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Episode: Novelist Julian Barnes Faces Mortality Without Fear
Host: Terry Gross (NPR)
Guest: Julian Barnes
Date: January 15, 2026

Overview

This episode features an intimate conversation between Terry Gross and acclaimed British novelist Julian Barnes. On the eve of his 80th birthday and the release of his final book, Departures, Barnes reflects on living with incurable blood cancer, mortality, grief, the unreliable nature of memory, his agnosticism, and his hybrid literary style. The tone is candid, thoughtful, and often laced with Barnes’s dry wit. The discussion offers deep insight into facing death without fear, creative authenticity, and the responsibilities of memory and language.

Key Discussion Points & Insights

1. Life Changes, Diagnosis & Living with Blood Cancer

• Unique Challenges & Recent Life Events
  • Barnes discusses the whirlwind of major life events: marriage, serious back surgery, turning 80, and publishing his last book.
  • "I can't remember period of months when there's been so much going on. So I'm still, well, alive and enjoying myself." (01:50)
• Cancer Diagnosis Story
  • Barnes recounts receiving a surprising cancer diagnosis at the start of the COVID lockdown.
  • He has a rare, incurable, but treatable blood cancer, requiring daily chemo.
  • "It's a cancer rooted in the universe's utter indifference. It's random, it has no significance. It's just the universe doing its stuff. Don't insert morality or purpose into its unrolling and denouement." (10:40)
• Emotional Response
  • Despite lifelong fears about death, he felt detached—more fascinated than fearful—about his condition.
  • "I didn't feel fearful and I didn't feel angry either. I'm not quite sure why...I found it interesting, you see, with human beings, but also perhaps a novelist's interest..." (13:47)
• On Moral Blame & Disease
  • He appreciates the "morally neutral" nature of his illness, since it arose from nothing he did or could have prevented.
  • "It's a sort of morally neutral feeling. You know, it's just something that happens... Which gives you a certain sort of distance and vision about it." (11:19)

2. The Structure of Departures: Fiction, Memoir, and Hybridity

• Hybrid Form
  • The book blends memoir and fiction; Barnes has often written hybrid books.
  • "I've always been quite relaxed about this. But I know that it does annoy some people… a character rebuked me for the book that I was writing. I sort of enjoyed that." (06:34)
• Interwoven Stories
  • The book includes stories of grief over his wife's death and a narrative about reuniting a couple he knew decades ago.
• Literary Experimentation
  • Barnes embraces mixing forms, genres, and inserting meta-commentary.

3. Grief, Loss, and Learning to Live On

• Losing His Wife, Pat Cavanaugh
  • Pat died 37 days after a sudden, aggressive cancer diagnosis.
  • "It was the most...the blackest. The thing that most deprived you of sort of hope and balance, really. It took me years to get over it, but I don't think I shall mourn my own departure in quite the same way." (21:29)
• On Contemplating Suicide
  • After Pat’s death, Barnes contemplated suicide but resolved not to, feeling a responsibility to be the "best rememberer" of her.
  • "I realized that if I killed myself, then I would in a way be killing her too. I'd be killing the best memories of her. They would disappear from the world and I just wouldn't allow myself to do that." (26:09)
• New Marriage and Remembrance
  • Barnes’s new wife is understanding of his enduring love and writing about Pat.
  • "She said, I love the way you love Pat…it's just that I think it's right to remember and to write about the dead." (27:35)

4. Facing Death: Fear, Acceptance, and Philosophy

• Detachment Over Fear
  • Barnes discusses feeling a writer’s curiosity about death and medical procedures rather than fear.
• Agnosticism & Religious Belief
  • He has never believed in God or an afterlife, finding the existence of suffering incompatible with theology.
  • "It's very hard to believe in a calm and loving God when you look at the state of the world...And Stephen Fry answered, child cancer, which is sort of, kind of unanswerable." (23:38)
• On Being Mindful of Death
  • Barnes quotes Montaigne, advocating for daily reflection about death to domesticate and tame it.
  • "We should almost domesticate it, tame it in this way, and then we should hope to die while planting out our cabbages." (17:14)

5. Memory: Frailty, Fiction, and Importance

• Changing Views on Memory
  • Barnes describes how memory erodes, shifts, and rewrites over time—the best memories, retold the most, are least reliable.
  • "You could say that your best memories, the ones you're fondest of, are your least reliable memories because you've taken them out so many times, distorting them in the process." (30:13)
• Memory as Spy Fiction
  • He likens memory to being an agent in the field, with the brain as "control," providing just enough info for the moment.
  • "Just as control doesn't let the spy know everything that's happening...that, I think, is how the brain behaves with us." (31:50)

6. The Language of Death, Lexicography, and Euphemism

• Rejecting Euphemisms
  • Barnes dislikes terms like "passed" instead of "died." He prefers clear, honest language.
  • "I hate that. I hate that. It's a way of not using the right word. I always say death." (32:21)
• Lexicography Insights
  • Early in his career, Barnes worked on the OED with a focus on "sports words and dirty words." He relates the origin of the C-word to a 14th-century street name, "Grope C Lane."
  • "It's a street name. It's a street name, yes. Like, you know, Goldsmith's Avenue..." (35:12)

Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• On the Book’s Hybrid Form:
  "Once a publisher asked me how I would describe my book, and I just said, well, it's Julian Barnes' new book." (06:12)

• On Facing Death Without Blame:
  "It's a cancer rooted in the universe's utter indifference...Don't insert morality or purpose into its unrolling and denouement." (10:40)

• On Detachment from His Body’s Decline:
  "No, I don't really feel grief for my own body. I mean, it's sort of...it's pointless to feel that we are these creatures who come into this earth unbidden, not consulted." (12:08)

• On Being the Rememberer:
  "If I killed myself, then I would in a way be killing her too. I'd be killing the best memories of her." (26:09)

• On the Language of Death:
  "I hate that. I hate that. It's a way of not using the right word. I always say death." (32:21)

Important Timestamps

• [01:50] Barnes on major life events and feeling alive
• [03:02] Cancer diagnosis: uniqueness and randomness
• [05:59] Blurring memoir and fiction in Departures
• [08:32] Barnes reads reflections on cancer, blame, and detachment
• [13:44] Barnes on lack of fear, curiosity about illness
• [16:36] Discussing Montaigne and making death familiar
• [20:56] The devastation of losing his wife
• [23:38] His atheism and rejection of religious consolation
• [25:25] Contemplating suicide after loss, "best rememberer"
• [27:35] New marriage, remembrance of Pat
• [30:13] Memory, unreliability, and self-narration
• [32:21] On euphemisms for death, language preference
• [33:30-35:12] Lexicography, origin of taboo words

Overall Tone and Takeaways

Julian Barnes, with characteristic blend of wit, candor, and analytical precision, opens up about living with uncertainty, the nature of grief, and the role of memory at the close of a storied literary life. Listeners are left with an honest, unsentimental exploration of mortality—and a renewed appreciation for the necessity of truth, both in language and in literature.