victorian farm manifestation came through, along with a couple of other little tests that were happening at that time. But I remember even in my 20s, when I would go to West Hollywood, I'd be like, I've got to get out of this place. I feel, like, so bad about myself. When I'm here, everyone is so beautiful. They're so stylish, they have cash, they're, like, doing all the work. They're, like, perfect. I feel like a piece of shit in West Hollywood. And so during that time that this was coming up, I went. The universe was asking of me, just like we talked about, like, it's. It was asking of me to get into my authenticity. What makes me authentically interested, Interesting. How do I dress from that place, even as my body's different and postpartum, how do I. What's the accessories, what's the whatever that are, you know? And then internally, what's going to make me feel better? And after that, the Victorian farm. Even though I was being tested from different avenues, I'm trying to remember what those tests were that were coming through at that point. There were quite a few, but they all led back to the wounding of getting into my own authentic and owning my own authenticity. How I look, how I feel, what I do, how I speak, all the things. So that's just an example of this.
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A
Well, it's also so interesting, too, because I think your style is so unique, and people love and are obsessed with your style, your fashion. You're this, you're that. And you would have never cultivated that if you were in West Hollywood and were like, never. Okay, cool. I guess I gotta fit in and do this whole thing. You cracked open a whole new level of expansion for so many people to be like, wait, you can wear that. That looks so chic. Where did she get that? That's amazing. You open this whole other realm of possibility for so many people. And I think that's really important to remember, especially with the ego test, because it feels like, well, I have to have these things to fit in or be loved or these are the trends or whatever it is, or be successful.
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B
Successful. I find that in our community, that's a really big one that comes up. I remember on our speaking tour, the last one we were on, I can remember at each location there was always one person that got up and was talking about, how do I become more successful in my business? I've done A, B, C and D, Y. And in my mind I'm thinking, I'm like, oh, because you're not in your most authentic expression yet. You're just not. Because people can't take their eyes off. Off of that. So, yeah, what you're saying is exactly right. And I bet so many people listening, I even consciously remember that whole West Hollywood thought. But I remember having this moment where I'm like, oh, no, I gotta move to. I gotta move to Echo Park. I need to go be in a more artistic community where I can fully express my authenticity. That's the only way I'm gonna feel halfway decent about myself in Los Angeles, specifically.
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A
A thousand percent. And that's the power of expanders and finding an expansive community, I think. It's not putting yourself in situations, not saying you can't have friends in, you know, who are very different than your authentic expression. But if you are feeling shadowy about expressing your authentic expression, maybe add in some new friends or circles that you feel safe to fully express in that way you feel seen wearing the outfit that feels. Feel so you that, you know, maybe you wouldn't wear someone else.
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B
Also in this, I want to pinpoint, even though it comes up too. In the last one we talked about the lack. The ego test is really important to look at when you're sitting on the other side, when you're judging a lot, when we are in that space of total judgment of something else and activated by something else, or like wanting to partake in, like call out stuff or shaming stuff or whatever the universe is. Also, it's another version of a test being like, everything you're doing right now is because there's something about that thing, that person, whatever, that your authentic self, your inner child, loves and wants and admires. And so it's also hitting another wound that it's calling on us to. In our ego. And I have a great example of this that I've shared many times, times in the past. It's calling on us to integrate and see as an expander in order to manifest the things that are on our list. A really good example of this is a family friend that was around, just was the most beautiful, coolest chick. And I was so threatened by her. And I would do all the things like speak badly about her all the stuff that we do in a space of envy, before I had figured out this work and before I had figured out that, wow, that's such an expander. And once I finally figured that out and realized, oh, my God, it's cause I love her, Like, I just love her. I want to be her. I love what she has. And my inner child was the opposite of everything, all the wounding. I didn't come from money. I also didn't look like her. Like, she looks like, unbelievable, you know, And I wasn't as intelligent. Like, she went to the best schools, the best things, you know, I was blue collar, all that. And so when I could finally see that as an expander, through this work and integrating her, I now have. I've surpassed her, like, in all of these things, you know, and she ferociously looks up to me and we have this beautiful bond. And so I really just want to say, if you're sitting on the other side of that in this moment, like, you're in a slump or you're like judging all the things or in the whatever. This is a different version of a test and expander in the universe is asking you, what is it that's so triggering? Like, get to that wounding and then integrate that. What would be your favorite di for this? The nvdi. Right?
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A
Envy and jealousy, for sure.
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B
Envy and jealousy. Di. So do that and see, like, what's going on here that I love about this person. How can I integrate this and see this person as an expander? Because the manifestation is going to be on the other side of that.
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A
And also, when you have those envy expanders, if they have things that you're not or you don't have that background or you don't look like that or whatever, the story is in your head about them, that you can't be that. What is your expression? That's different, that's unique, that's authentic. That isn't better or worse than their expression. It's just different. Can you actually see your gifts, all the things you bring to the table, without needing to be like, cool? I see how they're an expander now. Now I just want to copycat them. That's not the route either. The route is, can I appreciate their greatness and in appreciating their greatness, appreciate my own greatness?
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B
Yes, yes. I have a really good. I shared this on the live. But that black dove up, you know, I posted this on my Instagram. Black dove, blah, blah, blah. Watching Kira Knightley, like, age gracefully, see all of her lines Because I'm somebody who's trying to age gracefully. I don't do the. I don't do any type of injections or fillers or anything. And I just know in my bones, I'm like, this is my route. Like, I'm gonna have to own that, you know? And it's so hard in society today. Obviously, if you live in different parts than Los Angeles and New York, this is just normal for people to age gracefully. But here, there's so much pressure, right? So when I pulled up other expanders, I was talking about this on the live. I see, like, the Keira Knightley, the Natalie Portman, the Carey Mulligan, blah, blah, blah. Like, all these women. I'm like, fuck, they're all so talented. They're all so stunning. They're moms. I see all the parallels, and my subconscious is like, yes, you can do it too. But I don't take that and go, okay, I'm gonna dress just like them. I also am gonna be an actress. You know, it's not that it's pulling the essences that resonate with me in order to breathe that in with more confidence. And they're showing me and paving the road of how I can age in this society that we're in with filters and blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. As I'm going into 40, so 20. Just an example of, like, it doesn't mean verbatim.
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C
Yes.
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A
So good. So good. And now you guys have some more aging gracefully.
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B
Yeah, Expanders.
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A
Okay, so the next one, arguably, you could say all tests are core wound tests in some way, shape, or form. But these are the ones that are, like, really implicitly hitting on the core wound. So that's why when you were talking in the beginning, Lacy, of like, oh, the financial is your Achilles heel. It might be a core wound test, but also is, like a scarcity test at the same time. So the difference with the core wound test is this is where you feel stuck repeating the same dynamic, but it's showing up in a different form. You're disproportionately defensive or reactive about something. You're really playing small, hiding, avoiding, putting yourself out there. This could also be when you're, like, really triggered by someone and not in a way that they need to be an expander, but they remind you of someone, maybe a parent, a parental figure, some dynamic from a core wound that's hitting you. So this test is trying to help you identify your core wound and heal it in order to override it into a new, empowering belief system. It's likely a block or a theme that you face many times. It's a reoccurring narrative that comes back. It's like the onion peel. It's like another layer of that onion peel. And really what it's testing is, can you stop reverting back to that old story, that old narrative attracting the old dynamics, and can you create a new, empowering story for yourself going forward? Can you peel back the next layer of the onion and see what is on the other side? I think one of the biggest things with core wound tests is really understanding what is the wounding that it's pressing upon, hitting on. And what do you need to overwrite the story into? This is where, like, the unblocked EI is going to be so helpful. All of those journal prompts, inner child Di will be really helpful here. What is the narrative around this core wound that you've been operating from, where it's asking you to be like, can you open the door to a possibility of a different reality? I actually have an example of a friend that I was with recently. We were in a big group of people, and she was so triggered by this one guy in the group, and he was, like a very charismatic person, but wasn't very vulnerable. Like, didn't really share anything deep with the group, and she was like, oh.
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C
I just can't stand this guy.
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A
Blah, blah, blah, blah. And I was. I was just, like, kind of listening and listening. And then I was like, oh, this is a core wound for her. Like, there's something here that's really grating at her. And we kind of got to talking about it, and as we're talking, she had this light bulb moment, and she's like, oh, my God, he reminds me of my emotionally unavailable father.
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B
Oh, yeah, good. Wow. I'm glad.
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A
Oh, she was like, I'm almost embarrassed that I was talking so much shit about him, because I can't believe it was that the whole time. But that's why he irritates me so much and blah, blah, blah. And after that, the waters just calmed down and she was able to see, like, the truth of this individual who wasn't her dad and she didn't need to be her dad, so she didn't have all this judgment towards him. And then she could also go explore her feelings, like, towards her dad, who wasn't emotionally there for her. But it was, like, such a cool breakthrough of. I was like, you're, like, really triggered by this person, and it's not like an envy thing. I think there's something deeper here, and she cracked the code on it. So I feel like the core wound ones are just those ones that get at you from a different angle. Or it could be that repeated pattern that comes up again and again and again in many different ways that's really asking you to pull back the next layer of it.
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B
I love a. That she had that experience in real time. Like, what? A just so much magic just happened in that moment. Not just from, like, oh, good for her, you know? Yeah, no, from like a manifestation standpoint. Like, so much magic in that moment. Real time integration. Also, I want to say that I've recognized this. This will be helpful for people in our community. This is also the person who. Who's writing in saying, I've been unblocking, I've been expanding and taking aligned action, but my manifestation's just not coming through or my big ones not coming through. If you're identifying with that, you're like, yeah, I'm doing this. I've been doing this work. I'm doing this challenge, and. And stuff's just not moving for me. The tests are coming here, but things aren't moving for me. It's really what we taught last year, the blind spot. I really feel like the archetypes and the blind spot work is just next level for this. If you're identifying with it, especially if someone's really, really, really triggering you or something's really, really, really triggering you, it's 100% hitting on a core wound. Or if you're in the category of like, you do. You're like me, you do manifest, but you still have this recurring pattern that will come through. You know, I just dealt with this archetype recently in this Victorian manifestation. The seller realtor was a representation of life. Like a person I have to deal with often. You know, what comes up for me when that's happening, it's like, oh, dude, am I. Am I not integrating? Like, why is this coming back at me? Like, am I not excelling at this? And it's like, no, wait, I'm manifesting and continuing to manifest bigger things. It just means that because it's a core wound, there's just going to be more work there. And it's not an exhaustion work. It's the universe is like, let's do this together and continue to do this so that you can reach your level of consciousness, your level of integration, I. E. Your level of magnetism. So it's like, just don't get exhausted with that. If it's continuing to hit you and.
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A
Each new layer brings a new layer of manifestations, of blessings, of kismet, things coming through. And even thinking of the example I shared at the beginning of the girl who had this realization and now thinking on her the rest of the exchange with this guy, she became so expanded by him after because he's really financially successful and has all these investment properties that she couldn't even sit down, have a conversation with him before because she was so triggered by it that when she dropped all of that and had the conversation with him, she was like, holy shit. Like he's doing this, this, this for investments. Like I could totally do that. And boom, this massive expander comes, comes through when you can, especially with the core wound piece. If you can work through that and understand it and attune to your inner child's feelings around it and understand what's happening the most. Magnetism is on the other side of that.
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B
Oh, that's such a great story, Such a great example.
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A
Okay, so this one, no. So many people here. This is the boomerang test. This is where the past tries to repeat itself in the form of an old ex, a boss, a friend, a pattern. It's the test that brings that person or opportunity blast from the past. An ex partner, old friend reaches out unexpectedly, trying to connect, promising something or now is finally ready to meet your needs, but they actually can't follow up with it through actions. A former job or opportunity reappears and you're like down to your last few dollars and you're like, maybe I should settle for this old thing even though I already passed the test and said no. Or you're tempted to fall back into an old habit, habit or behavior, even though you know it's not authentic to you. This is really honestly what it's really testing is yes to attune to the block that's there of why you keep allowing this back in. But can you say no? Can you hold firm in your boundaries and can you say no?
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B
And also like energetically in the saying no, are you going to raise your self worth to not behave in the same self worth frequency that you did in the past? That's the big can you say no?
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A
Yes. This is the say no piece. Because it's like, oh man, I see this happen with some friends so often the same person will pop up again and they're entertaining them, but now it's a new story of why it's okay and blah blah, blah, blah blah. All this stuff. I let them have their own experience, but I'm just Like you just have to stop answering. It will stop when you decide that you're worth not answering. You can sit with the loneliness, you can sit with the lack of connection or the lack of attention from this person. But once you say no and hold that firm and know that you're worth way more than whatever this breadcrumb is, so much is going to shift on.
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B
The other side and doing the work to really understand that you're worth more than that.
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A
So yeah, yeah, so let's say you're attracting the unemotional suitor and you want a really connected relationship, or you're attracting a certain type of job, or it's just there. There's some work drama or whatever. Whatever. The thing is, you just keep. It keeps hitting you. And maybe you said no to that one and you passed the test, but then another one came and you're like, what is going on? Why is another one keep coming? You're missing the unblocking piece. You're missing what is going on within you where you feel that you need to settle for those situations or opportunities. And how can you heal the story and narrative to know that you're okay no matter what? Okay, this one's really good. The self worth test. This is really about the inner critic and the negative self talk. You could even call it the negative self talk test, I don't know. But this is where a dynamic doesn't go the way that you intended and you feel the urge to ruminate, spin out and you make yourself the problem, or you receive an opportunity that feels too good and then you immediately question if you have what it takes, or you get a comment or a piece of feedback from a hater or someone online or even just from your superior at work. And you're like, oh my God, I totally fucked up and blah, blah, blah, and you start spinning out. This is where you could self sabotage a situation, maybe procrastinate or undermine yourself. You might feel judged for a decision you make or desire you have. And what this is really testing is are you gonna spin out and turn this outside experience against yourself? Are you gonna make yourself the problem? Or are you gonna see that you're inherently worthy and it's okay to make mistakes, to not get along with people, to have situations that don't go perfectly, you can rebuild and be resilient and get back out there and do what you need to do.
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B
What would you say the best DI is for this one? Maybe the validation and conflict?
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A
Yeah, I would say validation because it's like you need a moment to just sit with the scariness. Because the reason you turn against yourself is because that's something you can control.
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B
And the thing that the first trigger of it is just representing away in childhood that you were probably either your needs didn't matter or the way that you were reprimanded as a child in different forms of, you know, silent treatments, punishment, whatever, whatever. So it's retriggering and re traumatizing anytime those things come through. And that's every codependent deals with this. I'm a codependent. So it's like this is how we deal with things. So the validation like you're saying, I think would be really good to help you first feel soothed, see, and that it's okay. And then the conflict so you can understand what your need is. But also being able to see the need of the situation or person.
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A
Totally. I would also say the self love di.
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B
Oh yeah, yeah.
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A
Because there's a, there's a section in there where it's like, okay, bring forward the part of you that feels most unlovable right now. Can you have compassion for that? Can you have compassion for yourself through whatever that challenging dynamic is, is. And this one's really important because it relates back to that base level that, that growing level of self worth. If you can see yourself as valuable, as worthy that you already inherently are without having to do anything that is going to make you so much more resilient on the other side.
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B
What would be an example, a quick one of a manifestation you've had from this type of test?
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A
I feel like I've shared this one before, but just getting, I had like a hater comment of someone can't stand my voice, hate voice, blah blah, blah. And am I going to spin out and be like, oh my God, I need to fix myself, blah blah, blah. And when I sat there, felt all my feelings, said, okay, is there constructive feedback in here? Do I feel an interest to do this? Does it feel authentic to go do something with my voice? Or can I let this go and just understand that people have different preferences and not everyone's going to like my voice and it is what it is.
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B
And the most interesting thing of that is it's somebody who you just represent to them. It's shadow work. Like you just represent to them something they couldn't be in order to be loved. But they don't see that yet. So it's so fascinating how we are just mirrors for each other.
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A
And then on the other side, I had a speaking opportunity present when I could, instead of internalizing it, making myself the problem, maybe hiding or playing small or using my voice less or whatever it is, I was like, okay, I'm not gonna go off, off the deep end here. I am going to just stay centered and know my truth and my authentic expression at this chapter of my life. And on the other side, I can use my voice in different ways in, in speaking events or whatever it is.
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B
Yeah, I love that.
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A
Okay, inner peace test. I feel like this is what I, what I'm more tested on with like falling down the stairs and stuff. It's like when shit hits the fan, this is when those things happen. And it's really questioning your ability to stay grounded, regulated, and feel your emotions fully. So examples here could be you feel really emotionally dysregulated and the impulse to be snappy or reactive towards others. You feel overwhelmed and have the impulse to distract yourself by scrolling, watching tv, getting a treat, reverting to old numbing patterns that don't feel authentic. You feel super anxious with what's going on, so you turn to someone else for validation. Rather than calming and internally validating, you might overanalyze your feelings. You might chronically complain, vent, or gossip. What are all the coping things you do to avoid feeling your feelings when shit kind of comes out of nowhere? There was this moment over the break, we were on a snowy holiday and the car that we were in got in a ditch and it was at like a 45 degree angle and we were like, oh my God, is the car gonna flip? How do we get out? And that was a moment where I had to be like, okay, we are cultivating the inner peace here. How are we gonna get out of this vehicle? Are we gonna be okay? How do I not lose my shit in this moment? And then taking a breath and be like, okay, we're gonna get out, we're gonna be fine, let's help out the kids. And everyone was safe and we were able to take the car out and it was fine. But it's like those moments where just shit happens quickly and you may have in the past reacted with a big emotional reaction and this is your opportunity to regulate that experience. I think the really important thing to understand with the inner peace test is how have you typically reacted when big things happen and grab your emotional state and you feel dysregulated? How do you cope with it? And it's kind of testy. Are you going to cope with it in the old ways that weren't helpful? They're reactionary, they're numbing and they're not in alignment with your authentic self, or are you going to cope with it in more of an integrated way, in a way where you're actually attuning to your emotions, you can feel your feelings, you can process anything that you're holding onto there. You can validate what you're going through, that it is really fucking hard and scary and all of the things. And I think what the Inner Peace test helps us cultivate too, you can notice when it's happening, is if you're projecting on someone because you're not sitting with your own stuff. And really what this is helping you to fortify to test is can you sit with your big emotions? Can you sit with those turbulent times? This is really how you expand your window of tolerance. In therapy. They talk about how much distress can you tolerate at one given time. And everybody is at a different level at all different times. And sometimes you might have a really small window of tolerance. Like your ability to process really stressful situations is very small. So, okay, if you're in that state or you're feeling that, how can you start to build resilience or almost build like a calming toolkit or a support system for when things feel really overwhelming, when they feel really big? This could happen if there's like a global event going on or something like that. What do you turn to to help yourself connect back to your authenticity, connect.
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C
Back to your truth.
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This one's just a really helpful piece in. Okay, wait, let me remember who I am. Let me not project, let me not veer off course or self sabotage. That's going to be so, so, so important with this one. And I also want to note the Inner Peace test is a work in progress, as are all of these tests. I still don't quote, unquote, pass the test the first time in so many of these, but it's just inching towards okay, do I at least see what is possible? Do I see what where I could have made a different choice or I could have reacted differently, or was I even aware that this was a test in the moment? Can I recognize it after all of those are amazing guide posts for what is going to help you in the long run with tests in general. So if anyone's out there like, oh my gosh, I never pass any of these tests, that is fine. You gotta start somewhere and it's gonna get easier and easier. The more you know them, the more you can identify them, the more you can understand what will be a true authentic response or aligned action. To them. And then it will just get easier and easier when you do this and you figure out how to regulate your nervous system in a way that feels good for you and then make the decision or then set the boundary or then find the solution of how to get out of the cognitive whatever it is. Like in that moment, there wasn't a lot of time to figure out, oh my God, okay, I need to like do my fight or flight di. No, I did that after. But there was a quick moment where I said I could panic right now or I could just take a deep breath, find a solution, and then we can process the emotions after because the circumstances called for that. So I was only able to take a deep breath and do that in that moment because in other small stressors in my life, I know how to regulate because I have this, this neural pathway of consistently regulating my nervous system when things get out of whack. So this is just a really good tool for strengthening your emotional resilience to challenging situations. Okay, and the last one is the boundary test. This is when it is really highlighting to you that you need to honor your needs. And it's a test that questions your ability to maintain your authenticity around others. Whether that means setting a boundary, not people pleasing, or generally just honoring your needs. An example is someone can ask for a favor, but it oversteps your personal limits. You might say yes anyways, you feel pressured to agree with something that doesn't align with your values. Someone asks for your energy, but you don't have the bandwidth to give and you say yes anyways for people pleasing reasons. Or you feel like you should because of societal expectations, or you feel any urge to forego your needs just to keep the peace with others. So what is this testing? This is testing your ability to make, maintain and enforce boundaries in a way that protects your energy and prioritizes your needs. It is kind of challenging when you first start recognizing the boundary test because the, the impulse is to set a super harsh boundary or not be able to do it from an integrated way. Because you might feel so impeded on like Lacey said at the beginning of feeling certain tests where like taking advantage.
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Of her, it's like, like you feel.
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Like, oh, how dare can they do that? But if you really get to the other side of the boundary test, most likely someone's intention is not to take advantage, is not to impede on your time and boundary. And likely they don't even know that they're doing anything. But it feels like that to you because you don't Have a neural pathway, a practice route of how you can state, hey, these are my needs. This is what I need to prioritize. And I see your needs, but this is where they might conflict. And this is how I'm going to honor mine while also not overstepping on yours. The conflict di is going to be your number one thing here. This is where you can understand, okay, what are my needs? Where are they coming from? How can I validate them for a moment? And then how can I open up the possibility that someone else's might have really true needs? And I also don't want to impede on their needs, but I also don't need to compromise my own in order for others us to have that. So what, what is the compromise that we can make between that? This really is strengthening your sense of self respect. When we talk about deservingness, energy. People have really good boundaries when they are deep in deservingness because they understand what they are able to give. They understand how to give to themselves. They understand that we are all deserving of all the things that we truly feel is aligned for us. So if you're working on that extra layer of deservingness or you have a lot of boundary tests and it feels overwhelming, have that vision of deservingness, have that vision of like, wow, I'm really fortifying and communicating to the universe that I'm gonna honor my needs. And part of my needs are my manifestation. So it's almost like that thread that you can manifest then on the other side. Other side. And this may be one of the biggest places you'll notice being tested when you're trying to fortify your authenticity. Because your authenticity may be against the grain or social norms or how people have perceived you in the past. If you've been far away from your authenticity and now you're showing up as your authentic self, it's like, where are you going to compromise those? How are you going to still honor yourself while also being able to interact with those around you? Okay, so we covered a lot of ground in tests today, but I want you guys to really start to pay attention over the next week or so. Where are the places you're getting tested? Really tune into, where am I being tested? What is it asking of me? And one of the biggest things that helps me navigate tests, sometimes tests happen in the moment and then they're over and I don't have to think about them again. Like. Like that moment in the car, right when the car tipped over. Recollecting to my inner peace and Then moving on. I only even recognize it as a test afterwards when I was thinking of an example of a time that I felt like I could have reacted in fear or panic and I would have in the past and in this situation, I didn't. But some tests, not you, you're kind of confused, like, why is this coming up? What does this relate to? Understand what is the pattern at play? What are all of the. The themes of this boiling down to? What is the limiting belief? What is the insecurity? What is the core wound? What is it asking of me to show up differently as. And the more you can say, okay, there is a way I could respond to this test that is from a old version of self that will continually reinforce a limiting belief of fear, an insecurity, a reaction, a projection, et cetera. Or there is a way I can respond to this that is from a place of my higher self, my authentic self. What would those be? And even if you don't feel fully prepared to respond from the higher self way yet, or it happened really fast and you know you didn't respond from that higher authentic self way yet, at least you have a roadmap of what you're working towards and what your goal is. You want to get to a place where you are responding to things from that place. So just keep note. And when you pass test, keep track of the things that happen after, because this is where your trust muscle with TESS is going to get super strong, where you're going to feel excited to pass them. It's going to give you that extra motivation to move from that old limiting belief way into that empowered way. Because you know that something really beautiful, exciting, magnetic is on the other side of the test. So anyone going through tests, you are not alone. We are all with you, sending so much love. And just know this is. This is really part of the human experience. You know, having tests, having struggle, having challenges, that is part of the human experience. And how can we alchemize it for our highest good? That is the beauty of tests and manifestations. Okay, we'll see you next week.
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I hope you guys enjoyed this episode today. And if you are wanting to dig into the work more specifically around tests, I would check out week four of our authenticity challenge from last year. You can get the entire protocol that we talked about in the episode in there. And then when it comes to that unblocking piece, I would really work in the Return to Magic Deep Imagining playlist or the Return to Magic challenge itself.
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If you want to just do the.
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Dis you can jump in there, but you can also go into the full workshop because that is where we can really attune to what are those narratives? What is this task asking of me? And can I go back into that subconscious state and really overwrite and heal those patterns? And don't forget we have our big New Year sale going on right now where you can get the first month of TBM for only $12 and then the rest of the membership for our 30 off sale rate. This is only available until January 5th at midnight PST. So join us while the sale is available. Okay. Happy New Year. Sam.