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Yeah, last this past weekend we had our LA show. It was our 41st, 42nd. Right. I think it was our 41st show ever. 41 different cities that we've done. 41 nights of me and Ari preaching the gospel on stage for two hours. As a lot of you guys know, Ari and I are completely new to this, completely new to ministry. Neither of us have ever done anything like this before and we were thrown into ministry not knowing what we were doing and not really being. Not really equipped for any of it, but just always trying to be faithful to what God spoke over us. And it was just talk about me, tell people about me, pray for healing, tell them your testimony, tell your story and about what I did in your lives. So we've been doing that for a year and a half and this past weekend we had a situation. It was our biggest night. It was our LA show. It was the last one of the year. We have been so excited for the LA show. Right? Like we are from la, we've lived in LA for a long time. This was something we're so excited for and we had a little bit of a situation where we began the night. Both of us were on stage and I ended up having to get off stage. And so this is going to be an episode where we just get really, really vulnerable and kind of let you guys in on what happened. And speak specifically as well to the 1200 people that were there that night that bought tickets that flew from different parts of the country or maybe even different countries who came to see both of us. And yeah, we'll get into it. Foreign guys. Real talk. I love the holidays, but they do not always bring out the best version of my hormone health. The colder weather, the travel, eating things I don't normally eat, late nights, early mornings, it's like my body goes girl. We are in a different schedule right now. One week I'm fine and the next week my skin is freaking out, I'm exhausted and my mood is probably unpredictable. But here's the thing. It doesn't have to be like that. 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Visit glorify-app.com GGB right now to download the Glorify app for free. That's glorified-app.com GGB to download the Glorify app for free. Glorify-app.com GGB Long story short, I've been walking through some things in my personal life that I wish I could share with you guys, but the reason I love you all so much is because you're all so respectful of our privacy. And, like, you guys are just so good about not pressuring us to talk about things that we aren't ready or comfortable talking about. But I've been just walking through a lot in my personal life, and the last month, Ari and I have had to do, not have had to do. We've gotten to do a lot of ministry. We've been on tour, finishing off the tour, trying, you know, to finish the tour off really strong.

B (9:16)

And.

A (9:18)

And I've been walking through a lot. Ari's been walking through a lot as well. And, you know, I'm learning so much. I'm learning so much about Myself, I'm learning so much about Jesus. I think I've probably hid behind a mask of like being strong for a long time.

B (9:55)

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A (9:57)

It'S a beautiful thing to be a strong person. And then it's also really hard when you don't feel strong. And so last Saturday we have our LA show and my mom and sister in law came into town and the night before the LA show, I went to go get a spray tan, actually. And on my way back, I was having just a lot of anxiety, but it was different than anything I've ever experienced before. I could tell that I was beginning to have probably like a nervous breakdown. Like I just felt my nervous system shutting down. Like it was different from anxiety. And why is this so emotional? Because it is. And so I'm like on my way back and I literally feel from the Lord, like I feel him release me and not only just say that I don't have to do the show, but that I can. Like, that I shouldn't. Like, I. I feel God, like releasing me from it. And we've never, we've canceled shows before because of like a health situation, but we did it kind of like a week prior, so it was a little different circumstance. Like this was the night before. We already had all of our tour team flown in. It was like a whole situation. And I got home and I'm talk. My mom and sister in law and I'm telling them what's happening and I'm like, I have to cancel the show. Like, we have to cancel it. And the beautiful thing in the difficult thing about being a strong person is everyone thinks that you can just do it. And you can if you're somebody who powers through everything. Everyone's just like, you can do this. So I have my mom, my sister in law, we have Socrates. Everybody within the goodness in their heart are all like, ang, you got this. It's all in your head. Like, you got this. Everyone is encouraging me, saying, angela, you're, you're the strongest person in the world. You can do this with your eyes closed, like, blah, blah. And I'm like, no, guys, I think this is different. Like, I don't, I don't think I. This is. All right, guys. 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God fills me and then uses me like it's. It's him. You know what I mean? Like, but I knew deep down in my heart, like, it wasn't right. And I woke up the next morning and I felt the exact same way. And I'm like, having the same conversations, being like, guys, I don't feel good. Like, I just know that something is going to happen. And I was like, I. And I said it from the morning. I was like, if I get on that stage, I'm going to have to walk off. Like, I just know it. I kept seeing it. Like, I literally knew I was going to have to get off. And then. So I'm starting to feel a little better during the day. But again, I don't know if anyone's ever experienced anything like this. I've had anxiety a lot in my life. I've had panic attacks, something was different. Like, my body was saying, stop. My body was saying, no more. And I wasn't listening. And then we get to the venue and I'm not doing so well. And it's not even an outward expression of what's happening. It's just. I'm like, I don't feel connected to myself right now. And so I tell Ari and my team, we have to cancel. And this is like an hour beforehand. We have to cancel. And they're all like, absolutely. Doesn't matter that we're here. Doesn't matter that people are on their way. Like, we can cancel. And then I get on the phone with some people who encouraged me again out of the goodness of their hearts. This is why you listen to Jesus. You know what I mean? It's nobody's fault. Like, everybody, you know yourself, you know, you know when something's not right. So I get encouraged again and I'm like, yeah, of course I can do this. Like, what are we talking about, Ari? And I go out on stage and immediately I'm like, I can't even fully explain what I felt other than I was just afraid. Like, I was afraid. I was like, this is not safe for me, for my mental health, being in front of 1200 people when I feel like this right now. The lights, the loud microphone, Like, I'm so overstimulated. It wasn't panic. It was, like, shut down. Like, my body, after a month of, like, doing so much and running so hard and probably suppressing a lot and just powering through, like, I do my whole life and, like, I know how to do my body literally said, that's it. That's literally it. We're not. We're done. And so we're out on stage and we started. We're worshiping. I'm like, before we went out, I told Ari, like, just letting you know, I'm going out there. I think I'm gonna have to leave during worship. And I'm sure Ari probably was just like, what? Like, that doesn't even. That's not even real. Like, that's not. Can't be the case. We finished worship and I went to go read the Bible on stage. I couldn't even, like, see the word. Like, I literally couldn't see the Bible. I was reading it and I was so dizz and so overstimulated, and I was, like, on the verge of. I don't know what was going to happen, but I knew I had to get off stage. Like, there was. And it wasn't even a situation Where I could, like, I'm just going to be vulnerable and, like, let you guys all into. It wasn't like a ministry moment like that. It was like, angela, get off. Yeah, this is. God's not never asking you to do something like this, you know? And so I'm on there and Ari talks for a little bit and then she stops talking. And I'm just like, I just looked out to the beautiful 1200 people who came there. And I'm just so sorry to every single person that bought a ticket to come and be with us, because this is so not something that should ever happen. And I just said, like, guys, I'm so sorry. I love Jesus and I love his words so much. Too much to where I don't feel responsible to teach or preach or lead a room of people right now. Like, it's not. It's not safe for me. I'm going through a lot in my personal life and I have literally nothing to give. And I'm just so sorry. Like, I am so, so sorry. 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Individual results may vary. For this moment, and we'll get to your part. Are. And so, yeah, I just wanted to come. First of all, say I'm so, so deeply, deeply sorry for every person that was there who came and got a ticket and the night ended up not being what you thought it would be. I've learned so much in this situation.

B (21:05)

You did learn so much in the situation.

A (21:10)

Yeah.

B (21:10)

And I'm just gonna say that as your best friend, like, you are so strong and you have always powered through. Even when you're just in a pit, you will always power through for everyone. And you just keep going and you'll put your head down and you keep going. And so even though that was such a moment for you where it felt like defeat, in that moment, I know you look back and you felt such peace because you did what God told you to do, which is do not keep going. To see you with the strength on that stage, to come on there and to be so honest and vulnerable was probably. That was probably the strongest I have ever seen you in a moment where you thought that was your weakest. That was probably the strongest I've ever seen you to be. So honest and real and vulnerable. I love you and I'm really proud of you.

A (22:22)

Thanks. Yeah, it's. It is so weird to be in this position. Like, this might not. It might. I don't know, maybe it doesn't sound like that big of a deal for a lot of people, but for us, for me, like, this is a huge deal, you know, to, like, walk off a stage. It was a huge.

B (22:51)

It was a huge deal.

A (22:52)

Like, we've done this 41 times. I. I can, like. I know the word. Like, I can craft a message on the. Like, there's so many things that I can fall back on and rely on. And I just am not a quitter. I'm not the type of, like, I'm just. It's. It has been. It was truly one of the most humbling moments of my life to be like, oh, my gosh, like, I don't have anything to give and I. Like an old version of me. I mean, not that I had A choice, because I had no choice. I couldn't stay out there. If I tried, I would have passed out in, like, 30 seconds. I could barely talk. I was. It was not good. And to do that in front of 1200 people. In the past, I probably would have been, like, so humiliated.

B (23:51)

I know.

A (23:52)

And so embarrassed. I know. And as painful as it is and, like, just sad as it is, I'm, like, not embarrassed at all. I'm like, I don't. I just. I think when you pray, prayers, like, Lord, humble me. Like, this is unfortunately the stuff that happens, and. This is just, like, a beautiful breaking moment for me where, like, any bit of performance or image, you know, is just cracked open. And, yeah, I think even, like, my presence in ministry or our presence in ministry, like, being in any industry, but especially in ministry, there's this, like, performance aspect and this, like, perfectionist, image upholding, like, element where, like, you. If you lead people, like, you're meant to be perfect and strong. And I can fall into that sometimes where even in my personal life, if I'm going through something, I will feel like a fraud when I come on the podcast because I'm like, how can I lead people when I haven't figured it out? And I think God's just, like, breaking that in me completely. I love Jesus so much, and I love his people. And I want to be someone who, like, walks in the power and the authority of Jesus and evangelize and bring millions of people to Jesus, and I'm just a human who is, like, trying to figure it out and gets it wrong a lot, you know?

B (25:34)

Yeah. And I think that moment of you being so human and showing people like, I have Jesus, but I'm broken right now. I'm going through things. It's difficult. Like, that was such a human moment of. I can imagine people feeling so seen in that moment, being like, wow, she's going through it too.

A (25:56)

Yeah, totally.

B (25:56)

You know what I mean?

A (25:57)

Absolutely.

B (25:58)

And so I say that. To say that, like, you know, watching. Watching you and even things that I've been walking through lately has opened my eyes to be like, you know, just because we. We have Jesus, like, doesn't mean we have to have it all together.

A (26:16)

No.

B (26:17)

Just because we have Jesus doesn't mean that we can't have a therapist or be on medication or just feel like we're drowning sometimes. And I think a lot of people throw in the towel and they give up because they're like, he must be so far away from me.

A (26:34)

Yeah.

B (26:34)

Like, does he not hear me? Did I do something wrong? What did I do to deserve this? And you feel so alone and you feel like I have to, you know, just. Yeah, it just, it's such a reminder that we go through stuff that seems unbearable sometimes. This is a human experience and it doesn't make you inadequate or doesn't mean that Jesus is far from you because as you know, you're drowning, you can't think straight, you're in a depression that you feel like you can't get out of. And so even watching you, I just felt, I felt seen too, like, wow, she's having a human moment. And I think Christianity can sometimes feel so polished, like, so cookie cutter. Like, I have Jesus, Everything is okay. Like, no, sometimes it isn't okay. Sometimes you have to, you have to have people come around you and hold you and you have to feel and you can't think straight. And sometimes it's weeks of just feeling down and out and it takes time. And so.

A (27:46)

Yeah, yeah, you're absolutely right. And I'll also just say that, like, coming from a person who has felt like, limitless in a sense, like, I just, just am. Like, you can do anything. You just get through it. You just power through it, whatever, like just feeling limitless. I just want to encourage every single person who has that sort of mentality. Like, you do have a limit. I have a limit. We all have a limit. And. Grand Canyon is an affordable, private Christian university in beautiful Phoenix, Arizona, offering over 360 academic programs informed by industry and student learning outcomes. In addition to Federal grants and GCUs on campus, students received approximately $196 million in scholarships in 2024. On average, undergraduate students graduate with approximately $6,200 less federal and private loan debt than students at private nonprofit four year universities. And many have the opportunity to graduate in less than four years. One of the country's largest universities, GCU is ranked among the top 25 college campuses in America. Visit GCU Edu myoffer to see what scholarships you may qual accessible. High school seniors and transfer students can schedule a complimentary visit from anywhere in the country. Find your purpose at gcu Private Christian affordable Visit GCU edu Myoffer there's just a difference between powering through and doing hard things and then stopping when God is asking you to stop. And oftentimes he's asking you to stop by means of your body saying stop. And like, we have to take care of ourselves and we have to be honest about where we are and we have to be like, just really transparent and aware of ourselves. Because I've never reached a point of. I don't know if it was burnout or just stress overload, but, like, I've never reached a point like that before. And it was like an eye opener for me where I'm just like, I'm actually not limitless and I. I have to take care of myself. And I am not going to just power through in ministry and be like.

B (30:05)

Suppress and suppress and suppress.

A (30:08)

And I feel like that's what happens to, like, it makes so much sense. Why in local churches, you're typically taken off platform when you're going through major life difficulties or transitions. But, like, you and I are the. We run our ministry. Nobody's above, like, we have to decide when we stop or when we pause or, you know. Yeah, it was. It was a lot. And I'll. And I'll also say now, like, one of the most difficult parts about it was it's not just me up there. It's me and Ari. And, I mean, I didn't even. I couldn't have come up with a plan. Like, I didn't even know my own name. You know what I mean? There was no. I had no ability to come up with a plan or try to set you up. Like, there was. I was. I just needed to get off that stage as quickly as possible before something happened. And unfortunately, and the hardest part for me of all of it is I left my best friend and my ministry partner on the stage. And that was intense. And I'll let you talk about that. I just want to say. Regardless, I'm just going to say we watched Ari pick it up and preach on that stage. Like, I. It's. You guys don't understand. We watched Ari take over and accomplish something that is, like, absurd for Ari to be in that position. And regardless of whether I told her or not, to be completely taken off guard and then, like, what on earth do I do now in a situation she's never been in before to handle it like a boss the way she did? I'll let you talk about it, but I am so impressed. And everyone that I've spoken to about it is so impressed, it's insane. Okay, so you guys know my life is chaotic, all right? I'm up early, I'm filming, I'm running around. I'm trying to get my life together. And as much as I love my morning coffee, I really want something that actually supports my brain and my body instead of just, like, waking me up and stressing out my stomach. But I don't have the time to be out here mixing 10 different powders or playing Kitchen Scientist before 8am and that's exactly why we love Everyday Dose. It's coffee plus benefits. It tastes just like coffee, but it is upgraded with collagen, protein, lion's mane, chaga and nootropics. It takes 30 seconds to make and you never run out of the ingredients you need because they're already inside the blend. You can get that warm morning ritual that you love, but now you get clean, sustained energy with no crash and no jitters. It's literally coffee but smarter. If regular coffee is like a flip phone, this is the smartphone version. It just does more. Get 61% off your first coffee plus starter kit, a free A2 probiotic creamer with over $100 in free gifts by going to everydaydose.com GGB or entering GGB at checkout. That's everydaydose.com GGB for 61% off your first order. Everyday Dose is also available at your local target. Alright guys, we talk a lot here about living with intention and staying faithful in the little things. And part of that is caring for the body that God gave us. And modern life makes that all right. Stress, sugar, processed foods, even medications can put a strain on the liver. Which is wild because our liver is out here quietly doing over 500 functions every single day. Energy, digestion, metabolism, it all flows through the liver. And that's why we are so excited to talk about dose. It's a simple daily 2 ounce shot that supports liver function. And it tastes like fresh squeezed orange juice. Not another capsule, not a chalky powder, just a tiny liquid shot that actually fits into real life. And honestly, one of the hardest parts of caring for your health is knowing who to trust. Dose is just different. It's clinically backed with two double blind placebo controlled studies showing its positive impact on liver enzyme levels. And when you take it daily, you'll feel more supported. It adds digestion, supports healthy metabolism, it helps with those midday crashes and gives real support for your liver, which also supports cortisol levels. It's like a little act of stewardship, taking care of your body so you can show up with clarity and presence. And if you're ready to honor your health and invest in your future self, try dose with code GGB. New customers can save 35% on your first month of subscription by going to dosedaily.co ggb or entering GGB at checkout. That's a D O S E D A I l y.co GGB for 35% off your first month subscription.

B (34:44)

Yeah. So, I mean, even as we talk about it, I mean, it was. It was really. It was something that. That has taken me, what has it been, three or four days to try to grasp and understand. And, you know, Angela's just. She's like my other half. And so to see her in that state, my nervous system was in a complete state of shock because I know we had to get on stage and. And lead you guys and. And so it was like an hour before the show and just. I didn't know. Just trying to take care of Ang. My whole nervous system was in a state of shock. This was one of the biggest nights, like you said. And then when we were behind the curtain, I knew that you weren't. Okay. Yeah. So then you got off stage and I was going through so much in my mind of. My nervous system was in a complete state of shock. I didn't. There was so much that happened in that hour, and then in that moment that I was trying to, like. Do you guys know when you're in shock and your mind can't catch up with.

A (36:02)

Yeah.

B (36:02)

You're just trying to, like, you don't have time to think. You don't know what's going on. So your. Your body is just my nervous system, which is in such shock. And then I was so blessed to have my friend Scott come up. And it was a moment where I had. When Angela had got off stage, I looked down and I literally said it was like my Moses moment. And it was so funny that we just had this episode. And I'm like, you are qualified.

A (36:30)

You can do it. God pushed me.

B (36:33)

And I'm telling you, I had a moment where I said, God, I don't know if I can do this right now. I mean, honestly, you guys, this is my first. I. I didn't know that I could lead 1200 people by myself. I didn't have anything planned. So this was incredibly terrifying for me. And I remember looking down and being like, God, I don't know if I can do this. And I just felt him be like, go, like, I'm with you. Like, I just felt him. And I was so blessed to have my friend Scott there, who. Who I had come because he was going to pray over people at the end. So I had him come up and he talked to you guys for a little bit. And as he was talking, I just took that couple of moments to get my thoughts together. And as soon as I got my thoughts together, I was like, okay, I'm ready. And I think he was about to pray and I didn't even hear him say that. And so, I don't know, I think I might have taken the microphone from him before he was about to pray. I didn't. I was just trying to survive in that moment and get myself together. And I didn't even hear what he was saying. And so I don't want you guys to think that I just took the microphone from him right before he was going to pray. I was myself trying to get myself together. The scripture, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Really came a lot life for me that night because I just. Yeah, I. It was crazy. I. I don't know. I did the whole show by myself, but I realized that I wasn't by myself on there because you guys were with me. And I'm just so. I just love you guys so much. And I felt so. I felt. I felt so seen and so loved by you guys. And I love you guys so much, you have no idea. I kept looking at you guys and I'm just like, wow. I kept hearing one girl say, you got this, Ari. And I know that you guys probably wanted nothing more than ang to be there. So I. Through all that being said, I just want to apologize too. And I thank you for. For just being patient with me and sitting with me through that. I know, Know. I know all of that happening couldn't have been easy for you guys. I'm sure you guys were in a state of shock.

A (39:02)

Yeah. Honestly, you guys were not expecting that.

B (39:06)

And it's jarring.

A (39:07)

It's. It's.

B (39:08)

No matter what. Like, no matter how. You guys were so supportive, but I know how hard that was. And you guys were probably just trying to get your head straight too. Seeing all that happen and seeing an so hurt like that. I'm sure that was just so hard for you guys. And so. Yeah, I've just. For a couple days, I've been feeling so many things too. And so I just. Thank you. Thank you for understanding and thank you for sticking with me through that whole show and supporting me and being my best friend.

A (39:43)

She crushed it.

B (39:44)

I really appreciate it.

A (39:47)

I know that was so hard for you and I know that, you know, I would never leave you and I would never abandon you on a stage. I would never.

B (39:55)

Like, she would never.

A (39:57)

I would never. I mean, that's probably been one of the most terrifying things for me. Not only did I leave her, I don't want anyone to think I left her, you know? What? I mean, that was.

B (40:07)

No one thinks that.

A (40:08)

No one.

B (40:09)

I think everyone was so. Everyone said they were like, I am. This is strength. I'm so proud of you. So she was getting off stage, and I go, no, no, no, no, no, no. I was like, no, no, no, no, no. Like, I. I was. I felt like I was in a fever dream. Like, there was so much going on, I couldn't believe. And I go, no, no, no. And she goes, you got this. And then I see Angela walk off, and I go, I see 1200 people in front of me, and I'm like, oh, my gosh. But it was one of those moments that it's like, God is with you. Like, even if you're afraid, do it. Even if you have questions, do it. And step by step, he just kept walking with me and helping me. And it was. You know, that was such a crazy moment and night. But through that, I mean, I learned a lot.

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B (42:02)

It helped me step out. It helped me know that I am not. You know, I've dealt with feeling disqualified for so long, and so I think that was a moment for me too, of God being like, no, you can't. You can. And you can too. Anyone who's scared you can too. God is with you in these moments where you're scared or you don't think you're qualified or you don't think you can do it. He's, He's. He really does walk through those moments with you when you lean on him and keep asking, lord, just be with me in this moment. Help me through this moment.

A (42:36)

So I'm so proud of you. I couldn't be more proud of you. I couldn't be more proud of you. Everyone who's there was so proud of you. Me and my mom were backstage after it happened and we're just listening to you and we both have tears in our eyes. And I'm just like, I'm having an out of body experience because I'm like, why am I not that I'm like, what's happening right now? It was such a we. It was just a swirl. It was just like. But me and my mom had tears in our eyes. Being like, are you kidding me? Look at her. Like, are you. My mom was crying, being like, I am so proud of her.

B (43:11)

In LA is. It can be a lot of.

A (43:13)

It was one of the weirdest. I like, truly, guys, there's spiritual warfare all the time, right? Like, and Ari and I probably at the beginning of Girls Gone Bible paid a little more attention to spiritual warfare than we do. Like, we still are aware of spiritual warfare, but we just spend more time loving Jesus than we do fighting demons. And so we've been to cities. Like, I remember Salt Lake City was really dark and a lot of oppression and pushback. Whenever we're on the east coast. It's hard, hard. LA was one of the darkest, most oppressive ministry nights that we've ever had to do a week leading up to it. I mean, I, I truly can't explain to you guys what we were experiencing, both of us. And like, I'm walking through stuff, but, like, even Ari was going. It was, we, it was a lot. It was a lot. And so weird things even happen. It was just, it was just a lot. It was an interesting night. I think we're still trying to recover from it and just trying to rest and get our heads on straight because it was a lot that took place and spiritually there was a lot happening. And yeah, this just goes to show. And truthfully, Ari and I, it's been three years. God has done so much in and through us and girl Scone Bible has exploded and become such a beautiful place for people to come and know Jesus. And it's been amazing. What's happened? And we love our GGB gang so much, and we just want to be with you guys and be talking to you guys and make videos for you guys and really set like. But we have. We haven't taken a break in three years. We've taken one week off of the episode in almost three years. And people typically do seasons for podcasts, not us. Here we are every week, you guys. You know what I mean? People typically do. And so, yeah, I think that there's maybe got to be, like, a pace change for us as well.

B (45:19)

And I was led to Isaiah 43 today, so I just wanted to read it to you guys. And it's. I think it's so good for people that are struggling right now with mental health. Weariness, feeling like you're drowning, feeling like you're never going to come out of what you're in right now. Now feeling like God has abandoned you. This is one of my favorite scriptures, and I like to read it over myself when I'm struggling so much in my mind and when I'm in such a trial. Isaiah 43:2. It says, do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name. You are mine. When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.

A (46:03)

You.

B (46:04)

When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up, the flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior. I traded their lives for yours because you are precious to me. You are honored and I love you. Do not be afraid, for I am with you. It doesn't mean that we're going to go through seasons, that. That it's always going to be flowery and okay. But he promised us is that when we go through these trials, we are not alone, that he's with us, that we will not drown, that we will not burned up, that it will not consume us, that he is with us, and in due time, he will get us out. And I just love how he reminds us, because sometimes we need to be reminded how loved we and how precious we are in seasons where we feel rejected and we feel worthless, we feel like we're never going to get out of trial, that we're in. It's through these rivers of difficulty. It's through these seasons where we can't see the light at the end of the tunnel is we know Jesus as our Father and our Savior, the one who rescues us. If somebody is dealing with mental health, he is with you. He loves you. You are precious to him and he's using everything you're going through right now to build you and to strengthen you and to perfect your charact. And through that, you will be a witness to him. You are his servant. He loves you and he's going to use it to shine his glory through you. And so, hang on, you will not drown. He loves you and he's with you. And you will get through this.

A (47:48)

It's beautiful. Yeah. Guys, we love you so much. We really, really do. I love you so much. Thank you to everyone who's been so kind and thank you to everyone, everyone who you guys are all. That's why I love being a Christian and that's why I love having a Christian podcast, because you guys are the most understanding, compassionate, grace filled people. And again, I'm so sorry for what happened. And I'm also just like, we're all in this together, you know, and yeah, this is life. This is real life. This is when like every bit of performance or image preservation breaks off. We all go through things. What I've learned the most, I think what's been interesting for me is like, I, I've like been through so much in my life that I'm like, you know, you go, I feel like as a Christian, sometimes you think you should have like, you've arrived somewhere and you've overcome all these things and you'll never have like, once you've been broken, God won't surely have to break you again, you know. And what I've learned is that's not the truth, you know, Like, I think we will forever be broken and crushed so that God could, you know, can over and over and over again form us. And I think it's just like a really humbling situation to reach a breaking point in a way. And so just know I'm walking through this all with you guys where I know, know what it's like to, to even be going through something and, and see things from the past, like old coping mechanisms or old habits or old ways of thinking things in which you've been delivered from and you're freed from and you've been free and you're like, oh my gosh, how am I thinking like that again? How am I, how am I doing that again? Why is so just know that life is insane and being a Christian is a mess sometimes and it's really messy. And so I just hope that anybody walking through anything, I just hope, you know that like, being messy is normal. I know what it's like, to be messy. I feel pretty messy right now. And it's okay. Like, it really is okay. And if you have ever seen Ari and I in a way that is, like, idolatrous in any way, like, oh, were these perf. I. I doubt anyone actually thinks that. But if for some reason anyone has ever looked at us like these, These big, powerful women of God who are cleaned up and got it together, guess what? We are just like you. We are all children of God being sanctified, transformed, renewed, restored back into the image of God. Every single one of us going through the same thing. We are. We are all so much more similar than we think. We're all in the same, same process of sanctification and crushing and rebuilding every single one of us. So I hope that makes you feel so much less alone, that literally everything you're going through is something that we have to go through as well. It looks different. We're all unique individuals, but every single one of us are going through something. And God in all of our situations has the same intention to make us more like Jesus and to bring us closer into his heart. So.

B (51:18)

And it's a lifelong journey.

A (51:19)

Yeah, literally. So. We love you guys so much. We thank you. Thank you. Thank you for being here. Thank you for being our people. May the Lord bless you and keep you. May he make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you. May he turn his face towards you and give you peace. Shalom. Shalom. We love you.