Alex (23:53)
As I got closer to the mirror, which seemed to be where the light was sort of, like, shining on, so I was getting closer to the light. I could physically feel it, and it felt really, really good. And by the time I got in front of the mirror with the couple and we were all sort of under this light, it was just like this, like, healing light was washing over me. And I remember standing in front of it and just sort of, like, putting my hands to my face and telling them, this light feels incredible. I could feel it, like, all the way to my bones. It's hard to describe because, like, what does it feel like to heal? And how did I know that that's what it was doing? I don't know. It just had. It had this euphoric kind of feeling. Like, my body felt good. My. I was like, totally. I hadn't really been afraid, but, like, I don't even care anymore. Like, how I got to this place, it's just like, whoa, what is this? This is incredible. It was both physically and emotionally, like, incredible in all regards. It wasn't like, where sunlight can be, like, too bright and it hurts your eyes. This. This was something different. I didn't have to, like, shield my eyes from anything. Tingly is a good word for it, but it was almost like anything negative would just, like, melted away. It's hard to compare it to anything else. I don't think I had felt anything like this before. So I think based on my reaction to the light, they must have sensed that I had not been there before. And so they. They did end up telling me that. That I couldn't just stay there since they could see, like, how. How great I was Feeling like you can't stay, but you can come occasionally. So when they tell me that. That I can't just stay here in this space forever, they mention that they only come here occasionally. And they correlated their visits with, like, the moon phases. Somehow that gave me the sense that they come to this space maybe like, once a month to kind of give me an idea of, like, you can come here just every once in a while, but there's no staying. I was thinking, okay, this is something that they do regularly. They must be able to access this, I assume some through some sort of meditation or they have some practice that takes them here. And so if I want to access this place again, I would have to figure that out. But something about what I was doing made me, like, open enough to get here. So I. I asked them where the light was coming from, but they didn't tell me. They explained that that's why they come here. I don't. I don't know either. They don't know either. Or maybe it's something we're, like, not supposed to know, that it's just this is the place that we come for the healing light. This whole communication, I can't remember if it was. If we were, like, speaking telepathically or using our mouths to speak. There was a lot of, like, understanding without words. Sort of like how when I was standing behind them, I felt like, this is their thing that they do. Like, I knew that somehow and then they noticed me, but, like, none of us were scared. It seemed like there was some communication happening with just, like. There was just like this knowing. This whole time I was having this. This experience, and I, you know, I. I was, like, trying to figure things out, but I was also just knowing that that was all, like, this is all real. I knew while I was there, like, how amazing is this? Like, what else is there that. That I, like, don't know about? And I don't know. I guess I've always had, like, beliefs in spiritual things, but this was just, like, very affirming that, like, for me, I'm like, there's no question now. There's, like, real stuff happening that we just don't know about. I guess I was having this, like, crazy realization this whole time. So outside of the, like, brief exchanges that we had, we're all three of us were just standing in front of this mirror and I. I can see myself. I can see them, but we're sort of just like standing there together, like, basking in this amazing feeling light. I just, the whole time had My hands on my face, and I remember, like, kind of rubbing my arms, you know, like, touching where the light was hitting, and sort of just like, in amazement that, like, how is this? How is this possible? And, like, what is. What is this? So while we're all standing in front of this mirror, I start to notice. I think because of the brightness of the light that we were in, I could sort of see more of my surroundings than just the expansive darkness. It was almost like looking through a really tinted, like, car window where you can't see everything, but I could sort of make out, like, palm trees. I got the sense that we were kind of suspended above things. So this is kind of a bird's eye view of this. There were palm trees. It looked tropical. There was, like, a beach. But it definitely didn't seem or feel like it was Los Angeles. And I got the sense that maybe I was seeing where they were. And at the same time, I was wondering if they could see, like, me or, like, my little, like, Los Feliz bathroom or, like, apartment. I could see that there were, like, colors. I could see the green of the leaves and, like, the blue of the ocean water, but it was, like, tinted. It was, like, I don't know, wearing, like, super dark sunglasses or something. It still sort of, like, would fade into the darkness. But I think because of the brightness of the light that we were all under, it allowed me to see a little bit more at this point. I mean, I felt like everything was moving in real time, but it didn't feel. It felt like maybe it had been, like, 30 minutes tops. Like, it did not feel like a ton of time had passed. I just remember us sort of standing together, content. You know, we're like, okay, now. We all kind of know we're here. We all like this light. So let's just all stand here and bask in it for a little bit. We just sort of hung out in front of the mirror, felt the light, but felt no, like, obligation to talk like you, like, normally would. We were. We were just standing kind of in silence, enjoying this. But it didn't feel like a super long amount of time. So just as suddenly as I got there, I abruptly was back in my bathroom, standing still, just an inch away from the mirror. There was no, like, tunnel vision. There was no, like, kind of, like seeing stars or There was no, like, stuff fading away. It was like. Like snapping your fingers. Like, I was there, and then suddenly I was back just as quick. I'm back in my Los Feliz bathroom, standing in the Exact same place. There. There was a window in that bathroom, and I noticed that it's darker outside. So I look at my watch, and I realized that I must have been there for three hours, which is crazy, because it. It felt. It felt like I was there for maybe a half an hour at tops. It's not like I was in this, like, comfortable, relaxed position. Like, I had to lean over my sink to get that close to that mirror. It's like standing there for three hours would have been. I feel like I would have been, like, sore almost from standing there for so long. It does not make sense. And, like, that makes less sense to me than, like, going to a different realm. It's just like. It just didn't. It didn't equate at all. And so that's when I kind of got scared. So I. I grab, like, the closest notebook. I might have even been kind of shaking at this point because I noticed that, like, when I would look back at what I wrote down, the handwriting, I'm just like, okay, so I just did this, and da, da, da, da, da. And it's very, like, chicken scratch. Like, I was just trying to get it. Get it down as quickly as possible before. I don't know. I feel like. Like our brains will try to explain away things. So I wanted to get it all down. And then I called my friend Annie. I had to tell someone what just happened. And she is a friend that I know I can tell her absolutely anything, and there won't be any judgment after. After everything, after, you know, calling a friend, writing it down, Kind of like coming back to, like, okay, I'm. I'm back. I had this, like, lingering, like, euphoric feeling for a while that day in particular, you know? Like, I. I'm pretty sure I kept quilting, but I. I had this, like, sense that there's so much more possible than I was aware of, that it was. I was just, like. I was really excited. And I also was like, I hope this feeling doesn't go away. Which is part of why I think I wanted to write it down and tell someone was because it was like. No matter how confusing it was, it was amazing. And I. I don't want to forget that. I just kept quilting and then went. Went to bed with this feeling of, like, limitless possibilities and, like, we're all magic. Like, just this really, really happy feeling. This part is a little hard to articulate, but it was like I could feel this other me above in this other realm. It was like a physical connection to It. But non. Physical at the same time. It felt like when you're a kid and you have a balloon maybe like tied around your wrist, the sensation, you can feel it bobbing around. I had that feeling. I kept thinking about how when I could sort of see beyond the darkness a little bit, I could see. See the palm trees and everything. I could see all of that from above. So that I think that's what gave me the sense that it's up there. It's just right up there. So thinking back about the experience, I did sort of speculate about the work event that mysteriously just sort of didn't exist. Did I jump into a different timeline that allowed this to be possible? Did the whole experience begin with the. With the work event being mysteriously non. It didn't exist anymore. Like, did something happen then? Like, where did the differentiation. Like, where. When did it start? So I. I did ask some. Some people that I worked with about what happened to the event was just. It was just as though there was no event. And so I never. I never got an explanation about why. Why that happened. And I couldn't exactly tell them, like, I want to know because I went to this place, you know, So I didn't. I didn't really push the matter, but it was never. It's never made sense. I also was wondering if. I mean, I got the sense that couple had gotten to this space through meditating. So I did wonder if the quilting put me in the right meditative space to be able to access this realm. So I did eventually tell my mom. I told my. I think I told my sister maybe a year after everything happened. And then I told my therapist like a year or so after. I waited a while to share the story with anybody besides Annie, but I just recently told my mom about it, which I was definitely worried that, I don't know, she would. She would just be worried about me. Like, oh, no, my daughter, she's out in Los Angeles. What is. She's going crazy. But instead of that being her reaction, she just said when I told her, I. Like when I was at the part of the story where I said. And then I was somewhere else in this other realm, she just said, were you in hell? Like, I don't know why that would be her first reaction, but. But yeah, that was funny. And it actually, like, led to us having like, a conversation about spirituality and stuff that I don't think we normally would have had. So, yeah, that was nice. My main concern was just like, I don't want her to think I, like Went over, like, some edge. But I. I get the sense that she. She knows I still have, like, two feet planted on the ground. But I did have this, like, amazing experience. Whatever this place was, I think it's definitely someplace real, that it. It exists just like we are here, existing. And maybe we're all connected to it at all times in just a way that we're, like, unaware. The healing light, it. That seems like maybe it's something that, like, we all get or we all have access to, just not on, like, a conscious level. I do sometimes wonder if I, like, ran into that couple, like, at the grocery store or something, if I would, like, recognize them. But whatever that place was, I. I don't even know if I'm, like, supposed to understand, you know what I mean? But it definitely has, like, affected me in a positive way. I've continued to lead, like, a pretty normal life. But I, like, someone at work told me, like, once there's a crack in that wall, there's no closing it. And that, like, that stuck with me where I was like, okay, I don't want to. I don't want to push anything. I believe that there's, like, there's more going on than we're aware of. But I'll know more when it's time to know, you know what I mean? I'm not actively trying to access it. I feel like I've been given this, like, gift of. This experience was a gift. Now I know that they're without a shadow of a doubt that there's way more going on than I'll ever know, and that's cool to me.
