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That's a really good question. Like just, you know, it was that type of school. My experience there was pretty short lived. My mom was just constantly getting called down to the principal's office because, like, I would do this or I had this CD or they. One time my teacher, like, took my journal out of my book bag and Was, like, upset because he read some Evanescence lyrics that I wrote down. And my mom was like, you can't do this. So at the end. At the end of the year, my mom was like, do you want to go back to public school? And I was like, please, God, yes. Please put me back in public school. I would rather deal with, like, the name calling and the taunting I got at public school than like, what. Whatever is going on here. So she was like, okay. So I got to go back to public school. That was great. I found my people. I got to go to a public high school in Somerville, South Carolina. While I'm in high school, I'm super into this artist named Elliot Smith. I was also really into art at the time. So I was, like, doing a bunch of paintings of Elliot Smith, and I posted it online, and my ex found me through that. He messaged me and was like, oh, my gosh, this is so cool. Like, I've never met a girl like, this is. He found my MySpace, basically. He was like, I've never met a girl who, like, has all, like, the same, like, music and movie taste. And, like, you love Elliot Smith, and, like, you're an incredible artist. And. And so we started talking, and we talked for a long time. At this point, I was living in Somerville, South Carolina, and he was living in Columbia, and he knew some people that I knew. We talked for years, and I didn't actually meet him in person until I think I was 19. We were just really young, and we were both going in very different directions. I had also just broken up with somebody, and so we started dating, like, a year later. And, you know, there were signs that things were not gonna work out. Well, it's easy to see now in hindsight, but at the time, like, I was just. I was a young girl. I was in love with somebody. And, I mean, to be perfectly honest, I just didn't really have a good handle on what a healthy relationship looked like. I didn't really have a handle on what love really looked like. I kind of thought love was attention, and he gave me a lot of attention, so I got wrapped up in that. And so then, like, when things were bad, like, when we would have these terrible fights and he would get really upset about things or get really jealous, like, out of nowhere, you know, I just thought that was. I just thought that was, like, part of being in a relationship. And that's, like, something, too, that I've learned from other people who are in, like, emotionally or physically abusive relationships is that, like, you get this Delusion, kind of that it's. Love isn't, like, real unless you have been through something together. But that's not love. That's a trauma bond. But I didn't know that at the time. We just got deeper and deeper into our relationship. Then we got engaged in 2014. After we got married, things went downhill pretty quickly. The only reason that, you know, this is the only person that you're not going to hear from is because this is a person who endangered my life and is a danger to people around me. You know, after I left him, I literally spent, like, a few months hiding because I thought he might come kill me. And so I'm just. I'm not really trying to involve that person in my life or anything I do anymore. He lives across the country, and I hope it stays that way. So August of 2023, me and a bunch of friends had watched the Perseid meteor shower together. And that was on, like, August 12th or 11th. And my birthday is on August 18th. At the time, I was living back in Charleston with my brother. I just moved back from Charlotte, and I really missed this ritual that I had with some of my college friends where we would go to the washout at Folly Beach. We would all go out there and we would get ourselves, like, stuck on the little washout island because the tide would come in. So then, like, nobody can get to you, but you also can't leave. And it was really dark out there, and I would just lay on the beach in the darkness and stare at the stars. And when you hear the ocean while you're looking at the sky like that, and it's completely clear and there's no light pollution, it just kind of feels like you're floating in space. It's just one of my favorite things I've ever done, one of my favorite things I've ever experienced. And so nobody was really able to make it for my birthday that year. So Callie and Scott came over the weekend following my birthday, and they were like, well, we want to do something special for you. Like, what do you want to do? And I was like, I really want to go to Folly Beach. I haven't been out there in a really long time. I'd love to go, like, spend the night on the beach. And everybody was really sweet, and we're like, well, yeah, it's like, it's your birthday wish. Let's go do it. You know, we got blankets, we got snacks, we got drinks. We went out there. It's gorgeous. The Perseid meteor shower isn't like it's mostly over, but there are still some meteors. And that's kind of what I was hoping to see was just like a few shooting stars here and there. And we're having a really nice time for the most part. Mark is being really quiet and I don't really remember him saying a whole lot. Scott and Callie went for a walk and I was like, well, I'm going to lay down. This is like what I came out here to do. I'm going to lay down. So I stretched out on my blanket and I had my little speaker next to me and I had been playing music all night. And I will never forget. Like, I can't hear this song without replaying the experience in some ways. But this cocktoo twin song started playing. I think it's Frou Frou Foxes and Midsummer Fires. And I was just really enjoying the song and looking at the stars and I see this like glimmer in the periphery and it's I think like on the right side. Yeah, like on the, like I see it like in my right periphery. And so I look over at it and there's a blue pulsing light and it's kind of tracing a triangle. Like it's like a. It's not like the whole thing was a blue light. It's like there's a light that's tracing the edges of this triangle and I'm not like quite sure what I'm looking at yet. I'm like, is this like a drone or. I just wasn't sure what I was seeing. Then it starts pulsing this rainbow light. And when that happens, I can see that it's actually not a triangle. It's like a diamond. And this thing is spinning, it's rotating and it's close enough that I can see the shape of it.