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Ryder Strong
the Red Weather is a work of fiction. Any resemblance to actual persons or events reflects the adaptation of real, publicly available materials for creative and legal reasons. The content of this podcast is the sole responsibility of Red Weather, LLC and does not reflect the views or responsibilities of iHeartMedia or its affiliates. Previously on the Red Weather. A few days before she died, I got a letter from Willow. Willow was my neighbor and one of my best friends as a kid. The central trauma of Willow's life had to do with her sister, Anna. On Halloween night, 1995, Anna disappeared. Well, it's a little superficial, but I. I would love to see some of this stuff. I was reading the evidence catalog for Anna Trainor's case. Like this book, maybe. And then. Could I see the bullets? I always said that she made that
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tape for somebody else, an older guy.
Lainey Trainor
You said this thing last week. You said, oh, I'm glad you're 16, at least, because I know it's cause you just, like, want me to drive.
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But then it also can't be true that age doesn't matter.
Ryder Strong
I think in order to get more information about that, I need to talk to Lainey because, brutal. I know.
Friend/Commentator
It's going to be a worst conversation.
Ryder Strong
I know. I'm not looking forward to it.
Lainey Trainor
Writer. It's Lany Trainor. I don't know. It's been years. Decades. I'm in Colorado. Okay, call me back, buddy.
Ryder Strong
And I knew I had to go to Colorado. I was over a month into investigating the disappearance of Anna Traynor when I finally heard from her mom, Lainey.
Lainey Trainor
I have lots to show you, things you need to see.
Ryder Strong
We traded phone calls. She agreed that if I came out to Denver, she would tell me everything. We set a date. I got a flight. I was excited. But then. I cannot believe she's gonna talk to you. My buddy Chris reminded me he basically ran away with her daughter that one summer. What are you talking about? Didn't you and Willow take that road
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trip up through Humboldt?
Ryder Strong
I started this podcast because Anna's sister Willow sent me a letter before she killed herself. Yeah, but it wasn't like we were running away. Connor, our other friend, agreed with Chris.
Friend/Commentator
She'd already run away. She was living in the Hess Building.
Ryder Strong
The Hess Building was an abandoned building behind the coffee shop in our hometown. I mean, I just remember you had to go through, like, this little fence to get in. And then, you know, it was all run down. The whole wall was open, and you could kind of climb around a lot of different places, but that was the spot you'd go and smoke weed and. I mean, it Wasn't really a party place. I never really, like, partied there, but that's where people would go out. I know she lived there for a while. In the years after her sister disappeared, Willow's life began to unravel a bit. Drugs, alcohol. She discovered raves in San Francisco. She dropped out of school. It was definitely a rough time, a dramatic time for her and me. You might remember the first episode of this podcast I mentioned. There was a moment when Willow and I dated. I wasn't sure if I'd ever talk about that. This was a podcast about Anna, after all, trying to uncover what happened to her, or at least get a better understanding of her story. After I talked with Connor and Chris, though, I went back and found my last contact with Lainey. It was an email she sent me in 1998. It was just a subject line in all caps. It said, ryder, stay the hell away from my daughter. I am actor and filmmaker Ryder Strong. This is the red weather, Sam. In some ways, I was further along in Anna's case than I'd ever dreamed. I had found new evidence, a new angle, and a new hypothetical person who might have helped her run away, maybe even killed her. The catch. I had no clue who that person could be. Lainey seemed to know what I was talking about, though. She knew all about the stalker, she said. When we connected over the phone, she said she had plenty of evidence, but Sheriff Maldonado and his team ignored her. I couldn't confirm this, though, because the sheriff's department was no longer talking to me.
Lainey Trainor
So she has stuff to show you.
Ryder Strong
I was leaving home again at the worst time. Personally. My son had a play performance and a piano recital, but my wife was understanding.
Lainey Trainor
I mean, it's not great timing, but, yeah, it seems important.
Ryder Strong
Do you know where my copy of the Subterranean is?
Lainey Trainor
You're going for a few days. How many books do you need?
Ryder Strong
No, no, no, it's not for that. I'm. I'm looking for this very specific copy.
Lainey Trainor
Just get a Kindle. No.
Ryder Strong
But I wasn't just looking for a casual reread. I was preparing to see Lainey. Jack Kerouac's novel the Subterranean was one of my favorites when I was younger, and I wanted to find a specific copy after seeing the Stay away from my daughter email. I checked the timing, and Connor and Chris were right. It was right after a very specific experience, a road trip I took with Willow in 1998. Willow gave me the Subterranean on this trip, and I found it wedged in my bookcase.
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Lainey Trainor
A reminder for passengers.
Ryder Strong
On my way to Colorado, I flipped through. Was a copy that got passed around, full of little notes and underlined passages. There were a few books like this in our friend group that we all read and handed off to one another. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, east of Eden.
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I remember one of the first books
Ryder Strong
that you lent me was Wordsworth. It's a book of poetry by Wordsworth. Then we started getting really into the Americana stuff, right? So we moved into the Beat Generation. And so it was like Kerouac and Burroughs. Ginsburg. I think you gave me my first copy of on the Road. I kept the copy with like your notes in it and my notes in it. And we put our names on the front. Like everybody that we passed this book along to, we'd share. And I remember doing that with a few books. Yeah, I remember that. Subterranean is kind of crazy. It's overwrought, dense. It's about a week long love affair that ends badly. I looked at all the underlined parts, the notes scribbled in the margins. I found my own bad handwriting. But there were other notes, too. Some of them were from Willow. I know because she had a habit of putting stars next to passages she liked. But she was also responding to notes from someone else. Like the one that said, love makes men crazy. And Willow had written women too. Next to a section where Kerouac's narrator jumps on a street sweeper cart. The other person wrote lost cause. These were from the guy who'd given her the book. Mr. Wrong. Mr. Wrong was exactly why our road trip was such a disaster. I landed in Denver and got a rental car. Laney lives in a suburb called Commerce City. I checked into a hotel and pulled up to her House around 5pm I could see Lainey on the porch. I decided to record from the get go. Hey, Laney. Hi.
Lainey Trainor
You look like a middle aged rider. That's.
Ryder Strong
That's what I am. Hi.
Lainey Trainor
Hi. Wow.
Ryder Strong
What.
Lainey Trainor
What are you, a spy?
Ryder Strong
Oh, I know. It's. Is it all right if I recording?
Lainey Trainor
Yeah, of course. I told you you could just. Don't upload my brain to the mothership.
Ryder Strong
So, I really thank you for talking to me.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah, you know what? You're welcome.
Ryder Strong
Lanie had always been small, and she seemed even smaller now. But not fragile. She still looks like she could live in the woods.
Lainey Trainor
If you told me that we would get somewhere, anywhere with Anna's case, let alone that it would be right or strong, I would have told you you were crazy.
Ryder Strong
Yeah, well, you know, it was Willow's letter.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah.
Ryder Strong
Yeah. I'm so sorry.
Lainey Trainor
I know. I know, honey. Here, let's. Let's have a seat, huh? Oh, sure.
Ryder Strong
She had chairs on her porch. She had bourbon.
Lainey Trainor
You want a little of this?
Ryder Strong
Yeah. Why not? Thank you. I got the feeling Laney might have already had a few.
Lainey Trainor
I need to tell you something. I was angry with you for so long. You know that.
Ryder Strong
And here it comes. It's kind of a long story, but I had seen Willow a few weeks earlier. We. We ran into each other at a party in Santa Cruz. My road trip with Willow was doomed from the start, and I wasn't there for. So why was I not there? You were already back east, but actually, I guess you would have been home for the summer. Chris had already transferred to a boarding school in Boston. One thing leads to another, and we find ourselves in this room at this party, making out. But that was not the first time, my friend, was it? No. She was my first kiss. But context is everything. That first time, we were nine, and it was a game of truth or dare. Then she stops kissing me and tells me she can't. Can't do this. She's seen someone. Brutal. Yeah. So I'm like. I'm all hurt and embarrassed and. Because here we've finally taken this leap from friends to, oh, yeah, maybe we're gonna date, and then just, boom, like, immediately shut down. Of course there's someone else. This was the first time I heard about Mr. Wrong. But a few weeks later, Willow called me from the Oakland Airport. She wanted me to pick her up. She was supposed to be getting on a flight to some kind of summer camp or retreat. I wasn't totally clear, but she didn't want to go. She wanted us to hit the road. She wanted to see if we can be together. I was free. And I did want to see if we could be together. There was a big part of me that had been in love with Willow from the moment I met her. So I drove to Oakland.
Lainey Trainor
There were years. Years. Right. Where I could not say your name. I wouldn't. You know when you picked up Willow that summer?
Ryder Strong
Yeah.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah. And you guys just took off?
Ryder Strong
You vanished? Yeah. I mean, I thought. I thought it was fine, really, because she called me, asked me to come pick her up because she didn't want to go to the camp.
Lainey Trainor
A camp?
Ryder Strong
You know, that thing in Montana, wherever she was going.
Lainey Trainor
Camp? You mean like a. Like a summer camp?
Ryder Strong
Yeah. Why?
Lainey Trainor
It was rehab Writer.
Ryder Strong
I should have known. Oh, God.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah. We we found her. Willa had. She had bottles. She had all these pills. Just a whole bunch of pills. Yeah, me and Charlie. You remember Charlie? Yeah, kind of.
Ryder Strong
Kind of? I actually didn't think I ever met Charlie, but I knew that was Lainey's boyfriend for a couple of years. A pseudo stepdad to Willa.
Lainey Trainor
She wasn't going to school, wasn't coming home, so Charlie had found the place. A place for her to, you know, get treatment. We'd already paid for it.
Ryder Strong
It was like, for two weeks. No, I had no idea.
Lainey Trainor
Really? You had no idea?
Ryder Strong
I should have known within minutes of picking Willow up that she was lying. That she didn't want some soul searching road trip. This was not a romantic getaway. She was all distracted and emotional and manic. Yeah, totally. You know, she just wanted to listen to music and find places to camp where no one was around. Smoked cigarettes, and she just, like, burst into tears suddenly. We spent a week driving north up into Humboldt. And despite what she'd insinuated over the phone, everything was strictly platonic. I could tell she was going through something, but I didn't want to pry. But I also was confused and had a lot of my own feelings. It wasn't until about five days into the trip that she finally told me what was going on. She was pregnant.
Lainey Trainor
For three weeks, I didn't know where my daughter was.
Ryder Strong
She didn't tell me.
Lainey Trainor
I hope now that you're a father you understand. I can't.
Ryder Strong
I can't.
Lainey Trainor
But, lady, let me just get this out.
Ryder Strong
Ryder, please.
Lainey Trainor
For three weeks, I didn't know where she was. My moonbeam. I thought I had lost her. It was Anna all over again. And she finally called when you left her in San Francisco. And she never got over that writer, by the way. I'm not gonna lie. That's a wound that did not heal. I had to drive down to the city, and she was a mess. She was crushed.
Ryder Strong
This was tricky because in my mind, I hadn't left Willow in San Francisco. In fact, I wanted to stay at first, but Willow had decided to have an abortion. And she told me that the father, Mr. Wrong, was coming to help her. But I didn't want to sit here and get into that with Lainey for two reasons. One, I thought there was a good chance Willow had lied to her mom that she told Lainey I was the father. And two, I thought that was a lie not worth correcting, because I had a bad feeling about Mr. Wrong. She ever tell you who it was? No. No clue. Right. That's the thing. She just told me that she shouldn't be with this guy and honestly I had this thought like maybe it was her mom's boyfriend. Holy shit. Charlie. Seriously? Yes, I know. It's incredibly fucked up. Yeah, it is. Why. Why else wouldn't she tell me who it was? Wouldn't tell you? Wouldn't tell any of us. Okay, I get that you didn't want to upset Lainey, but. But why does any of this matter? Yeah, what does this have to do with Anna? Well, because of what Lainey showed me in.
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Ryder Strong
you know that I wrote a short story about that road trip with Willow? Was it called Friend zone down Route 66? It was the first story I published. I fictionalized a lot. The characters were older and I gave the girl a different name, Opal. But the plot was the same. A man and a woman go on a road trip to run away and give being together a shot. Then she reveals she's pregnant with her ex boyfriend's child. I went back over the story for any clues to who Mr. Wrong was. So in the story I'm trying to get her to tell me who the father is. And this is what I wrote. She wasn't gonna say. I wanted to scream. I wanted to leave. I wanted to kiss her. Oof. Rider strong. More like writer weak. I hated him, whoever he was, with nothing to go on, he grew monstrous and perfect in my mind.
Friend/Commentator
Oh, now that is a good line, friend.
Ryder Strong
He was rich. He was cool. He was taller than me, older, listened to better music. None of that might be true, but I knew one thing. He made her happy. At one time, he made Opal happy. Older, richer, taller. Right, but see, that's. That's me being insecure and paranoid, right? So, like, that's just speculation. In real life, I dropped Willow off at a hotel near a planned parenthood and drove off, confused and sad. In the story, the narrator turns back around, he picks her up, and they decide to stay together. I left it ambiguous if they kept the child or not. Anyway, so here I was on the porch with Lainey, who's, like, still in mourning. This woman has lost two daughters now, right? And all I can do is sort of lamely defend the fact that I didn't abandon her pregnant daughter to get an abortion by herself. Yeah. I really didn't want to leave her. I. I was. That was not my intention. I mean, we thought about it. I wanted to stay.
Lainey Trainor
Okay.
Ryder Strong
All right. I could tell Lainey didn't believe me. And I couldn't blame her, because no matter how I described it, no matter how I spun it, I did leave Willow. And I honestly can't remember how it went down exactly. I remember crying. I remember her crying. And I know she told me to go, but why did I listen? Was it because I was respecting her wishes? Or was I hurt and pissed off? Was I jealous of Mr. Wrong? Was I mad that she wouldn't tell me who he was? Was I mad that she didn't want to make out with me? Yes. I think yes to all of those things. Is it better if I leave?
Narrator
No.
Lainey Trainor
I need to show you what I have. It's too important.
Ryder Strong
But we stayed on the porch. Lainey smoked. She poured more whiskey. Eventually, she began to talk about the tender hearts.
Lainey Trainor
Oh, yeah, man. We were. We were gonna change the world. It was radical. It was a radical change. And with the kids, we thought it was perfect. Let the woods be school at nature, or, you know, be their teacher.
Ryder Strong
But the reality was, the kids, the grommets, got older.
Lainey Trainor
God damn. Liam was out of hand. What a snot. And him and his mom left when he was, like, 9 or 10. And then Joan's son started going to Twin Hills.
Ryder Strong
Before they knew it, Laney and the other moms were driving to three different schools.
Lainey Trainor
Suddenly, our, like, free flowing, groovy thing became about who was picking up whose kids? Who had the keys to whose car? And, God, my girls hated it. Anna hated it. She wanted Diet Coke and Cheetos. She wanted Pom Poms and, you know, the fucking Sadie Hawkins dance. Oh, God. There was a girl in town, Bailey. Bam, Bam, whatever. And she would be dropped off by her mom. And she would pull up in the front of the school. And she had this, like, white Jeep. You know, the blonde hair and all the clothes. And Anna turns to me one day and she says, why can't we be like that? And I was like, honey stardust, Love of my life. That is death. That is hell. You want to live like that, you got to take the whole thing. You're going to have a job you hate. You're going to have some man telling you what to do, breathing down your neck.
Ryder Strong
Laney saw tender hearts as a refuge.
Lainey Trainor
I was protecting them. My girls, they had no idea how much I was protecting them. I was coming from. Well, I'm gonna tell you, I don't care. I was raped when I was 14.
Ryder Strong
Oh, God.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah. By my dad's best friend, Cooper Davis. Cooper Davis.
Ryder Strong
So sorry. That's awful.
Lainey Trainor
And for my parents, for Cooper, there was something normal about it, you know? It was, like, expected. First week of summer. Lanie's 14. Lanie has a new bathing suit.
Ryder Strong
So, sure.
Lainey Trainor
Cooper couldn't help himself. I felt unbelievable. You know what my dad did? He went and he had a talk with him. My mom's a mess. My brother Jacob does know what the hell is going on. My dad goes to Cooper. The men had their talk, and everything's fine. Just right back under the rug. They have their talk. Cooper comes to dinner the next week. You want to smoke? Yeah. Come on.
Ryder Strong
Just. Thank you.
Lainey Trainor
You gotta quit this shit, Writer. I stopped. I made it almost five years this spring.
Ryder Strong
Oh, good for you.
Lainey Trainor
Wait till you have a teenager. What do you have, a girl?
Ryder Strong
Son.
Lainey Trainor
Oh, my God. Thank God. You better thank God. Every day you take him to the woods. It could be free time.
Ryder Strong
I do, actually. I try. Yeah. Anna turning away from the tender hearts. Wasn't just a lifestyle choice or a philosophical betrayal. It brought real consequences.
Lainey Trainor
She goes off for the all American life. And what did it get her? It got her shitty friends, the mall girls. I called them. A boyfriend who thinks he owns her and some other fucking guy. She won't say who it is. And in her notes of his constant, constantly bugging her.
Ryder Strong
Okay, so this is the stalker. At first, Anna complained about a guy who wouldn't leave her alone. But Then things changed.
Lainey Trainor
All of a sudden, she's missing school, late nights, taking the car out. He wore her down. That son of a. Wore down.
Ryder Strong
And she never said who it was?
Lainey Trainor
No, because by then, you know, she lost her tender heart. She barely talked to me anymore.
Ryder Strong
Hold up, hold up. Is this where you tell me Anna's stalker was? Charlie? No. No, because Charlie and Laney didn't meet until 1997, and he was. He was stationed overseas in 95. But you're on the right track. Lainey was convinced that she had evidence that could solve Anna's case. But Maldonado and his team wouldn't listen to her.
Lainey Trainor
They're pulling bullets out of trees, chasing parking tickets, going after Elric. They destroyed that man.
Narrator
They just.
Lainey Trainor
They destroyed him. You lose your daughter, you know, but if you care about that, you want to actually do the work, well, then I'm a crazy lady, right?
Ryder Strong
I'm.
Lainey Trainor
I'm hysterical. Miss, Miss, calm down. You know what that means, you know, know your place, Keep your mouth shut. Let the men work. Let the men do their thing.
Ryder Strong
Cooper comes to dinner next week.
Lainey Trainor
God damn, look at you. That's right. You listen. You're open, Ryder. Okay, let's head inside. Yeah, sure.
Ryder Strong
Walking in, though, I wished we'd stayed outside. I couldn't see the floor. Clothes everywhere. She had rows of paper bags, brown paper bags that looked like they were filled with rocks. And there was inside insulation rolls and strips of pink wall insulation piled around.
Lainey Trainor
I've been meaning to go through all this stuff.
Ryder Strong
Blankets, baskets, and figurines. She had a huge collection of kachina dolls, Traditional Hopi figurines. I didn't know where to walk, where I could walk, so I focused on those. Oh, these are great.
Lainey Trainor
Oh, yeah. My little warriors.
Ryder Strong
Yeah.
Lainey Trainor
Let's. Let's go to the kitchen.
Ryder Strong
Sure.
Lainey Trainor
Got these three boxes here.
Ryder Strong
Oh, wow.
Lainey Trainor
It's my Anna collection.
Ryder Strong
One box was full of early childhood stuff.
Lainey Trainor
Her first little haircutting.
Ryder Strong
Yeah.
Lainey Trainor
Look at this dress she made. Isn't that good? Purple and white. My stardust child Willow was my moonbeam But Anna was all stardust.
Ryder Strong
It was a lot of homemade trinkets. There was a dream catcher, then there was a box of stuff from when she was older.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah, this was the makeup box she made me buy her.
Ryder Strong
Oh, were those Anna's? Yeah, it was a collection of books. Edgar Allan Poe, the Dow of Pooh, the Secret Language of Birthdays. It. Yes. And there was a copy of Stephen King's. It. It was the same edition.
Lainey Trainor
I remembered reading Anna Liked all that Gothic stuff. But here, this is. This is the real stuff. Here.
Ryder Strong
She pulled out big folded papers and leather notebooks.
Lainey Trainor
So. Okay, the first thing, the most important thing is the fire, right? Willow's rage.
Ryder Strong
Lanie unfolded a map of Sonoma County.
Lainey Trainor
So when Anna didn't come home the next morning, I knew that we were dealing with vindictive forces.
Ryder Strong
She also had a page of tracing paper with lines and symbols. And I started to get worried.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah, these are. Here, take them.
Ryder Strong
Here.
Lainey Trainor
Come on. Break this candle.
Ryder Strong
I realized too late I had backed myself into a corner.
Lainey Trainor
This is the constellation Pleiades. You know, your stars? No, Ples. The Seven Sisters. Right. Yes. So that's key. Okay, now, look at this. Do you see this? Look at this.
Ryder Strong
Oh, even the way they line up.
Lainey Trainor
Yeah, they line up exactly.
Ryder Strong
Look.
Lainey Trainor
Burn here. No, burn here. Burn here. Willow started that fire, but there were. There were spirit guiding it, spirit stopping it.
Ryder Strong
I knew that if I said the wrong thing, I'd be one more person telling Laney she was crazy and hysterical. Okay.
Lainey Trainor
Okay. But the real breakthrough, yeah, came later. Now, this is. This is my journal here. I tracked every session I had with Marianne.
Ryder Strong
Oh, who's Mary? Who's Marianne?
Lainey Trainor
Marianne was the medium I met in 2002, by the way. I met her on October 23, 2002. Anna's birthday. I found her in Monterey. She was working with the Pascali group. She was trained by Pascali himself.
Ryder Strong
Okay. Lainey, I don't. I'm sorry. I don't want to. I don't mean to cut you off.
Lainey Trainor
No, you need to be open writer. I need you to look at this.
Ryder Strong
You have to be open. I'm open. I. I'm trying to be. I just want. I think I should just be very clear. I'm an atheist. And I'm, you know, die hard skeptic.
Lainey Trainor
You don't believe me?
Ryder Strong
I believe that you. I don't doubt that you had an experience.
Lainey Trainor
I had a series of experiences.
Ryder Strong
Okay. Right. But I. You know, I'm looking. I'm trying to find some evidence that this is. I don't know what I can really do with this. It's not like I tried to get her attention back to the. The first couple boxes. I'm. I'm thinking more like. Do you have any journals or letters that you want? Yeah.
Lainey Trainor
I showed you this box right here.
Ryder Strong
Okay. Yeah. So the books. And what is this? Is this my. I was flipping through the copy of it. Is this Anna's handwriting? Who. Who gave her this book?
Lainey Trainor
I Don't know.
Ryder Strong
Because I have a book from Willow and I swear it's the exact same handwriting. There was a note in the margin of one page. Lost cause, Mr. Wrong. I remembered the book in evidence at the sheriff's department too. The way of the Peaceful Warrior. Did it have notes in it? What book? From Willow. I have it back in my hotel. If I could. Can I keep this?
Lainey Trainor
That was Anna's.
Ryder Strong
Okay. Right. Cause Willow, do you know who was giving her books? Like, who would have been giving her?
Lainey Trainor
A writer, friends, teachers.
Ryder Strong
Lainey said it so casually, but I suddenly had a very strong sinking feeling. A teacher? Yeah. Cause Willow gave me a book and it was from the guy that she was seeing in 98, the guy that she called Mr. Wrong.
Lainey Trainor
Mr. Wrong.
Ryder Strong
Yeah, he was. I don't know. I don't know who he was, but he was the father. He was the father.
Lainey Trainor
Whose father?
Ryder Strong
You know, baby Willow's baby Lainey. What? Can I turn that fucking thing off?
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Lainey Trainor
I don't think I knew the whole story.
Ryder Strong
I told you About Willow, maybe. But isn't this podcast about her sister? Yes, it is. Right?
Lainey Trainor
I didn't think you're gonna be spending all your time talking about an ex girlfriend.
Ryder Strong
She's. She's a friend. It was just like this one. You know, this one moment when we're teenagers, right? Who you were in love with and who you, what, drove to get an abortion. That's not what this is about.
Lainey Trainor
It's kind of becoming about that.
Ryder Strong
Yeah. All right, look, I gotta. I gotta get to the hotel. I'm still kind of reeling right now, so can I just call you later? Yeah. I went to the hotel. I wasn't sure if I should stay in Denver and try and call Lainey the next day or what. I felt horrible here. Lainey thought I was coming to help her, that I was, somebody was finally going to take her seriously and maybe help give her answers. Instead, I brought more doubt, more questions. Maybe even made her feel betrayed by her other daughter. Hold on.
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You think Mr. Wrong, the guy who
Ryder Strong
got Willow pregnant and Anna's killer are the same person? I called Chris and Monica to go over things. Exactly. Because of a note in a book? No, it's more than that. It's more. It all fits. Just stay with me here, okay? Anna has a stalker. She complains to her mom, but then at some point, Anna stops complaining about him and she actually starts dating him. And she makes the tape for him, but she doesn't say his name on the tape because it's a secret relationship. She can't tell anyone. Her mom, her sister, Mick, anyone. She doesn't want anybody to know who this guy is. There's something wrong or inappropriate, maybe illegal about their affair. And they have a plan. Operation Van Gogh. And from the tape, we know he's scared of what society thinks of him. He's told her age doesn't matter. There's also this moment.
Lainey Trainor
Van Gogh suffered from severe emotional and psychological problems and died in France at the end, age of 37. 37.
Ryder Strong
That makes me think that he was 37. Or I don't like about to turn 37. And maybe he's married. Maybe he would lose his job. Maybe he's a teacher. Halloween night, Anna and Mick have their fight. The mean girls are mean. And Anna makes a decision. It's time for Operation Van Gogh. But she still pages Mick. Yeah, I don't know about that. Maybe she's torn. Should she get back together with Mick or run away with this other guy? Maybe she's hedging her bets because the guy might not go through with Operation Van Gogh. Either way, yes, she pages Mick, but then she changes her mind and she meets up with this other guy. He picks her up before Mick gets the payphone. Or they meet somewhere else entirely. And maybe they start Operation Van Gogh. Maybe he helps her get to the airport to fly away some somewhere. Or they fight and she threatens to tell everyone about their affair, which would ruin his life.
Lainey Trainor
Maybe he kills her to cover up the affair.
Ryder Strong
He hides her body. He drives Tony down to the Kelty lot. Makes it plausible that Anna just ran away. Now, all that is pretty much what I was thinking anyway when I was focused on Mick. But here's what's new. Three years later, 1998. The guy got away with it. Anna's gone. The case is cold. Life has moved on for everyone. But he's still in town. He is? Yeah. He's still potentially in Laney's life. He could be a friend of the family, he's still teaching. And lo and behold, here comes Willow, a new young trainer girl. This is grass. I know, but it's a pattern, right? If this guy's got a thing for grooming young girls, what are the chances that he would do it more than one once? Hi. I guess now it's 1998 and Willow, like her sister, is in a secret relationship. And Willow can't tell anyone. Not her mom, not us. Why not? The same reasons Anna didn't tell anyone. He's older, he's inappropriate. He's maybe still a teacher, still married. Jesus. Do you remember Jacob Wyman? No. The English teacher? I never had him, but there were kids who loved this guy. He was one of those dudes that was like one of the kids to call him by his first name. Not Mr. Wyman, but Jacob. Oh, was he the one that took kids camping? Yes, exactly. Exactly. The senior trip. Jacob's senior trip. Okay. Who's that? He was a teacher at analytics. Did he ever come up? No, but hold on, I'm going to search the archives. Monica still had access to the back Articles of the press Democrat. Oh, there's a lot. I mean, these are boring mentions. Assemblies, football games, direct to school play one year. Oh, okay. There's an article about Harry Potter. He's quoted. It was 2001, remember? There was a backlash to Harry Potter, that the books were promoting witchcraft. We don't give kids enough credit, says Jacob Wyman, an English teacher at Annalee High School. I'd rather kids explore things dark or risky things in fiction. I encourage them to read whatever they enjoy. Horror, crime, any genre. Yeah, Anna had a copy of Stephen King's hit. His stance, though, isn't without controversy. Wyman landed in hot water last semester when several parents noticed he had included the novel Damage by Josephine Hart on his fall reading list. I could see their concerns. Wyman said he ended up dropping Damage from his syllabus. I don't. What is this book? Damage. Yes. Damage by Josephine Hart is a psychological thriller centered on a respectable British politician, Dr. Stephen Fleming, whose life spirals when he becomes obsessively and destructively involved with his son's fiance, Anna. Are you kidding me? The character's name is Anna. Forbidden Desire, Secret Affair, an older man and a younger woman. All right, I haven't read it. I haven't read this, but it sounded familiar. I thought maybe because it was a bestseller, because there was a movie made, but actually it was familiar for another reason. What's this other note here? Weeks ago, I had been requesting items one by one from the evidence catalog at the sheriff's department. Damage. Hart spelled H A R T. The
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Lainey Trainor
Hold on, hold on, hold on.
Ryder Strong
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Original Air Date: March 15, 2026
Hosted by: Ryder Strong
Guest: Lainey Trainor
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A serialized investigation and personal memoir, blending true crime with coming-of-age reflections, as Rider Strong (in character) seeks to unravel the disappearance of Anna Trainor (1995), the subsequent unraveling of her sister Willow, and his own complicated relationship history entwined with theirs.
This episode, titled “lost cause,” plunges deeper into the mysteries surrounding Anna Trainor’s disappearance, her sister Willow’s troubled life, and the unresolved trauma permeating their family. Ryder travels to Colorado to visit Lainey Trainor (Anna and Willow’s mother), hoping she’ll shine a light on Anna’s case, only to find that family secrets—about addiction, assault, loss, and forbidden relationships—run even deeper than he expected. The narrative builds toward connecting the dots between Anna’s stalker, Willow’s “Mr. Wrong,” and the potential involvement of an influential (and possibly predatory) teacher.
[13:41] Lainey Trainor: “It was rehab, Ryder.”
[15:13] Lainey Trainor: “For three weeks, I didn’t know where she was…My moonbeam. I thought I had lost her. It was Anna all over again. And she never got over that, Ryder.”
[24:49] Lainey reveals childhood trauma—a rape at 14 by her father’s best friend and the deep mistrust of patriarchal authority it created.
[25:07] Lainey Trainor: “I was raped when I was 14…by my dad’s best friend, Cooper Davis.”
Her determination to protect her daughters shaped the “tender hearts”—a communal, counterculture parenting experiment.
The pressures and failures of living “off-grid” as her daughters craved “normal” teenage lives.
[32:37] Ryder discovers eerie similarities in handwriting and book inscriptions between Willow and Anna—suggesting a shared (older) lover/mentor (“Mr. Wrong”), who was likely a teacher.
[39:02] Ryder pieces together a disturbing pattern:
[42:00+] The teacher “Jacob Wyman” emerges as a possible suspect:
[10:24] Lainey Trainor: “You look like a middle-aged Ryder.”
[13:41] Lainey Trainor: “It was rehab, Ryder.”
[15:13] Lainey Trainor (tearfully): “For three weeks, I didn’t know where she was. My moonbeam. I thought I had lost her. It was Anna all over again. And she never got over that, Ryder…That’s a wound that did not heal.”
[25:07] Lainey Trainor: “I was raped when I was 14...by my dad’s best friend.”
[27:44] Lainey Trainor: “They’re pulling bullets out of trees, chasing parking tickets, going after Elric. They destroyed that man…You lose your daughter, you want to do the work, well then I’m a crazy lady, right?”
[32:37] Ryder Strong: “There was a note in the margin of one page. Lost cause. Mr. Wrong…Willow gave me a book and it was from the guy that she was seeing in 98, the guy she called Mr. Wrong.”
[39:52] Lainey Trainor (quoting): “Van Gogh suffered from severe emotional and psychological problems and died…at 37.”
[43:13] Ryder Strong: “Damage by Josephine Hart is a psychological thriller…whose life spirals when he becomes obsessively and destructively involved with his son’s fiancée, Anna. Are you kidding me? The character’s name is Anna. Forbidden desire, secret affair, an older man and younger woman.”
The episode fuses personal recollection, literary analysis, true crime detective work, and raw emotional confrontation. Dialogue is natural, confessional, and occasionally tense or defensive—often interrupted by painful honesty or abrupt revelations. Ryder functions alternately as a narrator, investigator, and guilty bystander.
This episode marks a watershed in both the personal and investigative arcs of the podcast. Heightened by Lainey’s painful disclosures about her past and the damning book inscriptions, Ryder makes a chilling link: Anna and Willow were likely targeted by the same predatory man—a teacher—over years. The episode closes on multiple unresolved questions, as Ryder’s family itself becomes the subject of police scrutiny, suggesting that the fog of suspicion and trauma continues to spread.
For listeners: If you’re following the narrative closely, pay special attention to
Next episode promises:
Confrontations with law enforcement, further dives into evidence, and a reckoning with both the past and current fallout from prying into old wounds.