The Comparison Trap, Chronic Pain & Identifying Gaslighting 💌 October Magic Mailbag

Summary

Sleep Magic: Mailbag Episode – The Comparison Trap, Chronic Pain & Identifying Gaslighting

Host: Jessica Porter (Sleep Magic Podcast)
Date: October 30, 2025

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Episode Overview

In this October Magic Mailbag episode, hypnotherapist Jessica Porter addresses questions from listeners that go beyond just sleep concerns, touching on themes of self-worth and comparison, the experience of chronic pain, and how to respond to gaslighting. Drawing from her expertise in hypnotherapy and personal experience, Jessica offers thoughtful, gentle, and practical guidance to help listeners navigate emotional challenges, mental health struggles, and complex interpersonal dynamics.

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1. The Comparison Trap

Listener Question from Em: How can I stop comparing myself to others, especially close friends, and maintain joy in my own accomplishments?
Segment Start: [02:25]

Key Insights

• The Inevitability of Comparison:
  Jessica acknowledges that "every human mind wrestles with it to some extent or another" ([03:06]), emphasizing that comparing ourselves to others is universal but often unhelpful.

• Life is Your ‘Solo Venture’:
  "You are creating your own movie of your life through your body, only you. And it's basically a solo venture." ([03:41])

• Why Comparison is Futile:

  • You cannot truly see or experience life through someone else’s body, genes, or environment.
  • "No matter how much you fantasize or get angry at yourself for not being them, it is an impossible task. So I encourage you to not let your mind indulge it. Comparison will only bring you pain." ([05:38])

• The Consequences of Comparison:

  • Jessica outlines two dysfunctional paths: using comparison to feel superior (inflating the ego) or inferior (self-deprecation), both of which lead to separation from others and ourselves ([07:01]).
  • "Both ways of comparing lead to separation from yourself and from others. And there's only really suffering there, because even a drunken ego gets a hangover." ([07:13])

• Embracing Your Journey:

  • True contentment comes from engaging in self-discovery and embracing your unique talents and circumstances, rather than measuring yourself by others.
  • "One of the great pleasures of life is discovering yourself in different situations, different relationships, and under different pressures." ([07:56])

• The Paradox of Connection:
  Despite our individuality, we are fundamentally connected by the same life force.

  • "We are all actually made of the same stuff. The same natural, beautiful life force beneath our personalities, beneath our egos, beneath all the comparing." ([09:27])

• Hypnosis and Shifting Perspectives:
  Jessica shares how hypnotherapy can foster a holistic perception, moving beyond the dualistic, comparing mind.

  • "When you relax and slip into a more holistic way of perceiving things through your subconscious mind, boom, you land in your body and you see that everything is actually connected and working together." ([10:28])

Practical Tip

When you catch yourself comparing, actively look for something to celebrate about the person you're comparing yourself to—shift from comparison to appreciation.
"By honoring and praising her, you're actually giving to yourself. By appreciating her, you are bathing yourself in that light, too." ([12:37])
"When you celebrate others, you celebrate life itself. And you celebrate yourself. Because when we come from this energy place, there's no actual division between us. And the better you feel about others and other things, the better you feel about you." ([12:59])

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2. Responding to Gaslighting

Listener Question from J: How should I respond to gaslighting?
Segment Start: [15:40]

Key Insights

• Definition:
  Gaslighting is "someone insisting on a fact or reality that is not how you perceive it, and in so doing, they're trying to make you doubt yourself" ([16:01]). It's "an active" and toxic form of manipulation.

• First Step – Distance:
  If you are sure you are being gaslit:

  • "You need to create distance from them because you're not going to change them... Remove yourself from the relationship and find a healthier one, or at least have a plan to do that." ([16:52])
  • "People only change if they really want to, and that can take much more work than anyone recognizes. So do not try and fix them, or forgive your way out of this, or think that love will cure this." ([17:28])

• Reassert Your Truth:

  • "After you get out of the relationship, or as you do the work to get away, I think it's important to state your truth. Report on your instincts, report on your intuition wherever you need to, and especially in safe environments where you can be reinforced and supported by people who can reflect your truth back to you." ([17:53])

• Question Your Lenses:
  If unsure, Jessica invites reflection on personal and relational perspectives, sharing how personal backgrounds shape the “lenses” we bring to relationships.

  • Example: Comparing her Canadian upbringing with a friend's experience in post-revolution Iran to illustrate different baseline assumptions and projections ([19:18]-[21:26]).
  • "When we meet a new person, we tend not to realize that we are looking at them through our own set of lenses." ([21:26])

• Relationship “Wheel” Exercise:
  Imagine every person (including yourself) as the hub of a wheel, with each spoke representing a relationship. Are the spokes strong and reliable or broken? Use this mental check to assess relational stability ([24:21]-[25:57]).

Practical Questions to Ask Yourself

• "What exactly makes you think you are being gaslit?" ([23:35])
• "How well do you know this person?" ([23:39])
• "Is your intuition giving you signals that aren't being reflected in the relationship?" ([23:43])
• "What are your patterns? What are this other person's patterns that you know of?" ([23:52])

Memorable Moment & Quote

"If the spokes of your wheel are mainly stable and strong, while this other person has broken spokes and kind of a spotty history, it's time to detach." ([26:20])

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3. Staying Positive with Chronic Pain

Listener Question from Carrie: How do you remain positive when you have chronic pain (neck pain) and struggle with depression?
Segment Start: [26:45]

Key Insights

• The Mind’s Focus Shapes Experience:

  • "Where you focus your mind, your whole life tends to follow... When you experience suffering or an injury, it's very natural for the mind to focus on it." ([27:10])

• The Cycle of Pain and Tension:

  • When discomfort arises, the nervous system tenses up, which amplifies pain and negative emotions, creating a self-reinforcing pattern ([28:01]-[28:34]).
  • Jessica shares a personal story of sciatic pain in her early 30s, building a vivid metaphor of a “garden of tension” that grew around a single physical symptom ([28:47]).

• Breaking the Cycle Through Relaxation:

  • Jessica shares her hypnotherapy technique:
    "Every time I felt the sensation, I would relax physically as soon as I registered the sensation... That was the exact opposite of what I'd been doing up until that point." ([31:38])

• Letting Go Mentally and Emotionally:

  • Rather than forcing positive thoughts, she practiced simply relaxing and “giving up” resistance, which over time brought relief ([32:27]).
  • "It was just relaxing, just letting go... letting go, letting go, letting go. And I tell you, it was quite a relief to not be scaring the heck out of myself..." ([33:09])

• The Power of Releasing Reaction:
  Jessica notes she didn't cure the underlying cause directly but helped her body heal by not adding negative tension, physically and mentally ([33:42]).

Practical Suggestion for Carrie

• "Every time I feel this discomfort… I relax. Every time I feel this sensation, I relax." ([35:08])
• Drop your shoulders, soften your face and belly, and keep practicing this relaxation with every pain cue.
• "You have more power than you know, Carrie. So keep us posted and I'm wishing you all the best." ([35:44])

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Memorable Quotes

• On Comparison:
  "Comparison will only bring you pain. So that's the good news. You are, Em. And that's final." ([05:57])

• On Gaslighting:
  "An individual who knowingly causes someone else to feel crazy is not ready for a healthy relationship." ([17:06])

• On Chronic Pain:
  "It was just relaxing, just letting go... And I practiced that a lot, because I felt the sensation a lot. Letting go, letting go..." ([32:51])

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Important Timestamps

| Topic | Main Segment | Notable Quotes | |-----------------------------------|--------------|--------------------------------------------------------------| | The Comparison Trap | 02:25–13:24 | "You are creating your own movie of your life…" ([03:41]) | | Responding to Gaslighting | 15:40–26:40 | "Remove yourself from the relationship…" ([16:52]) | | Relationship “Wheel” Exercise | 24:21–25:57 | "If the spokes of your wheel..." ([26:20]) | | Chronic Pain & Positivity | 26:45–35:44 | "Every time I feel this discomfort… I relax." ([35:08]) |

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Tone & Style

Jessica’s tone throughout is warm, compassionate, candid, and empowering. She combines gentle storytelling, clear metaphors, and actionable steps, inviting listeners to both normalize struggle and take small steps toward self-compassion and healing.

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Listener Engagement

Jessica encourages listeners to send in questions for future mailbag episodes via various channels, inviting open-ended dialogue on any topic related to sleep, mental wellness, or life in general.

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Summary prepared for those who want the heart of the episode, with context, quotes, and practical wisdom—without missing the soothing, insightful spirit of Sleep Magic.

Transcript

[Host]

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[Jessica Porter]

Hi, I'm Jessica Porter and welcome back to Sleep Magic.

[Host]

A podcast where I help you find.

[Jessica Porter]

The magic of your own mind, helping.

[Host]

You to sleep better and live better.

[Jessica Porter]

Welcome everyone to our October Mailbag episode. I get lots of questions from you guys through Spotify and Supercast, and thank you for sending all these questions. This is our way of addressing some of the things that aren't necessarily sleep related.

[Host]

So I'm going to do my best to just weigh in on these topics, understanding that I'm not a an expert.

[Jessica Porter]

On any of them except hypnotherapy. So if you need help with any of these things and you don't feel like you're getting it here, please feel free to seek out. And in fact, I encourage you to seek out help elsewhere. One last thing before we start this.

[Host]

Episode is not intended for falling asleep too. So if you get sleepy when you.

[Jessica Porter]

Hear my voice, you might want to make sure that you are in a safe and comfortable position. And if you want to hear later, maybe you know, listen to it on a walk or something. But definitely not in the car.

[Host]

Okay, great. Let's get started. Our first question is from Em. She says she's a longtime sleep magician.

[Jessica Porter]

Even since Sleepwave, which was the first iteration of the show.

[Host]

She says, I'm writing because I'd really.

[Jessica Porter]

Like your input on something. Comparison. There's a saying comparison is the thief.

[Host]

Of joy, and that's so true. But I find it really hard to feel worthy and joyful about things I love when I see others doing better.

[Jessica Porter]

For example, my best friend.

[Host]

She's lovely and brilliant, but because we.

[Jessica Porter]

Have so much in common, I really easily fall into the trap of Comparison and spiral.

[Host]

Can you help?

[Jessica Porter]

Oh, Em, I'm so glad that you're addressing this issue. I think it's a big topic and I think every human mind wrestles with it to some extent or another.

[Host]

And life is long, so there's a.

[Jessica Porter]

Lot of comparing to do.

[Host]

So I'm going to begin with this. I want to begin by laying down a hard and fast rule.

[Jessica Porter]

Now, you may forget it, but it will remain true nonetheless. Your entire life. U m are creating your own.

[Host]

Movie of your life through your body, only you. And it's basically a solo venture. You have your own personal camera, your consciousness, and that's it. You will never truly see life through.

[Jessica Porter]

Someone else's eyes or through their feelings. You will cooperate with others and create with others others.

[Host]

And you may get glimpses of how they perceive and how they feel and try to perceive through their portals of consciousness, which is good. That will grow your empathy. But your body is your body and your consciousness is stuck in it.

[Jessica Porter]

No one, as far as we can tell, has ever been able to jump from one body to another. As much as that might be really.

[Host]

Fun, it just doesn't happen.

[Jessica Porter]

So there you are. Here you are.

[Host]

This is your vehicle. And everyone is just as stuck in their personal vehicle as you are in yours.

[Jessica Porter]

And in that respect, life is very, very fair.

[Host]

So to indulge in comparison, to really expect yourself to be like someone else.

[Jessica Porter]

Or to punish yourself because you're not.

[Host]

Like someone else, to indulge in comparisons is a form of kind of a delusion, and a masochistic one at that.

[Jessica Porter]

Which doesn't mean we don't all do it at some points, but really, it's a fool's errand.

[Host]

I mean, why compare?

[Jessica Porter]

You could never steer your life through their vehicle, which includes their ancestry, their genes, their environment, their talents, their resources.

[Host]

No matter how much you fantasize or get angry at yourself for not being them, it is an impossible task. So I encourage you to not let your mind indulge it. Comparison will only bring you pain. So that's the good news.

[Jessica Porter]

You are, um. And that's final. You're living through your ancestry, your genes.

[Host]

Your environment, with your talents and your resources. And that is what you have to work with.

[Jessica Porter]

No one can take any of those things away from you.

[Host]

And much of it can't be changed, like your genes or your ancestry or the environment you were born into, which is also true for everyone else. Prince William didn't ask to be Prince William. That's just the vehicle he showed up in and he has to work with that. I say all this M to help.

[Jessica Porter]

You stay firmly planted in reality.

[Host]

So given that reality, that truth, you.

[Jessica Porter]

Can use your mind in one of two ways. You can deny reality and compare yourself to others.

[Host]

And there are two sort of sub roads there. You will either compare yourself to some people and declare yourself superior to them.

[Jessica Porter]

Which is like your ego getting drunk on itself, or you will compare yourself to others and find yourself lacking, which will make you feel bad about yourself.

[Host]

And eventually about them every single time. Both ways of comparing lead to separation from yourself and from others. And there's only really suffering there because even a drunken ego gets a hangover.

[Jessica Porter]

And feeling superior actually separates you from other people.

[Host]

Or choice number two, you can accept reality and really dig into this adventure of being you. You are unique and constantly evolving. So what are your gifts?

[Jessica Porter]

You may not even be acquainted with some of them yet.

[Host]

Because gifts arrive at different times in our lives and we develop them, life has a way of teasing them out of us. And one of the great pleasures of life is discovering yourself in different situations, different relationships, and under different pressures. And sure, it's absolutely amazing to discover other people too. Don't get me wrong, we are here to connect and cooperate and create together. But you are with yourself for this entire journey. So if you don't embrace this primary relationship to yourself, then you're missing much of the ride and will simply end.

[Jessica Porter]

Up reacting, comparing yourself to others.

[Host]

But sometimes getting to know ourselves is hard.

[Jessica Porter]

We all have baggage and things we need to let go of. There are parts of ourselves we may not like or seem hidden in the shadows.

[Host]

But if you do the work of your own excavation and really embrace that, you are making your own movie here, then that work is ultimately very liberating. And you can experience a very free and satisfying ride within yourself, giving lots.

[Jessica Porter]

And lots of good energy to those around you.

[Host]

Because here's the paradox, Em. As much as we are alone in.

[Jessica Porter]

Our own bodies, creating our own lives.

[Host]

We are all actually made of the same stuff. The same natural, beautiful life force beneath our personalities, beneath our egos, beneath all the comparing.

[Jessica Porter]

So while comparing will only make you feel separated from others, the truth is you are actually much more similar then.

[Host]

Different to everyone around you. We're all made from the same carbon and oxygen and a few other gases and minerals, with a whole lot of universal energy running through us. And this switch in thinking doesn't have to be a heavy lift. I've learned as a hypnotist that the.

[Jessica Porter]

Conscious mind tends to Be very dualistic, very black and white.

[Host]

Making comparisons, analyzing, judging, trying to feel superior. But when you relax and slip into a more holistic way of perceiving things through your subconscious mind, boom.

[Jessica Porter]

You land in your body and you.

[Host]

See that everything is actually connected and working together. And you tune in with that energy that connects you. This mode of perception feels less dramatic, sometimes slower, but ultimately it's much, much more powerful. And when you get down to this level, you can really celebrate everything. Other people, even all the people, because they're all just channeling the life force too, doing it in their own way, in their own world, through their own portals of consciousness. So I think the antidote to comparison is learning how to celebrate other people's accomplishments, to learn to be generous with your praise instead of miserly in comparison. So here's my tip for you. When you find yourself comparing yourself to your friend, notice it. And notice that it probably makes you feel bad.

[Jessica Porter]

Do you want to feel bad? Do you want to bring that to your relationship?

[Host]

I know you don't. So then, em, force your mind to find something good about your friend.

[Jessica Porter]

Whether it's a quality you were comparing.

[Host]

Yourself to or something else. Use some mental discipline and force your mind to. To find something that you can feel good about.

[Jessica Porter]

Maybe it's her sense of humor or.

[Host]

Her kindness or her hair or her style. Find something and let yourself notice it and feel good about it. Honor her gift. Celebrate her gift. Now, this might feel hard at first and that you're somehow taking something away from yourself by giving this to her.

[Jessica Porter]

But believe me, you are not.

[Host]

By honoring and praising her, you're actually giving to yourself. By appreciating her, you are bathing yourself in that light, too. And this will become a very, very good habit that I encourage you to.

[Jessica Porter]

Use all over the place in your life. This is a very powerful thing to.

[Host]

Do because when you celebrate others, you celebrate life itself. And you celebrate yourself. Because when we come from this energy place, there's no actual division between us. And the better you feel about others and other things, the better you feel about you. So it's a win, win.

[Jessica Porter]

I hope that helps. Em. I know I went all over the place, but I had to thread that needle.

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[Host]

Next From J. How should I respond to gaslighting?

[Jessica Porter]

Okay, this is a simple question. You've made it very simple. Just one line, but it's a big question and it's difficult to answer specifically without more context.

[Host]

But let's define our terms here. I think of gaslighting as someone insisting on a fact or reality that is not how you perceive it, and in so doing, they're trying to make you doubt yourself.

[Jessica Porter]

And unlike other more passive forms of deception or dishonesty, gaslighting is active, like the person's trying to make you feel crazy and unable to trust yourself. Gaslighting makes you not trust your own instincts, and in that respect, it's very toxic.

[Host]

So Jay, if this is a person who knowingly causes you to doubt yourself.

[Jessica Porter]

You need to create distance from them because you're not going to change them.

[Host]

Best case scenario Remove yourself from the.

[Jessica Porter]

Relationship and find a healthier one. Or at least have a plan to do that.

[Host]

Because an individual who knowingly causes someone else to feel crazy is not ready.

[Jessica Porter]

For a healthy relationship. And you shouldn't be their guinea pig to work on in their experiments. And it probably won't just work itself out over time. Okay?

[Host]

People only change if they really want.

[Jessica Porter]

To, and that can take much more work than anyone recognizes. So do not try and fix them, or forgive your way out of this, or think that love will cure this. I'm not saying there aren't miracles in the world, but in general, people spend a lot of time and endure a lot of suffering believing that those things will just work themselves out.

[Host]

And after you get out of the.

[Jessica Porter]

Relationship, or as you do the work to get away, I think it's important to state your truth. Report on your instincts, report on your intuition wherever you need to, and especially.

[Host]

In safe environments where you can be.

[Jessica Porter]

Reinforced and supported by people who can reflect your truth back to you. After being gaslit, you may need to reassert your perceptions and hang on to your sanity.

[Host]

Okay, that's all based on the idea.

[Jessica Porter]

That this person is actively gaslighting you. And like I said, I don't know if that's the case or not. If it is, take what you like and leave the rest.

[Host]

But I'd also like to rewind a.

[Jessica Porter]

Little in case there's any wiggle room here.

[Host]

You haven't given me all the picture, so I was making the assumption that.

[Jessica Porter]

You are sure this is happening and sometimes we are being gaslit or being fooled. But there could be room for some other interpretations. And believe me, I don't want to add to your confusion here. So I hope the following is helpful in some way or another. Like I said, if you feel you are in peril, get out and forget what I have to say about it.

[Host]

But if you want to explore more.

[Jessica Porter]

Gray area here, let's do it.

[Host]

Whenever we enter a relationship of any kind, we are bringing our own projections. You see, we look at the world.

[Jessica Porter]

Through our own unique lenses, lenses we've been trained to look through.

[Host]

And we're so used to these lenses.

[Jessica Porter]

We often don't even know we have them. For instance, I spent my childhood in Canada, a very stable country where faith in institutions is pretty common and basically works for the collective, for the country itself. Now, who knows, maybe behind the scenes, Canada is completely corrupt and our faith in institutions is naive. I hope not.

[Host]

But when I was growing up, that was what I learned. I have a friend here in LA who grew up in Iran during the revolution. So her faith in institutions is more.

[Jessica Porter]

Tenuous than mine, for good reason.

[Host]

And sometimes we'll get into discussions and really come to a place where we disagree about politics or current events. But we both know ourselves well enough that we finally dial down to the lenses we are looking through. And as a Canadian, I automatically and unconsciously bring a sense of trust to institutions.

[Jessica Porter]

And as someone who grew up in.

[Host]

Lots of upheaval, she does not automatically do that. And when we get down to these fundamental lenses, we can understand our differences and agree to disagree on things. And paradoxically, by acknowledging our different lenses, we get closer. As people, we can recognize that our lenses are just that, not necessarily a hard truth, just projections we picked up through experience. So when we meet a new person, we tend not to realize that we are looking at them through our own set of lenses.

[Jessica Porter]

We're looking at them through our own.

[Host]

Needs, our own preferences, our fears, or.

[Jessica Porter]

Our own distorted sense of self esteem.

[Host]

Maybe we see this person unconsciously as if they're one of our parents.

[Jessica Porter]

And it's so funny, because these days we meet strangers so quickly and easily.

[Host]

Online, and we think when we meet literally a perfect stranger online, that we are somehow coming to the connection clear in ourselves without lenses, and that we're meeting someone else who is clear and perfectly honest and available to themselves and to us. The truth is, and this is true in every relationship, there's this whole sort of silent black and white movie playing below the relationship through all these unconscious lenses.

[Jessica Porter]

And then that's your side of the table.

[Host]

Take that weird reality and double it, because the other person's also arriving with.

[Jessica Porter]

Their own lenses looking at you in.

[Host]

A particular way that might have nothing to do with you. And it can take a long time for all of that unconscious material to finally drop and for you to be.

[Jessica Porter]

Actual you, or for someone to be.

[Host]

Able to see actual you beyond your lenses and vice versa. So what you may consider gaslighting at this point may not be aimed at you or particularly personal, but maybe some weird distortion of reality as seen through that person's lens.

[Jessica Porter]

That doesn't mean you shouldn't get out of the relationship if you're feeling crazy.

[Host]

But understand that not everyone is who.

[Jessica Porter]

They appear to be, nor might you be.

[Host]

So it's your job, Jay, to weigh and measure where you're at here.

[Jessica Porter]

What exactly makes you think you are being gaslit?

[Host]

How well do you know this person?

[Jessica Porter]

Is your intuition giving you signals that aren't Being reflected in the relationship.

[Host]

Has this happened to you before?

[Jessica Porter]

What are your patterns? What are this other person's? What are the other person's patterns that you know of?

[Host]

And this could take a little while to find out. If you're having this relationship within a safe environment and you haven't placed all your relationship eggs in this particular basket yet, you may want to detach a.

[Jessica Porter]

Little, observe and gather more.

[Host]

And here's a tip. Whenever I've been in relationships that were.

[Jessica Porter]

Giving me difficulty or experiencing conflict that perplexed me, I would look at the.

[Host]

Other person as a wheel.

[Jessica Porter]

I know that sounds weird, but I would imagine that person as the hub.

[Host]

Of a wheel at the center. And then based on what I knew about that person, I would ask myself if the space of the wheel, the connections or relationships radiating out from that hub were stable and strong and long standing. For instance, if I get into a sticky place with someone and I remember, oh yeah, this person hasn't spoken to her mother in two years, or this person recently told me about all the best friends who failed him, and I start to see that the spokes of her or his wheel are somewhat broken. That's important information. And then I imagine myself as the.

[Jessica Porter]

Hub of a wheel and I have.

[Host]

To get really honest with myself about the spokes of my wheel. Do I have long term friendships? Do I have strong relationships within my family? Are my business connections solid?

[Jessica Porter]

This little exercise has been very helpful to me at times when I felt a little crazy in relationships.

[Host]

And remember, no one is perfect and.

[Jessica Porter]

Has perfect, solid spokes.

[Host]

But when we look at ourselves at the center of our relationship lives, I think we can make an assessment that helps us see what we are bringing to the table and what the other.

[Jessica Porter]

Person may be bringing to the table.

[Host]

If the spokes of your wheel are mainly stable and strong, while this other person has broken spokes and kind of.

[Jessica Porter]

A spotty history, it's time to detach. This exercise asks that we be very honest with ourselves and about our own behavior. And I know, Jay, that may not answer your question directly, but I hope it gives you some perspective.

[Host]

Thank you.

[Jessica Porter]

Thank you for writing.

[Host]

Next, from Carrie. I'm struggling with a strong emotion, depression.

[Jessica Porter]

I have chronic pain in my neck and sometimes I find it hard to remain positive.

[Host]

How do you remain positive when times are tough.

[Jessica Porter]

Is a great question, Carrie, and I'm sorry to hear about that pain. I can imagine it would be distracting and exhausting.

[Host]

First, I think it's helpful to understand.

[Jessica Porter]

The nature of the mind and that where you focus your mind, your whole life tends to follow. Now, it's a very natural thing. When you experience suffering or an injury, it's very natural for the mind to focus on it.

[Host]

Everyone does that. But let's take a look at what.

[Jessica Porter]

Continual focus on the injury can do.

[Host]

Because the mind is a very simple thing, and it tends to gain momentum in whatever direction it's going. So there may be a pattern being set up here.

[Jessica Porter]

And like I said, I think everyone falls into this pattern, and unless you have the tools to intervene upon it, this is just what ends up happening. So here's the pattern.

[Host]

You feel the discomfort, which is the actual sensation you're feeling in your neck, and then you tense up.

[Jessica Porter]

Because your nervous system has one choice. Relax or tense up. Well, if you're feeling pain, chances are you're going to tense up.

[Host]

But that tension makes for more discomfort, which causes more tension, not just physically, but mentally and emotionally, which feeds the cycle. And then you have some real momentum there between the sensation and the tension.

[Jessica Porter]

And the crappy feelings and all feeding the sensation. When I was 30, I got sciatica. I was on an exercise bike. And I remember the moment like it was yesterday.

[Host]

Some weird thing happened in the side.

[Jessica Porter]

Of my butt cheek. It was like a wire snapped, and.

[Host]

I felt this horrible pain.

[Jessica Porter]

Now, I don't know the exact mechanism behind the pain. I think muscles might have cramped up around a nerve, but what I felt was like a horrible toothache in my.

[Host]

Butt cheek down the side, and it.

[Jessica Porter]

Radiated down the side of my leg, shooting pains, and it was awful.

[Host]

And it didn't go away. Over time, over months, I started to feel like an old woman. Standing up from sitting. Ooh.

[Jessica Porter]

Was the worst. So I tended to remain sitting longer than I would have, wanting to avoid the pain.

[Host]

And after a while, I realized there was more going on than the discomfort. I realized that every time I felt the discomfort, I tensed up, like I just described to you, making most of the muscles of my whole body tense instead of just those that were tightening around the nerve. But that tension in me, it didn't help at all.

[Jessica Porter]

It just made it worse.

[Host]

And then I realized that beyond the physical tension, I was creating a mental tension, having scary thoughts running through my head. Oh, my God, I feel like I'm 80. This is never going to go away. This is only getting worse. And those thoughts were also making my whole body tight.

[Jessica Porter]

Again, not helpful.

[Host]

And finally, I had to recognize that every single time I felt that toothache.

[Jessica Porter]

In my butt, I felt fear. And that was Sending all sorts of stress hormones into my bloodstream, reinforcing all of the tension on the other levels.

[Host]

So it was very interesting to see that I had grown a little garden of tension around this one single sensation. I mean, the rest of my body.

[Jessica Porter]

Was young and in relatively good shape. I was eating healthy food. I was doing a job that required lots of energy.

[Host]

But ever since feeling that little ping in my butt cheek, I had subconsciously built a whole scaffolding of negative energy around it. Now, I had just become a hypnotherapist at that point, maybe within that year. And I realized I had access to.

[Jessica Porter]

My mind in a way that I hadn't before.

[Host]

I had a whole new set of tools. So I started to think it through. I didn't have any power over the feeling in my body, the actual sciatic nerve getting pinched, But I did have power over my reaction to it. So I took myself into really deep.

[Jessica Porter]

Relaxation, and I gave myself the suggestion.

[Host]

That every time I felt the sensation, I would relax. That's it. I would relax physically as soon as I registered the sensation, Even if it.

[Jessica Porter]

Took me a second to remember that suggestion.

[Host]

And that was the exact opposite of what I'd been doing up until that point. Every time I felt the sensation, I tensed up. So now I thought, okay, if this thing's triggering a response, let's let it trigger the opposite. And with that suggestion of physical relaxation, I also gave myself permission to sort of give up mentally and emotionally. After about a year of the pain, I realized that my tensing up mentally.

[Jessica Porter]

And emotionally hadn't done me any good. In fact, I had evidence that it made things worse.

[Host]

So I just raised the white flag, mentally and emotionally. I just gave up.

[Jessica Porter]

Now, it's important here to understand I didn't have to force myself to feel positive. That wasn't the suggestion or to say something positive to myself.

[Host]

It was just relaxing, just letting go.

[Jessica Porter]

And I practiced that a lot because.

[Host]

I felt the sensation a lot. And I just kept doing it and doing it. Letting go, letting go, letting go. And I tell you, it was quite a relief to not be scaring the.

[Jessica Porter]

Heck out of myself with the I'm an old lady stuff in my head.

[Host]

And it was really nice not to be walking around in fear all the time. And slowly, after a few months, I noticed that that sensation in my butt cheek just wasn't getting the attention anymore. It was like the squeaky wheel stopped getting the grease. And then after about six months, I noticed that I just wasn't really feeling it at all.

[Jessica Porter]

Anymore.

[Host]

I had managed to relax around it, probably letting those muscles relax, supported by my mind and my heart letting go to such a deep level that a healing had occurred, like I'd actually allowed my body to come back into balance because I wasn't getting in the way anymore. And that was amazing. So I'm wondering, Kerry, if you can tease out how your mind and body are reacting to this neck issue.

[Jessica Porter]

Now, this is all based on the idea that you have some sort of doctor on board and you know exactly what's going on here. Because we don't want to ignore pain if it's a signal of something serious or if it's misunderstood.

[Host]

But if this discomfort is something that.

[Jessica Porter]

Is understood and being supported in whatever.

[Host]

Way you can do it, I'd like you to imagine and notice how you're reacting to it. I presume you're having a whole cascade of reactions to it. And although you may not be able to fix the original issue yourself, you.

[Jessica Porter]

Can let go of that set of reactions.

[Host]

And I encourage you to take the simple suggestion I gave myself that day. Every time I feel this discomfort or this feeling, I relax. Every time I feel this sensation, I relax.

[Jessica Porter]

And then you allow your shoulders to drop. You feel your face letting go. You practice what you've practiced here at Sleep Magic. Allow your belly to soften and see what happens.

[Host]

And do it again and again and again because the other road.

[Jessica Porter]

Just doesn't work. You have more power than you know, Carrie. So keep us posted and I'm wishing you all the best. Thank you for writing. That is it for now. Thank you everybody for listening. We do the monthly mailbag, monthly with extended episodes for subscribers.

[Host]

So please submit your questions in the.

[Jessica Porter]

Next few weeks and I'll try and answer them in the next episode. Now you can ask me anything, whether it's about an issue you're having, a.

[Host]

Question about me, or just a question about life. I'm open to answering as many as.

[Jessica Porter]

I can, so be sure to send them in.

[Host]

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[Jessica Porter]

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[Host]

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[Jessica Porter]

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[Host]

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[Jessica Porter]

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[Host]

I'm sorry we couldn't get to everything.

[Jessica Porter]

We will try and take questions. I couldn't reach today and do next time.

[Host]

Thank you. Thank you for listening. Thank you for subscribing. We couldn't do this without you and.

[Jessica Porter]

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