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Going Thru It
Hosted by Zaslow Productions, Holly & Jill Shakoor · EN
We are Going Thru It, a weekly conversation between two sisters learning to navigate their own grief after the recent loss of their brother, Adam, who died of stage IV colorectal cancer. Born 11 years apart and currently living on opposite ends of the country, Holly and Jill Shakoor remain each other's best friend and confidant. Like a cathartic conversation with your best friend, or for some, an actual therapy session, Going Thru It will serve as a platform for human connection exploring the many layers of loss and love. So come along on this journey with two honest, sharp, semi soulful and empathetically entertaining sisters as they process collective family grief in real time.
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NY or Nothing with Cousin Jeff
3d ago00:48:14Tap to summarizeKnicks in the Finals…..Cousin Jeff on the mic…..no notes. This week, it’s just Holly and CJ—talking ‘94, Madison Square Garden, and the energy of New York then vs now…..and why this run feels different (in a good way…..and a hard way). We get into family, Syrian grandmothers, busting balls as a love language, and why sports somehow ends up being the glue for everything. And yeah…..we talk about Adam. What it’s like watching this without him and the weird way something like this can bring you back to people you’ve lost. So let's GO orange and blue. NY Forever. Always Knicks.
Transcribe →The One With Ro
Apr 2400:39:08Tap to summarizeThere are some people you meet in life who just feel different. Ro is one of them. She came into Adam’s life in 2021, and it’s no surprise she was the one who had his heart. She’s truly one of a kind. Someone special, funny, strong AF… and someone who shows up in a way that changes the people around her. This conversation is about them. How they met, the fun they had, the concerts, the trips and the random moments that made it all feel so easy. It’s also about who she is. And why we all love her. We learned a lot from Ro. We still do. And we’re all better because of her.
Transcribe →The One With His Friends
Apr 2301:22:01Tap to summarizeThis Friday marks two years of Going Thru It… and it’s Adam’s birthday. So this week, we did what felt right. We sat down with three of the people who knew him best. Christopher Salviano. Zak Kaslow. Jonathan Collazo. Three friends. Three completely different relationships. Three versions of Adam that somehow all feel exactly the same. We talk Jersey childhood memories, Knicks games, college roommates, camp chaos, and the very specific things that made Adam Adam....from warm soda and Tupac loyalty to obsessive hyper-fixations, inside jokes, and a sense of humor that not everyone got… but the right people really did. More than anything, this episode is about friendship. The kind that spans decades. The kind that shows up in the big moments and the completely mundane ones. The kind that doesn’t go anywhere. And the kind that, even now, still feels very much alive.
Transcribe →A Proper Catch Up
Mar 2600:26:16Tap to summarizeNo guest. No agenda. Just a long overdue catch-up. Holly's in Hawaii.... but it's rained nonstop, the power's out and we've somehow been to the movies three times already. We talk Jill's London trip without Luca and what it actually looks like to step back into your "old life." There's a little bit of everything - plus Survivor chaos, Oscars discourse and why Holly's algorithm is currently all cancer, all the time. No plan. Just a proper catch-up. My Season of Ativan by Amanda Peet A Betrayal of Faith with Simone Ledward Boseman for Entertainment Weekly Connect with US on insta We'd love to hear from you here! Email us with any stories of loved ones you miss and want to share. And if there's anything else or anyone else you want to hear from, please let us know!
Transcribe →Oscar Sunday: Hollywood Dreams & Magic with Brett Gursky
Mar 1301:04:16Tap to summarizeOscar Sunday is here, and with Jill out, we’re joined by friend, fellow Jersey kid, and Hollywood multi-hyphenate Brett Gursky for Going Thru It’s official-but-unofficial Oscars episode. We go way back with Brett to our college study abroad days, when we sat at a bar in London pitching movie ideas and talking about moving to LA to work in Hollywood. Somehow, we both actually kind of did. In this episode, we reminisce about shared pipe dreams and real careers, sibling bonds, grandparent grief, signs from beyond, and why so many of this year’s most talked-about films are ultimately about loss. Oscar predictions are made, performances we loved are declared, and we get into the strange magic of being witnessed by old friends who knew you before any of it happened. Connect with Brett on Insta Brett's Podcast: On the List
Transcribe →Control Is an Illusion with Mickey Rapkin
Feb 2600:49:57Tap to summarizeIt’s one of those weeks where the headlines feel uncomfortably close to home. Between James Van Der Beek’s death from colorectal cancer and Eric Dane’s ALS diagnosis, it’s hard not to think about your own health and mortality. So we brought on our friend Mickey Rapkin — journalist, author, former GQ editor, and yes, the guy who wrote Pitch Perfect before it became a major studio franchise. In August 2025, Mickey’s older brother Jon died from brain cancer. We talk about sibling loss (aka the worst club), the sacred inside jokes, the random movie lines that become part of your daily language, and how grief rewires you on a cellular level. We also get into Mickey’s Men’s Health piece about cancer screenings — the big question of how much do you want to know, what testing can (and can’t) do, and why “control is an illusion” is both depressing and… oddly clarifying. Mickey Rapkin for Men's Health: Am I Seizing Control of My Health or Driving Myself Crazy? Connect with Mickey on Insta
Transcribe →Take On Me
Feb 1200:25:55Tap to summarizeSuper Bowl Sunday is an actual holiday in the Shakoor family. This week we’re talking hosting, nostalgia, the collective viewing experience, and why the West Coast kickoff time just hits different.Jill’s back at work with mat leave officially in the rearview mirror and the whiplash is real. Holly starts a writing class and immediately spirals after reading something very personal out loud. Vulnerability hangovers are real.We get into evolving friend groups, mommy-and-me leveling up, and why Take On Me, specifically the acoustic version, will never sound the same again.Still going thru it. Still taking it on. Take On Me (acoustic) Connect with US on insta
Transcribe →Radically Honest with Sophie Ragir
Jan 2900:56:46Tap to summarizeWe recorded this on January 9th, when things in our world already felt heavy. But by the time this episode airs (January 29th), it somehow feels even heavier… so we’re really grateful for conversations like this one.We’re joined by Sophie Ragir, a coach and creative who’s lived through major loss and came out the other side with a clarity we honestly found inspiring. We talk about grief (the messy, non-Hallmark version), the beauty and sometimes even the humor in the transition and how loss can sometimes become the thing that pushes you toward the life you actually want.And yes.....we talk Heated Rivalry. So if you didn’t fully get your Ilya/Shane fix at the top of the month, consider this your bonus round. Meet Sophie Ragir Permission Slip and other Sophie musings. *This one really hit. Connect with Sophie on insta
Transcribe →Back to Life, Back to Reality
Jan 1600:42:27Tap to summarizeChristmas in Hawaii was actual magic—rainbows, beach days, family chaos, and a surprise Grandma touchdown. Then came the brutal part: leaving. We talk about why saying goodbye to a trip can feel like grief (even when it’s technically just a vacation) and how different our lives look on the other side of it. We unpack the post-trip comedown, the same-family-different-lives dynamic, and what it looks like when one of us is solo-parenting while the other heads back to work. Also in the mix: our rediscovered love of The Office, our shared hatred of Dry January, and a surprise visit from our in-house pop culture correspondent Jack, who weighs in on all things Hollywood—including who she thinks is taking it all this awards season: Leo or Timothée.Connect with us on instagram The Office Superfan Episodes
Transcribe →Happy Thanksgiving Back
Dec 1800:30:47Tap to summarizeIt’s our 52nd episode (WHAT?!?)—and our last one of 2025.In this episode, we check in from two very different places: Jill is finally seeing the light at the end of her solo-parenting tunnel, while Holly is just stepping into hers (again). They recap Thanksgiving, debate holiday cards (to send or not to send… also, who cares?), unpack Christmas villages, and revisit family trauma from the HomeGoods parking lot. Most importantly, they talk about what it’s like to do the holidays differently since losing their brother Adam.They get into Shakoor guilt™️, being away from family during the holidays, and how traditions shift when life doesn’t look the way it used to.And with that… wheels up, 2025. You've Got Mail Zabar's scene 50% off at Shutterfly!!!!.... just kidding, it actually takes you to our website which is really cute
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