Kathleen Smithers (7:48)
It was kind of inevitable for me to choose Zimbabwe, I would say. I was born there, so I was born there, but didn't spend much time there as a child. And so I had always grown up with this image of Zimbabwe. My parents had old video footage from our time there. There were photographs. I had this image of Harare, which is the main. The capital city. So I had this image of buildings, you know, just a busy cityscape. The house that we lived in had, you know, green grass walls, garden beds. And so I always growing up, had this image of Zimbabwe that was quite counter, I guess, to those images of Africa that I was raised with. And this kind of contrary image that I had sort of just bubbled in the back of my mind as I was growing Up. But then when I was in my undergraduate teaching degree, I had the opportunity to actually go to Zimbabwe on a study tour, which was intended to be more of a intercultural understanding tour rather than some sort of overseas placement. The subject coordinator of that was very careful, or the academic involved was very careful to position it as, you're not there to help, you're not there to teach anyone anything. You're actually just there to see a school system in a different country. And it was during that study tour that the classroom next door, I could hear, suddenly they started singing and dancing, and there was a lot of hubbub in the room next door, and my class just completely ignored it, and the teacher just kept on teaching. And I was kind of looking around thinking, wow, if this was an Australian classroom, the kids would all be, I don't know, like, leaning against the wall to figure out what was happening next door and what they could be involved in. And then five or 10 minutes later, when the dancing and singing finishes, a man and a woman appear at the door of our classroom, a white man and a white woman. And they walk in, the class greets them. There's like a formal sort of greeting process in Zimbabwean classrooms where you ask the visitor, good morning, you welcome them, and these two people, they just walk straight to a child, hand them some shoes and then leave. And so I. I waited until class had finished and I said, oh, like, who are they? Do they live here? What are they doing? Like, why. Why did they bring shoes for that child? And the teacher, they just said to me, oh, they're tourists. They came to visit the school, they looked around and they just wanted to pick a child who was needy, and they chose that child. And as an undergraduate at the time, I was a bit overwhelmed by multiple factors involved with that. I thought, oh, child protection, you know, in Australia at least, we have quite stringent checks that people have to do before they enter a school, you know, And I thought, how. How has this happened? What is happening here? And. And what makes someone feel that they have the right to visually inspect and decide that that child is needy? And it was an odd interlude in that study tour, and I sort of set it out of my mind. And there was another couple of tours that came during the time that we were there, the two weeks. And ourselves, we were tourists in the school, but we didn't really consider ourselves as tourists. And so then I had. At the time, I wasn't interested in doctoral research, but a few things in my undergraduate meant that suddenly it became of real Interest to me to go into further research. So I completed my honours year and then was looking at what do I study for a PhD. And part of it was I really wanted to go back to Zimbabwe. I really wanted to go back into schools in Zimbabwe and just be there. And so I started thinking about what topic could I do and how can I make this work in an education PhD. And I actually was the beginning interested in looking at history curriculum because I'm a history teacher. But then I kind of, during the process, and I talk about this a little bit in the book, I began to really question my own positionality and my whiteness. And I thought, I'm not really sure if it's appropriate for me to be commenting on curriculum in a foreign country, even if I was born there. And so I started to have almost like a crisis three months into my PhD where I didn't know what I would study. And then it was just a fortuitous moment where this incident of these tourists in the school came back to me one day. And I thought, that's really weird. And you know, I actually have the opportunity in my PhD here to look at this. And that's what a PhD is kind of for. You know, you get to really examine what a topic of interest to you that potentially is very niche. And so that's kind of how Zimbabwe came about. It was like kind of a lifetime of almost arriving at Zimbabwe.