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We all have to eat. But when you're new to cooking or regaining those skills after vision loss, the kitchen can feel like a stressful and confusing place. In this episode, Deborah Erickson, founder of the Blind Kitchen, joins us to share her story, along with tips on keeping cooking safe and enjoyable. I'm Ricky Yenger, and this is Hadley Presents. Welcome to the show, Debra.
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B
Thank you. Thank you for having me, Ricky. I really appreciate it and am a big fan of Hadley's from a long time ago, long before the Blind Kitchen.
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Wow. Well, it is amazing to have you here. I know that you have participated in our what's Cooking discussion group, and certainly we've had any number of Hadley members call me up and say, hey, have you been to this website, the Blind Kitchen? They have all these cool tools, and I really have. I've had people recommend specific things that they've gotten from your website and wanted to make sure that we knew about them. So I am delighted to have the chance to talk with you and just get a little bit about your story. And, you know, cooking is one of those things that should be a lot of fun. We hope that the kitchen is, you know, fun and fellowship and all of that, but it can feel really stressful if you're trying to figure out what's what or where does everything go, or how do I stay safe? So that's just some of what we're going to talk about today. So before we kind of jump into talking about any kitchen tools or techniques or anything like that, I want to learn a bit about you. So can you just give us a quick intro, tell us a bit about yourself?
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B
Sure. So I am blind. I have retinitis pigmentosa, and I'm one of 12 children from Indiana. I have two brothers with it as well. I was the only blind student in culinary school, so I had to learn to solve a lot of problems, and that's how the Blind Kitchen came to be. When you're in culinary school, it's very busy, six hours a day, five days a week. It's a lot of time and energy. So when I had to do something like poach, so I'd have to get on the Internet, try and find books or podcasts anywhere I could find out how can I do this with vision loss. Then I'd get my answer. And so then I'd do my practical and whatever, and then I'd move on to the next lesson. And so, oh, my goodness, how am I going to take the temperature of this food if I can't see the Thermometer. And so once Covid hit and I was no longer able to teach cooking at the Oregon Commission for the Blind, that's when I put together the blind kitchen. All those little nuggets. I'd picked up different pieces and places through my own training and through all the podcasts and things like that, and that's how the blind kitchen came to be. I had a lot of time to.
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Put it together, no doubt. Well, just talking about culinary school and the things that you have to do kind of makes my head spin. And we'll talk a bit more about that a little later. I am curious. So you have retinitis pigmentosa. So it is a progressive vision loss. So you didn't grow up totally blind, but at some point you did did lose enough vision that it was an adjustment. Right. You had to start thinking about doing things differently, getting some training, and you went to the Oregon Commission for the Blind to kind of get some of those things under your belt, like figuring out how to get around and figuring out cooking and cleaning. And so first, I'm curious, were you always a good cook? Was it something you enjoyed? How did you feel about cooking before you had to learn sort of how to do that without vision?
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I was not a good cook, and I really didn't particularly enjoy it. Like I said, I'm one of 12 kids growing up in Indiana, so my mom mainly distributed food, but she fed us really well, and I'll always be grateful to her. But I did not learn to cook. My part was peeling 10 pounds of potatoes, setting the table, and then cleaning up afterwards.
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Right.
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B
And so then after I moved out and lived on my own, my way of cooking was packaged cooking. You know, I could follow directions on a box of tuna helper or open a can of Manwiches or macaroni and cheese. And I. And that's how I fed my family. Now, my youngest son is now 6 foot 5, so obviously I fed him enough to let him get that call. But I was not a particularly good cook. And so I have taught adults in the past. That's what I did professionally. But I didn't want to go back to teaching what I had taught before, which was professional writing and mediation, because I'd have to do it differently, and I felt like I'd be really frustrating. So I was in cooking class, and I was like, this is fun. I'm enjoying this. I could teach cooking. And then I realized I don't know how to cook. I could do a little bit here. How the heck am I going to teach it. So that's where the idea for culinary school came in. There are schools that teach you how to cook. And I decided to go. I don't know what I was thinking, but I made it through. I actually loved it. It was physically demanding and a lot of memorization and things like that, but it was so worth it. And the chef instructors were absolutely fantastic.
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I think that's incredible going from, you know, I should figure out a couple things in the kitchen. And many of us would have said, I'll just get those stove safety bas basics and go back to Hamburger Helper, Right? But you said, now I'm going to take it a little further. Was there anything initially, even before you went to culinary school and you're in the kitchen, you're learning to do this after you've lost some vision. Was there anything that kind of made your heart beat a little faster as you're learning to do that for the first time when you're not looking at what you're doing?
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B
Moment stands out very clearly for me. So Char was my cooking instructor, and she's in the Midwest. She is absolutely an icon. She's now my dear friend. But we were in the kitchen. I was under sleep shade, so I couldn't see a thing. No light, nothing. And we were making something called Dutch baby, which is terrible name for something you're going to eat, just for the record, right? But what you do is you put butter in a pan, and then you put it in a very hot oven, like 425, until the tablespoon of butter melts. And then you pull it out, and then you're supposed to pour in the batter that you've already made, and it goes in the pan, and it comes up, and it forms a piece of art, basically, that you can then sprinkle lemon and powdered sugar on. But I was standing at the oven with her, and she's like, okay. Now, she had taught me how to open the oven safely, pull out the rack, grab the thing. And she's like, okay, pull it out. And I was paralyzed. The heat was so hot, and I could hear the pan sizzling.
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Oh, yeah.
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I just said. I said, char, you need to give me a minute here. I've got to think about this. And she is the best teacher. She. She's like, okay, okay. Because normally I can kind of fake my confidence through even when I'm not feeling that confident, but I couldn't. My body would not do what my brain was. Was trying to get it to do. And so that was A gift to me as a teacher to recognize how paralyzing fear can be. Even though it was perfectly safe, I was in. I had the tools I need. I had the knowledge I needed. Sometimes your fear overrides your brain for. For a little bit. And so then when I would teach students, I'd be like, okay, just breathe. Just breathe. You don't have to move. You don't have to move. If it's a blade that's scaring you, if it's a motor that's scaring you, if it's the hot stovetop, just. Just breathe for a minute. Nothing's going to happen. And so that was the moment in time. And it's funny because Shire later told me, I learned from you in that moment how to be a better teacher, because I did not recognize that fear in you and your hesitation.
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Yeah, it's so relatable, too, because there have definitely been moments in my kitchen, even after having cooked for a while, where I just have that anxiety. For me, it's a weird one. It's having the fan on over the stove, and I can't hear everything that's going on. And so I feel a little anxious, you know, something going on that I don't know about. But it's then just tuning back into. I know what's happening. I have the skills to figure it out and, you know, and keep myself safe. So, yeah, it's very relatable. So when you went to culinary school, and again, I just love that you went from I'm going to learn to, you know, be in the kitchen safely to no, now I have to learn all of it so that I can teach other people. When you decided to go on this adventure, I imagine you have some stories, and we could spend an entire episode or two talking about just that. But I'm wondering if we can just concentrate on a couple of things. Do you remember what the biggest challenge for you? Maybe it was something really unexpected that you were challenged with in culinary school that you had to figure out.
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B
Probably the biggest challenge I had was completing my practicals in time. So it's just like the cooking shows. Everybody's running around like crazy, and. But. So that was. Was my biggest challenge, and. And I lost points for it because if you come into my restaurant and you order a steak and sauteed spit, cream of spinach or something like that, and 45 minutes, an hour goes by, and you flag down your waiter and say, hey, where's my. Where's my food? Oh, Deborah's the chef, and she's blind, so she's a little slow.
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You don't want to hear that.
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So they had to hold me accountable. But they just say out loud to everybody, because I never was the only one that didn't finish on time. They would say, if you can't finish on time, finish strong. And so that's what I focused on. Make sure it was seasoned well, make sure it was presented well. And there. There are tricks to do that, too, to make sure that they're getting an attractive dish, even if I can't see it. But the one story I have was the first couple weeks of culinary school. We learned all about eggs, poaching, scrambling, making omelets, things like that. And I had a sighted guide for about two months. So she told me that he was flipping an egg in a pan. And basically. So you've got a frying pan, you've got your egg in it, and you're going to flip the egg without a spatula. You're gonna flip it halfway up in the air, and it's come down and land the pan, right? Well, about half the time. So I thought we had to do it that way because that's the way my sighted guide described it to me.
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Right.
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But when I got home, my husband thought I was nuts. I put a piece of toast in the toaster, and first I was just flipping toast. Then I bought about three dozen eggs, and I had a work tray next to my stove, so I'd fry the egg on the stove. When it came time to flip it, I didn't flip it over the stove. I moved it over the work tray and then flipped it. And before the end of the week, before the practical, I was about 50. 50. So then I was in school, and I started with that one because it was the highest anxiety for me. And so I like, chef, I'm ready. And he's. He's like, what? He had no idea what I was talking about. I thought they had to witness us doing that. Well, I was the only one. Nobody told me that everybody else was using spatulas, that we didn't have to do that. So he called the whole class over to watch. Hey, come over here. Let's see Deborah do this. And I was, like, praying to the egg gods, please let. And I flipped it, and it came down in the pan, and the yolk didn't break. I felt like I won an Olympic medal. It was so. It was a funny. A funny time. But that's one of the things where vision loss can definitely change your interpretation of things.
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Absolutely. So, on a slightly more serious note, and we kind of touched on this earlier, just talking about fear. Fear is definitely a thing that can happen in the kitchen. And sometimes we have conversations at Hadley. In fact, a lot we have these conversations where people will be looking for some advice because either a family member or a friend is saying, no, you shouldn't be in the kitchen. It's not safe. I don't want you doing that. Or the person themselves is feeling, you know, I'm not safe. I don't want to do this. What if something goes wrong? But I think there's room for a little healthy fear. Right? You should respect that a knife is sharp, but there's also that fear that can hold us back and actually act as a barrier to getting some things accomplished. So do you have any thoughts on just how do you navigate that whole thing and make the fear work for you and then kind of work through that fear that isn't serving you well?
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Well, I'm one. And it's always been in my nature is to take it head on. So, like, when I was standing in front of that hot oven and expected to perform that task, I just had to stop and let my brain take over and say, you're safe. And if you aren't afraid and there's a sharp knife around you and you don't know where it's at, or there's a hot, bubbling pan of oil on the stove and you're not afraid, you're gonna get taken out of the gene pool pretty quick, because that's what keeps us alive, without a doubt. But it's when it paralyzes you and you can't figure a way past it, that's when it becomes detrimental to your independence and your freedom. The fears we've talked about of cutting yourself, the fear of burning yourself, those are real. But there's other fears, too, like fears of embarrassing yourself. Am I going to look messy? Am I going to look dirty and disorganized and knocking things over? Other people can see me, so that that's a real fear. And you. You have to have a strategy to get around it if you can't see it. Or tools, whichever. Some are both and some are one or the other. The other fear is, if I give you a plate of food, is it going to look attractive? You can see it. I can't. So I want to have some strategies in place so that I won't have to deal with the fear of being embarrassed. I can be confident that I'm giving you an attractive dish but the other fear, making people sick because you don't cook the food right, like, you don't kick the chicken enough or whatever. And a talking thermometer can take care of that for you. And most of us, let's face it, if we're afraid of making our family sick, we're going to overcook it. Yes, it's better to overcook than undercook, but that's not what we want to do either. We really want to produce a lovely dish that's easy to chew. This isn't beef jerky. This is a steak. But the other fear that I've come to start to add to this is other people's fear of us being in the kitchen. And it comes from a good place. I don't want to get burnt. I don't want to get them cut. And the kitchen is full of stuff that can hurt them. So families also have to get past their own fears and help that person to build that confidence and that success by making sure they have the right tools or the right strategies. So fear is a real thing.
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And it sounds like every fear that you've mentioned really all comes down to one thing. They all reference it in different ways, but it's all about fear of the unknown. So if you don't have a strategy or you don't know about certain ways to keep yourself safe in the kitchen, then certainly you're going to be afraid. But once you have some knowledge or a strategy, as you say, then you have a way to move forward. It's no longer about the emotion. You have some tools in place or a strategy in place, and then it's about, okay, whatever else I'm still feeling, I can confront that, knowing that it's a feeling, it's not necessarily reality.
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That's a good observation. And I feel like in this chosen career path of cooking, all of us have fears around relationships, around weather, around bills. I mean, the fears are part of what keep us alive. But rarely in life do we have a chance to, like, face a fear and then realize we overcome it. Like flipping that egg in real time, I can note my fear, and then I can overcome it, and I can be proud of myself for it. I can say, look, I went from here to here. I could see progress. But there's so many other things in life that we have fear where the reward is not that close.
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Yeah, that's a really good point. And what's better than overcoming that fear and seeing in real time than, hey, I get to eat my own success?
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That's a good point.
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So there is a lot to think about in the kitchen. You gotta figure out what each ingredient is. You have to figure out how to measure those ingredients. You gotta think about cleanup. So all these different things, and I think there are tools and techniques for a lot of these different things. And so, again, we could spend a whole episode just talking about tools and techniques in the kitchen. But since we don't have quite that much time, we'll focus on just a couple of different things. I'm wondering, first, those tools that keep you safe in the kitchen. Do you have some thoughts on tools that everyone should have in their kitchen for safety?
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A cut glove would be one that's a relatively thin glove that you wear on the hand holding the food. And you can literally run a knife back and forth on the palm of that. You'll feel the pressure and you'll feel the movement, but it won't cut through. Heat gloves. So most of us use grew up using bulky quilted rectangles or circles or whatever. The heat gloves that are found in the blank kitchen and other places as well. Some people might know them as of gloves, but those are much more expensive. But they have four fingers and a thumb, so you've got the flexibility of your fingertips. And they're thick, but not as thick as the quilted ones. But they have designs on them made of silicone. So the silicone makes it non skid as well. So not only are you getting heat protection, you're also going to be able to trust that you have a more secure grip on it. So those are two of the tools for cutting and for heat. The work trays, they're just cafeteria trays. I would encourage anyone to get those because if you accidentally do spill something. I do not work without a work tray. So if I do accidentally knock something over, it's going to contain the spill within the confines of that tray for most of them. And you may even be able to salvage the spillage by using a funnel to get it back in the box or the bottle, because it's trapped in a predictable place. We have a cutting and chopping collection where nobody needs everything in the blind kitchen. But that contains 15 tools that all have to do with cutting and chopping and to keep your hands from getting cut.
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Yeah, and I think that's so important, you know, protecting yourself from something sharp or something hot. The first couple of things people think about. The work tray is one of my favorite tips. I tend to be a messy cook, and nothing has saved me more time than Learning to measure over a work tray, you know, it's all contained. I don't end up with flour on the ceiling or whatever. So it's true. If we can talk about one other kind of tool. So now that we're safe in the kitchen, presentation is such a big thing. You know, if you're giving food to someone else, you want to feel proud about not only how it tastes, but how it looks. And did I just give you three times as much as is on my plate or what have you. Do you have tools or techniques for plating, for portioning?
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Yeah. So this is something I also learned in culinary school, because if you're running a restaurant, if you're giving somebody three times as much as one person, let's just take rice. So I'm giving you three times as much rice as I'm. I'm giving your buddy. Your buddy's going to be mad and probably not come back to the restaurant. They're portion scoops. So they're just like ice cream scoops, and they come in like 42 different sizes. So if I have rice, I can use a 6 ounce portion scoop, or if I want to give you a cup of rice, an 8 ounce portion scoop, and then level it out so I, I know exactly how much it is. And then invert that over a plate. I can put it in the center, I can put it to the side. You're gonna have this beautiful dome of rice, and so will your friend because it just got portion scooped out. And then I can sprinkle fresh herbs on it or toasted nuts. And just know that it's going to be very attractively presented because I had the tool to help make that happen. I'm guessing doesn't work as a rule. Some people are better at guessing, I guess, than I am. But I have to have a strategy, definitely.
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And it's a simple thing, but very effective just to have something that you are measuring with. So whether it's an ice cream scoop or I know the blind kitchen has some of these portion scoops as well. So such a great tip for not having to do the guesswork. You don't have to eyeball it anymore. Right? Right. If you've got this scoop full, then you know everyone is going to have a plate that looks the same.
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And if I don't want a dome of rice, if I don't want a little rice mountain, I still have the amount on the plate and I can smash it down a little bit right with the back of the scoop. And I've Done that before. And I put a poached egg on the top of the mound of rice.
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And you, as we've said, have a couple of these on your website. Website. We'll have the link to Debra's site in the show Notes. A lot of great stuff. They're not just tools, but also tips, techniques, recipes. So it's a great place to go and look around. Also gotta give a shout out to Hadley's what's Cooking discussion group. If you're thinking about getting back into cooking or maybe you're really good at it and you want to come share some recipes with us, we'd love to have you for that, too. So this has been amazing, Deborah, as we wrap up, any final thoughts that you would leave people with? Maybe someone is still at that paralyzing fear stage and not sure how to step back in the kitchen, or maybe someone has done that and they're just finding it a little bit tedious now. Like, you know, I'm still having trouble measuring things, or it's just not as enjoyable as it once was, or whatever. Do you have any tips for these budding new cooks or someone who's returning to it and finding it maybe not so enjoyable?
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I'd encourage people to look at why it's not enjoyable for them. Some people just don't like to cook. But if you really have that motivation that you would really like to cook and like the outcomes, then there's different sources besides me about how do blind people cook? There's a lot of different things on there to seek out the information. Notice where your problem is. Just don't let it freeze you on the threshold to walking into your kitchen saying, no, I'm afraid I'm going to spill stuff I don't know how to measure. Well, it's a skill. You have to do it over and over and over again before you can build your confidence that you're going to get it right. So I would encourage people to. Instead of just having this general fear door in front of them, not allowing them access to something they want to do, to isolate what is it I'm afraid of, and then focus on that. Because if you break it into manageable little pieces, cooking is too big. Knives, stoves, all of that in one thought. It's. It's too big. Pick a piece of it and then pat yourself on the back when you. When you get it right, and then pick another piece.
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I love that. Really good advice for. For anything, really. Just breaking it down into smaller chunks that you can tackle and then you get to feel that reward of having accomplished that one little thing and you can move on to the next.
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Exactly.
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Well, Deborah, thank you so much for stopping by, giving us your story, some tips and tricks and tools and all kinds of things. And certainly check out Debra's website. That's TheBlindKitchen, all one word, TheBlindKitchen.com thanks for joining us, Deborah. It's been wonderful having you.
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Thank you for having me. It's been an honor.
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