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Hi, everyone, I'm Ali Greymond. Today I wanted to talk about how the recovery actually starts. How does you know it's when actual OCD recovery begins, not when you feel like you want to recover. As soon as you get ocd, you feel like you want to recover, but when does actual recovery start? And I can tell you that actual OCD recovery starts in the moment where you feel like you're so sick of this, you. You have already lost so much and you're done and you're fighting and you're gonna fight no matter what. And generally I find that it takes a few tries to get there because the person kind of wants to fight, but also is kind of obviously scared. Not kind of scared, really scared. And it's the balance between those two that, that is. It's. It's difficult, you know, obviously, you know, and as you keep going, you kind of hit a point where you say, you know what? I can't do this anymore. I have suff long. I have lost too much, and I can't continue to live my life this way. So I'm going to really start fighting, you know, and. Because if you're doing the same thing over and over again, right, you can't expect a different result. So if you're just doing reassurance, or you're doing sometimes reassurance, sometimes disregarding, but it's like 50, 50, you know, it's. Or even say, for example, if you are at 70, 30, where 70% of the time you're doing the right thing, but there's still that 30, which shouldn' really be 30 at this point, right? It should be like a 10, you know, like 90 10. But you're still kind of a 30 because you can't let go, you know, and take a chance, you know, it's seeing that, okay, however far you've come, or if you just. Just getting into OCD recovery, so you haven't really even started yet, you know, it doesn't matter what stage you're at, but seeing that what you've been doing before in terms of compulsions, in terms of reassurance, has not been working, clearly has not been working. So whether you continue to do what you've been doing that hasn't been working for another day, another month, another year, another decade, at some point you need to say that, I'm done, this is not working, and I need to do something that will work. And clearly I need to do something different because I've tried this, this didn't work, you know, and just making that shift, even though the shift is extremely difficult, you do feel like you're jumping out of an airplane with an air. With a parachute that may or may not open. It will open, but you will not know that until you do the jump. Do you know what I mean? And again, not to reiterate, but it's important for you to understand this on. You need to understand how OCD works on the level that if somebody woke you up in the middle of the night at two in the morning and said, do a lecture on how OCD works. You need to do an excellent lecture on how OCD works. This is. This is the level that you need to get it on, on the very subconscious level. Because it's just. It's important for you to understand in the moment when you're getting the scary thought that. Wait a minute, 50,000 thoughts a day. Some people say even 70,000, but probably for people with OCD, it's probably 80,000. But okay, let's just stick with 50, 50,000 thoughts a day. The brain, that part of the brain can't sort them, it needs you to sort them. So it's looking to you to see, you know, which one of these is scary, which one is putting you in danger. I need to protect you. Which one do you want me to send over and over again? And then, here you go. This one, this one is important. Please protect me from this. I am very scared of this. The more you send this signal, the more the brain's like, I got it. I will send it to you all day long. It sends it to you all day long. Then you get more scared. Why is it sending it to me? And the cycle, the loop, you know, continues endlessly, you know, and again, a day, A day, a day, a decade, a decade. The brain will. It's a machine. It will just keep going for as long as you're powering it up. And you know this because you've experienced ocd. So you know how it goes. As soon as you solve one issue, it goes to another. As soon as you do one compulsion, it makes you do another. It doesn't stop. It can't stop. It needs you to tell it that this is no longer dangerous, and then it will stop. So you need to understand how OCD works on this level, you know, also understanding what kind of themes you specifically in your life with the, you know, your beliefs, your values, things that you care about, what specific themes are you most likely to get. So then you protect yourself from it, you know, and also reducing overall sensitivity, you know, because People who get OCD are generally very, very sensitive people from, from the beginning, from when they were little, you know, so. And when that person gets pushed too far, you know, I, for example, I have a lot of people. Not, it's not the majority, I would say maybe it's 30% with severe PTSD, you know, which, there was some situation, you know, and this is not, you know, my people with false memory ocd. This is not what we're talking about here. This is not a what if situation in case you think that, oh, maybe this is what it was, it was some situation. No, this is not what I'm talking about. The people never actually doubt it, you know, they, they say there was a situation where say a close relative died. And then, you know, I started to get OCD thoughts, you know, or something like that, or I, I got some sort of bad situation at work and then OCD started or I moved and OCD started, you know, or even like it doesn't have to be necessarily negative thing, but it was just too much stress. You know, it's a post stress reaction. Somet, sometimes it's like post trauma, sometimes it's just post stress, you know, so it's not necessarily always negative. It's. For example, I, I get a lot of people with relationship ocd. Well, pretty much most people, I wouldn't say all, but most people I get with relationship OCD either are in some sort of a stage of getting married or just got married in some sort of a stage of baby pregnancy. Post. You know, that's how OCD goes. It grabs to things that you care about in the moment. Oh, you very much care about this. Okay, I'll make sure to protect you. And then it sends it to you, you know, so having this information will give you power, but you have to actually exercise that power and do different. You know, what you've been doing has not been working. So how long are you going to carry this bag of bricks around again? A day? A decade? You know, and if you don't want to carry it for a decade, why are you carrying it for today? So you're gonna do it tomorrow, then you're gonna drop the bag tomorrow. You know, you have to push yourself. I think that overall, you know, in terms of my recovery program, and again, not to like, you know, toot my own horn kind of idea, but just this is, this is just an example. Based on the examples that I see, I find that, you know, when, when therapists are having very low rates of recovery, which they kind of talk about all day long about how the recovery rates are so low is because they're not pushing clients enough. I find, you know, it's a very kind of like they're there type of situation. You know, it's not action based. You know, if you're doing this recovery on your own, you know, or if you're doing it with a therapist, but the therapist is not really helping and in the year or two you haven't seen improvement, then you can just stop going to them because they're not doing anything for you. But that's just my opinion. But you need to have it action based. What did I do today to make the situation better? Or how. What did I do today to make the situation worse? And being accountable and doing, like I said, doing different, fixing it. Okay, Objectively, if I look at my day overall, maybe in the morning I analyze too much. What would be better way to handle tomorrow's morning because it's the situation very likely to repeat itself. So what can I do different? I know maybe I can, you know, do this and this activity which will sidetrack me, which will get me into the afternoon. Or say, if you're getting thoughts in the middle of the night, what can I do to make the middle of the night better? You know, maybe when I realized there's no way I'm going back to sleep, maybe I should have got up and done something instead of laying there and analyzing, you know, or you know what I mean? So you're coming up, you're seeing where most analyzing, most compulsions are happening. You know, if you're doing compulsions, okay, this situation always cuts me down. So if I just keep doing compulsions with this situation, I think I'm going to feel better, you know, and, and you're seeing what you need to do and you're doing it, you know, And I find that, that to be extremely, extremely helpful, you know, so it's just, it's not, it's not a perfect, easy process. But every day you need to be making steps forward, you know, As I say, 5% a day, in 20 days you will be down to zero analyzing, zero compulsions. If today, right now, you feel like you just can't make a step and 5% seems like, you know, a big climb for you, you know, then just do the 5% can do 5, do 1%, just a little bit less analyzing or a little less compulsions. The easiest way to do this would be if you're really stuck, take a half hour. And during this half hour, no matter what I will not analyze. So you're kind of like. Like a stopwatch almost, you know? And then make it an hour, like tomorrow, and an hour and a half. You know what I mean? And. And as you do this, the anxiety goes lower, right? The anxiety shifts. Because as you are telling your brain this is not important, the anxiety goes down, right? So you will feel like it's easier to fight. And you will see that the brain will desperately try to send you more and more thoughts to get you back into reaction. Don't fall for it. Just let it be. Let it do what it's doing. Let it send you a million other thoughts that are just the same thought but just slightly shifted, you know, Continue to refuse reaction. You will see that. You will start to feel better. So it's just the process of doing that, you know, step by step, little by little, getting through it. I hope you find my videos helpful. If you haven't subscribed to this channel, I do daily videos about OCD recovery. So please subscribe if you would like to do the recovery program. All the information is on. You have. OCD.com. thank you so much for watching. Please subscribe. I'll see you tomorrow.