Dr. David Holland (34:23)
I mean, there are some interesting verses right here in verses 28, 31 or so partly this is about a very intimate moment. It's a prophet and his God. They are working out this critical moment of pain and frustration. And to John's point, I jotted down my notes as well. The desperation of leadership. Feel like you're responsible for people that you now can't help. So it's a very specific and very intimate moment. But it also expands outward to remind us that God is also the God of the universe. He's also the God of powers and principalities. If there be bounds set to the heavens or to the seas, or to the dry land, or to the sun, moon or stars, you know, a reminder that he's in control of the big things as well as the intimate moments of a particular person's pain. My father was called as a general authority at that time. He was still serving as president of byu. There was about a. He was called the April conference. And he. I don't think he wrapped up his BYU responsibilities until July. So there was a period of months there where he was already getting assignments as a general officer of the church and still trying to run a university. And I just remember those being trying times, difficult times. He was feeling pretty inadequate to his call. He'd spoken about that publicly, so I think I can mention it. But in the midst of all that, in the midst of his own struggle, with his own sense of inadequacy and with the demands of his circumstance, he knew that this change also entailed a move for me that I would have to move from Provo to Bountiful, which doesn't sound like a massive move if anybody knows the geography of the state. But to me, it felt like a massive move. He knew that at that point in my life, all I really cared about was football. I loved playing football and had dreams of glory. I made up for being small by being slow. So that wasn't a good combination. But it didn't hamper my ambition. So he knew this move was bringing some disruption to the things I cared about, including this high school football team I was on. He knew that. Two a day, I don't think they. I think by law you can't do two a days in the summer anymore. But this was back in the olden times when they didn't care about kids. We did these two a day practice sessions. He would drive me up there. We were still living in Provo. He'd drive me up there, go into the office in Salt Lake. I'd find a way to kill time between the two sessions and he'd Come back to get me after the second session. I understand after the fact, sort of the depth of the spiritual struggle he was in trying to rise to the moment and how really deep and difficult that was. But I didn't. I was a 15 year old selfish, self centered kid, sort of mad that we were moving. But he faithfully took me to those practices. I remember we were driving home one day and I was feeling a little discouraged and he was feeling a little discouraged. Calls me Duff, he said, Duff read us a scripture and there was a little blue Book of Mormon in the pocket of the car, as there often seemed to be. And I picked it up and just randomly opened to Enos 12 as a matter of fact. It says you'll have the desires of your heart because of your prayer of faith. And I remember us both being moved in that moment, kind of feeling it again now that I look back on it. The enormity of the difference between our areas of concern. You had somebody that was trying to run a 30,000 plus student university and take on a new calling. Then you had a guy, then you had a sophomore in high school who was trying to get on a football team. You think about the dramatic contrast between those, the macro and the micro, the global and the self centered. Yet that verse of scripture was designed to speak to both of us. God loved us both in the place that we were in the grand scheme of things. Perhaps my little high school worries were as important to the Lord as my Father's global concerns. He sent the same verse to both of us in the same moment. In section 121 we see both parts of God. We see him in the details of the particular wrongs and the particular challenges. We also have him remind us. And also, I am the God of the planets. I'm the God of the universe. I have control over all of these things. Then we get to those parts of the section that we often quote when we're talking about leadership. You quoted them, Hank, when you were introducing John. Some of his characteristics it talks about. There are many called but fewer chosen beginning in verse 34. Why are they not chosen? Because their hearts are so much upon the things of this world and aspire to the honors of men. Goes on to talk about the rights of the priesthood, being inextricably bound to the principles of righteousness and the ways in which we can abuse that. Then it gives us a reminder, a warning about human nature. This is part of what I was alluding to at the outset about the universality of the things that are being taught here because the Lord wants to tell us something about our tendencies. It is the nature and disposition of almost all men that as soon as they get a little authority, they will immediately begin to exercise unrighteous dominion. Part of my area of historical research is the Puritan period. I think about the Puritans. There's a lot to be said about the Puritans, pros and cons. History is always complicated and cultures are often equal parts light and dark. But one of the things that I've come to appreciate about Puritan theology, this Calvinist theology that they carried, was its warning about human nature. I think as moderns, as products of the 20th and now 21st centuries, we've inherited a kind of optimism. People are intrinsically good and human nature leans toward the positive. There's a sort of American ness to that, that positivity about human nature, which is all well and good. We are created in the image of God and we have divine DNA and all the things that I believe. But the Lord will occasionally, as King Benjamin does, to remind us about the natural man being an enemy of God, or as this passage does, remind us to take care that there are tendencies in us that are dangerous. I remember being in a bishop brick many years ago when a member of another bishopric had had some trouble. And I remember the stake president just speaking to all the bishoprics, saying, we're all subject. We are all subject to these temptations. We are all subject to human nature and we have to take care. We have to recognize our own imperfection. It's interesting that in this section God reminds us of those tendencies. God reminds us of human nature's capacity for corruption, then tells us to lean into the better parts of ourselves, the angels of our better nature, to remind us about persuasion and long suffering and gentleness and meekness and love unfeigned and kindness and pure knowledge and to avoid hypocrisy and to avoid guile and then to show an increase of love even when we have to reprove with sharpness. You see these two parts of humanity's capacity. The beauty of verses 41 through 43 and then the dangers of the verses that precede it. And a call to be committed to our best selves and to be mindful of our weaknesses.