Still I will not curse her name

So many days I wrote of hopes and dreams, only to learn itwas all just a charade

Upside down where nothings as it seems, until I’m cold Iwill regret everything I paid

Were it only money siphoned across our time, one day bygrace of God I could recoup

Inside my mind is the scene of the crime, and it plays adnauseum on an endless loop

Still I will not curse her name, nor speak it again lest shegain fame, this ends the game

I’m editing my mind, rewinding the past and carefully clippingyou out frame by frame

Still I will not curse her name

Unlike you I will not tell a lie while I grin, I cherishthose memories I’ve yet to make

With my grandkids I would not tell a sin, your past regressionsdemand a heavy stake

You have made an indelible stain on your soul, whilecrushing the heart that gave you aid

For a short term gain you destroyed your goal, on judgementday you’ll atone for the bed you made

Still I will not curse her name, nor speak it again lest shegain fame, this ends the game

I’m editing my mind, rewinding the past and carefully clippingyou out frame by frame

Still I will not curse her name

One day my time here will surely close, those coming behindme will read my writing

If there’s a lesson to find it’s that I chose, turn theother cheek, it’s not the time for fighting

Matters of the heart that flow in one direction, withcunning and deceit lurking in tow

Differ little from any other bodily infection, love doesn’tlive where honesty doesn’t go

Still I will not curse her name

Too much time was spent as it is, money too; time is too preciousto waste on the undeserving

Life continues and that chapter is through, just another oneof the pitfalls that keep you swerving

Dodge the ones you can, ride out the rest; hope for a happyending that you can share

Sort your memories and hang on to the best, keep on hopingfor someone who will care

Still I will not curse her name

Let it wither

Tim Windisch

4 29 2026