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It is the weirdest addiction. Like, if you actually sit, if you. If you're not aware, you can just, like, let it go by, and it doesn't seem like a big deal. But if you're actually trying to not be on your phone like that, trying to not pick up your phone in the morning, you feel. And it's like. It's warfare. Like, you're. It's a major struggle. And I want to talk about. So I literally listened to what happened to me today. I'm in my quiet time, and I think a way that, you know, the enemy has been attacking me a lot recently is through irritability. Like, I just want to say that irritability is something like, obviously, and it's. It's an attack, obviously. Like, sometimes you're just having a bad day and whatever, but I can tell sometimes, like, the way if I'm getting irritable at people, at things, at a situation for no reason, it is such a distraction because it just, like, completely moves you off of your purpose and focus into to, like, just being irritated. Like, it's just the worst feeling ever. So I'm in my quiet time this morning, and all of a sudden I like, literally sit down, I'm spending time with Jesus, and then I think of a situation with John that, like, I'm not even annoyed about. I don't even care about. Didn't bother me. It's all good. All of a sudden, my body gets so irritable, and I actually feel a force, like, literally forcing me to get up out of quiet time to him and address this frustration. And I'm not even, like, upset. Like, I don't. It was out of nowhere, and I literally, like, almost gave in for a second because it became so irritating that I was like, oh, my gosh, I. I have to have this conversation because I can't even focus on Jesus. Wow. And then I literally was like, are you literally kidding me right now? Like, I not about to get up and leave to go do that. I don't even k. It was just so obvious what happened. And then, like, I stick it out. I stay and I feel myself. I have, like, irritation. I'm just, like, irritable, and I'm just distracted. There's so many things pulling on me. I keep having Thought after thought after thought. All of a sudden I'm sitting on the couch. I get a new couch, you guys. And I'm sitting on this couch and I realize that it's not the depth that I wanted it to be. I'm. I'm sitting on the couch. I'm in the middle of quite. I am literally like, holy ho. Like, I am with the Lord. I am with Jesus. And a sudden my body gets so hot and I get so peed off over the couch not being the depth. Like, what am I going to do about it right now? What am I going to do? I was just. I literally, in my head, I start laughing. I go, get behind me, Satan. Like, I'm so tired of it. And then I start thinking about this charge that I saw on Chase the other day that I didn't do. And I need to go dispute it. And then so I'm just. And I literally go, how this is insane that this is happening today when I want to go film this episode and I can't find focus this to save my life today, it's like, oh, you're doing what you're supposed to be doing, but we're gonna just pull you back out and bring you somewhere else. Like, it is so it's like, creepy. It just upsets me so much. And tell me how you feel about this. This is what I've noticed. Pain pushes me into the arms of God when I'm in pain. Like, I seek God's face. I look for Him. I like, I like will just. I. I use. I go to him for refuge. I go to him for comfort. Like when I'm in pain, that's what pushes the arms of God. When I'm anxious, it does the opposite. And that's what I've noticed because I'm wondering why sometimes some bad situations push me closer to God and why some situations cause me to turn my face. And it's anxiety. The spirit of anxiety causes me to turn away from God. And I don't know why that is. I actually just realized that today when I was, you know, sitting. Because the past few weeks I've been battling severe anxiety. And I noticed that, like, I'm repenting 30 times a day. I am consistently repenting. Jesus, forgive me, Lord, for turning away from you. Forgive me for pushing you out. Forgive me from. You know what I mean? Like, it's been really so I noticed that that's what happens with anxiety. It's because anxiety. Anxiety causes you to doubt. Anxiety shakes your faith because, like, pain is hard but it's like we know that we're gonna suffer. We know that we're gonna feel pain. We know like there's something like his, you know, his power really is made perfect in our weakness. So maybe that's it. But then anxiety is, is the unknown and it causes doubt and it shakes your faith. Like sometimes when I'm having, when I'm in pain, I still have faith and hope for the future. Sometimes when things are uncertain and I'm scared. It's literally. We're about to talk about. We're about to read the story in Matthew, I think chapter 16, about Peter walking on water. Should we read that really quick? Yeah. All right, you guys. So we're reading out of the NLT version. We're gonna go to Matthew chapter 14, verse 22, reading from the NLT version. And this is immediately after Jesus performs his miracle of feeding the 5,000 with the five loaves of bread and two fish. So I love this moment where Jesus performs this massive miracle. It's a massive deal. And then you find him going to be by himself to pray to God. Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake. Sorry we didn't pray. Can we just pray real quick? Jesus, we love you, Lord. We invite you, Holy Spirit. I pray that you would teach us the scriptures that you would teach through us, God. I pray that you would join in and co labor with us in teaching your word and telling people about why distraction is such a scheme from the devil. And we pray God today that we expose the devil for his tactics, Lord, and that we bring freedom in Jesus name. Amen. Immediately after this, Jesus insisted that his disciples get back into the boat and cross to the other side of the lake while he sent the other people home. After sending them home, he went up into the hills by himself to pray. Night fell while he was there alone. Meanwhile, the disciples were in trouble far away from land, for a strong wind had risen and they were fighting heavy waves. About 3 o'clock in the morning, Jesus came toward them walking on the water. When the disciples saw him walking on the water, they were terrified in their fear. They cried out, it's a ghost. Do you see? That's why we in this moment where in their fear they were terrified. They cried out, it's a ghost. They had doubt in God. They couldn't even see who Jesus was. So they called him a ghost. Like that's how, that's how distorted and disillusioning fear is. It literally Makes you confused and you don't. And it. It's so crazy. But Jesus spoke to them at once. Don't be afraid, he said. Take courage. I am here. Then Peter called to him, lord, if it's really you, tell me to come to you walking on the water. And I just want to say that this moment of Peter saying this is not him testing Jesus. Peter was actually the one person on the boat who reacted in faith. So this isn't a moment of him like doubting God. This is actually him having faith in Jesus. And then Jesus says, yes, come. So Peter went over to the other side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. We have to read this for what it really is. This is a supernatural miracle that's happening. You obviously can't walk on water. Nobody can walk on water. You step on water, your foot goes down. You sink. If you're in the middle of the ocean. Jesus gave Peter the ability to walk on water. So Peter went over to the side of the boat and walked on the water toward Jesus. But when he saw the strong wind and waves, he was terrified and began to sink. Save me, Lord. He shouted. Jesus immediately reached out and grabbed him. You have so little faith, Jesus said, why did you doubt me? When they climbed back into the boat, the wind stopped. The disciples worshiped him. You really are the Son of God. They exclaimed. Duh. I love this moment so much. Because obviously we see Peter steps off of the boat onto the water. Defying any natural laws of physics, he steps on the water and he doesn't sink. As long as he keeps his eyes fixed on Jesus, he walks in the supernatural. Every time that we take our gaze off of Jesus onto something else, we immediately begin to sink.