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Tonya Moseley
I'm Tonya Moseley, and my guest today is Pamela Anderson. She stars in the new film the Last Showgirl, where she plays Shelley, a veteran performer from Las Vegas who learns that her show is shutting down after a 30 year run. At 57, Shelley must grapple with the sacrifices she's made in her personal life for the benefit of her career, including her relationship with her daughter, played by Billie Lourd. The Last Showgirl was directed by Giacopola and also stars Jamie Lee Curtis, who is almost unrecognizable as a former showgirl and Shelley's best friend. Pamela Anderson became a pop culture phenomenon in the 1980s and 90s. The blockbuster television series Baywatch made her a household name, and the show itself was at one time the most watched series in the world, with over a billion viewers each week, making Anderson the highest paid actress on television at the time. International distributors of the show even enacted a Pamela clause in their contracts, agreeing to purchase only episodes that she was in. But throughout the 2000s, Anderson struggled to make a name for herself outside of that 90s Persona until the opportunity for reinvention came with her Broadway debut in 2022 as Roxie Hart in Chicago and the Netflix documentary A Love Story, which is a tender and intimate portrait of her life produced by her son, Brandon. Pamela Anderson, welcome to FRESH air. It is such a pleasure to have you here.
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Pamela Anderson
Well, thank you. It's lovely to be here.
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Tonya Moseley
You know, Pamela, I'm so fascinated by your journey over the last few years because before this role in the Last Showgirl was presented to you, I read that you had all but moved on from Hollywood. You actually looked at this script, though, and you said, I'm the only one that can do this. What was it about this script that made you just know?
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Pamela Anderson
I mean, it was a beautiful story. It had a wonderful character to play. And I just related on many levels. You know, there's many parallels between us, but I also felt like that was a great jumping off point that I could take this opportunity and really transform into this woman. And I was craving to do something like this. I really needed to sink my teeth into something. And it came at the right time. And I realized if I had any other life, I couldn't have played Shelly as I did and it all made sense. I had somewhere to put all my life experience in one way or another. It's in there.
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Tonya Moseley
Yeah, I mean, we're gonna talk about those parallels. But your character Shelley is part of this Vegas show called La Razzledet, which actually is based on this real show that was in Vegas for many decades called Jubilee. How would you describe that show?
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Pamela Anderson
I mean, I met with the Jubilee dancers, and they took so much pride in their art form. I love the nostalgia that Shelley always comes back to that. It's about France, you know, it's lido culture. It's this, you know, it's important. It's, you know, they were treated like movie stars. They are the icon of Las Vegas, even though it doesn't. They don't really exist anymore. It was sad to know that there were 85 women on stage and 45 crew members and about 15 people in the audience at the very end, that it was just something that died out and lost to a new culture of, you know, like, the dirty circus. She likes to say that it took more to entertain. And so these art forms die out. And it's about the people that have given their lives to these art forms that are suffering and coming to a crossroads and having to reinvent themselves. And that really resonated with me. I think it's a story about second chances and about, you know, the mother daughter story. And trying to find a way to parent as a single mother in an entertainment industry, of course, is another part that I could really relate to and was really interested in dealing with in a film. In hindsight, there's so much to this film that I felt was, you know, cathartic in some ways.
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Tonya Moseley
Yeah. You mentioned you met with those original showgirls. What did they teach you about their experiences? What were some of the stories that they shared with you that really stuck with you as you embodied this character?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, there was a lot of joy, a lot of pride, and, you know, there's the showgirl walk. You know, the showgirls are not burlesque dancers. They're very far from it. They told me stories of how they weren't allowed to mingle in the casinos after their performances, that they were to go home and that they were very well protected by people that looked after them. And there's a lot of rules just to keep them safe and that, you know, they went on to be, you know, in real estate or dance instructors or insurance salesmen, saleswomen or. It was just very. I wanted to know what happened after. And a lot of them got married and reconnected with their children. You know, they had children while they were working. And like that scene with Billy, I always say we were going to have to beg forgiveness to our adult children, all of us, that there's just no perfect way to do it and no perfect way to be a parent. And when our adult children, we can actually sit down with them and talk to them about their experience, I think that's a really important conversation. And it doesn't, you know, always go well for either party, but it's a start. And I think it's something anybody can relate to in any business.
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Tonya Moseley
That vision of who these women could become after this show was over is really, like, at the heart of this story. Because we're watching as your character really comes to grips with the fact that it's the end. As you said, she's so proud of her work. Just like the real women that you met with. She talks about, like, she makes a point, for instance, that these costumes were designed by Bob Mackie. What they're doing is really highbrow. And it was like the hot ticket on the Vegas strip When she performed in front of sold out crowds. Times have changed, though, and I want to play a pivotal scene that really speaks to this. Your character is having dinner with some of the other dancers when the producer of the show, Eddie, who, who is played by Dave Bautista, breaks the news that the show is closing and will be replaced by this burlesque circus show. Let's listen.
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Pamela Anderson
Tell me what she said.
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Jamie Lee Curtis
She said the new casino owners want to put their own stamp on the place, so they brought in the circus. That show's doing it really well.
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Pamela Anderson
So, I mean, who puts money into a circus? That's not Cirque du Soleil. Right? That's dumb. I knew when we started sharing our theater, when they started taking over our Thursday, Friday, Saturday shows, it was a bad sign. I know. And also, no, you did not. Yeah, I did. Yes, you guys did. No, you didn't. You guys. Our show is legendary.
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Jamie Lee Curtis
It is, but razzle dazzle. It's old. It's the last show of its kind on the strip.
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Pamela Anderson
You know, that's what makes it so special, the fact that it's the last one. It's a show. It's costumes, sets. Look, it is a dinosaur, Shelly.
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Jamie Lee Curtis
I think we're getting noticed tomorrow.
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Pamela Anderson
Are you kidding? Yeah. You heard this from Muffy?
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Jamie Lee Curtis
Yeah.
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Tonya Moseley
Oh, what is wrong with you? That was from the new movie, the last showgirl. That was Jamie Lee Curtis responding to your character Pamela. And there's the moment where she has to. She's forced to think about who she will be after the show is over, after this thing that is defined. Her life is gone. You mentioned how there are parallels to your life. Your life is not exact to this character, but the defining of who you really are is something you've had to do because for so long you were enshrined in the 90s, the playboy, the Baywatch, Pamela. So much so that this person who was kind of representing you, I guess they were an agent and didn't even bother to show you the script. What's the story behind that?
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Pamela Anderson
Yeah, that. I mean, that probably was about money. I mean, I didn't do this project for money. I did it for the experience. And yes, there's. I feel like when you're a part of pop culture, it's a blessing, but it's also a little bit of a deficit. You have to prove to people, first of all, that you're human and then that you're capable of doing more and. And being in this industry. And, you know, I've taken it upon myself to completely peel it back. I want people to see me as a person and then as an actress. And all my life experience was just research. It was boot camp. So I was learning as I went. So I, I. You know, people don't realize that, you know, when I was shooting Playboy covers, I was also at Samuel French, sitting on the ground and reading, you know, Tennessee William, Eugene O'Neill and Sam Shepard plays, wondering, how do I get from here to here? And it wasn't that I was ambitious. I was just very curious about life and this industry. And I was taking acting lessons and. And I worked with an incredible acting teacher, Ivana Chubbuck, who I worked with for a very long time. But, you know, really, I had nowhere to put it, except for Broadway, when I played Roxy in Chicago and this character in this film and the other two films that I've done this year, too. But I feel like I'm on the right track. And it's hard because it feels like two steps forward, one step back. I remember just doing this last film with Kareem, and it was this film called Rosebush Pruning. And I was doing a scene where I was jumping into a swimming pool, and I said, this is it. I'm jumping into the pool. I'm letting all of my life go. Everything that has happened in the past is gone. And he stopped me and he said, no, bring it with you, baby. And I was like, yes, I'm gonna bring it with me. I just got chills from head to toe. I said, that's so much easier. And it's. You're right. I'm not ashamed of my life. I, of course, in hindsight, might have done things differently, but I needed the life experience to teach me that. And I don't come from a family of actors or artists or cooks or anything. I really had no references and no guidance. So this has been Wild Westing it up till now.
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Tonya Moseley
You know that story you just told me about jumping into the pool for the role and saying, like, I'm shedding my past. Was there ever a moment where you were fighting your past, where you were trying to present yourself as new? And it wasn't working.
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Pamela Anderson
When I was younger, I. I kind of had given up. You know, my family fell apart for certain reasons, and that really hit me hard, and I couldn't get out of the tabloid world. And I know I fed into the character, but I really was at a loss. So I just turned a blind eye to a lot of things. And this character, this cartoon character, kind of was created alongside me. So I'm still. I still find that it's not only my past, but the past that has been presented in tabloids, which is, you know, sensationalized. And a lot of it is untrue, but the truths are bad enough, so I always hate to correct people. When people say, oh, you've been married this many times, I go, no, it's this many times. I know that's still not something to brag about, but it's just worse.
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Tonya Moseley
Pamela, I want to talk a little bit more about this role because the director, Gia Coppola, said she knew you were the one for the role after watching you in this documentary about your life for Netflix that your son Brandon produced. And we are watching your character grappling with the ramifications of her decision to put her career above everything else, including her relationship with her daughter Hannah, which is played by Billie Lourd. Your character in this movie did not raise her daughter full time because the demands of her work was the priority. As a working mother, I think about my kids all the time in the future, how they will view the decisions that I make now that will impact the relationship that we have when we're adults. And so what is so moving for me about your story, Pamela, is that your son Brandon not only made sure that we saw this tender and more expansive view of who you were, but he also was instrumental in making certain that you received this Script that Giacoppola had thought you were perfect for your son is part of your comeback.
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Pamela Anderson
He masterminded it, him and Dylan. Dylan is Brandon's ride or die. But Brandon is a great producer and a great visionary and they're very close in age. They're only a year and a half apart. And it has been an incredible experience to work with them as well. I never thought that would happen. That wasn't my intention. When I had kids, I didn't think they were going to grow up and, you know, and be so instrumental in my career. I would never want to take up too much of their brain power. I mean, they have their own dreams, their own businesses and their own lives and you never want to be a burden to your kids. So I struggled a little bit with that in the very beginning, but I thought, okay, as long as this is fun and you're enjoying it. And again, you know, we all question, all of, we question everything as parents. Just want to make sure this is the right move for them to do. But it seems Brandon is. He brought me the film. I mean, people, people went to him because he produced the documentary. So Gia knew that I hadn't received the script because it was turned down within the hour. So she knew that I hadn't read it. And so she thought, I'm not taking no for an answer. I'll find Brandon. And that really is the way to get to me, go through Brandon.
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Tonya Moseley
How does it feel to know that your children see you? They seem to see the totality of who you are. It's sort of a testament to you as a mother.
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Pamela Anderson
Well, in, in my case, I wouldn't miss a baseball game. I had them written into my contracts, actually, when I was doing tv. I have always been there for them. I didn't even have a nanny. So this is kind of unheard of in this business. Not that it's unheard of elsewhere, but I mean, just to say that might sound silly, but it's. I wanted to be a hands on mom. If I was going to have kids, I wanted to raise them. So that's another big difference between Shelley and I, is that I put everything aside. But I also put everything aside because I wasn't getting the roles I thought that I wanted. And I was struggling a lot in my personal life too. And my kids were everything to me. And that was really important for me to be with them and put them first. I know. I was talking to Jamie Lee Curtis and she said she's worked every single day of her children's lives. And we all have our way of doing it.
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Tonya Moseley
The thing about the choices we make as mothers when our kids are growing up, we just don't know what the outcome will be. We just try to do the best that we can. But it must have been really hard for you to both be a mother but also deal with this level of fame that you were in the 90s. I mean, because you weren't just famous, you were tabloid famous. So that means that there were lots of stories that were out there about you that were beyond your control. How did you manage that as a mother while also shielding them from this public Persona that was you?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, it was difficult. But, you know, my kids were with me and I was cooking for the neighborhood. Everyone come over for spaghetti. And I was still, you know, I was volunteering at school. Even if I just got home, you know, and I was covered in glitter, I was still the one opening the car doors and getting them into their classrooms and then catching my reflection in the mirror going, oh my goodness, you know, mascara down to my chin. Oh, dear. You know, and I, I was just always there. I was always a fixture. I was always at every game. So all their family and all their friends and their nucleus of people knew that I was a very hands on mom. And I was, and that all of this circus around me was the non real part. And I tried to keep them away from it, but, you know, Brandon would be pitching a baseball game and he would throw his glove down and look at the paparazzi and say, I'm trying to pitch a game here, boys, can you leave me alone? You know, the kids would get really upset. So we got through it. I wouldn't say unscathed. It took its toll. But they really understood our life and they understood their father, understood me and understood what was going on. I always thought age appropriate I should sit them down and talk to him. But of course they hear things through friends and through school and that was hard, but definitely something to draw from for the film too. My kind of very unique close relationship to my boys who know their mom's full of, you know, flaws. I actually ad libbed that conversation on the phone in the movie where I say mothers aren't saints, that we are just doing the best we can with the tools we've been dealt. And I think about that when I think about my own mother and the things that she went through. And sometimes we expect a lot of our parents, but we're human beings and we get through it the best way we can. And if there's love there. That's the most important part.
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Tonya Moseley
You mentioned your co star, Jamie Lee Curtis. She plays an older, former showgirl who now works in the casino as a waitress. And you guys are really good friends. And Jamie actually told you that she took this role because of you. When did you learn that?
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Pamela Anderson
At the table, Reid? The first day I met her, she had just gotten a spray tan, and she was actually changing colors before my eyes. Her tan was intensifying, and her lips were.
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Tonya Moseley
Because we should say this woman, the character has like a very, very orange T tan. Yeah.
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Pamela Anderson
A multiple spray tan over spray tan. Over spray tan. And I told her, I said, I'm so sorry. I'm nervous. And she goes, oh, come on. You can't be nervous with me. And then she grabbed me by the shoulders and she looked me in the eye and she said, I did this for you. We're in this together. And I just, you know, got chills from head to toe. Any fear went out the window. And I felt like I've known her my whole life, and I still do. And she's just really an incredible champion for women. And I. She hadn't seen the documentary. She said she was happy. She didn't. She saw it after. But she didn't know much about me. She. She'd seen me and she knew. She said that I was capable of much more than I'd been doing. And she's been there. She's been in different parts of her career and just kind of aching to do more. And so I didn't realize that I'd ever get the chance. So that's why this is so sweet and so precious, because it almost didn't make it to me and that I almost didn't get to do it. And I was happy with. I thought, okay, from Baywatch to Broadway. That has a good ring to it. At least I got to be on stage, which was wonderful and scary, and I pulled it off somehow. And then this. I realized that Broadway was just the warm up for this film. And it just. I had so much experience. Even the backstage banter is very similar. And so I. It really was. I didn't know this script was coming, but I was prepared to receive it.
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Tonya Moseley
Our guest today is Pamela Anderson. We're talking about her new movie, the Last Showgirl. We'll continue after a short break. I'm Tonya Moseley and this is FRESH AIR.
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Tonya Moseley
You seem to be surprised sometimes that you take up such big space in the public's imagination that a Jamie Lee Curtis would take a role for a chance to work with you. I've heard you talk about how you're surprised that Beyonce, who paid tribute to you, would even know who you are. What makes you genuinely surprised by the love that people have for you, knowing and understand the level of your fame?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, I'm grateful. I'm grateful. I feel the love. I feel rooted for it. But this is a new feeling. That's a part of the reason I came home. I just thought I need to peel it all back and find out who I am. What are my original thoughts? I felt like I was dressing for other people. I was playing characters in my personal life. So I thought I'm just gonna go home and make a beautiful garden and make pickles and jams and write a cookbook. I felt like I have so much to give and I have. I just don't know where to put it.
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Tonya Moseley
I'm curious about what you mean when you say that you've been playing characters in your personal life, all of your life. What do you mean by that?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, since I was little, I mean, since I was, I think it was five or six years old, I realized, I said I'm not going to recognize myself until I'm older. And I knew it would take about 50 years to get there and here I am. But I felt like if I was going to be a rock star wife, I wanted to Be the best rock star wife, or if I was going to be, you know, a lifeguard, I wanted to put my own spin on it. I was going to my makeup artist's house at three in the morning and, you know, with a head full of rollers and false eyelashes showing up on the set, and they couldn't do anything about it. I just kind of wanted to do things a certain way and kind of directed my own life experience from fantasy to fantasy to fantasy.
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Tonya Moseley
Were you able to pinpoint, like, what was it about 5 years old that made you say, I'm going to present based on wherever I am and what I'm doing? Like, I'm not going to know who I am until I'm 50? That is an extraordinary thing at 5 years old to come to.
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Pamela Anderson
I had some trauma when I was younger, and I learned how to escape myself, and that is where I learned to transform into other people, I think, you know, looking back. But I forgot who I was. And my only real moments were raising my children. And when I was writing my memoirs, I realized these chapters were so colorful because I had. I'd really transformed into these characters. And at different times, I was. I felt like different people. But my first plane ride was to, you know, Los Angeles and then to the Playboy Mansion. Yeah. So it just was one thing after another. And I had this amazing, wild, you know, messy life. And that gave me a lot to pull from when I was playing this character. But other characters, I feel like my pockets are full of experience. I can access these emotions and this. These times in my life, naturally, it's. It's something that I enjoy doing, but I've been doing it since I was little. I just didn't realize this was a business and this is the way it was going to work out. So I was. I'm kind of set up for this in a way.
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Tonya Moseley
Pamela, the trauma that you experienced as a young person, you're a sex abuse survivor, and you endured abuse during the formative years of your life. And you talk about this in great detail in the documentary. Were you ever hesitant about talking about it for the dog? And what made you decide that? It was a very important element of your story to tell, because I think.
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Pamela Anderson
People are fighting invisible battles and we need to be kind to each other. And I thought that was the message I was trying to parlay, but also, that's how I feel. And I talked about it before in a very small group, and then somebody picked up on that and made it more widely known. And so I felt like in the documentary, it was important for me to address. But also there's many people out there that have gone through, you know, similar things and I want them to know that they can still realize their dreams. I feel like I've never looked at my life as a woe as me. I've always looked at this made me stronger and this is. And that just life is hard for everybody and this is where art is born.
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Tonya Moseley
Did you ever feel I'm taking us back to the 90s and you know, while reading up on you, I'll be honest, Pamela, I was just sick watching credible news interviewers ask you questions about your anatomy during interviews. And you handled it with such grace. How did you do that? Did you go into those interviews with kind of an armor, knowing that those were the kind of questions that were coming because you seemed to be so quick witted and had such an ability to be able to just define from the energy that was being presented to you. And I'm just thinking about you as this person who has so many ideas. But that was not something that was afforded to you to talk about in the past.
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Pamela Anderson
You know, Suzanne Somers had a great line. She said, you can't play a dumb blonde and be a dumb blonde. So part of it was just, I think I had to have a sense of humor. But I also found ways to if people were going to talk that way to me, I wanted to bring up something meaningful to me like animal rights. And I found that I could share the attention with something more meaningful. And that gave me some relief to know that I could travel anywhere in the world for whatever reason, if it was Baywatch or Playboy, and I could talk about animal rights. And that's what I've been doing to this point. And this is when my sons kind of stepped in and said, mom, but we want to tell your story because we know you're capable of so much more too. And you're in your career and it's time to focus on you and your career. And you can still do favors for other people, but to focus on what you love. People always ask me, why didn't you do these movie roles? I said, well, these movie roles were not being presented to me and the relationships really were taking over my life. And I was raising two boys in a kind of a chaotic environment where I needed to be with them. And from my own experience as a child, I wanted to be with them. I didn't want anybody to look after them other than me.
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Tonya Moseley
The favors that your sons were referring to were those like Cameo roles and stuff like that. Cause you do have such a sense of humor, like, you are in on the joke in many of the roles that you take on. I'm thinking about Borat, which I absolutely love that movie, I have to say. But your ability to make fun of yourself.
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Pamela Anderson
Right, well, that's. That's part of it. And. And, yeah, I did a lot of favors for friends. I got to work with a lot of incredible photographers and do cameos if it was either for even my brother's friends. You know, I just felt like, okay, they can get this movie made if I do this little funny thing as myself. But, you know, these weren't good for me. These were good for other people. And that's what my kids were saying. You've got to stop doing that moment. Like, you get to be you now. You get to challenge yourself. And I've always been carrying this secret. I feel like I've known I was capable of more, but I didn't know what. And doing Broadway really excited me and really felt like, oh, you know, I have. I do have a lot to give, because if I can do that, I can do anything.
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Tonya Moseley
Broadway, like, theater is a very exhaustive process, not only just having to perform, but, like, it's. It's the performance physically, too. It's pretty taxing.
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Pamela Anderson
Well, and it was wonderful because they wanted me to do, you know, the role full strength, not watered down. They knew I was capable of it. And so it was. I didn't know if I could sing or dance or act on stage, but I felt very comfortable. Not comfortable on stage, just free. And I felt like I was home on stage. I really loved it, even though it was so scary. You're vibrating backstage before you get out there, but when you get out there, you just feel safe. You feel like no one can hurt you out there.
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Tonya Moseley
The way you describe stepping out on stage in theater, it just sort of reminds me of how you've described also your very first Playboy shoot, because you've said from the very first snap of that camera, you describe yourself as feeling like you had broken free from something. It seems so counterintuitive to this shy, unsure girl that you also describe yourself as. Can you say more about that feeling you felt in front of the camera when you. You first experienced it?
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Pamela Anderson
It was another feeling just like this, where I was a painfully shy girl. And I hated that about myself. I hated it. It was debilitating. It was paralyzing. And I needed to do something to break free of that. And that was why I said yes to Playboy, not thinking that I could ever it was just a cover. It wasn't nudity or anything. This was just the COVID And then once I came to Los Angeles and did the COVID they talked me into becoming a playmate. I remember calling my mother and her going, do it. I would do it. I said, okay, I'll do it.
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Tonya Moseley
If someone asked me, I would do it. I think that's what she said.
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Pamela Anderson
Yes, she said that. And so I did it. And I and I was also looking after my parents. And I remember up until then, I was still, you know, giving half of my paychecks to my parents. I thought everybody did that. And so it was nice to to be able to, you know, pay off some bills for all of us. And I've done that since then. I've looked after my family. And it's just what I feel is important to do.
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Tonya Moseley
Let's take a short break. If you're just joining us, my guest is Pamela Anderson. She stars in the new movie the Last Showgirl, directed by Gia Coppola. We'll continue our conversation after a short break. This is FRESH air.
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Tonya Moseley
When you were a kid growing up in Ladysmith, British Columbia. First off, can you describe Ladysmith for us for folks who will never have a chance to go there?
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Pamela Anderson
It's just a tiny town, one street of stores. And you know, my my grandmother had this little auto court called Arcady Auto Court, and she lived here after my grandfather passed and had nine little cabins. And so I've kind of recreated this little, this little similar to what my grandmother had with these cabins. And I've moved my parents onto the property. There's just it's beautiful rocky mountains and lots of trees. It's a rainforest. I live in a Rainforest, and there's, you know, the beach. I live on the east coast, so the tides are high and very, very low. And I have a long dock. I don't have a boat, but I have paddle boards and kayaks. It's a very peaceful place to be. And I'm glad I came home.
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Tonya Moseley
Yeah, you're glad you came home. But when you're growing up, you always wanted to leave. You wanted to escape, you wanted to see what the world had in store for you. How did Playboy even discover you?
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Pamela Anderson
There was a few times they'd come up to me. Actually, one time I was at a bus stop and someone came up to me and asked me because I was standing next to an advertisement of myself. I was getting the bus, and there was a bus ad of me at the. At the fitness center that I used to work at the tanning salon at. They asked me to do their ads. So then I. Someone said, is that you? And I said, yes. And he goes, oh, I'm so and so from Playboy. Would you consider shooting for Playboy? And I. I was like, absolutely not. I would never do that. And then Marilyn Grabowski called me at my house because my number was listed, you know, just called Pamela Anderson, Kitsilano beach. And she found me. And on the phone, I was having an argument with my boyfriend or fiance at the time. Actually, I've been engaged many times. And she was asking me if I would come to shoot a cover of Playboy. And she said, if we like it, we'll print it. And I said, well, call me when it's for real. And I hung up. And my boyfriend or fiance was really mad at me, and she called back and she said, no, it's for real. And I said, okay. And I just took my purse and I ran out of there and I didn't come back. The rest is history. I know it sounds crazy, and the rest is history. I thought, what am I doing staying here? This is no fun.
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Tonya Moseley
I want to talk a little bit more about your parents, because in the documentary A Love Story, we also learn a little bit more about their relationship and how it impacted you. In this clip I'm about to play, you're describing. Describing them. Let's listen.
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Pamela Anderson
My mom was a waitress, and she worked at Smitty's Pancake House. But my dad was a poker player, con man, chimney sweep with a top hat and everything. Everyone has a story about my father, the notorious bad boy of Ladysmith. My dad liked to race cars. And my mom has a scar across her whole forehead because her Head went through the windshield when she was pregnant with me. And we like to joke that's probably the reason I'm a little bit crazy.
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Tonya Moseley
That was my guest, Pamela Anderson, in the Netflix documentary about her life describing her parents. How do you think your parents relationship affected the way you saw love and marriage for yourself?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, my parents are still together, madly in love. You know, they write each other beautiful cards and letters and they're still jealous. If someone is out too long, they want to know where they've been. And they've always had this very wild love affair. And I think my brother and I would feel like we were in the way a lot of the times because they were the most important people in each other's lives. And that was something I never wanted my kids to feel. Even though I love my parents, I care for them and they are here with me. And my dad is really kind of mellowed out and I guess in his later years he had a stroke about five years ago. He made a full comeback. He even got his eyesight back, which is interesting. He used to have to wear glasses and now he doesn't. But they're madly in love. But in that wild way. I think that that was my impression of what love is. You know, it was a volatile relationship at times and I would, you know, take my brother to different places to keep him from seeing things. It's kind of like this small town love affair. I don't know if love affairs change if it's big town or little towns. Yeah, they were like the bad boy and the, and the bombshell. They would my mom running around in these, you know, butter yellow pants, you know, cute little outfits and a bouffant hairdo and, you know, my dad with the slick back hair and the cigarettes rolled up in his sleeve and, and the motorcycle and the whole thing. I mean, they're a movie and they.
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Tonya Moseley
Sound so much like you. You know, you mentioned how you've been married several times. I think there's something tremendously optimistic and brave to number one, end a relationship that's no longer working. But also, number two, feel that it's possible to experience real love again. And so when I meet people who have been married multiple times, that's kind of what I'm thinking. Do you still carry that optimism?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, I do. I think that it's. If you're in a relationship that isn't working, does it make it better if you stay in it or is it better that you leave? I mean, these are up to the individuals and I Remember going to the Playboy Mansion actually one time, and Smokey Robinson came up to me and I was in tears about leaving a relationship. And he said, you know what, darling? You're a romantic and, you know, keep fighting for love. And I thought, if Smokey Robinson thinks I'm romantic and it's okay with him, I'm okay.
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Tonya Moseley
You know, the public's fixation on your love and sex life, it really picked up in the 90s with this video of you and your then husband, rocker Tommy Lee, that was stolen. It was a sex tape. And this was tremendously painful for you. I want to put this time period in perspective because this was the beginning of the Internet and you sued the video distribution company that posted that video. But then, if I'm correct, you backed off because you were afraid of the stress that it would put on you. You were pregnant at the time. I am really sorry that this happened to you.
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Pamela Anderson
Well, the timeline was we had a safe the size of a refrigerator behind a carpeted wall while we were doing construction on our house. And that's where we kept a lot of our home movies. It wasn't that we made this tape. They spliced together P of 50 different tapes and made it look like we were, you know, who knows? And we couldn't even remember if there's anything bad on the tape or exploitive. And when we were starting to get offers of millions of dollars and we were like, what is going on? And then we actually got one tape back on a vhs and Tommy looked at it and I didn't look at it and realized that someone had stolen the safe and then worked with this distributor. And we didn't know what to do. We tried to stop it. And I was pregnant with Dylan. And they brought us into depositions and Tommy would pace the hallway, but they were talking to me and trying to really, you know, hammer me down. They had nude pictures of me from Playboy. They said I had no right to privacy, that I was owned by the world, that nothing could ever ruin my career because. Because I was not worth anything. And it was so hard. And after a few days of these depositions, Tommy just looked at me and said, we're done here. We're not going to put our child at risk. And I agreed. And we just walked out there and we said just. They'll deal with karma. We don't want a dime. We don't want any of this dirty money. And just for them to. I won't say what he said to them, but I agreed. We walked out of the exact we couldn't do it.
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Tonya Moseley
Let's take a short break. If you're just joining us, my guest is Pamela Anderson. She stars in the new movie the Last Showgirl, directed by Gia Coppola. We'll continue our conversation after a short break. This is FRESH air.
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Pamela Anderson
You get at a point where you start asking, what did you do in your life that was significant?
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Tonya Moseley
Do you ever think about all of the scripts that never made their way to you? Because I'm just thinking about that agent who decided right away that you weren't for the last Showgirl, you know?
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Pamela Anderson
You know, I hate to throw him under the bus because he really was wonderful in so many ways. And I know he genuinely cared about me, but he wasn't really a theatrical agent. And I think he was always thinking money first and didn't know if I was interested in doing a film like this. But I remember having a conversation with him not too long after and just saying, if you don't believe in me as an actress, I'm gonna have to move on. And nobody would take me until they saw the Last Showgirl. So it's you have to do something first. And that's the hard part about this business is people always think you you have a formula. You can just get an agent, get a publicist, get a an assistant and, you know, start reading scripts and work with Meryl Streep. But that's not how it works. It's a lot of it has to do with the stars aligning and somebody seeing you. If it's Jamie Lee Curtis or Giacopola, in my case, but or a loving son. Well, my loving son, of course, but. But also open up to it and reveal yourself to the world so people can maybe think of you for things and lose the armor and the protection.
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Tonya Moseley
It's not the same thing. But I'm very fascinated with your decision not to Wear makeup. How much of that decision was part of this journey that you're on to get closer to who you are outside of the Persona?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, everything is spontaneous. It's not calculated. So I was just at Paris Fashion Week, and I was wearing this beautiful Vivian Westwood dress and a big hat, and I thought, why do I have to sit in a makeup chair for three hours? There's only, you know, how many inches of my face is going to show. Are people really going to fall over backwards if I'm not wearing makeup? So I decided to go to the Louvre and take a walk through the park and just put the clothes on and go. And people around me were like, no, you need a glam team, and this is the industry standard. And I said, I don't want to do the industry standard. It's not that I felt like I looked better without makeup. I just look more myself. And this is something that was just part of my journey that I needed to do for myself. And I felt with the way photography is these days, when people wear full faces of makeup, it's not really that flattering in a lot of cases, especially as we get older. And so I just. These are just decisions I made for myself. And I found that pictures with me with makeup weren't working. Didn't look very good either. So I preferred a fresh face. And that's just how it started.
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Tonya Moseley
Do you think you would have been able to make that decision when you were younger?
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Pamela Anderson
Well, again, I was enjoying creating other kind of characters. You know, I was. It was part of the. I was in a makeup chair every day, you know, on Baywatch or VIP or stacked or barbed wire. And I had a girlfriend, Alexis Vogel, who's passed away now, and she was. Was an incredible makeup artist. And it wasn't. Didn't take a long time to do makeup. It wasn't about this contour and shading and highlights. It was just, you know, a little bit of makeup here and there and some lip liner and some eyelashes and eyebrows. But she was really. It was just. She was such a girl's girl. She did so much for people that were. We used to go to domestic violence shelters and do makeovers with girls. And she had such a big heart, and I felt like there's just nobody like her. And I wish that she was here to see these big makeup looks be popular, because when we were doing it, it was not popular. She was popular to be kind of. She passed away from breast cancer about seven years ago. And I never really refound my Alexis, and I thought, well, if I can't do it myself, I mean, I do go out sometimes a little, a little lip tint or some mascara. I'm experimenting. I don't know what my next incarnation is going to be. I mean, as I get older, I would, you know, love to find what that is. But I'm just in this space right now. So it's not that I've sworn off makeup. I've just I want to figure it out as I go.
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Tonya Moseley
Pamela Anderson, this was such a pleasure to talk with you. Thank you so much.
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Pamela Anderson
Well, thank you very much.
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Tonya Moseley
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