I felt cut open and exposed.

Not metaphorically. Like I had poured out every single thing I had and was just lying there, waiting on God to move.

The last two years have been some of the hardest of my life. My dad's cancer. Financial stress. A lot of change all at once. I got to the end of my rope and thought, God, I've given everything I know how to give. Now what?

Then I opened up Genesis 15.

If you've studied this chapter, you know it's where God makes a covenant with Abraham. The cut-open animals. The blazing torch. The smoking firepot. Most people read right past it. But once you understand what's actually happening, it changes everything.

In this video, I walk through that story. The covenant Abraham was too afraid to walk through. The deep, dreadful darkness that fell over him. And the moment God did something no one saw coming.

I also share why I've felt less like Abraham lately and more like those animals on the altar. And what Romans 12:1 has to do with all of it.

Because here's the shift. So much of our faith gets stuck on what God can do for us. The promise. The purpose. The good he'll work out for our lives. All true. But it was never supposed to be about us.

We're called to be a living sacrifice. Cut open. Poured out. So that God can work through us for his glory, not just our comfort.

That's a hard thing to sit in. Especially in a season like this one.

But it's also where the hope is. Not in what we can see. In what we can't.

Count it all joy. Even now. Especially now.

I'm Dr. Kimberly Beam Holmes. After a decade transforming marriages at Marriage Helper, I've realized that the greatest tragedy isn't a failed relationship; it's the person who stays stuck and never experiences the fullness of all God intended.

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