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Signal connection restored Technicians and hooded respirators watch oscilloscopes, do slow dances and pretended the readouts meant anything unusual. An insight coordinator with a clipboard he didn't need stepped up as the carrier door opened. Operator, he said, like that was my name. We are in. Window approach. When cued, do not initiate contact before seal open. Maintain center line. If you feel pressure changes or nausea, report support, but you cannot disengage. Understood, I said. The harness made a small adjustment under my ribs, like it was reacting to something. They walked me to a chalk line painted into the grass. Even through the containment dome, I could tell the black wasn't a surface. It didn't reflect. Look at it and your eyes told your brain to find edges. Your brain came back empty and tried again. The sphere was clean, polished, perfect. I could see the horizon warped across it. I could not see the black except as an absence seal. The coordinator called, and someone at Console one pressed A petal. The sphere split along a four leaf seam. Petals folded down. The black sat on the cradle like it had always been there. It would be there after we were all long dead. Step, the coordinator said. I stepped the conduits under the harness's skin, shortened their wave, and met mine at 10 paces. The black developed a sense of proximity, like a pressure gradient on the inside of my sternum, as if the space between us had decided to thin. The harness corrected my foot an inch and a half to the left, the kind of nudge you'd give a child before they walk into the street. Five paces. The black did something I felt before I saw. A shiver ran through it like iron filings, tasting a magnet just out of frame. Hand, the coordinator said. Flat. I raised my right. The black black exoskin along my forearm tightened in a long, careful cinch. The bellows flexed once the collar stayed warm and sure. My palm hovered over nothing and then less than nothing. The skin there prickled. I thought about the weight of my frame, the unknowable thing they screwed into my body. I did not think about the men without names standing a foot outside my circle, waiting for me to show them whether the world had decided to kill them today or not. Three paces. The black woke without opening. It rippled in a pattern that wasn't light and wasn't texture, a response visible only because my body understood it and told my eyes. Afterwards. The harness pressed between my shoulder blades with the pressure of a hand that knows when to push and when to relax. I set my foot on the last chalk mark. The black lost the pretense of being solid and gathered itself like a fluid that had gotten tired of holding a singular shape. Your mark, the sergeant said, not uncomms, but quietly in my left ear. The harness weighed nothing and everything at once. I didn't count down. Counting turns into games. I looked at the black that wasn't a surface and put my hand out. Because the window was open and because stepping away wasn't an option, the harness's pressure became overwhelming. My palm lowered and the black met it in every direction. Something in my chest slipped a half beat late, like a step off a stair in the dark. The harness pressed between my shoulder blades and then the edges gave way. The pedestal softened under the black, then my wrist, then the space around my ribs. Grass, floodlights, technicians. Everything closed like an eye and turned inward. Pressure moved from outside to inside and kept going until there wasn't a useful sense of where either began. Time stalled in place and then nodded, and in that knot. The first thing that came back was sound. A cough close enough to feel the throat behind it, then a dry heave. My own breath arrived a second later, loud in my ears, warm over my upper lip, proof that I still had a face. Somewhere off to my left, a rattling of webbing, the click of a safety strap being checked. Sight returned as a decision rather than a sense of the harness created a low blue radius around me and the darkness abated within that width. The light didn't bounce, it simply allowed shape. Beyond the soft boundary, everything remained a single plane of absence, without horizon or seam. The ground met my legs at the height of my waist. I stepped and my boots sank without resistance, buried to the knee, but no weight dragged. When I lifted my leg, the surface mended itself in silence and left nothing to show I'd been there. It was like walking through the memory of water that had never existed. The air had an acoustic that made distance unreliable. The whisper from behind arrived at my left ear a half second before I heard it front. I turned because that's what people do when sounds arrive out of order, and the harness corrected me, a firm nudge to square my shoulders forward. The press under my sternum settled into a steady insistence, aiming at somewhere I couldn't see. I tested comms hail. Check. The sound of my own voice came back inside my head first. A half beat later it reached the mic, flat and narrow, and the return in my ear clicked back as a thin tone, like talking to a person in a vacuum sealed box. Shapes took place inside the blue. Three operators, then five, then nine, drawn toward the radius, the way people move toward a furnace in a winter power outage. The silhouetted mass looked insectile in the hue, lenses pale, filters dark. The sergeant's hand found my shoulder, gripped at once a physical inventory present upright breathing. He let go and stood to my right. Check perimeter, he said. The instruction of reflex dispensed into the wrong environment. Two men pivoted, rifles at low ready angles, clean, covering nothing but darkness. The blue reached 3 meters at most. Beyond the world was a perfect sheet of absence that didn't admit even the idea of a silhouette. The sergeant's hand went up to his throat mic and stayed there, pressing, waiting for the comfort of hiss and back channel clutter. Nothing answered. He glanced at me as if the harness might look back and tell him what to do. Your lead, he said as the only sentence that fit the shape of the moment. His visor hid his eyes as stance betrayed his thoughts. What does the brief say about this? I asked he didn't pretend it wasn't in it. The harness eased on my shoulder a degree and shifted the bright pressure under my sternum to a line that pointed away from the cluster of bodies, almost like a compass. I tried the hud. The overlay crawled, was static, and then cleared to a blank slate. Stay inside the light, I said. Hands on shoulders. One file. We keep contact. I heard the words leave my mouth and realized I'd already moved from object to operator in their minds. Maybe the harness decided that too, and the room agreed. We moved a minute, two could have been 20. Time lost its tendency to be accurate. The pressure under my sternum kept its line, a gentle pull, left, then right, then straight again, the way a river guides you toward a bend you can't see. I kept pace toward the place the harness had chosen. I kept my eyes on the edge of the radius and my breath under the bellows and let the world be as simple as the next step. Then it started happening. The first man to speak out said a word I didn't catch, and then another that I did. Centipedes. It wasn't a shout. It was a child's report, like he found something in the yard and wanted someone to see it before it had gone. We all stopped. The hands on my back held tight. No one else saw anything. The knot water lay smooth at waist height, black and unreflective to every edge of the blue. He lifted his free hand and clawed at his cheek, and the motion made a sound through cloth. Easy, I said, and started to reach. He flinched away, as if my voice carried heat. Little domes pushed up under the skin of his face, first near the cheekbone, then along the jaw, then across the brow. Each dome grew peaked and then split in a wet pop. Something thin and jointed forced through the first, curled over his lip, and fell into the not water without a ripple. Ten more followed, then twenty, and in the wash of that impossible motion he made a sound no grown man should make. Grab for him across the chain of shoulders, but the not water took him the way a dream takes a thought. It didn't drag or pull. He just wasn't with us anymore. Nobody fired. There was nothing to aim at that wasn't us. Behind me, someone said very clearly, he's right behind me. He didn't turn his head. He's right, someone else started to say, before the sentence cut in half. He jerked. His mask fogged from the inside so fast it went opaque. He clawed at the seals and got the chin to break, and when the rubber peeled away his mouth opened wide and showed a second mouth where his palate should have been, slick and flexing like a gill. The noise that came out of both throats together rewrote my sense of what a human body could be made to perform. He folded at the waist and slid away into the dark without disturbance, the hands on his shoulders gripping air. They had not been air a second earlier. Hold, I said, my voice on the verge of breaking. Someone sobbed once and strangled it down, like a man who has practiced losing in silence. The sergeant pressed closer until his chest touched my elbow orders and I heard what he meant. Give me a shape I can carry. That isn't this. Don't look forward, I said to them. Don't look back. Put your eyes on the shoulder in front of you and keep them there. Empty your head. Take one thing you want to go home to and hold it like a knife in your teeth. If anything else shows up in there, spit it out. That was the best I had. It sounded like a chaplain and a life coach at the same time, but this was the place that didn't care about either. They tried. As we continued, the pressure under my sternum deepened and shifted a degree right. The harness pressed between my shoulder blades and then eased, the physical equivalent of nodding toward a road none of us could see the knot. Water ahead lifted the smallest amount. No ripple, no color, just a suggestion that existed and wanted our attention. My boots found slope under blackness. Up, I said, and the word felt clean. The chain moved. The blue brightened half a shade, as if thinner air lived above us, and the circle widened by hand span for each step. As the ground rose out of the waist height medium, the slope crested. The blue widened another pace and revealed a structure, three columns protruding from the ground at clean angles, meeting in a tri arch that held a ground plate in its center. The surface of the plate was a smooth, chalky composite that drank the color around it and offered back nothing but invitation. Pressure under my sternum pressed hard enough to make me sway and then stopped. On me, I said, although there was nowhere else for them to be. We climbed the last step onto the plateau. I stepped forward cautiously and alone onto the plate. A sense of tranquility followed as the suit seemed to relax. Then the light emanating from me turned red and the plate under my boots began to hum, a jagged frequency that caused pain. The harness stiffened once along my spine and then yielded somewhere behind my breastbone. A second cadence began. Whatever happens, we stay together, I said. The vibration climbed into the world, shook in place. A pulse beat through the ring matched the bellows at my ribs. My vision doubled for a blink. Not left, right, but near, far, as if two distances were arguing about which one I belonged to. One of the men put his hands to his helmet and doubled over like he could will pressure out of his skull. When he lifted his head, his eyes were full of red. Not blood. Pooling blood, moving. Two threads ran down his cheek and drew straight lines to his jaw like a child's idea of tears. He didn't scream until the color hit his mouth. The harness moved before I did. Dark, rubbery material along my right forearm, warmed, softened, then slipped forward over my wrist in a slow, warm pour. The flow hardened as it ran and shaped itself against my palm. A knife heavy spine, short reach, an edge that seemed designed to cut through the very essence of a thing. I understood what it wanted. A braided cable had driven through the harness and into me, throbbing against my hip. The red brightened a half step, as if to mark the thought, yes, that I had the human hesitation half a second, where future pain showed me a picture of itself and invited me to avoid it. The the red deepened the hum tried to push my knees sideways and rearrange my organs. The screaming operator collapsed to his knees, the trails of blood weaving around him and boring tunnels into his body. I set the blade's point against the line above the cable. The harness did not get out of the way. It held the field of the cut clean, allowed my hand to enter. The first push went through its surface with a sound like two tearing flesh. The second entered me. Pain came white and complete. The blade found the cable by feel the way you feel a nun. A rope with your eyes closed. I drummed against it, heavy and eager. I traced along the sheath to the place it dove. The world pulsed a warning. I set my teeth until my jaw cracked and pushed the edge through. Through cut freed the line's lead with a wet snap. Heat ran down my thigh and then retreated as if embarrassed to be seen. I felt the harness stiffen along my ribs, then relax. The red drained the way a fever breaks. A hum fell out of my bones. The bellows drew a long, deliberate breath and set a new cadence. It felt like it had been waiting outside the room for permission to enter. I held the cut with my left hand and watched it close. The harness sealed around it and pressed into the wound, not healing it, but keeping it closed. The blade in my right hand softened at the spine, then flowed back along my palm and vanished into the sleeve. The ring brightened back to blue. The plate's hum became a felt thing instead of a sound, like resting your palm on the skin over a pulse under my sternum. The pressure harmonized. I looked up into the meeting point of the three uprights and felt the new cadence settle into its place. The pressure along my spine and the steadiness of my throat translated to instruction. Proceed. The plane took a long breath of its own. Far out beyond the blue, something moved. Not the small movements of thoughts made flesh, but the continental shift of attention arriving from a great distance had weight you could measure. The triarch did not care. Warning Signal interruption detected. This episode is brought to you by State Farm. Checking off the boxes on your to.