Lindsay Addario (3:52)

Thank you so much.

Terry Gross (3:54)

I want to begin where the film does on March 6th of 2022 in Irpin, Ukraine, where you're on assignment for the New York Times. And I believe it's there that you're photographing Ukrainian refugees, children, peaceful civilians attempting to flee the violence that had begun just days earlier. In the distance, we see a family with backpacks, a blue roller suitcase, and they make it safely across the Irpin river and into Kyiv, where they then enter your frame. Can you tell us what you saw next?

Lindsay Addario (4:30)

Yeah. So on the morning of March 6, it was a Sunday morning, and we understood that hundreds of people were fleeing the area of Bucha and Irpin, which were the suburbs around Kyiv. And it seemed very tense that morning. And we approached and immediately took cover behind this sort of cement wall. And I was photographing civilians kind of streaming across my viewfinder, getting really angry, actually kind of upset that I was watching like children being dragged by their parents and the elderly on people's backs and that civilians were once again paying the price of war. And so as I was photographing, a mortar round came in. And it came in and it landed a little bit off in the distance, like, I don't know, a few hundred meters. And then a second round came in. And my security advisor said, do you want to leave? And I said, no, the Russians know this is a civilian evacuation route. You know, Putin said that he was not deliberately targeting civilians, so I think we're okay. Then suddenly another round came in and landed literally about 20ft from me. And I dove down behind the cement wall. So immediately I looked at Andriy My Ukrainian colleague, Andriy Dubchak. And we checked each other out to make sure we weren't bleeding. And then it was very dusty because of, of course, the aftermath of this mortar landing very close to us. And I immediately assumed that it was soldiers who had been hit. I don't know why, because obviously there were civilians in that position. But in my head, I sort of, like, thought it was soldiers. And I ran across the street and I started trying to process what I was seeing. And I was looking at these four bodies first. I didn't know if they were alive or had been killed. And I was looking at their feet, and I saw these little moon boots of a child. And I thought, how can it be like, that's a child, you know, there shouldn't be a child killed. And I am a mother. And my son Alfred was about three at that time. And my instinct was to run, but then I said to myself, like, no, you know, you need to take photographs. Like, I knew I had just witnessed, like, the deliberate targeting of civilian evacuation route. So I started taking photos and very quickly moving my way around the scene and eventually made it back to the hotel and filed the pictures of this family. It was a mother, her two children, and a church volunteer who was ushering them to safety that morning. And then there was a lot of debate as to, you know, whether it was appropriate to run a picture of four dead civilians. The New York Times doesn't usually publish pictures of dead civilians, and nor would they publish faces. And so eventually they decided to run with the picture. And I really pushed for it because I was in the attack and I witnessed the run up, and I knew it was deliberate. It wasn't just sort of a random attack. And it turned out that the father and husband of the woman and children killed found out about his family's death from my photograph. And so that on the front page.

Terry Gross (7:57)

Of the New York Times.

Lindsay Addario (7:58)

Well, he saw it first on Twitter and then eventually, you know, on the New York Times. But it was, for him, his first. He first learned about his family's death on Twitter and on social media. And he recognized the luggage and the jackets. And we met with him a few days later with Andrew Kramer, the New York Times bureau chief at the time.

Terry Gross (8:23)

Speaking of the documentary, one of the reasons you agreed to participate in the film is because you had seen several other films about war correspondence, and they were always about men, and no one ever really got it right. What did you want to correct in making this movie?

Lindsay Addario (8:41)

Well, I mean, look, no one ever got It. Right. Maybe that's not fair to say, because obviously a documentary on a man like Jim Knocked Away War Photographer was brilliant, and Jim is brilliant. I mean, he's an extraordinary war photographer, but we're very different people. And I think the image that most people have in their heads of war photographers is like, Jim, you know, stoic, strong. You know, he puts everything into his work and doesn't really share his personal life. And I think that is a majority. I think Jim represents a majority of people who do the work that I do. But I guess when I said no one ever gets it right, it's more like we're not all like that, you know? And I rarely see the picture of a woman depicted in that role as a war photographer. And so I really wanted to show a different version.

Terry Gross (9:37)

There's a moment in the film where we see you in Somalia, Panama, and the Darien Gap where you're working to tell these urgent stories to show us in vivid photographic detail the cost of conflict while also fielding a typical call from your family back home. I want to play a clip from that moment. In it, your husband Paul speaks first. It's the length of assignments that's always been the challenge in our relationship. If it's one week, two weeks, it's not really a big deal. But when it gets longer, over three weeks is always. Things tend to unravel at home.

Lindsay Addario (10:16)

Okay, okay, stop. In my heart, all I want to be doing is shooting. It's frustrating. I'm constantly tortured, like I'm not in the right place. But I come back, I'm supposed to be really happy, and I feel like I should be there. And I feel like a bad journalist because I'm not. My head is always where I'm not. Hi, Lucas. When are you coming back? Like, 10 days. I know, my love.

Terry Gross (10:52)

It's the compromise, right? She wants to do all of the things and be at home as well, and it's just not possible.

Lindsay Addario (11:03)

Everything has gotten delayed. I may not get home till Saturday. I suck as a parent. I suck as a journalist. I'm always compromising. I can't do it. I'll switch with someone. No, I don't know.

Terry Gross (11:20)

He's asked for it constantly. This is Alpha Sting. I mean, are you seriously not gonna. Why don't you just be a mother? That's rough hearing that clip now. How did it play to you?

Lindsay Addario (11:36)

Well, I mean, it plays absolutely like our lives, you know, I mean, the thing is, this is a constant negotiation and a constant give and take in our lives. And Paul and I have those conversations routinely because what, you know, I try to line up these stories. What happens in most of the places I cover is that they are extremely hard to access. So it's not like you can just fly into the heart of a war and, you know, shoot for 10 days and leave. Like often it takes me days, if not a week to actually get to a story. And then I have to work. And so, you know, a lot of that is I'll sign up to be the mystery reader at school and I go and read to Alfred's class and then I have to cancel because I get stuck in the Darien Gap. Or everyone always says, do you FaceTime with your kids when you're gone? And actually I find it almost harder on them because then they're just reminded of the fact that I'm not there. And so, you know, it's just. So there's so much packed into that clip that you played because it's, it's stuff I've been grappling with since I became a parent. And it kills me that my kids don't have just a normal mother who can be present all the time. And that's why I really didn't think I would ever have children because I just didn't think this profession would allow me the ability to sort of be able to stop and have kids. And it wasn't until I met Paul and Paul said, you know, I will be the full time parent and you can continue doing your work. So it was sort of like our prenup. You know, it's like, I don't want money, I want my freedom and I want my time to be able to work. That's all I wanted out of, you know, my marriage. And our, you know, when we talked about looking forward was like, we just realized we love each other, we want a family, but I'm never going to be that person who's home all the time.

Terry Gross (13:37)

Did he sign the photojournalist prenup?

Lindsay Addario (13:41)

Yeah, well, he did in that he married me. And I think he knew that when he met me I was exactly the same. So, you know, people don't change that much. And so I think he got that.

Terry Gross (13:54)

You say in the film that raising kids is harder than war, which is a great one line joke, but is any of that bit true for you?

Lindsay Addario (14:04)

Yeah, it is true for me, actually. I think people are so stunned that I actually said that out loud, but I really mean it. You know, having kids is one of, of course, the greatest gifts in life, but it's also one of the hardest things I've ever done, you know, because I have these two sons who rely on me. You can't just sort of turn them off when you need some time, you know, you need. It's a lot of work and it's a lot of emotion. I have to be dedicated when I'm home to whatever they need. And that's what parenting is. But I think for, you know, for any working parent, we have so much stress and so much on our minds that we bring home. And so it's very hard. You know, when I'm in a war zone, that is my focus and that's all I'm doing. It's like I know how to navigate my work. I go in, I make calculations about the danger, I photograph, I go back to the hotel, I file, I try not to get hit in a missile strike. I go to the shelter when I have to. It's very kind of, you know, I know the drill. But with kids, it's like I can't control when their emotions arise or when their needs arise. And it's a full time thing and it's very hard to do to have a full time job as a parent when I'm juggling another job, essentially, or another life.

Terry Gross (15:30)

In your memoir, it's what I do. You write, when I return home and rationally consider the risks, the choices are difficult. But when I'm doing my work, I'm alive.

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Terry Gross (15:42)

So when you're back home, how do you grapple with that?

Lindsay Addario (15:46)

You know, you're right. I mean, you're absolutely right. I think when I'm anywhere but behind the viewfinder of my camera, actually taking photographs, I have a million things in my mind. I have a million things I want to be doing, I have a million things I am doing. And I'm very kind of scattered and stressed and whatever. And the place where it all all comes together and I just focus and I am totally 100% present is when I'm working. And I don't know how to describe that. When I'm home, I'm happy to be home, I'm happy to be with my family. But I have one eye on the television. What is the story I should be covering next? I'm spread very thin. But it is true that when I start to actually go out to take photos and I'm in a situation where I'm interviewing someone, capturing their story, making pictures, I feel most like myself, like where I need to be. And that's a hard thing to say out Loud. Because most people will be like, well, that makes you a horrible mother. And that makes you like a. You know, you should never say that out loud. But that's just me. And, you know, that is a reality.

Terry Gross (17:04)

Lindsay, I wanted to talk about how you arrived at doing all this work in the first place, which I believe began back in. In 1996, working at the Buenos Aires Herald, where you were paid $10 a picture.

Lindsay Addario (17:19)

Yes.

Terry Gross (17:21)

At that point, did you know what photographer you wanted to be?

Lindsay Addario (17:25)

No, I absolutely did not know what kind of photographer I wanted to be. I had been photographing since I was about 12 or 13. My dad gave me a camera that a client of his had given to him, and I started kind of teaching myself how to photograph. I read all these books with Ansel Adams photos on the COVID of how to Photograph and Aperture and F Stop and Speed. And so I was kind of teaching myself how to photograph. But by the time I got to Argentina, I had graduated from University of Wisconsin at Madison. I had studied international relations and Italian, and I wanted to learn Spanish. And so I went to Argentina, and it was in Buenos Aires that I started becoming aware of photographs in the newspaper and how one could sort of marry photography and international relations. And it was this revelation to me, and it seems crazy, but actually I wasn't really aware that photojournalism as a profession existed. And so I went into the English language newspaper, and there were two men in kind of their 40s who would just chain smoke in the photo department and pull pictures off the AP wire. And I went in and I just said, like, can I have a job? And they looked at me and they were like, first of all, go learn Spanish and come back. And so I was like, okay. And I already spoke Italian, so I learned Spanish very, very quickly. And I went back, like, I don't know, a month or two later, and I said, okay, like, I learned Spanish. Can I have a job? And they were like, no. And I just basically was relentless. I just kept going in, and finally they said, okay, well, hold on, Lindsay, hold on.

Terry Gross (19:08)

Why do you think you were so relentless? Why did you keep badgering them?

Lindsay Addario (19:12)

Because I think I was. In all that time, I was like. Started looking at newspapers and magazines and exhibitions. I went to a Salgado exhibit that kind of blew my mind. And I think I realized, like, I could take photographs and tell stories with photographs, and it was something that I. I didn't realize before. To me, photography was like fine art, or it was Henri Cartier, Bresson, and it was like, capture the decisive moment, or it was, but it never was about telling stories and specifically about political issues, international relations. And so it just seemed like, okay, this is it. This is for me.

Terry Gross (19:57)

But is the doggedness because you're the youngest of four growing up in Connecticut? Like, where does that come from?

Lindsay Addario (20:03)

I mean, I wish I knew where the doggedness came from. I mean, I do not give up. And it's like, yeah, it's probably because I'm the youngest of four sisters, but it's a trait in me that has cursed me, and it's blessed me because I just don't give up. But anyway, so I kept going into this photo department, and the guys were just so sick of me that they were like, look, Madonna is filming Evita at the Casa Rosada. And if you can sneak on set and get a picture of Madonna, we'll give you a job. So that was my big break. I went to the set. It was, like, early evening. There were all these New York bouncers. There was a perimeter around the set. And of course, I talked my way on. I was like, if you let me in, I'm gonna be famous one day. I'm gonna be a famous photographer. The guys were like, okay, you're so pathetic. We're just gonna let you inside, and good luck. And so I went on to the press riser, and I raised my little camera to my eye, and I only had a 50 millimeter lens. And, of course, Madonna was, like, miles away. And so I must have looked so exasperated because this guy, one of the journalists, one of the photographers on the press riser, had, like, a 600 millimeter lens. You know, it was on a tripod. It looked like a Hubble telescope, essentially. And he looked at me and he goes, hey, kid, put your camera back on my lens and you could take a photo. And I was so green. I knew so little about photography that I didn't even realize I can put my Nikon camera back on the back of his giant lens. And so he helped me, and I did it, and I took a photo, and it was like, of the balcony. It wasn't even, like, Madonna, you know, it was the balcony. And I ran. I was so ignorant that I didn't even stay all night to get the picture. And I ran back to the newsroom, and I ended up getting the picture on the front page. And it was a horrible picture. But I got a job. And so I stayed, like, nine months. And that's where I did my first, like, published works.

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Terry Gross (23:54)

Come 2000. In your late 20s, you're working in Pakistan and Afghanistan under Taliban rule. But it wasn't until the attacks of 911 that the trajectory of your career changed. Can you take me back to the first time you were bombed in March of 2003 in northern Iraq?

Lindsay Addario (24:15)

Yeah. So this is while U.S. forces were backing Kurdish Peshmerga to fight against Al Ansar in northern Iraq. And so I was working with a group of journalists, international media based in northern Iraq. So Erbil and Suleimaniya, and things were getting very, very tense. It was like kind of moving up to when the invasion of Iraq was going to happen. The US Forces with Kurdish Peshmerga fighting Al Ansar fighting was kind of really picking up. And it was near this area of Halabjah in northern Iraq. And so I was working with a group of journalists, and we heard that a lot of civilians started fleeing from the mountains where Al Ansar had their stronghold so we went out there and we were all kind of parked along this road. It was like a T junction, and people were fleeing from the mountains, coming toward us. And at one point it started getting pretty tense and a lot of the civilians were saying, get out of here, get out of here. It's not safe. And of course, the one lesson I've learned in all my many years covering war is you always have to listen to the locals. And so I was standing with this other journalist and I suddenly got this, like, feeling in the pit of my stomach and I ran back to the car and shut the door and. And a huge mortar came like, very close to us. And our entire car was thrust forward and our driver just took off and sped like, very, very fast. And we drove for about 10 minutes to a safer area. And we got out and we stopped at a hospital and they were offloading the injured and there were people being treated and it was chaos. And I had never had such a near death experience. And I was kind of in shock. I'm just standing there and all I can think of is, I just. I don't know if I can do this. Like, that was really scary. And suddenly a taxi pulled up and this taxi driver said, is there a journalist around? And I said, yeah. And he said, can anyone help me? I have the body of a journalist in my trunk. And I sort of doubled over and I felt like I was to going. Gonna throw up. And I started sobbing and said, like, I just want to go home. I don't want to end up in the back of a trunk one day. Like, I don't want to die doing this job. You know, I don't think I have it in me to be that brave.

Terry Gross (26:49)

You know, There's a passage about this moment in your book. It's what I do at the end of chapter five. And it has stayed with me since I first read it. And I thought, but if you're open to it, would you mind reading it for us?

Lindsay Addario (27:05)

Okay. How did one transfer the body of a friend out of a country we all snuck into illegally, when there were no functioning embassies, no police, no diplomats, and the only open border accessible from northern Iraq was Iran. It seemed so obvious. But I didn't know that war meant death, that journalists might also get killed in the war? I hid behind the hospital, ashamed of my weakness, my tears and my fear, wondering if I had the strength for this job, and wept inconsolably. The war had begun. You know, it's so interesting to read that passage now. Twenty plus years later, because of course, war means death. And when war, you know, now we're in an era where journalists are routinely targeted and routinely killed. And I've lost friends and colleagues and I've, you know, we've, we've. Journalists. Journalism is equated with death now in a way that it wasn't when I first started out. You know, when I first started out, yeah, we put press and journalists and TV on our flak jackets and helmets and our cars and on the top of our cars in case there was an airstrike to be had. And, you know, it's ridiculous. Now, of course, I read that passage and I was so naive.

Terry Gross (28:33)

Three weeks into the Libyan uprising in March of 2011, you and three other New York Times journalists are kidnapped and held hostage for six days by the Gaddafi army. And in the book, you write about this moment a month later when you're back in New York, despite all that you had witnessed and endured yourself. It was actually the passing of your colleagues, Tim Hetherington and Chris Hondros, who were both killed in Libya, that kind of opened the floodgates, so to speak. Like, was it the loss of them that tore down what you described in the book as your ever present guard? Is that what did it?

Lindsay Addario (29:14)

Well, it was a combination of things. I think what happens in these situations is like, we survived. Our driver Mohammed did not. The New York Times sent a team back to Libya to see if they could help find him in one of the prisons if he was still alive. And essentially he was never found alive. And so we assume he was executed or killed in crossfire in that moment. And, and so there's like a survivor's guilt that, that, that that happens or that I felt. And so when Tim and Chris were killed, basically I had been emailing with Tim and Chris. I spent the New Year's Eve with them that year with both of them and, you know, a bunch of other photographers. And Tim and I were emailing in the lead up to his, his arrival in Libya. He was asking me all sorts of questions about what to bring and et cetera. And then when we survived that horrific experience in Libya where we should have been killed, I mean, we could have been killed. I don't know how many different, on how many different occasions to be back in New York and to be sitting in a conference room surrounded by a bunch of editors and to see on my BlackBerry at the time, to look over and see that they had been killed in Libya as a headline of an email, I couldn't hold Myself, together, everything sort of came crashing down on me. And I think it was because, you know, in those moments, I asked myself those questions of like, why? Why did we survive? And they didn't. You know, why? Who decides these things in life? And there are no answers of, of course. But it just felt like the proximity, my own proximity to death became so clear in that moment. Maybe I just tucked it aside and just thought, okay, you know, like I tell myself every time I'm in a near death experience, maybe it wasn't as bad as I thought it was.

Terry Gross (31:23)

I'm curious about the risks journalists face at this moment because since you began 25 years ago, there's been a rise in kidnapping, there's a rise in targeted killing of journalists, with few being held accountable for those killings. According to the CPJ, the Committee to Protect Journalists 2024 was the deadliest year for journalists. And this year, 121 journalists and media workers have already been killed. And those are just the ones we know about.

Lindsay Addario (31:52)

Exactly.

Terry Gross (31:55)

Do you think the lack of culpability is the result of people believing less and less in the value of our largest media institutions?

Lindsay Addario (32:07)

I don't know. I think they play off one another. I think a few things are happening. I think, yes, journalists are routinely killed and targeted with impunity. I think that no one, very few people are ever held accountable for killing journalists. Although, you know, there have been obviously people like the Committee to Protect Journalists. There are organizations that very, you know, they take incredible, extraordinary measures to document every single death of a journalist and make people aware of the fact that this is a profession that is increasingly dangerous. And I think. But I also think that the rhetoric of, like, fake news and, you know, the rhetoric against the truth and journalism itself also doesn't help the situation, you know, so I think it comes from both sides. I think that people take for granted the fact that they have news at their disposal, that there is a free press that we are allowed to express ourselves. And I think that's problematic right now because, you know, we live in a world where democracy and journalism and free press is always under attack. And we see it in certain countries where people cannot speak about, cannot speak honestly and openly without getting targeted. So, you know, when you see journalists get targeted, the obvious casualty of that is truth.

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Lindsay Addario (35:35)

Well, I mean, how could I not? I mean, look at what I do for a living. I mean, I'm constantly photographing people who are killed in war or people whose lives have been torn apart by war. And so part of being a war correspondent is that we're always making contingency plans, and that is relevant to our own lives, you know, And I think I go into these assignments knowing how dangerous they are. Obviously, some are less dangerous than others, but just driving a car in war zones is dangerous. It's one of the most dangerous things we do. And in fact, ironically, the only time I've been injured to date was in a car accident, not on the front line. And so I think, yes, that line, you know, when I say that, I mean it, and I'm not. It's painful for me to say. And it's painful, I'm sure. You know, I think when I was watching the movie with Lucas, it was that line that was so hard for me to hear myself say next to him, because it's true. And I, you know, obviously, I don't want to get killed. I don't want to die. I don't want to die in war or anywhere else, because I want to be here for my children and for my family. But life is full of surprises, and anything can happen, not only in war but anywhere. And I think we have to always, you know, have contingency plans in life and think of our children. What happens if. And that's important.

Terry Gross (37:20)

Have you seen the documentary Salt of the Earth?

Lindsay Addario (37:23)

No. The Salgado? Yeah. No, not yet. I have it on my.

Terry Gross (37:28)

Okay.

Lindsay Addario (37:28)

Yeah.

Terry Gross (37:29)

There's a part I want to just quote for you, like, well, around the same time that you walked into that exhibit that you mentioned earlier. In the mid-90s, Sebastio Salgado said, after years of photographing famine, war, and genocide in Africa and Europe, I did not believe in anything. I do not believe in the salvation of the human race. Our history is a history of war. It is an endless story. We should see these images to see how terrible our species is. Now. He passed away earlier this year, and I know he's been a major influence on your work and your career and the photos you're trying to produce, work that affects policy, that captures the repercussions of those policies, the fallout. But when you hear that by the time he was at the tail end of his career, he was weighed down to the point where he didn't see the point of white he was doing, he did not have any hope left. How does that quote sit with you in 2025?

Lindsay Addario (38:39)

You know, I still have hope. I really do. I still think images can move people, can educate people, can enlighten people, can flip misconceptions, can bridge people. You know, I still believe in photojournalism. And I still. Even though I've seen so many horrific things and I've seen evil and I've seen, you know, seen things that I just never thought a human being would be capable of, and I've heard testimonies, and, you know, I still see extraordinary beauty and generosity and resilience and love and hope. And I. I think so long as the people I'm photographing have that spirit, I will have that spirit. And so I'm not at that point. I hope I don't get to that point. No one ever knows. I mean, I can't predict how I'll feel in a year, in five years, in 10 years. I have no idea. But I still have hope and belief in photojournalism.

Terry Gross (39:54)

At the moment, you're with your family back home in London, right?

Lindsay Addario (39:58)

Yes.

Terry Gross (40:00)

Do you know where you're headed next?

Lindsay Addario (40:03)

I'm looking at Sudan and then I'm also looking at some stories in the United States.

Terry Gross (40:14)

And have you had that conversation with your family yet about the next assignment?

Lindsay Addario (40:20)

No, I have not because I've been on the sort of I've been out promoting the documentary and doing interviews for a few months. And I think Alfred, my younger, my six year old, he's gotten used to having me around and so has Lucas. And I think it's harder when I've been kind of in and out and home than when I'm just gone for a long time at once. So I haven't had that conversation yet, primarily because I just came home from a three week trip and I just hesitant to say I'm going to leave again and I'm going to Sudan. So I'm waiting for the right time. It never feels like the right time. But there are hard conversations when I have to say I'm leaving.

Terry Gross (41:10)

How do you do it?

Lindsay Addario (41:13)

Oh, I wait for what feels like the right moment and I just try and be strong and say I'll be back really soon and it's a quick trip and you know, everything will be fine. And you're with Daddy and you know. Yeah.

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When you tell your mother, what do you think she'll say and how do you think she'll say it?

Lindsay Addario (41:34)

My mother, she'll say, when are you gonna stop? Why do you have to go? She's gonna say, do you really have to go? Can't you just stop already? And then she'll giggle and then she'll say, you know, I understand. She says it like, you know.

Maureen Corrigan (41:58)

Yeah.

Terry Gross (42:00)

Lindsay Addario, thank you for joining us.

Lindsay Addario (42:02)

Thank you so much for having me.

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Our book critic Maureen Corrigan has a review of a new novel that she says should spark all sorts of lively conversations about end of life care and what the living owe the dying. It's by Ann Packer, and it's called Some Bright Nowhere.

Maureen Corrigan (44:01)

Is there anything you wouldn't do for a loved one if they were dying? That's a morbid question, for sure. But the dilemma at the center of Some Bright Nowhere, ann Packer's new novel, makes a reader wonder about such things. Packer's main characters, Claire and Elliot, are a couple in their 60s who've been married for almost four decades. For the past eight years, Claire has been battling cancer and Elliot has been a diligent caretaker. Caretaking, he reflects, is a daily amalgam of helping, soothing, driving, phoning, cooking, listening, tending, waiting, learning, remembering, deciding, foregoing. A lot of foregoing. When the novel opens, Claire and Elliot have just walked out of their final appointment with Claire's oncologist. Final because there's nothing more to be done. The couple's two adult children visit, as do Claire's longtime close friends Michelle and Holly, who shower her with self care presents, flannel, PJs, fancy lotions and manicures, causing Claire to joke about the death spa she's comfortably ensconced in. Then one day, when the couple is alone, Claire makes a request to her husband. Here are snippets from that fateful conversation. I'd like them to be here with me, claire says. Them? Holly and Michelle. What I mean is, I'd like them to take care of me. Okay? Elliot hesitated. The more the merrier. Elliot instead of you. Numb, dismayed Eliot agrees to pack up because he loves his wife, and it turns out her deepest wish is that he leave the house. We're seeing a lot of literary fiction these days about the long goodbyes of aging and terminal illness. I'm thinking of recent novels by Richard Ford, Stuart Onan, Elizabeth Strout, and now Ann Packer. Part of the reason, surely, for this uptick in end of days dramas is that many of our novelists and their longtime readers are growing old in tandem. Packer's best known novel, The Dive from Clausen's Pier, was published in 2002. It told the story of a young woman who'd been thinking of breaking up with her fiance, but then feels obligated to stay after he's paralyzed in a diving accident. Packer invested that contrived situation with emotional authenticity. She pulls off the same magic trick in Some Bright Nowhere. As a writer, she's deeply alert to the currents of thoughts and feelings that run through even a second's long conversation. Take this moment, right after Clare has made her peculiar request and shortly before Elliot agrees to grant it, Claire says to Eliot, can I ask you a question? How mad are you? Eliot said he wasn't mad, which was true. He was sad, confused, a little embarrassed, but not mad. I should have already asked this, eliot said, but would I be able to come visit? And Claire burst into tears, unable in that moment to bear the rip she clearly felt she'd torn in his self confidence. Perhaps one reason Claire wants Elliot to vacate the house is that he needs to be needed, as we all do. And as she lay dying, Claire doesn't want to take care of him emotionally. Her friends are easier to be with. They'll survive her death. She isn't their whole world. Another possible explanation for Claire's strange wish is her memory of being part of a crew of women who tended to a friend in her last days. That friend's house, she tells Elliot, was filled with female energy. Chatter, tears, laughter. Listening to Claire describe her gynocentric model for a good death, Elliot is bewildered. He thinks to himself that it was as if Claire were speaking a foreign language, as if she'd lived a secret life he was only now discovering secret and preferred. But he couldn't say that some Bright nowhere is about the things we can't say and don't know about each other, as well as the collateral damage that a terminal disease can inflict on even the best of relationships. It's an odd, beautiful, and absorbing little novel about one of the biggest subjects of them all.

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