Italo Calvino (4:10)
Ladies and gentlemen, when I'm asked for a lecture not about a particular subject, but leaving me free to choose what to speak about, I feel rather at a loss. Usually when I write, I feel myself protected behind that solid object which is the written text. It will be up to the public to read it, or, if they are not pleased, to let it drop at any moment. For a lecture, on the contrary, I must face not only the audience but also the question within me. What is this audience expecting from my words when I master lecture in a language which is not my own language? A supplementary question. Are the words I am thinking the same I am saying, and the same the listener will receive? To break through these difficulties, I start surrounding myself by dictionaries, as if it could be from them that a solution will come. For instance, I may look for the word lecture and see what the world provokes in me. Lecture, according to Webster's Dictionary, means a an informative talk given before an audience and usually prepared beforehand b the text of such a talk. Therefore, I am here, having carefully prepared my talk, and the pages I am holding in my hands are the text I have written. Being unable to improvise, I am obliged to read, comforted by the Latin etymology of the world lecture, also given by Webster. In any case, I can never escape my fate. In public, as in private life, I keep always a written page a few inches from my nose. During my trip to join you on the plane crossing the ocean and later in the Cabo crossing Manhattan, I was re reading my text also in order to practice my pronunciation, to make the difference between word and world, which is my problem. And every now and then I raised my eyes from the page, glanced around, discovered a world quite different from the world inside the written page. Each time I started again to read, I was more perplexed. Each time the text looked different from before. This discontinuity between the written page Fixed and settled and the moving multiform world outside. The page never fails to strike me. Even now, in this hall, every time I raise my eyes and look at my audience, I experience a well known feeling of embarrassment. And I ask myself, why have I written what I have written? This will be the subject of my talk. What happens the moment I take my nose from the written page and I look around? A moment repeated countless times during the day. Perhaps the key moment, the moment of truth. I belong to that part of humankind. A minority on the planetary scale. But I think a majority inside this hall, which spends most of its waking hours in a very special world. A world built by horizontal lines where words follow each other one at a time and every sentence and every paragraph occupy its orderly place. A world perhaps very rich, even more rich than the unwritten one, but in any case requiring a special adjustment in order to fit oneself into it. When I move from from the written world to the other, the one we currently call the world, based upon three dimensions, five senses peopled by 4 billions of our fellows. For me, this means repeating every time the event of my birth, passing again through its trauma to shape an intelligible reality. From a lot of confused sensations, to choose again a strategy for facing the unexpected without being destroyed by it. This new birth is marked for me every time by special rites signifying my entry into a different life. For instance, the rite of putting on my glasses, because I am a near sighted man and I read without spectacles. While for the far side, to the majority of you, the right would be the opposite. Taking off the spectacles you use for reading. Any rite of passage means a change in the attitude of our mind. When reading, I need to understand quickly every sentence, at least its literal meaning. And once I have understood it, I feel ready to pronounce judgment. What I have read is true or false, right or wrong, pleasant or disagreeable. In my ordinary life, on the contrary, countless circumstances escape my understanding. From the most general to. To the simplest and most trivial. I am often facing situations I can't give an opinion about, and I prefer to suspend judgment. As I wait for the written word to become clearer. There is always a written page opened before me where I can dive back in. I do it without delay and with the greatest satisfaction. Because there at least, even if what I understand is only a small part of the whole, I can cherish the illusion that I am keeping everything under control. I think I felt the same in my youth. But at that time my illusion was that the rich and unwritten worlds would mutually enlighten each other. Experience in life and experiences in books would be complementary. And advancing in one field, I would advance in the other. Today I can say that I know much more about the written world than before. Inside books, experience is still possible, but its domain ends at the white edge of the page. On the contrary, what happens around me, surprises me every time, scares me, leaves me puzzled. I've seen many changes in my life, the wide world, in the society around me, many changes even inside myself. And yet I can't foresee anything for me, for people I know, not to mention the future of mankind. I can't foresee the future relationship between the sexes, between the generations, future developments of society, of towns, of countries, what kind of peace there will be, or what kind of war? What will money mean? Which of the everyday objects surrounding us will disappear and which new ones will appear? What sort of vehicles and engines will exist? What will be the future of the sea, of rivers, of animals, of plants? I know that I share my ignorance with those who, on the contrary, pretend to know economists, sociologists, politicians. But the fact that I am not alone doesn't cheer me up. I could cheer myself up by thinking literature has always understood something more than other disciplines. But this makes me remember that the ancients saw in the humanities a school of wisdom. And I realize how much the very idea of wisdom is unattainable today. At this point, you will ask me, if you say your true world is the written page, the only one where you feel at ease, why do you want to leave it? Why do you venture into that wide world you are not able to master? The answer is very simple. In order to write, because I am a writer, I am supposed to cast exploring looks around, catch glimpses of what is going on, then bend again over my writing desk and go on with my temporarily interrupted job. It is in order to start again my factory of wealth, that I must draw new fuel from the wealth, the unwritten. But let's look further into the situation. Are things really like this? The leading present philosophies say, no, you are wrong. Two contrasting conclusions to two philosophical currents haunt the writer's mind. The one says the world doesn't exist, only language exists. The author says the common language has no meaning. The world is literally unspeakable. For the former, solid language stands over a world of shadows. For the latter, it is the world which stands like a stony silent sphinx upon a desert of worlds shifting in the wind. The first current has its source in today's Paris. The second flows from the turn of the century in Vienna that has gone through several revivals and is today widespread also in my country. Both philosophies have strong claims to be right. Both offer the writer a challenge. The first to use a language responsible only to itself, the other to use a language in order to reach the silence of the world. I am fascinated and influenced by both. This means that I don't follow either, that I don't believe in either. What do I believe in then? Let me see for a moment if I can get some satisfaction out of this difficult situation. First of all, if we feel so intensely the incompatibility between the written and the unwritten, it's because we are now much more aware of what the written world is. We can't ever forget that it is made by words, that language is used according to its own techniques and strategies, that meanings and relationships among meanings are organized according to special systems. We are aware that when a story is told to us, this story is set in motion by a machinery like other machineries of other stories. And almost every written text tells a story or many stories, even a book of philosophy, even a company budget, even a cooking recipe. This realization is already a great advance. We can now avoid any confusion between what is linguistic and and what isn't. So we can be more precisely aware of any possible relationship between the two worlds. Now I have only to do the countercheck, to test that the world outside is still there and doesn't depend on words. It is to some extent irreducible to worth, and no speech, no writing, could exhaust it. I have just to turn my back on the worth, on the wealth deposited in books. Dive into the outside world, and I will join the heart of silence, the very silence full of meaning. How can I reach it? In order to get in touch with the outside world, some people merely buy the newspaper every morning. I know that this way is wrong. I know that in the papers I may get only a reading of the world made by others, or rather by an anonymous machinery specialized in selecting from the infinite dust of events those which can be caught in the sieve of news. Other people, in order to escape written words, turn on the television. But I know that all the images, even live reporting, belong to a constructed speech not unlike that of the papers. So don't buy the paper, don't turn on the tv, just go out and walk. But everything I see in the city streets has already got its place in the pattern of homogenized information. This world I see, the one we ordinarily recognize as the world presents itself to my eyes, already defined, labeled, cataloged, at least to a large extent. It is a world already conquered, colonized by wealth, a world that bears a heavy crust of speech. The facts of our life are already classified, judged, commented upon even before happening. We live in a world where everything is already read, even before it starts to exist. I see my argument has led me into a dead end.