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Patrick Radden Keefe
The legal threats don't scare me. I will say I get a lot of those. The people, the gangsters never threaten me in a in a kind of outright way. The people who threaten me are people like the Sacklers are wealthy people who hire lawyers to send really nasty letters. But at the end of the day, those are just nasty letters. You know, my dad was really disappointed and wouldn't speak to me. He didn't talk to me for about four days and he wrote me a letter.
Elizabeth Day
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Elizabeth Day
18 In 2018, I read a book that would change the way I came to think about my life. It was say Nothing by Patrick Radden Keefe, an extraordinary non fiction work telling the story of the abduction and murder of Jean McConville, a Belfast mother of 10, at the height of the Troubles in 1972. Despite having grown up in the north of Ireland, say Nothing told me the story of my home in a way I'd never been taught at school I and as a literary work, it bore all the hallmarks of what I would come to understand was classic Radden Keefe a rigorous dedication to unpacking moral complexity, an eye for the telling human detail that would illuminate bigger institutional corruptions, and an ability to marshal reams of reported material into a gripping narrative but the stories he tells, whether in the pages of the New Yorker where he's a staff writer, or in any of his award winning, international, nationally bestselling books, always have a clear sense of moral purpose. He's especially interested in understanding the rogues at the margins of society who work their way into its centre, but who all too often end up like Icarus, flying too close to the sun. His previous work, Empire of Pain, won the Baillie Gifford Prize for nonfiction and say Nothing was adapted into a BAFTA and Emmy nominated drama series. His latest book, London Falling, details the life and untimely death of Zach Brettler, a north London teenager who became enmeshed with the criminal underworld. Radden Keefe's understanding of London might mistakenly lead some readers to think in British. In fact, Raden Keefe grew up in Massachusetts and has a clutch of degrees from elite academic institutions including Cambridge, the LSE and Yale. He is the recipient of a Guggenheim fellowship. And just as a former model for J. Crew, every time he tells me a new story idea, I feel like I have a mini heart attack. His wife Justina said in a recent newspaper profile. Oh geez, another litigious asshole or murderous criminal. Can't you do a celebrity profile or something? But Patrick is intrigued by all of the bad guys. Patrick Radden Keefe, welcome to how to Fail.
Patrick Radden Keefe
I'm so happy to be here.
Elizabeth Day
I'm so happy you're here. And I'm so happy that I quoted your wife in that introduction, not knowing that she would also be here today.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, indeed.
Elizabeth Day
Shout out to Justina. Why are you so compelled to write about bad guys?
Patrick Radden Keefe
I don't know. It's funny, I think people sometimes wonder if there's some rosebud moment in my past, some family secret of my own. But it's not that. I think it's just something about transgression, kind of the ways in which people deviate from conventional morality. And I tend to look at people, even people who do pretty monstrous things as human beings, and I kind of wonder how it's not a situation where I look at those types of people and I think I could never be that person. They're sort of fundamentally different from me. The question for me is always how did they get there? And usually they got there by degrees. And I'm interested in self delusion, the kind of the stories that we tell ourselves about the decisions we make. And so all those stories have always been intriguing to me. I don't know why, but I come back to them again and again.
Elizabeth Day
Do you think it's fair what I said in the introduction about your books having a sense of moral purpose.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, I do. I mean, I think my mother is a retired professor of philosophy and somebody who, you know, talked to us about ideas and big ideas and sort of wasn't shy about engaging her kids in questions about morality and ethics and so forth. And that, you know, it's not that I think of myself as a. As a particularly righteous grown up, but I am attuned to those kinds of questions.
Elizabeth Day
So if a celebrity did something terribly bad, then you might do a celebrity
Patrick Radden Keefe
film, then I'm in. Okay, Absolutely. I'm just waiting. I'm waiting for that to happen. Because as we all know, celebrities never do anything bad.
Elizabeth Day
Well, quite so. I'm very interested in what you say there about delusion and the narratives that we tell ourselves about who we are and who we want to be. And that interest led you to the story at the heart of London Falling, didn't it? Can you tell us a little bit about this book?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah. So the book, it came about in this interesting way. I was in London, living in London in the summer of 2023. We were turning my book, say nothing that you mentioned into this drama, which is now on Disney. And I was producing the show, and a guy plunked down next to me who was a visitor to the set that day. He was a guest of the director. And we started to chat. And something I often do is I often try to engage strangers in conversation. I think it's. I always did it. I'm a naturally curious person. But I also think it's important for journalists to kind of be out in the world, and you never know where a story is going to come from. And in this case, I got to chatting with this guy and he said, I might have a story for you. I know this family here in London who I'm very close with. And in 2019, they had this tragic thing happen. They lost a child. They lost their son Zach, who was 19 years old, and he died in quite mysterious circumstances. He went off the balcony of a luxury apartment building overlooking the Thames, and he died in the river. And after his death, his parents, whose names are Matthew and Relle, were trying to figure out what had happened to him. And they made this astonishing discovery, which is that unbeknownst to them, their teenage son, Zach had a secret life. And he had been moving around London pretending that he was the son of a Russian oligarch. And this guy, his name is Andrew, the guy I met that day, told me about that much. And I was so intrigued. I knew if the family will talk to me, this is a story I want to tell.
Elizabeth Day
Secret lives is a recurring theme throughout the book, the secret life of London. So in the same way as say Nothing taught me about where I'd grown up, in a way that I'd never understood when I was growing up there, London falling means that I can never look at my city in the same way again. Particularly because I live very close to that luxury block of apartments that you mentioned there. And every time I walk near it, I now just see it completely differently. But there's the secret life of the city, there's the secret life of Zach. But in a way, so many of the people that you encounter are living these lives of self construction in a way. Can you talk to us a little bit about that, about the reinvention of it?
Patrick Radden Keefe
So there was a theme that I was really drawn to, which is that this is a story about this kid Zach, who as an adolescent, does something that I think probably a lot of us remember doing from adolescence, right, which is you kind of don't know exactly who you are and who you're going to be. And sometimes our sense of our identity is quite fluid at that age. I remember myself, it's just there's different types of, you know, what kind of music do I like, what kind of movies do I like, what are my favorite books, how do I dress, you know, all these kinds of questions. And in Zach's case, he took it to this extreme, which is that he essentially reinvented himself with this alter ego of the son of an oligarch. But what was intriguing to me as I pushed into the story, was that Zach is in the apartment that night, the night that he dies with these two older men who turn out to be men who do not have his best interests in mind. But when you look at their lives, they also had kind of reinvented themselves. And when you push back into the family history, you get all these different people coming to London, often from other places, and it's like a blank slate, like a tabula rasa. You kind of decide, well, who am I going to be now? And then there's an even deeper story which is about London itself being reinvented really, over the last 25 years. I lived here in London between 2000 and 2001, and I've come back pretty much every year since. I've got loads of friends here. It's a city that's very close to my heart, but. But I've seen it change, and people who are here have seen it change. It's become, you know, a much more kind of moneyed, ostentatious, blingy place with the kind of glass and steel architecture and the supercars and Mayfair and all the rest of it. And so I thought that there might be an opportunity to kind of look at these stories of personal reinvention, but then also the reinvention of a place, you know, this. The kind of London as the sort of stage in which all these people are assuming these new identities.
Elizabeth Day
It's fascinating, the trauma and the idea of reinvention being associated with a kind of intergenerational trauma. So this sense of trying to live a new kind of life was a very compelling theme for me, partly because Zack's grandfathers were both survivors of the Holocaust. They survived it as teenagers. Can you talk to us a little bit about that and the impact that you think that might have had on Zack?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah. So initially, this was an article in the New Yorker, and it was a long piece, and a lot of people read it, and there might have been some sense of, okay, I've done it now. But even as I was finishing the article, I knew that there was so much more to this story. There were all these different dimensions, and one of them was that I had learned about. So Rachelle and Matthew were Zach's parents, and I learned about their families. And they both had fathers. They had this thing in common, which is that they both had fathers who'd survived the Holocaust when they were really young, and they had lost virtually their whole families. And both of those grandfathers, their names were Hugo and Benny. They both arrived here in England as teenagers, solo in the world, and got here and had to kind of decide, who are we gonna be? You learn English, you become English. They both married English women. Benny went into the textile trade in Manchester, and Hugo became a rabbi, and actually a very famous rabbi at the West London Synagogue here in London.
Elizabeth Day
Hugo Grin.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Hugo Gryn. Yeah. And a figure who, you know, was a regular on the BBC and kind of a public intellectual, a really grand figure of his day. And when you look at the. The history, particularly with Hugo, there are these fascinating moments. So there's a story that Hugo would tell about arriving at Auschwitz when he was just a boy. He's about 13 years old, and arriving on a train with his family, with his father and mother and his little brother. And as they got out on the platform, he saw a guy walking towards him. The guy was dressed in stripes. He was a Jew. In Auschwitz. And he seemed mad, he seemed crazy. And he started walking towards Hugo, and he was muttering in Yiddish. And as he walked by, like a crazy person, he muttered, You're 18 and you have a trade. You're 18 and you have a trade. So the family got into this line to be processed, and they're waiting, waiting, waiting. And finally they get to the front of the line, and a Nazi asked Hugo, how old are you? And he said, I'm 18. And they said, and do you have a trade? And he said, yes, I'm a carpenter and joiner. And they said, okay, we'll go and go over there. And they sent him in the direction where they sent people who were able to work. And Hugo's little brother, who couldn't tell the lie, was sent to the other line and was killed. And I should say that, you know, I think it was important to Rochelle, because this is a story about her father and her son to make clear that Hugo died before Zack was born. You know, I think she would sort of push back against the notion that there was any sort of trait in this family towards lying. I tell the story not to suggest that that was the case. Not to suggest that Zach was sort of fated into becoming a fabulist by the story of his grandfather. More to underline the fact. Well, two things, really. One that I think lying is much more prevalent than people generally acknowledge. I think these stories are very, very prevalent. And the other is that I think it's often the case that the lies that people are telling are these kind of situational lies, where in Hugo's case, if he hadn't told that lie, there would be no Zach, there would be no Rochelle, there'd be no family. He would have been killed. And there are other lies, including in Hugo's life, where there are these little situational lies. And I think that Zach had a kind of you fake it till you make it approach to the world, which there's a history of that going back in this family, but again, it's not exclusive to this family at all. I think that this kind of behavior is, in fact, incredibly common and actually very relatable.
Elizabeth Day
I mean, I know Zach took it to an extreme and in a way, how talented that he was able to take it to that extreme. But that concept of a teenage boy looking for his place, particularly in the modern world and being hypnotized by wealth and the access that he sees around him is intensely relatable. I know that you're the father of teenage sons, and I also read that when you were researching and writing this book, is the first and only time you've gone into therapy. Is that right? Okay. So I wanted to ask how you carry these stories that are so painful. You know, you're sitting down with these parents who've undergone the worst grief that a parent can experience. Where do you put that pain?
Patrick Radden Keefe
It's hard. It's a strange aspect of what I do, and I should say, but one that feels like a privilege to me, that I quite often, over the course of my career, end up in these situations where I am sitting down with people and I'm asking them to recount the worst thing that's ever happened to them. Generally speaking. I mean, part of the reason I went into therapy for the first time while working on this book, part of the reason it was the first time at almost 50, is that I'm generally on a pretty even emotional keel. So there have been some stories over the years where I just found it hard to shake emotionally what I was taking in. I wrote a big piece years ago about a death penalty lawyer who was representing the surviving bomber in the Boston Marathon bombing case. And there were weeks and weeks of testimony from people talking about the experience of that bomb blast and in some cases, their own children being killed and maimed. And that was. I had young kids at the time, and it was. It was hard for me to shake that. I felt myself quite emotionally affected by the experience. But I should say, you know, as a journalist, I think it's funny. I want to be emotionally affected by the stories that I tell. I think I need to be open to that. I think that when you sit down, you need to be objective to some degree. I think of objectivity as kind of almost a process on the page, but not so objective that you're. That you're cold to what is happening. And so, you know, sometimes I'll hear stories. Sometimes people will tell me stories, and I, you know, I'll start crying. And I suppose there might be a part of me that would think, you know, you're. You should be a grownup. You should be dispassionate. You should be a professional. This isn't about you. It's about them. You know, you have a job to do here. But there's another part of me that feels as though the last thing I want to do is kind of seal off that. That part of me. Because if the story affects me just in hearing it, hopefully it will affect the reader. Hopefully, I can find a way to make that affect the reader. And in this case, I think the challenge is that, as you put it beautifully, Zack was an exceptional kid. Unusual, a fabulous. He took it to a crazy extreme. But in another respect, Zach was an adolescent, and he was going through a series of changes that I think a lot of people would recognize from their own adolescence or if they have adolescent kids. There's a friend of mine, a mentor of mine, who at one point, I was talking to him about how my, you know, my kids don't want to talk to me anymore and think I'm a loser.
Elizabeth Day
Do they know that you model for J. Crew?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, they. Please come. Catalog model. What do they care? Yeah. And my. My friend said this beautiful thing. He said. He said, you know, what happens is that you have to think of it as an orbit, and for part of their orbit, they're on the other side of the moon, and they're kind of on the dark side of the moon, and they're going to come back around if you're lucky. And I think that the challenge with Zach is that he didn't. He kind of never came out the other side. And I spent two years talking to these parents who have been grieving that loss and thinking about things they could have done differently that might have meant that he was still alive. And when you're parenting your own adolescence, the thing that I struggled with. And great credit to Justina, who you mentioned my wife, because I think her feeling was, it's also not fair to catastrophize. Like, it's not fair to the children. It's not fair to the family that you sort of worry so much about your kids, that when they start doing knuckleheaded stuff that. That anybody does in adolescence, that I did that you did that as a parent, you're. You know, you're so kind of primed to be terrified of losing them that you overreact. And that was the thing that I kind of had to work on. But I did.
Elizabeth Day
You're fixed?
Patrick Radden Keefe
I mean, I don't know if I'm fixed, but I found it extremely helpful to talk, to be able to talk with somebody. I'm not generally an inhibited person, so I'll actually tell anybody about my, you know, my deepest yell, please, I'm here. I'm an open book. All very close to the surface, but nevertheless, to talk with somebody who's kind of very good at thinking these things through is really helpful for me.
Elizabeth Day
I know that I have to get onto your failures. There's just so many things that I want to ask you about. How you write and the work that you've produced. But I'll content myself with one for now, before we get onto your failures, which is, are you scared? Because in London Falling, you're dealing with the criminal underworld. In say Nothing, you are dealing with the ira, and you effectively solve an unstable through the course of that book. In Empire of Pain, you're dealing with the Sackler family. And those are just your books, let alone your New Yorker articles. Do you get scared?
Patrick Radden Keefe
I mean, I think I'm not cavalier about this stuff, and I think it would be irresponsible for me to be cavalier. I have a wife. I have children. There are times when I get a little nervous about meeting certain people or how certain things that I write are going to go over with people who sometimes are impulsive and violent. Yeah, it's a constant conversation at home with Justina about what makes sense, what doesn't. There are some stories where she'll say, no, I'm exercising my marital prerogative and telling you that that is not a story that I want you to write, and I respect that. And there are others where I just try to be as careful as possible. The legal threats don't scare me. I will say. I get a lot of those. The people, the gangsters never threaten me in a. In a kind of outright way. Nobody in the IRA ever threatened me. The people who threatened me are people like the Sacklers are wealthy people who hire lawyers to send really nasty letters. But at the end of the day, those are just nasty letters, you know, so I'm pretty careful.
Elizabeth Day
I mean, you told this story. I think I listened to you on a podcast talking about your first meeting with Andy Baker, who is this kind of criminal underworld figure, a very senior figure. And when you first met him, he knew your dead dog's name, asked after your son's by name, and you were like. Which, as you say, it's not an open threat, but it is a mark there. There's a chilling mark.
Patrick Radden Keefe
But that's the way people like that work. I mean, and, you know, we met. I had taken great precautions when I went to meet him, because he's a dangerous guy, and he had never talked to a journalist before, and I didn't really know what I was getting into. He was a longtime associate of this guy, one of the main characters in the book, this gangster known as Indian Dave. And I felt like I got real insight in that moment into Indian Dave, because what Andy Baker did was he shook my hand, big smile, unbroken eye contact, kind of unblinking and he kind of came in close. You know, he's sort of all very jovial but also very kind of in my personal space and asked after my wife and kids by name. And he really wasn't threatening me. And I think he would probably, if he were here with us today, he would take issue with the suggestion that he would ever do anything like threaten somebody in their family. I think it's more just he was letting me know, you know, we stayed in touch. Andy Baker's back, back in prison now, I regret to say, but we stayed in touch and he calls me from prison. He's in prison in Wales. I always know it's him because you get, you know, when somebody calls you from prison, you get a pre recorded thing saying you are being called from a prison. This call is being recorded. And when Andy calls me, I answer the phone and I get the long pre recorded message, but it's in Welsh. The only time when I pick up the phone to a prerecorded message in Welsh, I know it's Andy on the line.
Elizabeth Day
Is he just shooting the shit with you?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, I mean he called very sweetly. He called on the day the book came out to congratulate me and then we've had one chat since then and a plan is afoot to have me come and do a reading at the prison.
Elizabeth Day
How amazing.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Which I'm very happy to do. He's having some of the young folks in the prison read my. Which on the one hand I find very charming. On the other hand, I sort of wonder how compulsory this feels to some of these young guys.
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Patrick Radden Keefe
I was probably about 13. I was at this pretty elite school which was expensive and my parents were paying for it, but they were working really hard to afford to be able to do that. And I kind of blew off school. And at the end of the term, I guess my grades came back and my dad was really disappointed and wouldn't speak to me. He didn't talk to me for about four days and he wrote me a letter. And the letter was all about privilege and the kind of the abuses of privilege and the idea that I had been afforded this incredible privilege that many other people would give a lot to have and that I was behaving as though it was my birthright and it was kind of mine to squander. And he basically gave me an ultimatum and he said, you know, you'd better get your act together or you're out of that school at the end of this term. At the time I was really furious and I think I was really hurt. I'd never felt that kind of emotional coldness from him. The idea of just days going by in which he couldn't address me. And it's a thing I think about a lot. I mean, I've thought about it in the context of this book, because there's a lot in this book about Zach going to school and these questions of kind of competitive schools and parental sacrifice and parental love and how you parent an adolescence. In my case, it. It sort of worked spectacularly in the sense that I ended up doing well. I wonder. It'd be interesting to wonder what my dad would say now. I should ask him.
Elizabeth Day
Yes.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Because I think. I mean, to me, the downside would be that it. I think there was a kind of. If I had done years and years of therapy, I think what we would have arrived at, which I already know for free, is that. Classic New Yorker writer is that it's sort of conditioned. There was a kind of implicit sense that love is conditioned on success. The kind of. The good thing and the bad thing for somebody coming out of a situation like that is that I became somebody who. Who sought and has received a lot of affirmation from the world. Like, I'm in the business now of writing things and putting them out in the world, and people review my books and readers engage with my articles and books and write me lovely notes. And it's kind of all worked out so far because I get that drip, drip, drip of positive affirmation. And that, I think drives me to work very hard. But I think it's also probably a pretty. Probably not the best foundation for one's sense of self in the sense that if I met with real failure or if I wrote a book and nobody read it, or I wrote a book and it was completely panned, I'd like to think that I'd have. That I would still be me. And that the kind of sense of who you are as a person isn't contingent on the sort of dopamine hit of people telling you you've done a good job on something. I'll bet if my father were with us right now, he would say, job done, mission accomplished. You know, my, my, my tough love parenting when you were 13 paid off. I don't know. On the question of sort of my sense of self, I will say that in terms of sort of opening my eyes at a pretty early age to how lucky I was and that. That being given a privilege is also being given a responsibility. And that you should recognize that and be sensitive to how good you've got it and not squander it. I think those are all good lessons.
Elizabeth Day
I relate a lot to what you just said about external validation and the fear that my internal sense of self is so shaky without it. And you have to be careful with that, because at some point, I suppose the question will be, is this enough? Like, when do I stop?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah.
Elizabeth Day
Do you think you will ever reach that point? Or do you think that you will want to do more work, more diverse work, rack up those modeling campaigns, do another podcast, do another book? Do you think you will ever sate that interior beast?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Well, okay. I mean, I guess there's two things I would say. One is that if I'm only doing this to chase validation or affirmation, it's pretty deeply buried. Because the truth is that I love the work. I love the work for what it is. Like if I have an issue at home with my family, it's that I love the work so much that it doesn't feel like work and that I will just work all the time. Occasionally people will say, oh, you're a workaholic. And I always think that that sort of misunderstands me because it's not. I'm not doing this out of any sense of obligation. I'm doing it because it's. It's like cake. It's fun. I love it. In terms of the kind of. The sort of hamster wheel of it. It's not a sense of, oh, God, I can't stop. It's that I would sort of get bored. Like I get bored at the beach. I love the beach for a day and my wife loves the beach for a week. And every time it's a bit of an argument about, how long are we going to do this? Because I will be going mad by day two. And I guess the only other thing I would say is I wrote a big piece for the New Yorker about Anthony Bourdain before he died. And there were some respects in which I really identified with him and other respects in which I didn't. And I think a big part of his history and his life was that he had. You know, he had a very addictive personality and he had a lot of demons, and he was a very depressed person in ways that I didn't even fully appreciate when I knew him. But I understand better now. And one of my big questions for Tony over the year that I spent working on that piece was I kept saying, why are you still moving at this tempo? You don't need to be. He had this brilliant television series, but he'd been doing it for so long that he started to go back to places that he'd already been. I think there was a sense with Tony that he was afraid of what would happen, like what he'd get up to if he stopped moving. And I think as I get older, that's something I want to be mindful of, just because I think that ultimately we're all going to get old, hopefully. Yeah. And sort of at a certain point, you slow down, and I'd like to think that there's, you know, that you have enough of a sense of who you are and what matters outside the four corners of your job.
Elizabeth Day
Have your parents ever said that they're proud of you?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Oh, yeah, all the time.
Elizabeth Day
Oh, that's nice. Have they read your work?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Oh, my parents. I have an incredibly close relationship with my. I realize I've just made my poor father sound cold and withholding. My mother's. The holding one. The. No, they.
Elizabeth Day
Your mother's a legend.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Oh, she's amazing.
Elizabeth Day
A philosopher of psychiatry. What a cool job.
Patrick Radden Keefe
She's written more books than I have. Yeah, she's great. The. I. My parents are both in their 80s. I talk to them all the time. They read my work before, basically, my wife and my parents read my work before anybody else does. I feel very, very lucky to have a very close relationship with them. So they're great. I'm just chuckling because I was just in Ireland on book tour, and I met a woman. I met a woman who's a bookseller in Cork. This was in Galway. She'd come to this event, and I said, oh, my parents love Cork. My father has his Irish citizenship, and my parents had spent a month, you know, staying in an Airbnb in Cork last year. And I said, my parents were in Cork. And she said, oh, I know. Your father would come into our bookstore and announce that he was your father. I was so mortified. She didn't even need. You know, as soon as she said he would come into the bookstore, I sort of. I knew. God, it kills me. Anyway, so. Probably too proud.
Elizabeth Day
No such thing. So many of your books are about families, which might be a really trite thing to say, because ultimately everything is kind of about a family. But are you aware of that linking thread? And do you think your interest in families and dysfunction and loss has changed how you show up in your own family?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Oh, interesting. I mean, I'm aware of it, for sure. Not in a sense of. I never go into stories. When I'm looking for stories, I never. I don't have a list of ingredients in mind. The only thing that I go by is whether if you start telling me a story, do I feel myself leaning forward? It's almost physiological. I. I think I've. I've gotten better over the years at listening to my own gut. And if I. If I feel really compelled when you're telling me something, that's usually a good indication that, A, it'll be a fruitful thing for me to spend time on, and B, I can make it compelling for readers. It's only in retrospect, when I look back, that I realize that I have these fixations, and one of them for sure is family.
Elizabeth Day
Let's move on to your second failure, which is that you knew from the age of 16 or 17 that you wanted to write for the New Yorker, but it took a long, long time for you to get there and a lot of projection. Tell us this story.
Patrick Radden Keefe
So I started reading the New Yorker in high school. I discovered it on the. In the kind of what we called the periodicals room of my high school library. I was really taken with it. I was taken with the articles themselves and the stories and all the rest of it, the cartoons, the whole package. But I was also sort of taken with the idea of the New Yorker writer as a cultural archetype and decided that that was what I wanted to do. And when I got to college, I was a research assistant to Simon Shama, who at the time was the art critic for the New Yorker. And that only intensified the sense in which I was kind of just obsessed with the magazine and the lore and all of it. And I actually started pitching the New Yorker myself in college to no avail, and pitched and pitched and pitched. I have a rejection letter on my wall at home, framed from 1998. Went to grad school, went to law school, was pretty convinced that it wasn't going to happen for me. The whole reason I went to law school was to have a proper job in case the writing thing didn't work out. Finally, they accepted a pitch in 2005. So it had been seven years of pitching. Piece came out in 2006, and I thought, I've arrived, ready for the rest of my life. I was 30. I just turned 30. They said, no, no, no, you haven't arrived. We're not going to make you a staff writer. You're not good enough. Not yet. You are good enough that we'll do one freelance piece a year. And so for the next six years, I wrote one big article for the New Yorker a year. And I did all kinds of other stuff to make ends meet. I wrote screenplays. I had a job at a think tank. I did all kinds of other things. And it was tough. It was a long process. And they only actually offered me a full time job when somebody else offered me a full time job.
Elizabeth Day
Yeah, you were offered a full time job by the New York Times, and then they finally gave you one. I want to come back to that, but I want to ask. First of all, I'm very intrigued by when someone decides to quit, because sometimes if you decide to quit, it's the most powerful thing you can do, and sometimes it is just giving up. So was there ever a point during this very, very long process where you thought, what am I doing?
Patrick Radden Keefe
I mean, yeah, constantly, because. And for. And for a couple of reasons. Like, part of it was that it didn't make any economic sense, that I was sort of hustling and I was doing all this other stuff. There were times where I felt like I'm doing all this other stuff to subsidize the New Yorker, in effect, because I was. I was spending all this time writing. You know, my big project was always the article that I was working on. It just wasn't paying me very much. And if I'm being really honest, some of it was that I felt indignation because I felt like the work was good. So the message I was getting back was, you're not ready. And I really felt like I was ready. And I should say, I'm not somebody who wildly overrates his. It's not a situation where I always think that I have it figured out. And there are certain things I'm not as good at, and I know it usually. And so it felt unfair.
Elizabeth Day
You say that you still have resentment about that long audition process.
Patrick Radden Keefe
I do. Here I am talking about it.
Elizabeth Day
I love it. I love hearing this.
Patrick Radden Keefe
I do. I mean, I don't. I don't. I have a. It's funny because Justina, my wife, and I were very different in a lot of ways. And then in some ways, we're really similar. And one of the ways in which we're really similar is that we both just remember the slights forever.
Elizabeth Day
Yeah.
Patrick Radden Keefe
By the way. Yeah. And it's just. And, you know, it can be a small thing. And it's not that I. Most of the time, the people whose slights I remember, they don't even know it because I would never mention it. But I always remember what I think I would have eventually gotten to with my shrink is that if you're somebody who's seeking affirmation and feels as though you just have to work a little harder to get the affirmation that eludes you, you do end up in this kind of crazy situation, which is that if there's some entity out there, be it a parent or. Or a magazine or an editor who keeps withholding it, you will continue to just find greater reserves of energy to work that much harder because the thing kind of keeps escaping you. There may be some paradoxical sense in which it was good for me.
Elizabeth Day
Do you think that you have proved yourself now? Do you think that you are getting the approval at the New Yorker specifically?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah.
Elizabeth Day
Okay. How do you feel about your New Yorker cartoon of your face?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Oh, I mean, not great. I don't think it's weird. You would think that I would have a face that would sort of lend itself to caricature. Yes, but most characters are bad. I feel as though most of the anytime people. It hasn't been that many times, but like the three or four times when somebody's done a kind of artist rendering of my face, I always feel like it looks like Doogie Howser without a nose, you know?
Elizabeth Day
Has any part of your ambition ever been about being the editor of the New Yorker?
Patrick Radden Keefe
No.
Elizabeth Day
Would you? If it were offered to you, would you say yes?
Patrick Radden Keefe
I mean, it's not being offered is the thing. This is a question that comes up periodically because there was a period of time where David Remnick was talking about how he was going to not be at the magazine forever. And this parlor game started where people started to throw out names, and mine was one of the names, but there were many names. And I think that David probably won't be there forever, But I also think that he's a just a once in a generation figure. And I want him to stay. I want him to stay for longer than he's probably going to want to stay. It's all just, you know, it's academic ultimately. I mean, I love doing what I'm doing, and I feel very lucky to do it at David's New Yorker. What happens next, I have no idea. I'm so delighted with the status quo. I want it to last as long as possible.
Elizabeth Day
Okay, fine. Kendall Roy. Okay, so when you're crafting a piece for the New Yorker, how much is it what you leave out that makes it good?
Patrick Radden Keefe
What a great question. I love this question. It's everything is what you leave out, everything. Distillation, the whole thing. What a great question. Because I feel as though this was. It took me a while to realize that reporting is so hard. Finding some detail, getting some little side story, some amazing quote, some statistic that I think that there's a mistake, that a lot of writers make, which is they look at the thing and they're thinking about their own kind of sweat equity in obtaining it. And that's the basis on which they decide whether or not something should go in the article. And that turns out is lunacy because you're not thinking about the reader and what the reader actually needs and can handle. I was just so. I was just in Galway last night trying to speak in a diplomatic way because there were a lot of Irish writers in attendance about my frustrations with the literature of the Troubles and what I was trying to do differently with say Nothing. And one of my frustrations is that the. There's so many great stories in Ireland that there is a kind of storytelling tendency in which everybody is just like. Like cramming. It's like they give you the whole buffet and there's not enough selection. That happens. And it's partially because all the characters are great characters, all the stories are great stories. But sometimes just saying I'm going to give it all to you I think is really counterproductive because there's just. It's like a cognitive load problem for readers. I think this was always true. I think it's even more true now that we all have these phones that have broken our brains. And so to me, telling a story is all about what you leave out. And in terms of my research, what you're getting is 3% of it because
Elizabeth Day
you do hundreds, sometimes thousands of interviews.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Well, never thousands on a single thing, but hundreds for sure. Yeah.
Elizabeth Day
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Elizabeth Day
You had this depth of material. How do you craft it and draft it? Like, just get really technical with me. What's the process?
Patrick Radden Keefe
So I don't. I. The. The vast majority, in terms of time, of my work is research. I write quickly at the end, and for me, it's really helpful to write quickly. I feel like on the good days, there's a kind of velocity as it goes onto the page, and when it's really working, I feel like the reader. I can just transmit that to the reader and you can sort of feel that velocity. I want you turning the pages. I want you absorbed. I'm getting all these wonderful notes from people who've read the book, and they say they've read it in two or three days. And I love that. That's what I want to hear. It's not that I do tons of research, and then I sit down at a blank page and at the end I crank it out very quickly. It's. What actually happens is I start outlining really early. So I'll be doing the research. And pretty early on in the research, I do this thing. And for me, it's. I always use the back of an envelope. I'll just say, what are the big beats in this story? What are the big hinge moments? And usually it starts with just kind of seven or eight beats. And the helpful thing about doing that early is that it directs my research, is that I don't waste as much time as I used to, where I'll kind of encounter some fascinating side character and spend four days doing all this research, only to then decide this is actually kind of extraneous to the story I'm telling.
Elizabeth Day
Do you literally do it on the back of an envelope?
Patrick Radden Keefe
I do. Yeah. That's how it starts.
Elizabeth Day
What size of envelope?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Just a kind of standard manila. You know, I'll do it. I mean, the best is doing it on the back of a, like, hotel stationery. Nobody has hotel stationery anymore. But I'm. It sort of goes back to that idea that I was as a teenager. I was in love with the New Yorker, but I was also in love with the sort of romantic archetype of the New Yorker writer. So you know, give me a. I'm the guy who like, stays at the Chateau Marmont, steals all the stationery and
Elizabeth Day
then the Sunset Tower. Final question on this failure, before we rattle through your final one, but do you have a point with every manuscript where you think, I am the world's worst writer? What am I doing? This is terrible. I've lost all of my skill. Asking for a friend or because of the nature of the material. Do you not have that because you're just too in it and getting through it.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Too in it. Yeah, I mean, it's, you know, bracket that thought because I think on the third failure, we will be able to get into that kind of self doubt. On this kind of wr. I don't. I mean, I don't. This may seem like a kind of cheeky or evasive answer, but I. These days I don't take on a piece of nonfiction writing unless I know I can make it sing. So, no, I realize that maybe it's kind of an obnoxious answer, but no, on this kind of stuff, I don't have those moments. It's more. I'm actually, I'm enjoying it.
Elizabeth Day
And in a way, I think what you're too humble to say is that you are in service to the story. So maybe you feel it's less about you as a writer, even though you're an exceptional writer and the way that you write is so compelling and so riveting. But maybe it's that thing that we started off talking about, about having a clearer moral purpose. You're doing it for other people and other people's stories.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Sort of like, I didn't write this book for Matthew or Michelle Brettler. You know, it was a good story. That was what drew me to it initially. It does have some kind of, I think, pretty profound moral bones to it, which is part of what's interesting to me. But I had to be very clear to the Bret from the outset that I, and I always am, with people I write about. I'm not writing this for you. You know that. We will. I want you to share with me as much as possible, but you need to know that when I sit down and write, you're not the audience I have in mind. Because I think if you do that, I think you're cooked as a writer if you do that. People will sometimes say that there are, you know, there are twists in my stories. Right. As if this is some kind of cheap, like, genre fiction gimmick that I'm introducing. And the truth is that there are twists in Life. And when I am writing in these big reversals, part of what I'm trying to do is capture how crazy it is to be alive and to kind of encounter these types of, you know, at the end of say Nothing, when I identify the murderer, that was one of the most shocking moments of my whole life. To make that discovery myself, all I want to do is capture for the sense of just like, heart hammering, you know, hair on your arms, standing straight up, shock that I felt.
Elizabeth Day
Well, you do it brilliantly. Your final failure. And I don't know if you know this, but there's one other person who has chosen exactly this failure.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Really?
Elizabeth Day
Yes. During the course of how to Fail.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Who?
Elizabeth Day
John Ronson. Oh, John Ronson said this specific failure is your failure to write movies. Well, not to write them, but to get them made.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, yeah. Oh, I've written plenty of them. Yeah. Yeah.
Elizabeth Day
This is what you were doing to sort of make a living during all of those years of New Yorker rejection?
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, during those years. When I was a freelancer, I started getting jobs writing screenplays for. I think my first thing. I wrote a couple of pilots for HBO. This is almost 20 years ago, and then started writing feature scripts for studios. And. And at the time, you know, I was a freelancer. This was big money, and they would fly me first class and put me up at nice hotels in la. It was very glamorous. I got health insurance, which I didn't get through the New Yorker, from the Writers Guild. None of the movies got made, none of the shows got made. It was one of those interesting things where at times I have wondered whether I'm just not. Not good at it. Like, I'm definitely good enough to keep getting the jobs, but I. I struggle with screenwriting. You know, I think I'm pretty. I think I'm pretty good at it. After all these years, I'm still doing it now. I'm writing something for HBO right now. But it's different in the sense that I don't have the same facility where when I sit down to write nonfiction, it just kind of pours out of me. It doesn't take a lot of agony. I mean, to go back to your earlier question, it's like I don't have those kind of moments of profound self doubt. But I wonder, because you're a novelist and you mentioned having that feeling. I think the difference for me is when I'm doing fictional screenwriting, it's the sort of paralysis of. You can do anything.
Elizabeth Day
Yes. The paralysis of possibility.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yes.
Elizabeth Day
Yes. It's that and then the amount of other people who are involved. So.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Oh, God, yes. Let's talk about that.
Elizabeth Day
Yes. That was the worst bit.
Patrick Radden Keefe
It's the worst. So you have experience with this, right?
Elizabeth Day
I'll never do it again.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Yeah, I don't. I've had moments where I've asked myself, why am I still doing this? Because I don't need the money in a way that I used to, and I find it difficult. And on some level, the time I spend writing a script that may or may not get produced is time when I could be writing an article or a book that I know is going to be a fact in the world. I know it's going to come out in a weird way. Maybe it all goes back to my first failure. You know, maybe on some level, the fact of this thing that's just kind of just outside my grasp is part of what keeps me going and keeps me sort of trying. But I also think there's another thing, which is that I think it's good. I'm turning 50 in a few weeks. There are things that I do that I know I do well, and I love doing them. I also like being outside my comfort zone. I sort of like the Vertigo. And so I think maybe part of what's happening with the screen writing is that it's that I think it's actually kind of healthy for me to struggle with work in a way that I don't struggle with my day job.
Elizabeth Day
I do think that there's something really important there about being engaged in the work and, as you say, challenging yourself, not just doing the things that you already know you can do. That's growth.
Patrick Radden Keefe
I think it is growth. I think there's a danger in a certain kind of mastery. I think it's very often the case that somebody figures out how to do a thing and do it well, and then the world actually tells them. You know, what would be great is if you just keep doing that again and again forever. And I think I would find that quite boring and stifling. But also I think that what ends up happening is that you sort of stop to grow. You stop growing as a person, and at a certain point, you're just kind of, you know, you're just sort of going through the motions, and I don't want that.
Elizabeth Day
So I can't imagine that happening to you. Never stop growing. Never stop writing. Thank you so much for coming on how to Fail. Thank you so much for the gift of your books.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Thank you.
Elizabeth Day
And happy birthday.
Patrick Radden Keefe
Thank you. Thank you. It's a big one.
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Title: Patrick Radden Keefe – ‘Lying Is More Prevalent Than People Think’
Date: June 17, 2026
Host: Elizabeth Day
Guest: Patrick Radden Keefe
In this episode, investigative journalist and author Patrick Radden Keefe joins Elizabeth Day to discuss the power and prevalence of lies, the complexities of moral transgression, and the indispensable lessons drawn from failure – both personal and professional. Keefe reflects on the themes of his most recent book London Falling, explores the psychology of reinvention, and opens up about how his own failures fueled his growth. As always, the conversation is candid, intellectually sharp, and underpinned by empathy.
| Segment / Topic | Timestamp Range | |---------------------------------------------|---------------------| | Introduction & Say Nothing | 01:47–04:15 | | Writing about ‘bad guys’ | 04:25–05:23 | | Moral purpose & philosophy upbringing | 05:23–06:05 | | London Falling & secret identities | 06:11–09:02 | | Trauma, Holocaust survival, family legacy | 11:05–15:37 | | Therapy, emotional boundaries, parenting | 16:24–20:36 | | Navigating danger/threats as a journalist | 21:37–24:58 | | First Failure: School & Father's Letter | 27:49–31:47 | | Validation, ambition, New Yorker journey | 32:28–44:23 | | The craft of storytelling (what you leave out) | 44:37–50:26 | | Screenwriting failure and comfort zones | 53:09–56:57 |
Patrick Radden Keefe’s failures illuminate the dual nature of ambition: its power to propel—and its danger to undermine self-worth if untethered from intrinsic satisfaction. His work, whether on the page or in conversation, exemplifies moral nuance, empathy, and the relentless curiosity that makes the best storytelling possible.
Elizabeth Day: “Never stop growing. Never stop writing. Thank you so much for coming on How To Fail.” (Elizabeth, 56:57)
Patrick Radden Keefe: “Thank you. ... It’s a big one.” (Patrick, 57:09)