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Permission To Speak Freely
Hosted by Damon Leggins and Andamo McCullough · EN
Damon and Damo (active duty Command Master Chiefs) share sea stories and have unfiltered conversations about current events, policies, and everyday life as a service member.
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Episode 188 | "You Were Never There" (Feat. Nikki Lozano)
May 1102:23:34Tap to summarizeRetired NCCS Nikki Lozano joins the guys for one of the most personal and powerful conversations the podcast has ever had. Nikki reflects on her early days as a Personnelman (PN), the differences between the early 2000s Navy and today’s Navy, and what it was like to be one of the first women assigned to an all-male ship. Before the Navy, she opens up about growing up in Utah in a trailer park, navigating an abusive household, the complicated lessons she learned from her father, and the mindset that ultimately pushed her toward military service. The conversation moves through battle stations, Norfolk memories, life aboard USS Cole, leadership after the attack, and Nikki’s firsthand account of the October 12, 2000, terrorist attack. She also speaks candidly about PTSD, sexual abuse, physical abuse, trauma at follow-on commands, and the way those experiences permanently changed how she viewed drills, leadership, and survival. As the episode continues, Nikki discusses motherhood, the conversation with her daughter that ultimately led to her retirement decision, life after the Navy, becoming a realtor in the Hampton Roads area, and the healing journey that inspired her memoir, Grit and Grind: A Veteran’s Journey to Healing. The crew also talks veteran storytelling, whether more veterans should lead recruiting efforts, the importance of transparency from leadership, and how stories can help people feel seen, understood, and less alone. These and many more topics are discussed in this episode. About Our Guest: Retired Navy Senior Chief Nikki Lozano served over 21 years in the United States Navy, beginning her career as a Personnelman (PN) before later converting to Navy Counselor (NCC). She was also a crew member aboard USS Cole (DDG 67) during the terrorist attack on October 12, 2000. Her memoir, Grit and Grind: A Veteran’s Journey to Healing, explores many of those experiences in greater depth and was written to help encourage broader conversations surrounding resilience, recovery, and personal growth. Today, Nikki continues serving her community as a realtor in the Hampton Roads area while advocating for honest conversations surrounding healing and life after service. Purchase Nikki’s Book: Grit and Grind: A Veteran’s Journey to Healing https://square.link/u/jNgLZLPw Upcoming Events: Grit and Grind Meet & Greet with Nikki Lozano 📍 201 W Ocean View Ave, Norfolk, VA 23503 📅 May 15, 2026 ⏰ 5:00 PM – 7:00 PM For more information: Foundry757.com Nikki@ironvalley757.com Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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Bonus | "This is Our Reality"
May 402:23:53Tap to summarizeCommand Master Chief Aquinor “Kedia” Hollingsworth is back! This time, she and MC1 Tyra Watson lead an episode with Command Master Chiefs Jacelyne “Jay” Augustin and Stephanie “Cocoa” Canteen, guiding a conversation centered on leadership, personal growth, and the realities that come with carrying responsibility at the highest enlisted level. The episode opens with a discussion on leadership identity and the expectations that come with the role, including the pressure to consistently show up, maintain standards, and lead in environments where perception, respect, and credibility are constantly being evaluated. From there, the conversation moves into the balance between authority and approachability, breaking down how leaders decide when to hold the line versus when to give grace through real-world examples of accountability, mentorship, and decision-making. Kedia and Tyra steer the discussion into the experiences that shape leadership, including upbringing, independence, trust, and the process of unlearning habits that no longer serve them. The group shares how confidence is built through competence, how mentorship plays a role in growth, and how leaders develop others while continuing to evolve themselves. The conversation then shifts into personal experiences, including navigating divorce, motherhood, and the challenge of balancing family responsibilities with leadership demands. The group speaks on leading while dealing with personal struggles, the importance of asking for support, and the resources they relied on during difficult periods. As the episode continues, Kedia and Tyra guide a deeper look into leadership philosophy and impact, focusing on developing Chiefs, aligning with command priorities, and taking ownership of mission success while still prioritizing people. The discussion also covers how leaders want to be remembered, emphasizing fairness, care, competence, and leaving organizations better than they found them. The episode closes with a shared message on authenticity, encouraging leaders to show up as themselves, stay grounded in who they are beyond the uniform, and continue growing through both success and failure. These and more topics are discussed in this episode. Guest CMC Bios: CMDCM Aquinor “Kedia” Hollingsworth - https://www.linkedin.com/in/aquinor-hollingsworth-a4a48162/?isSelfProfile=false CMDCM Jacelyne “Jay” Augustin - https://www.surflant.usff.navy.mil/Press-Room/Photo-Gallery/igphoto/2003137648/ CMDCM Stephanie “Cocoa” Canteen - https://www.navsea.navy.mil/Home/Shipyards/Norfolk/Leadership/Command-Master-Chief/ Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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Episode 187 | "Out The Mud" (Feat. CDR Desmond Walker & CDR Frank "Siri" Bonner)
Apr 2702:29:24Tap to summarizeDamo, Damon, and Aaron are joined by Commander Desmond Walker and Commander Frank “Siri” Bonner for a conversation that moves from everyday Navy life into deeper discussions on leadership, pressure, and personal growth. The episode opens with a light debate before the group gets into real-world leadership challenges, including communication breakdowns around a last-minute barracks town hall and the expectations that come with coordinating across commands. That conversation leads into a broader discussion on standards and perception, sparked by a viral photo that had the Navy talking. From there, Commander Walker reflects on his recent deployment, sharing insight on crew endurance, shared sacrifice, and how leadership decisions early on can shape performance later. The group builds on that by discussing what makes a Sailor stand out, shifting into a deeper conversation on resiliency, ownership, and growth over time. The conversation continues with a debate on Enlisted Leadership Development (ELD), questioning whether Sailors lack access to resources or simply aren’t using what’s available. Different perspectives emerge on leadership responsibility, authority, and when to step in versus when to let people figure things out. As the episode progresses, the tone becomes more personal. The group reflects on pressure, influence, and the idea of the “alternative Sailor,” highlighting how small moments and mentorship can change someone’s path. Commander Bonner’s “Gangster of the Week” adds a powerful moment centered on resilience and growth. The episode closes with a conversation on ethics, leadership boundaries, and how leaders show up outside the uniform. Commander Walker speaks candidly about balancing career demands with family and the importance of acknowledging both success and failure along the way. These topics and more are covered in this episode. Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast Cover photograph taken by William Cotton of 901 Photography - https://www.instagram.com/william_cotton_photography?igsh=MTN6aXluNHM2aHZ6bw== PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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Episode 186 | "Submit an ETP" (Feat. Capt. Charles Harmon & NCC Joey Sawyer)
Apr 2002:51:46Tap to summarizeCapt. Charles R. Harmon, Branch Head of Enlisted Plans and Policy (OPNAV N132), joins the Permission to Speak Freely Podcast for a conversation on SEM, billet-based advancement, and what Sailors are experiencing across the fleet. The discussion moves through how the system is designed to work, where confusion is coming from, and how decisions are being made at the command and detailer level. Questions from the fleet drive the conversation, touching on ETPs, marketplace dynamics, command involvement, and the gap between policy and understanding. When Capt. Harmon leaves, Career Counselor Chief Joey Sawyer, also known as “Fat Chief,” continues the conversation with a look at the newly released Decision Guide Memorandum 007 and what it could mean for technical standards, command involvement, and how Sailors approach their careers. They also get into email signature etiquette. Do you really need all your collateral duties in your signature? The conversation continues with Joey sharing his approach to discipline, time management, and using small pockets of time to stay consistent, along with how he communicates complex information in a way Sailors can actually use. Respective “Do Betters” are shared. These topics and more are covered in this episode. Resources for this Episode: Billet-Based Advancement (MyNavyHr) - https://www.mynavyhr.navy.mil/Career-Management/Detailing/Enlisted/Billet-Based-Advancement/ Senior Enlisted Marketplace (MyNavyHr) - https://www.mynavyhr.navy.mil/Career-Management/Detailing/Enlisted/Senior-Enlisted-Marketplace/ BBA Handbook 3.0 - chrome-extension://efaidnbmnnnibpcajpcglclefindmkaj/https://www.mynavyhr.navy.mil/Portals/55/Career/Detailing/Enlisted/DetailingMarketplace/BBA%20Handbook%203-0.pdf?ver=dH_5cVh2sPIXHomd8SAiwA%3D%3D Advancement Manual - chrome-extension://efaidnbmnnnibpcajpcglclefindmkaj/https://www.mynavyhr.navy.mil/Portals/55/Reference/Instructions/BUPERS/BUPERSINST%201430.16.pdf MyNavyHR: Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/mynavyhr/ Facebook - https://www.facebook.com/MyNAVYHR/ Joey Sawyer, aka “Fat Chief”: Instagram - https://www.instagram.com/fat_chief_usn/ Facebook - https://www.facebook.com/p/Fat-Chief-61573142126612/ YouTube - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCZ7k2A6OPj001XWkQND99KA Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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Bonus | "Letters to Myself" (Feat. Dr. John P. Cordle)
Apr 1600:48:43Tap to summarizeRetired Navy Captain and author of Letters to Myself, John Cordle joins the show to talk through leadership, experience, and the perspective behind his book. Damo sits down one-on-one with Cordle, a former Commanding Officer and long-time surface warfare officer, to get into the lessons that come from time in the Navy, the realities of decision-making, and how those experiences shaped what he chose to put on paper. The conversation moves through leadership at different levels, how mindset shifts over time, and the challenge of turning real-world experience into something others can learn from. They also get into what the book is built around, the themes it focuses on, and who it’s written for—giving listeners a clearer picture of what they can expect when they pick it up. Buy a copy of the book now: https://stonetowerpress.com/shop-2/authors/john-cordle/letters-to-myself/ To attend the book singing in Annapolis at Old Fox Books - https://www.facebook.com/events/1328250259143019/?ref_source=NEWS_FEED Connect with Dr. Cordle on LinkedIn - https://www.linkedin.com/in/cordlejp/
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Episode 185 | "Submariner or Submariner?" (Feat. CMDCM Jacob Green)
Apr 1302:04:40Tap to summarizeAbout our Guest: Master Chief Green was born in Westerly, RI, and raised in Woodbine, GA. He graduated from Camden County High School in 2004. He entered the Navy through the Delayed Entry Program in March 2006 as a Culinary Specialist. He is a graduate of the United States Senior Enlisted Academy, Command Master Chief/Chief of the Boat course. Master Chief’s sea duty assignments include USS Annapolis (SSN 760), USS Virginia (SSN 774), USS Greeneville (SSN 772). In October 2022, he reported to USS Hampton (SSN 767) as Chief of the Boat. During that COB tour, he completed a Western Pacific Deployment, two SOUTCOMs, ICE CAMP 2024, and a change of homeport from San Diego to Portsmouth Naval Shipyard. His shore duty assignments include Enlisted Aide to the Director of Naval Reactors, Lead Instructor for Navy Food Management Team New London, and Lead Culinary Specialist Commander Submarine Forces. Master Chief Green is currently the Command Master Chief for Submarine Readiness Squadron 32. Master Chief Green’s personal awards include Navy and Marine Corps Commendation Medal (four awards), Navy and Marine Corps Achievement Medal (five awards), and various unit citations. About the Episode: CMDCM Jacob Green joins the show for a real look beneath the surface of submarine life. The guys dive straight into what it actually means to live and lead in a world with no sunlight, limited communication, and nowhere to go but each other. From the pressure of those first 12 months onboard to earning your dolphins, Jake breaks down the grind, the expectations, and the culture that defines the submarine force. They get into everything from daily life underway, food operations, and damage control to the mental toll of long deployments with little to no contact back home. Conversations shift between leadership at the highest levels, building trust in tight spaces, and how sailors adapt when privacy doesn’t exist, and every role matters. Along the way, the episode moves naturally between submarine life and broader Navy experiences. The crew trades stories and perspectives, including surface-side experiences like UNREPs and mail call during COVID deployments, adding contrast to just how different life can be across platforms. Jake shares his personal journey from high school athlete to submarine life, his first deployment experience, how he ended up on his first boat, and the lessons learned along the way. The conversation also touches on advancements in submarine technology, morale underway, and the realities of quality of life both at sea and ashore. From leadership philosophies to the small moments that keep sailors going, this episode captures the full spectrum of what it means to serve. These topics and more are covered in this episode. Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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[Reflash] FLTMPS Stalkers x "Press 100 Now!" (Feat. ABCM [Ret.] Alquin Parker)
Apr 602:30:16Tap to summarizeThis Reflash is a double feature. Two conversations brought back together in one episode, centered on accountability, perception, and how Sailors navigate the system. Featuring ABCM (Ret.) Alquin Parker, the discussion takes a deep dive into the CPO selection board process and the decisions that shape a career. From how board members are selected to what should be included in your package, the conversation breaks down the process in a way that’s direct and practical. The team also explores what really matters when preparing for advancement. Sustained superior performance versus early promote, the role of the career summary letter, and whether common beliefs like the “five year penalty box” actually hold weight. They also get into the reality of sitting a selection board, offering perspective on how records are viewed, how decisions are made, and what Sailors should be thinking about long before their package is submitted. This isn’t just about making Chief. It’s about understanding the process, challenging assumptions, and being intentional about how you show up on paper and in practice. Two episodes. One conversation that still matters.
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Episode 184 | "Your First Dirtbag" (Feat. AZ2 Makel Jackson)
Mar 3002:09:33Tap to summarizeDamon, Damo, and Aaron are joined by AZ2 Makel Jackson, a listener-turned-guest and active duty Navy Aviation Maintenance Administrator. The episode kicks off with Damo discussing question submissions for an upcoming episode, board eligible results, a discussion on Maintenance Master Chiefs, and military vs. civilian education. The hosts then dive into Makel’s background, tracing his journey from the south side of Chicago to Houston and ultimately to the Navy. They debate pizza, discuss what drew him to enlist, and break down his boot camp and A School experiences. The conversation turns to his biggest misconception about the fleet, his first dirtbag encounter, and what it really means to “play the game.” Makel shares the first moral lesson he learned at his first command and reflects on how mentorship shaped his early career. The group discusses Full Power Navy and how Makel navigated the decision to stay or separate. Damon asks about balancing being liked versus being respected as Makel prepares to transition to sea duty. The crew explores whether junior Sailors correct each other for uniform infractions, debate which host would be the toughest at DRB, and unpack what kills morale the fastest. Makel shares his take on the biggest problem the Navy is facing and the best thing about serving. The conversation also covers Navy bucket lists, whether new accession Sailors expect too much when it comes to quality of life, and what actually motivates Sailors today. The group discusses good leadership, the Chief’s Mess, and the unique structure of leadership in aviation squadrons. The episode closes with Makel’s #DoBetter, his Hero of the Week, and his picks for favorite episode and favorite guest. These topics and more are covered in this episode. Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast Picks of the Week: Damo - Immortal Valor (Robert Child) https://www.ospreypublishing.com/us/immortal-valor-9781472852847/ AZ2 Jackson - Tommy G’s YouTube Channel https://youtube.com/@tommygmcgee?si=jdi-_Ycp_szWJJQQ PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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Episode 183 | "A Whole Situation" (Feat. CMDCM Aquinor Hollingsworth)
Mar 2302:50:55Tap to summarizeAbout our Guest: Master Chief Hollingsworth, a native of New Orleans, Louisiana, enlisted in the United States Navy on 27 October 1998 after graduating from Alcee Fortier High School in 1998. She attended Recruit Training Command in Great Lakes, Illinois, and completed Cryptologic Technician Communications training in Pensacola, Florida. After seven years as a Cryptologic Technician Communications, she converted to Information Systems Technician in 2005. Her sea duty assignments include COMSEVENTHFLT permanently embarked aboard USS Blue Ridge (LCC-19), USS Ronald Reagan (CVN-76), and USS George H.W. Bush (CVN-77). Her shore assignments include NSGA Pensacola, NSGA Misawa, Commander Task Force 72 (two tours), NAS Pensacola, CID Unit Corry Station, and Naval Education and Training Command Supply Operations Chain. She was tried, tested, and accepted into the Chief’s Mess on September 16, 2011. She is a graduate of the Senior Enlisted Academy Class 209 (Khaki) and CMC/COB Course #25070. She has earned her Information Warfare Specialist, Enlisted Surface Warfare Specialist, Aviation Warfare Specialist, and Master Training Specialist designations, and is also a Lean Six Sigma Yellow Belt. Master Chief Hollingsworth holds an Associate degree in Business Administration, a Bachelor of Science in Human Services Management, and is currently completing a Master’s degree in Organizational Leadership. Her personal awards include six Navy and Marine Corps Commendation Medals, five Navy and Marine Corps Achievement Medals, and numerous unit and campaign awards. About the Episode: From this point forward, we’re calling her Kedia. Damo opens the episode by telling the story of the first time he met Kedia on USS George H. W. Bush… during a disciplinary review board where she didn’t hesitate to call him out. That moment sets the tone for a conversation about accountability, leadership, and the importance of practicing what you preach. The crew discusses the recent shooting involving an ROTC instructor at Old Dominion University and reflect on the loss of CSSN Angelina Resendiz, leading into a deeper conversation about responsibility, influence, and leading by example. Damon asks Kedia if she remembers her first 72 hours in the Navy, and the group talks about how those early experiences shape the leaders we become. Is it okay to follow your Sailors or your leadership on social media? Is there value in having an “anger translator”? What does lazy leadership actually look like? Damo asks Kedia how she balances being a Command Master Chief, a mother, and a graduate student working toward her Master’s degree. The group also tackles a tough question… how do you respond when people use their struggles as an excuse for poor decisions? The conversation turns to Admiral Caudle’s recently released CNOte 5, but the crew goes so deep into the first two principles they realize they could spend an entire episode on it alone. They also discuss what’s happening aboard USS Gerald R. Ford, take a listener question about self-righteous leaders, and read some of Kedia’s social media posts that sparked real conversation across the Fleet. Kedia shares how she spends the holidays with her Sailors, talks about betting on your leadership even when the risk is high, and reflects on how you know when it’s time to retire. The episode closes with one of the most personal Do Better segments we’ve had, as she speaks on legacy, mentorship, and the responsibility of wearing the anchors. These topics and much more are covered in this episode of the PTSF Podcast. Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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Episode 182 | "I Deleted Uber"
Mar 1601:36:58Tap to summarizeNo Aaron. No guest. No worries. Damon and Damo were built for an impromptu episode. LOL. Damo starts by reflecting on an event he held with a small group of Sailors at his command. Somehow, that leads to a conversation about restricted barracks. Are those even still a thing? Damo has been working toward another qualification and is getting closer to finally being able to go out on funerals. Damon gets a little deeper this episode and reflects on a recent trip to the hospital. He’s also been dealing with health issues with his dog, and the conversation turns into one of those real-life moments that hits different when you get a little older. After a report about Sailors being arrested for gang-related violence, the guys talk about choices, accountability, and the idea that if you joined the Navy to change your life, then you actually have to change it. With “Operation Epic Fury” going on, fake news has been everywhere, so they go over some of the wildest messages they’ve seen and ask the question: Did anybody actually believe this stuff? They also get into the important topics, like how important Uber Eats really is, and whether anyone should actually be surprised that MREs aren’t exactly healthy food. A couple of social media reels sparked more discussion, one about modifying working hours to improve efficiency, and another about how unnecessary group chats can make communication worse instead of better. The conversation turns to performance evaluations and why the word “potential” sometimes feels like the villain when it comes to ranking Sailors. Damon asks what disciplinary or accountability methods should be brought back, or at least enforced better, including things like dink study and CCUs. Damon is overly cautious about his Pick of the Week, which makes it even funnier, and the guys close it out with their #DoBetter segments. Damo has a bad experience at the Navy gym on Joint Base Anacostia-Bolling, and Damon’s feels a little more personal. These and more topics are covered in this episode. Do you have a “Do Better” that you want us to review on a future episode? Reach out at ptsfpodcast@gmail.com Stay connected with the PTSF Podcast: https://linktr.ee/Ptsfpodcast Links and more from this episode: Nine Sailors arrested - https://www.navytimes.com/news/your-navy/2026/02/26/nine-sailors-arrested-in-connection-with-2025-violent-assault/ Group Chat Clip - @ladominicangoddess (TikTok): https://www.tiktok.com/@ladominicanprincess?_r=1&_t=ZS-94i072Z5cjB 8 Hours Clip - @mayinmidlife (IG): https://www.tiktok.com/@ladominicanprincess?_r=1&_t=ZS-94i072Z5cjB Picks of the Week: Pick of the week: The Courage to Be Disliked (Ichiro Kishimi and Fumitaki Koga) - https://www.audible.com/ep/mytitle?asin=B07BRPQ8LW&language=en_US&source_code=GO1PP30DTRIAL54702202491G8&ds_cid=21383977191&ds_agid=175570816708&ds_kids=329412961893&gclsrc=aw.ds&gad_source=1&gad_campaignid=21383977191&gclid=CjwKCAjwjtTNBhB0EiwAuswYhiw_7DnFw0MtjURq38djSX5Jx1X79xxUr_BNZc05wnNagSb8ewi_uhoCyncQAvD_Bw Love is Blind (Netflix) - https://www.netflix.com/tudum/features/love-is-blind-season-10-cast-instagrams PTSF Theme Music: Produced by Lim0
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