S4 E09: We've Only Just Begun

Summary

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How I Died – S4 E09: "We've Only Just Begun"

Release Date: October 22, 2025
Podcast by: Audiohm Media

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Episode Overview

In this riveting, reality-bending episode, forensic pathologist Dr. John Spacer navigates a surreal landscape of memories, dreams, and philosophical revelations about death, consciousness, and haunted truths. As bodies continue to pile up in the mysterious town of Springfield, Jonathan’s supernatural secret—his ability to talk to the dead—proves both a curse and a lifeline. The episode masterfully weaves together existential science, personal trauma, and the complex bonds between the living and the dead, setting the stage for seismic revelations.

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Key Discussion Points & Story Breakdown

1. Disorienting Awakening & Flashbacks (01:08–05:38)

• John wakes up confused and out of time. Luan tries to wake him in the on-call room, referencing stressful shifts and Dr. Michaels’ impatience.

  • Luan (01:12): “If you're gonna survive as a doctor, you gotta get used to sleeping light in the on call room. Now scoot out. Michaels is already pissed.”

• John struggles to place himself—hospital names are unfamiliar, people reference events he can't recall.

  • Dr. Kida questions John’s memory and abilities during "grand rounds" at Hopkins, highlighting mounting professional pressure and John's frayed sense of reality.

2. Slipping Between Realities (05:38–08:18)

• Conversations with Lon (colleague/friend) evoke John's emotional confusion and grief.

  • Lon notes that John used to be passionate, suggesting he's changed:
    • Lon (06:12): “But, Dr. Spacer, you just don't have the same passion.”
  • John reveals, in his “dream,” Lon was dead, unveiling deep fears and the blurry line between memory and premonition.

• Reality fractures: people flicker between living and dead, pushing John to question what's real.

  • Alex Mendez, previously thought dead, appears and identifies himself as a ghost:
    • Alex (08:05): “I'm a ghost.”

3. The Confrontation with Death & Guilt (08:18–09:34)

• Existential threats escalate, with characters caught between life and death.
  • Luan and Lon's fates seem determined by a shadowy interference. Luan ominously states:
    • Luan (09:19): “I'm scared, Johnny. I have to kill everybody else before there's another storm coming.”

4. Return to the Lab—Aftermath & Tension (11:54–13:41)

• John wakes, recovering from an attack—Amelia injected him with a mysterious serum.

  • Dr. Iris and Alex explain the circumstances and check John’s cognitive and physical state.
  • The fate of Amelia (“under lock and key”) is revealed, emphasizing the high-stakes lab intrigue.

• A tense conversation with Alex reveals personal connections and overlapping deceptions.

  • John realizes Alex Mendez is related to Deputy Mendez (14:06):
    • John: “Deputy Mendez is your brother.”

5. Existential Sci-Fi: Quantum Immortality & Multiverse Theory (15:27–21:41)

• Alex delivers the episode’s philosophical linchpin—a revelation about death, energy, and reality.

  • Alex explains quantum immortality:
    • Alex (15:55): “Have you heard of quantum immortality?”
  • He recounts trauma from living through the “storm” and experiences of reality “restarting” after death.

• Alternate realities and never-ending loops:

  • Alex describes a cycle—deaths, conscious reboots, and the inability to break free.
    • Alex (20:02): “That's why I'm fucking bundled up in a turtleneck in the middle of spring. That didn't seem weird to you? You did that to yourself 645 times. Every time, I either wake up … or I roll back to the day in the bunker and it was all just a bad dream.”
  • The significance: John may exist in one of many split realities, and the “ghosts” he talks to may be experiencing their own overlapping versions.

6. Identity, Desperation, and the Morality of Knowing (21:41–21:55)

• Alex’s desperate request: He wants John’s supernatural abilities to help him “die for real,” to break the cycle.

  • Alex (21:02): “To tell me I'm dead as a ghost? In the hopes that at least one version of me can die for real.”
  • John pushes back, suggesting Alex could choose a normal life, but Alex insists, in two days, he’ll die again in this reality.

• Closing tension:

  • With John’s consciousness—the border between life, death, and memory—shaken even further, the philosophical and emotional stakes are raised for all.

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• On John’s Loss of Passion

  • Lon (06:12): “But, Dr. Spacer, you just don't have the same passion.”

• On Quantum Immortality

  • Alex (15:55): “Have you heard of quantum immortality?”
  • Alex (18:18): “Either your brain keeps the narrative going, or you wake back up at a previous point with this vague recollection, that vague feeling of deja vu, like you've been there before. Because you have, your brain is just keeping you alive.”
  • Alex (20:02): “That's why I'm fucking bundled up in a turtleneck in the middle of spring. That didn't seem weird to you? You did that to yourself 645 times. Every time, I either wake up, miraculously saved and keep going, or I roll back to the day in the bunker and it was all just a bad dream.”

• On Fate and Agency in Death

  • Dr. John Spacer (14:32): “Just be straight with me already. Are these people… are you Springfield Corps?”
  • Alex (14:56): “I have to.”

• Episode's Existential Climax

  • Alex (21:02): “To tell me I'm dead as a ghost? In the hopes that at least one version of me can die for real.”
  • Dr. John Spacer (21:09): “Can't you just. Can't you just live your life? What life?”

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Timestamps of Key Segments

• 01:08 — John’s disorienting wake-up; “grand rounds” confusion
• 05:29 — John confides in Lon about his haunting dream
• 08:05 — Alex reveals he's a ghost; reality breaks down
• 11:54 — John awakens from being injected; status update from Dr. Iris and Alex
• 14:06 — John learns Alex's connection to Deputy Mendez
• 15:27 — Alex launches into the quantum immortality explanation
• 20:02 — Alex reveals self-harm and the reality-repetition cycle
• 21:02 — The episode’s emotional and philosophical crux: Alex’s desperate hope that John can finally lay him to rest

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Tone & Atmosphere

Throughout, the tone is tense, melancholic, and laced with dark humor. Characters speak candidly—sometimes harshly—about trauma, regret, and metaphysical mysteries. Lon’s warm teasing and Alex’s raw admissions contrast starkly with Spacer’s confusion and isolation, underscoring the show’s core themes of connection, loss, and seeking truth among the dead.

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Summary

Episode 9 is a mind-bending, emotional journey that pushes Jonathan Spacer—and listeners—through layers of psychological and supernatural ambiguity. Key revelations about quantum immortality and Alex’s looping existence dramatically shift the stakes, recasting John's journey through Springfield as not just a mystery to solve, but a struggle to reconcile with mortality, guilt, and the blurred lines between life and death. The episode ends with more questions than answers, setting up a tense and possibly transformative confrontation for all involved.

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Transcript

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[Alex Mendez]

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[Luan]

John, wake up. Look, I can't be your shift alarm.

[Podcast Host]

What?

[Luan]

If you're gonna survive as a doctor, you gotta get used to sleeping light in the on call room. Now scoot out. Michaels is already pissed.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What are you talking about?

[Luan]

I'm so tired.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Okay, this is. Don't let him die on me, Doc.

[Dr. Kida]

I still gotta book him.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What in the.

[Luan]

Wait, did you oversleep again? Michaels is doing rounds. You should be able to catch up at bed four. Come on, newbie.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I don't know what's going on.

[Luan]

Wow, you need to mainline some coffee or you're in trouble.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No, that's not what I meant.

[Dr. Kida]

Good. Dr. Spacer, I'm assuming you know the exact details of the patient's illness. Otherwise, why would you try to skip rounds?

[Luan]

It's my fault. I asked him for a quick consult.

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[Dr. Kida]

Dr. Spacer, what is the differential diagnosis for Mr. Hedger's stomach pain, stiff joints?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Sorry, what is going on? What hospital is this?

[Dr. Kida]

Did you hit your headspacer? Geez, he's serious. You're at grand rounds at Hopkins.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Sam.

[Narrator/Announcer]

Ouch.

[Dr. Kida]

Well, if you'd stay still, I wouldn't have to shine the light six times.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I don't have a concussion.

[Dr. Kida]

Then what the hell was that out there?

[Alex Mendez]

I woke up.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I. I just woke up confused.

[Dr. Kida]

Like, hungover confused or TIA confused?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I don't drink. Stop.

[Dr. Kida]

Your pupils seem fine.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Stop it.

[Dr. Kida]

Do you want a brain scan? It's on me.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I just need to figure this out.

[Dr. Kida]

Seriously, John, what is going on? Is it stress about the residency?

[Dr. John Spacer]

The residency?

[Dr. Kida]

You don't remember me offering it to you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I do, but that year.

[Dr. Kida]

Then you remember the stipulations, right? Improve your bedside manner ASAP or you're out. A perfect score on practicals isn't an excuse to be a douche to patients.

[Dr. John Spacer]

A douche?

[Dr. Kida]

Dr. Kida's words, not mine.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Luan.

[Dr. Kida]

Yeah. Maybe you should take the day off.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Where is Luan?

[Dr. Kida]

In the morgue.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No, no, no. Not again. Hey, I gotta. Is the morgue downstairs? To the right.

[Dr. Kida]

That's where we left it. Yeah. What in the heck?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Sorry. Well.

[Alex Mendez]

Too late. John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. For what? You just. You opened a drawer.

[Lon]

You feeling okay? You were kind of sweaty.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I. I felt that I can.

[Lon]

Whoa.

[Alex Mendez]

I thought we agreed to keep this a secret until your residency.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You're alive.

[Lon]

Should I not be?

[Dr. Iris]

I.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Is this real?

[Lon]

Maybe you should go home sick. You're acting super weird.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm not sick. I'm. I'm back here.

[Lon]

Come on, let's go get you some coffee.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Oh, I don't drink coffee.

[Lon]

Quit joking around. Let's go. That's quite a dream.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It wasn't a dream.

[Lon]

But you said you just woke up.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It was so. It felt so real.

[Lon]

You seem different, John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I feel different.

[Lon]

No, I mean. Well, you were always kind of a grump. And don't get me wrong, it's endearing for the most part. But you seem sad.

[Dr. John Spacer]

In the other. In my dream, you were dead.

[Lon]

Well, now I'm sad.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Come on.

[Lon]

I'm not going anywhere, John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I hope so.

[Lon]

But, Dr. Spacer, you just don't have the same passion.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What do you mean?

[Lon]

Sometimes I think, what would I do if I couldn't do this? You know? And, like, I can't think of anything else. I was meant to be a doctor. I was meant to help people. But the other day, this patient, Hispanic guy named Eric, got part of his finger cut off in a way. Not important. It's just the fact that you don't feel the same spark when you help people, do you?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Of course I do. Really? I'm good at my job, Lon. Or was good at.

[Lon]

At the fake job you did in your head.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No, I. I went through the residency, too. Or at least part of it. I did the morgue rotation. I'm good at that. Like figuring out what killed people. That's. That's how I help. Huh.

[Lon]

Well, maybe you can come help me with my morgue, Mr. Forensic Pathologist, because I am sucking right now.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Back to the morgue.

[Lon]

It'll just be the two of us.

[Podcast Host]

Okay.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What Just glad to see you is all. I really missed you.

[Lon]

I saw you yesterday.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Yeah. Did you say something?

[Lon]

I said I saw you yesterday.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No, after that.

[Lon]

No. Why?

[Alex Mendez]

Doctor, please help me.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Alex.

[Lon]

You okay?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Yeah. Just. Can you give me one second? I'll meet you right there.

[Lon]

Sure.

[Dr. John Spacer]

All right.

[Lon]

I'll miss you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Shut up.

[Alex Mendez]

You gotta hell out of hell out.

[Scott Sigler (Narrator for Stone Wolves)]

Of hell out of.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Alex. Alex Mendez. You can't be here.

[Alex Mendez]

Why not?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I can be anywhere.

[Scott Sigler (Narrator for Stone Wolves)]

Anywhere.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Anywhere.

[Alex Mendez]

I'm a ghost.

[Dr. Iris]

No.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Help. No. Help. You were killed already.

[Alex Mendez]

I was? And you. You promised to stay.

[Dr. John Spacer]

That's impossible. I'm in Hopkins. I. I haven't met you.

[Lon]

You have to.

[Alex Mendez]

Before they kill.

[Luan]

Kill.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Where are you going?

[Alex Mendez]

You're going to kill everything you love.

[Luan]

About damn time. You're here.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Who. What the.

[Alex Mendez]

John, Relax.

[Dr. Iris]

Let's.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You can't be here. You shouldn't be here.

[Alex Mendez]

Dr. Joyce.

[Lon]

Why can't she?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Joyce? That's Amelia Gadz. Who?

[Luan]

I don't know that name.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Let's go. We gotta go.

[Lon]

I can't go, John.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Why not?

[Lon]

You know why not.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Luan. Get away from her. Get. Get back here.

[Lon]

Have to lay down.

[Luan]

There's a good spot over there.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Luan, get off the table.

[Alex Mendez]

Luan.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Luan. No.

[Alex Mendez]

Amelia. Get the fuck away from him.

[Lon]

Just make it fast, Doctor.

[Luan]

I always do.

[Dr. Iris]

No.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No.

[Luan]

I'm scared, Johnny. I have to kill everybody else before there's another storm coming.

[Dr. Iris]

There he is. Welcome back, sunshine.

[Alex Mendez]

John. You're alive.

[Dr. Iris]

Don't try to speak yet. You're all right for the most part.

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[Dr. John Spacer]

What? What happened?

[Alex Mendez]

You were. Amelia injected you with something.

[Dr. Iris]

An experimental serum type of something. How are you feeling?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Am I really here?

[Dr. Iris]

I'll take that as a not great.

[Alex Mendez]

Can you tell us who you are, where you are?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Springfield Corp. What?

[Dr. Iris]

Alex, if I could just slide past you for a second. Don't worry, Dr. John. It's just two small EEG electrodes to monitor brain activity. I didn't even inject you with anything. Unless you want me to.

[Alex Mendez]

I've been watching him. Don't worry.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Where's Luan? Who? Where's Amelia?

[Dr. Iris]

Under lock and key. Not literally. She's literally restrained, but there's no key.

[Alex Mendez]

Dr. Lewis and Royce are with her.

[Dr. John Spacer]

She stabbed me.

[Alex Mendez]

The other docs told us she grabbed the serum and was gonna use it.

[Dr. John Spacer]

On.

[Alex Mendez]

One of the patients, but I.

[Dr. John Spacer]

It tried to stop with your neck.

[Dr. Iris]

No abnormalities on the echo. Heartbeat seems normal. And I didn't die, surprisingly.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Think you mean interesting.

[Dr. Iris]

Hmm. Your sense of humor still seems to be working.

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm. I feel fine.

[Dr. Iris]

Yeah, you're tipped up fine enough.

[Alex Mendez]

Where are you going?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I have to talk to Amelia.

[Dr. Iris]

Yeah, that's gonna be tough. Maybe not for you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Why not?

[Alex Mendez]

Dr. Dan, can you give us a minute?

[Dr. Iris]

Just leave the EEG monitors on, okay? I might not get another chance to take a peek.

[Alex Mendez]

Here, let me get these off of you.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You. I'm not dead.

[Alex Mendez]

That's lucky. Yeah, lucky.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Alex?

[Alex Mendez]

Yeah.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You're Alex Mendez?

[Alex Mendez]

Yeah.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Deputy Mendez is your brother.

[Alex Mendez]

I didn't realize he was a deputy.

[Dr. John Spacer]

He thought you were Dead?

[Alex Mendez]

I didn't know he. I didn't know he wasn't.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What? You didn't.

[Alex Mendez]

They. It's not important.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Springfield Corps told you he was dead.

[Alex Mendez]

I don't know what you're talking about.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Just be straight with me already. Are these people are you Springfield Corps? Yeah. And you know that. You know what they did, what they do. And you're still working for them?

[Alex Mendez]

I have to.

[Dr. John Spacer]

No, you don't have to. That's the point. We all have a choice. And you chose to work for this place knowing that they killed people. Knowing that one of them. Knowing that they killed people. One of which you thought was your brother. Well, Say something.

[Alex Mendez]

You know what happens when you die, John?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I think I'm pretty familiar.

[Alex Mendez]

No, I mean how it really works on a metaphysical level.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Oh, please.

[Alex Mendez]

Life, all of this is cyclical.

[Dr. John Spacer]

God, if one more person says life is a flat circle.

[Alex Mendez]

Not like that. Have you heard of quantum immortality?

[Dr. John Spacer]

I'm surprised you have.

[Alex Mendez]

Do you want to talk or not?

[Dr. John Spacer]

Fine. Sorry. Just come back.

[Alex Mendez]

Sorry. The EEG in here is bothering me. When the storm came, I was a kid. I was working part time, sweeping the floor in that lab. Supposedly no one knew it was coming, but how couldn't they? Those scientists or whatever. Dr. Lewis definitely would have known. So I saw this machine start freaking out. And the scientists looked scared, so of course I was too. I ran and hid in that bunker. I thought I'd die in there. Heck, I planned on ending it after I couldn't get back out and ran out of food. But then I heard this. Voices through the speaker.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You told me that part. You imagined a woman, right?

[Alex Mendez]

There were multiple voices. Most of them shouldn't have existed. But I was rescued and taken out of that bunker and told that everyone I loved in Springfield had died.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Shouldn't have existed.

[Alex Mendez]

Talking to dead people through technology, it's more like what you can do.

[Dr. John Spacer]

They were ghosts.

[Alex Mendez]

So. That's the thing. People are energy. You can't get rid of energy. Right. Some law of something.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You know about quantum mechanics, but not the law of Energy.

[Alex Mendez]

Not the name. Sheesh. Look, I didn't study this crud. I experienced it.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Go on.

[Alex Mendez]

When people die, they don't know they die. The brain is super powerful, right? So when you die, you might die to someone else, but to you. Your brain just keeps on telling you you're alive. What, like an alternate reality where you didn't die? Right. It's. It's hard to explain. But think about it. How many near misses with death have you had huh? The car accident you got really lucky in. Some crazy guy with a gun. Or Amelia jabbing you with that needle.

[Dr. John Spacer]

So you're saying I'm actually dead?

[Alex Mendez]

I'm saying we all might be. Either your brain keeps the narrative going, or you wake back up at a previous point with this vague recollection, that vague feeling of deja vu, like you've been there before. Because you have, your brain is just keeping you alive. Alex, I know it sounds crazy. It's real. You can look it up if you ever get Internet access again, but that's how it works. Your brain can make a nanosecond feel like it lasted 80 years. Perception is reality.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You sound worse than Dr. Lewis. What's that got to do with Mendez or you bringing me here?

[Alex Mendez]

To me. Eric died in that storm. He probably did. I probably did. But all of this. All in our heads, all this alternate reality bullshit, constantly splitting. I can feel it.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What?

[Alex Mendez]

I can feel it. So when Dr. Lewis gave me the warning about when my blood was gonna say I died again, I wanted. I heard about you. If you can talk to me as a ghost, then you can tell me I'm dead. Maybe whatever reality version of me is here can finally stop repeating things. If you snap my brain into believing I'm dead this time.

[Dr. John Spacer]

This is insane. Alex.

[Alex Mendez]

I.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Look. Jesus. What is?

[Alex Mendez]

All that scars all along, both arms, my whole back, my neck, my head. That's why I'm fucking bundled up in a turtleneck in the middle of spring. That didn't seem weird to you? You did that to yourself 645 times. Every time, I either wake up, miraculously saved and keep going, or. Or I roll back to the day in the bunker and it was all just a bad dream. So I get to do it over again and I can't forget it. Most people get to forget.

[Dr. John Spacer]

What the. I can't. I can't process this. What does that mean for all the people I've.

[Alex Mendez]

What do.

[Dr. John Spacer]

You're wrong. You have to be.

[Alex Mendez]

I wish I was.

[Dr. John Spacer]

So I'm. I'm just here to.

[Alex Mendez]

To tell me I'm dead as a ghost? In the hopes that at least one version of me can die for real.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Can't you just. Can't you just live your life? What life? You can escape. You can just not come back next time. Live a normal Life, age to 80, or whatever you said. And then your brain will let you die of old age or something like that.

[Alex Mendez]

That's not how it works. In two days, I'll be dead. In this reality.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Then why do you even care who killed you? Or were you just pretending to trick me into talking to you after I.

[Alex Mendez]

Was hoping you'd care who did.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Alex, we can get out of here. We have to.

[Dr. Iris]

Oh, boys.

[Dr. John Spacer]

Dr. Spacer, this is a momentous moment. You just became our latest experiment. How I Died is an Audio Media original production written by Vince Dejani with layout and sound design by Chris Harris Beachy and executive produced by Michael Freiberg. Theme song created by Silent Mic Music Starring Shana Waring as Sheriff Crowley, Luis Bermudez as Eric Mendes, Kaitlin Roberts as Amelia, Chris Harris Beachy as Officer Hart and Agent Squires. Guancarlo Herrera as Alex Juliet ann Jelly as Dr. Iris. Also featuring performances by Albie Roble, Anthony Morales, Maya Murphy, June Yoon B. Gnar, Nicholas Contreras, Alejandro Pedrosa, Mick Wheaton, R.E.M. isaac Monroe, Nassim Enelcore, Nick Bean, Angela Yee, Ray O', Hare, Gauthier Horber, Vin Vox, Melissa Lusk, D.W. draffen, Patrick Langner, Brian Robert Echols, Karen Heyman and Tyler rudis. Check out patreon.com howidied for bonus content ad free episodes and exclusive miniseries. If you're enjoying the show, don't forget to rate on your preferred podcast app. It really helps us get in front of new listeners. Until next time, try not to die.

[Scott Sigler (Narrator for Stone Wolves)]

When they were young, the five members of an elite commando group nicknamed the Stone Wolves raged against the oppressive rule of the Kratarakian Empire, which occupies and dominates most of the galaxy's inhabited planets. The Wolves fought for freedom, but they failed, leaving countless corpses in their wake. Defeated and disillusioned, they hung up their guns and and went their separate ways, all hoping to find some small bit of peace amidst a universe thick with violence and oppression. Four decades after their heyday, they each try to stay alive and eke out a living, but a friend from the past won't let them move on, and neither will their bitterest enemy. The Stone wolves is season 11 of the Galactic Football League science fiction series by author Scott Sigler. Enjoy it as a standalone story or listen to the entire GFL series, beginning with season one. The Rookie Search for Scott Sigler S I G L E R Wherever you get your podcasts.

[Narrator/Announcer]

Hi there, Fred Greenhalgh here, director of audio dramas like DC High Volume, Batman and Star Trek. Con however, my one true love remains all things spooky, and I'm excited to say there's a new season of my horror podcast, Undertow. This season is called Familiar Haunts, standalone horror tales that reveal how the past is never truly gone and humanity may be the most ruthless monster of them all. Here's a sample from the first episode about a man who returns to the house he grew up in after receiving a creepy voicemail from his mother. Let's hear it, shall we? Mike, help me. I'm not alone in here. I'm not alone.

[Dr. John Spacer]

She's. She's walking.

[Narrator/Announcer]

She's walking toward me. Hear the rest by listening to Familiar Haunts, available on Undertow. Subscribe to Undertow wherever you get your podcasts, such as App. You're listening to me right now. In addition to the weekly releases of Familiar haunts, We have 11 previous seasons with everything from werewolf tales to underwater monsters and creepy reincarnated twins. So get your spooky fix by subscribing to Undertow.