Julia Rensing (6:09)
Yeah, it links to two things that I said before. So first of all, with my aunt, and very prominently, because we have always been sharing book recommendations and we discussed literature and art together, we went to exhibitions together. And. Sorry, I have always been drawn to how literature but also artworks work as avenues to. To open a view onto the past or to teach viewers and readers about socioeconomic relations, social tangents or traumatic experiences, et cetera. And this is, of course, because their evocations and the effects are very different to how historical texts or analysis work. They touch us very differently. And so, yes, the second link is what you just mentioned. So during that first visit to Namibia, I found myself completely immersed in the country's history through books, because this is how I sought to find an understanding. And it was mainly through autobiographical accounts I remember that I tried to understand or learn more about the history. And I feel they always also catch my attention for the very personal tone or the way they teach readers about a very complex past through micro history. So through the eyes of someone sharing their own perspective and lived experiences. And during that time, I really eagerly devoured anything I could get my hands on while I was in the country. And I was very captivated by the power of these stories to shed light on a deeply layered history. So it's not only German colonial rule, right? It's the country is shaped by two consecutive occupying powers. There was first German colonial rule that included a genocide, and then South African occupation that included apartheid. And these books stayed with me for how they can unpack what this colonial complex history means or how it continues to shape the present and so on. And then there was a very crucial moment that geared my attention more to the role of archives and knowledge production on colonial histories. And I want to speak a little bit about that because I think it was very central to. To this theme that I chose with my book. And that was when I was still working at the University of Freiburg. My former PhD supervisor approached me to ask whether I had any use for a completely underexplored, unordered, and actually very chaotic family estate from a formerly German family that had migrated to German southwest Africa. But he had actually no context info on it. It was from his friend, who was an Angelican priest. And he was living in Pretoria at the time, but was about to move and had no use for the material, since he was almost entirely unaware of the family connections of that material, because most of his family members died early. So nobody could really translate the meaning of the things that he still owned to him. And these masses of material almost felt like a burden to him. And I was very curious and said, yeah, sure, okay, please send it along. And then many weeks later, I received large boxes full of letters, photographs, documents and so on. And they arrived one after the other at very irregular intervals at my office. And they were filled with so much material that soon became clear to be connected to one central woman, a German settler woman who migrated to what was then German southwest Africa in 1898. And why this is important or where this led me, I'm just going to speak a little bit more about the context. So in these first moments that I opened the boxes, I was pulling out letter after letter and was immediately captured by one name that reoccurred on all of these pieces of text or on documents, on photos, on the back of a photograph. And that was the name Frauenstein. And I was struck by the name because it's a direct link to a very dark and brutal book I had once read before. Again, it was a recommendation by my aunt. And this book haunted me for many weeks, in actually by now, years. And that's the Other side of Silence by South African author Andre Brink. And the Other side of Silence is a fictional story that centers also a young German woman who settles in German Southwest Africa and who's abused, violated, exploited and rejected in the societies in both the colony as well as in the German empire. And there were many, what I call in my book, resonances between this estate and between the book. So unlikely connections, fragments and clues that figured throughout my research and through my cross reading of estate and book. So I unpack these in detail in my book in troubling archives, but just to flag. So the former estate owner, too, was also in an economically very weak position. She was an orphan, just like the protagonist in the book, and she moved to the colony in search of a better life. And Frauenstein, in both women's stories, so to say, was the place where both women lived. So there was a place, Frauenstein and Andre Brink's book. And in the estate, Frauenstein was the home of the former estate owner. And it was also the place where very horrific and traumatic and violent events would play out. And importantly, Brink was known to work with archives, too. So he's known to study historical documents, letters, and photographs. And this is where he kind of seeks out inspiration for his work, or actually the inspirations find him and so on. And then he engages with oral histories, with other secondary sources and so on. But then he would fictionalize those clues that he finds. And I also turned to his archive. So the documents and notes and so on he took during this research that he did on German southwest Africa, on women migration, and on Frauenstein. And I would find more and more resources between both women's experiences. And these, again, what I call resonances in the book really gripped me and wouldn't let go. I kind of became absorbed in studying these two archives, Brink's archive and the settler woman's archives, to try to piece together how they connect and to understand their context, but also to understand their differences. And in that process, I realized that in my research, I very much relied on, so to say, conventional archives. So historical archives, official archives, private archives, and those were mainly those built by the white settler society, because this links to power practices of empire. Right? This desire to gather knowledge, to document knowledge and so on. And so these are really the epistemological foundations of these archives. And it's what I call in the book, the trouble with the archives. That's the troubling nature. So it kind of dawned on me during that research how everything I thought I was learning was a construction and was biased on so many levels. And I realized that history can't really be reconstructed based on such troubling archives alone, or not even at all, actually. And so, again, I kind of turned to literature and art to learn more and to find out about authors and artists responses to archives in general and then to the epistemological foundations of archives to find out, do they matter at all for them, do they turn to other archives? How do they respond? And I engaged more closely with how creative practitioners were troubling archives. So I'm using these double meanings of the word troubling archives. I'm thinking about the ways, how they contest, challenge, or expand archives, so how they negotiate the past, where conventional archives really fall short of helping. So what do they then produce? Or how do they intervene with conventional archives, or do they turn to other archives for these projects? Yeah. And what I encountered along the way has been truly inspiring for me, not only because I really liked. I really learned a lot from these artistic and literary projects, but also because I got to meet the people behind these projects and got to have A lot of conversations with them about these topics that I find very important also in relation to broader questions about knowledge production.