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Bless up, everybody. I don't know. I am Heinz. And today, in hindsight, how we doing? How are we feeling? I've been away a little bit, but I'm back. Actually. Kind of been doing a little bit of traveling and all of that while I was, you know, moving around the world. I realized sometimes parts of ourselves go into hiding, you know, deep within, into the quiet sides. And then life gets loud. Like real loud. You know, how it is, the pacing of it, we're in a hurry. The realities that we're carrying, the stories we keep replaying, the narratives we cling to, and the identities we wear like a shield, it all just gets so loud. And then the parts of us that went into hiding, that want to get our attention again, you know, what I love is like the universe, man, the universe. The Most High has a beautiful way of just shaking everything up, you know, to bring those forgotten parts back to the surface in the most unexpected but somehow the most beautiful ways. You know, I've been having some experiences lately. You know, the kind that kind of bend your reality a little. The kind that pull you back into the quieter sides of your being. And in that quiet, you know, I realize layers start to reveal themselves. Parts of ourselves we have forgotten buried under fear. Beautiful parts buried under old wounds and fragmented ways of seeing the world. But they re emerge so beautifully. You know, the quiet side within ourselves. It's the part of us that only speaks when we're creating space for it. You know, when we create enough safety for it to come forward. It's the part we feel when we give our nervous system a new experience. That's a big one. Giving our nervous system new experiences, ones that soften the heart and shift the mind and let that spirit be active again. You know, I think we all were probably so good and we know how to protect ourselves. And honestly, it's beautiful, you know, that is a form of self care. You go through a painful experience, you get hurt, you get drained. And something in you says, never again. You know, I respect it, I love it. But sometimes protection becomes its own form of self rejection. You know, like maybe you were a. A giver in past dynamics. Like you love to give. The one who poured, the one who showed up, the one who loved with both hands open. And because of that, someone or they took advantage or took too much or took without ever giving back. So you said never again and you meant it. You know, you learn boundaries, you learn how to feed yourself beautiful. How to stand on your own love it. Necessary, sacred work, you know, and I love that for you. I love that for us. But there's one quiet complication in that. Somewhere in the deeper sides of our being, in the quiet sides, maybe that giving nature is still a truth. It's a part of your design. It's a part of your DNA. It feels good to your spirit. It wakes you up. It keeps your heart warm. It keeps the blood and the energy flowing. And when you shut that part down, even with good intentions, our life starts to feel a little fractured, a little dimmer, a little more rigid. Like something essential went missing. And the missing thing was a part of you. Parts of you. Beautiful parts. An essential part. The ones that hit back. And the quiet sides. That's why I love self discovery. You know, I always say we are like limitless pools of information. You know, so much to realize about ourselves. I love it. We never fully know ourselves, but yet we should never fully doubt ourselves either. We should remain curious and open, willing to go through the full spectrum the human experience has to offer. And again, sometimes the universe will completely show you something new that will, like, it would just shift and kind of like change the direction that you were going in. If you're willing to listen. You know, I was journaling about this the other day. Given some experiences I. I've been having, realizing that some of the most beautiful parts of myself I was willing to cut off, to let go of, or even kind of completely just forgot about them, to be honest. All with good intention though, in the pursuit of self preservation and control and peace. You know, I'm sure like many of us, we will go and we lay out these clear paths for ourselves. Hey, this is me for the next two to five years, and it makes sense. But sometimes healing requires a new path, you know, different from the one that you set yourself out on. You ever discover something completely new in your city? This happens to me, actually, quite a bit lately. And you question how you missed it before. Like you lived in a city for so long, but yet you never knew this little cute tea house that's been there since the 80s existed. Or you never knew about this new view. Or what about that mural? Whoa. Was that always there? Are my eyes open? Is my heart open? What's going on? But maybe you go to work the same way every day. You stick to what works. You go to the same grocery store because you know where everything is. It's safe. You do things that are the fastest way possible. You go the path well traveled. But one day, ooh, there's traffic and you miss your turn and now you're on a new path, questioning where you are. And all of a sudden you're enjoying yourself, even though you're in a completely new space. You're like, ooh, what's this? Oh, I like that. Oh, look at that beautiful park over there. Oh, yeah, that's a good place to sit down, get into our journal and go into the quiet sides. That's what self discovery feels like. That's what healing feels like. You don't always find yourself by always screaming louder in the same direction. Sometimes you find yourself by simply falling into the quiet sides, shifting into the quiet side, sliding into the quiet sides. And what we find in there will be the forgotten parts of ourselves. But often we need to give ourselves, give our nervous system a whole new experience, A new route, a new. A new route, a new rhythm, a new way of being where the quiet sides whisper to you and say, hey, hey, hey, hey. Come here. Listen, it's safe to be you again. You know, sometimes we go and we build such a safe world for ourselves, such a comfortable orbit that it just doesn't make sense to ever step outside of it or even dip our toe out of it. Because everything feels more calm. It feels more predictable. We're in control. And we tell ourselves, I'm good, I'm healed, I'm. I'm steady. You know what I'm saying? Like, everything is perfect just like this. Let's just keep it like this for the rest of our life. And maybe, you know, you are in that environment, but the real test isn't how peaceful you are in your own orbit, but it's how your spirit responds when life invites you into something new. It's like when you've been. I don't know, it's kind of like when you've been single for a while and you swear everything inside of you has been fixed. Or you're balanced and you're centered and you're grounded. But then you step into a relationship or even a connection, and suddenly you're just feeling things you didn't know were still inside of you. Old triggers, old fears, old patterns you thought you left behind. Not because you haven't done the work or anything like that, but because you're in a new environment now. You have a new mirror, a new experience, a new emotional ecosystem, awakening parts of you that couldn't show up when you were all alone. That's the power of stepping outside your orbit. Think about somebody who, like, decides to, like, I don't know, quit something, like, you know, like drinking, you know, Maybe they realize every time they go out, they feel like they have to have a drink, and they don't like that. Like, they feel like they're a slave to their environment and they want to be in control of themselves. And, you know, I've been there before. I quit drinking for, like, eight years. Not because I was an alcoholic or anything. I don't think I ever even really drank at home. It was really just when I went clubbing to match the energy in the room, have fun with my friends, or maybe just ease the social anxiety a little bit back then. So let's say this person, they stopped for similar reasons. And they've been, you know, solid for a few months, clear, focused. They stop going to the bars, the clubs, and in that space they created for themselves, they feel healed, they feel strong. They feel like that chapter is done. But then one night, they end up back in the club with some friends, and music hits. The social anxiety creeps in, and the whole atmosphere breaks up a version of them they haven't met in a long time. And before they even realize it, they accepted a drink, sliding into drunkenness to cope with the environment. And it's not because they're weak or because they, quote, unquote, failed, but because their healing was only strong in the environment they controlled. They hadn't learned how to stay fully grounded inside the environment that used to break them. So that becomes the next part of their journey. Not avoiding life, but learning how to stand in rooms at once, pulled them down and respond from a new place. Place. And then they will realize in the quiet sides within them, there's a whole new source, you know, a discipline, a whole new source of a lust for life to live in new ways. And they can do it from truth, from freedom. And then they will master those spaces, and they will be able to have, you know, a drink or two. Not from operating from triggers or traumas, but their own free will. It's their choice. They did it. Sometimes the next level of healing needs a different landscape. It needs a new reflection, a new mirror, a new rhythm that brings those quiet sides forward so you can meet them with love instead of fear. And, I don't know, maybe that is, like, the purpose of this season of life. That's what I'm kind of feeling. To give yourself permission to explore those quiet sides again. Not the loud survival patterns, not the overthinking, not the Persona you built to protect the softer parts of you, but, you know, like the gentle truths, you know, the ones that never really left. They were just Waiting for a safer moment to rise. The parts of you that you have forgotten from so long ago that you would love to just dance with again if you remember them. Because the thing is, like, if you think about it, healing isn't always about becoming guarded and stronger. Sometimes it's just about becoming more receptive again, being able to receive, allowing life to touch you without feeling like you're in danger. Letting joy in without waiting for the other shoe to drop. You ever do that, experience something good, and you're like, oh, man, I know this is going to go negative, right? Whoa, whoa, whoa. Can we just let joy come in without thinking something is going to happen bad after that? Can we just let new connections in without rehearsing the exit? We can, but that only happens when you give the nervous system a new experience. Something that signals you don't have to brace anymore, you don't have to tighten up. You can be. The quiet sides will let you know the parts of you that were hiding, the parts of you that want to live again. And sometimes a new experience, it doesn't have to be dramatic. Sometimes it's quiet, it's simple. It's a. It's a conversation, it's a moment of honesty. It's a. It's a soft or gentle reminder. Or sometimes, maybe it is dramatic and random. Maybe it's completely out of your routines, like a random trip to a country with a stranger. A new kind of presence in your life, a new experience, one that doesn't trigger the old alarms. And then suddenly, you know what's cool about it? Like, I felt this. Something inside you starts thawing out, right? Something that was kind of frozen. Maybe the heart was a little bit cold. Something starts returning, something starts remembering. And it's in the quiet sides, if you're willing to listen and mute the noise, you'll start to feel parts of yourself that you thought were gone forever. Or you've simply forgotten the playful parts, the generous parts, the trusting parts, the parts that love to give, the parts that love to connect. I love to receive the parts of you that make you you. Because you are not just a brand, an identity. You are not just the things that you do. There's many sides and parts of you that want to live fully. And I think that's where we realize that all that protection that we had, while sacred. Yes. And beautiful in many ways, it was only meant to be a shelter, not a permanent home. There comes a time, I think, where you have to just walk back out in life again with a different heart. You Know, you lead with love, you leave with love. Like, you know, you really make that your mantra, your command center. You lead with courage. A different awareness, a different level of self respect from the protection that you were just in the shelter and now you're like, you know what, lets go live not naive, not guarded, just like live holy. Because the quiet sides of you, those soft forgotten truths, they're not weaknesses, they're entrances. Entrances back into the fullness of who you are. Entrances back into connection, back into creativity, back into aliveness, back into love. And when you let those sides of you breathe again, life stops feeling fractured. It starts to feel a little more complete, a little more aligned. Actually a whole lot more aligned. Like you're finally walking as a person your spirit has been trying to become. The quiet side's been whispering to you, hey, let's live again. What do I always say? When you leave with love, you leave with love. I truly believe in that. Why? Because your heart is the epicenter, right? It's a. It's a powerful force. It's actually your strength. And sometimes we're going to go through seasons where we harden it to protect it. But if we harden it for too long again, there are parts of ourselves that will go deep into hiding, that are essential for the way that we live our life, that are essential for our love, that are essential for our being. So you gotta have that like talk with yourself, you know, a little self reflection. You know, we love self reflection over here. In hindsight, ask yourself, like, what's in the quiet sides of my being? What beautiful things have gone into hiding? Was I operating out of fear in this season of my life? What is my self care rooted in right now? What is my self preservation truly protecting? Grab a journal, romanticize the light a candle, and then just sit with those questions. Just, you know, let the quiet side speak. You know, be patient. Because there are beautiful, beautiful and sacred parts of ourselves hidden in those quiet sides, waiting to be explored, waiting to be told again, it is safe. Or maybe you need to go outside and just take a walk and talk to yourself out loud. Get in touch with the quiet sides. Because your own voice sometimes is holding a resonance that you know, just invites you deeper into your own room and interview with yourself. And if you do find that fear is in that room, fear of rejection, fear of the unknown, fear of being hurt again, you know, that's okay, we don't shame that now. That's just a part of the human experience. Fear is still a part of us trying to keep us safe. We can hold this shelter up a little longer. It's all right, right? We can honor why it was built. It made sense. It was necessary. But let's also be aware. Let's also be aware that we're not meant to live inside that shelter forever. There comes a moment where you have to prioritize what the quiet sides of you are whispering, right? Not the loud realizations and conclusions and narratives you've already formed. Not the old stories you've rehearsed a thousand times. Not the versions of you that you built from survival, but the soft truths behind it all, beneath it all. The parts of you that are truly ready to breathe again. The parts of you that want to live. The parts of you that have been waiting patiently for you to come back home to yourself. Because again, healing isn't just about protecting your life. It's about allowing your life to expand again. And the quiet sides of our being, they're the ones pointing the way. But we have to listen. We have to get quiet. We have to be with ourselves. We have to reflect. We have to open ourselves up, soften our heart. And when we do discover those parts of ourselves that we have forgotten are those new realizations. I love the new realizations. Oh, my God. Whoa, whoa, whoa. That is me. That is within me. Oh, my God. Wow. I love that you know when you discover them, dance with them, laugh with them, smile at them, hug them, embrace them. Let the quiet sides of your being know that you see them, that you hear them, that you feel them. And you're ready for them to come out again, ready to challenge your current narratives. And you're ready to prioritize what is truly good for you again. Because you're here to live a full life, not a sheltered life. So let's cheers to giving our nervous system new experiences that allow us to live again fully. That allow us to lead with love, that allow us to rewrite our story, to flip the page to a new chapter. Heck, the begin a whole new era for ourselves. And through those experiences, the parts of ourselves that were hidden in the quiet sides will re emerge again. And you done know in hindsight, everything gonna be all right. Yeah. Cheers to the quiet sides. See you soon. Much love.