S2: #68 - Ghosts, Queer Icons, and a Shoot Dood in the Club

Summary

Smosh Mouth Podcast Summary

Episode: S2: #68 - Ghosts, Queer Icons, and a Shoot Dood in the Club
Release Date: June 24, 2020
Hosts: Shayne Topp (Short), Amanda Lehan-Canto (Tall), and rotating Smosh friends
Description:
In this engaging episode of Smosh Mouth, hosts Shayne Topp, Amanda Lehan-Canto, and guest Monica Vasudani delve into a variety of topics ranging from paranormal experiences to LGBTQ+ identities and the intersection of politics during the COVID-19 pandemic. The conversation is both heartfelt and humorous, offering listeners a candid glimpse into the hosts' personal lives and societal observations.

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1. Ghost Stories and Paranormal Experiences

The episode kicks off with a lighthearted discussion about ghosts and paranormal sightings.

Tommy Bo shares his occasional eerie experiences:

"I'm not like, yes, ghosts are real, but every once in a while, you think you see someone standing in the stairs over there."
[00:35]

Monica Vasudani adds her skepticism mixed with curiosity:

"I'm just somebody's mom. Like, that's where I'm at."
[00:56]

The conversation takes a playful turn as the hosts recount creepy occurrences in their homes. Monica narrates a bizarre incident with her dog:

"During a break from work, I walked into my bedroom and my dog Dexter just had like a big old boner just like standing on the bed."
[03:18]

Tommy further embellishes his experiences with ghostly activities in his apartment, describing flickering lights and misplaced objects:

"Middle of the night, I'm in my bed and then I hear what sounds like maybe 15 pound rat or something scampering."
[22:13]

2. Personal Lives and Quirky Habits

The hosts transition into sharing personal habits and household anecdotes, adding humor to their stories.

Courtney Miller discusses her laundry habits:

"I change my sheets once a week because I'm, like, sweating. I am crying almost nightly."
[02:38]

Tommy Bo humorously describes his laundry struggles:

"I have four buckets of laundry that are about 4ft tall. That one is all the way full and sticking out of my closet."
[19:30]

The discussion highlights the relatable challenges of maintaining household routines, especially during stressful times.

3. LGBTQ+ Identities and Pride

A significant portion of the episode is dedicated to exploring LGBTQ+ identities, the importance of pride, and the personal journeys of the hosts.

Courtney Miller opens up about her sexual identity:

"I officially came out as pansexual a year ago because bisexual doesn't quite fit it."
[32:55]

She reflects on her past and the evolution of her understanding:

"It's crazy, like, looking back when you look on your past, you're like, oh, yeah, now that I know this about myself, so many things about my past make sense."
[33:02]

Monica Vasudani discusses the challenges of raising a child in a lesbian household:

"My concern is, like, having a positive male role model for him, especially right now."
[36:58]

The hosts emphasize the importance of representation and normalization of diverse relationships:

"We try to put them into a lot of the scripts and... trying to normalize those relationships to be like, here is, you know, a queer couple."
[39:35]

4. Politics, COVID-19, and Social Movements

The conversation delves into the impact of the COVID-19 pandemic on social movements like Black Lives Matter (BLM) and LGBTQ+ rights.

Courtney Miller expresses her frustration over not being able to participate in protests:

"I have a therapist that I talk to weekly and... it's affecting me."
[11:14]

Tommy Bo discusses the Supreme Court's ruling on LGBTQ+ protections:

"The Supreme Court... decided that LGBT people... can no longer be fired from their jobs."
[14:21]

Monica Vasudani reflects on the societal changes and the challenges faced:

"I think it's time to... just make this statement."
[44:25]

The hosts highlight the heightened awareness and activism during the pandemic, balancing personal safety with the desire to effect change.

5. Personal Growth and Community Engagement

The episode showcases the hosts' personal growth, their efforts to stay informed, and their engagement with the community.

Monica shares her reading habit to stay informed:

"I'm reading 'Between the World and Me' by Ta-Nehisi Coates."
[10:50]

Courtney discusses the importance of having a diverse support system:

"It's important to have like a support system of people that have different voices."
[11:14]

The hosts also touch upon their contributions to the community through merchandise:

"Our new merch... a portion of the proceeds will go to the Center for Black Equity."
[58:54]

6. Upcoming Projects and Anecdotes

Towards the end of the episode, the hosts discuss upcoming projects and share humorous anecdotes.

Courtney announces a new video project:

"Tommy and I did a video together. Very exciting."
[49:31]

Monica recounts an embarrassing text exchange:

"I realized I sent to Shane instead of my wife, and now I want to die."
[47:03]

These stories add a personal and relatable touch, balancing the more serious discussions earlier in the episode.

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Notable Quotes

• Courtney Miller on Identity:
  "Labels don't matter to me. There are people who stand for being referred to in the way that they specifically want to be referred to."
  [32:55]

• Tommy Bo on Activism:
  "It's battles within a war. You might lose the battle, but the war could be won over time."
  [17:56]

• Monica Vasudani on Community:
  "I'm reading a lot of things that make me feel shitty but I feel like are important to read."
  [10:50]

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Conclusion

In this episode of Smosh Mouth, the hosts navigate through a spectrum of topics with authenticity and humor. From personal ghost stories to deep dives into LGBTQ+ identities and the pressing social issues amplified by the pandemic, Shayne, Amanda, and Monica offer a comprehensive and engaging discussion. Their ability to intertwine personal anecdotes with broader societal conversations makes for a compelling listen, inviting both reflection and laughter.

Listeners are encouraged to engage with the hosts through their merchandise, which supports the Center for Black Equity, and to stay tuned for upcoming projects that continue to bridge personal experiences with community advocacy.

Transcript

[Ryan Seacrest]

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[Monica Vasudani]

Ramble.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm not like, yes, ghosts are real, but every once in a while, you think you see someone standing in the stairs over there. And then my friend in the living room goes, oh, you mean the person that stands in the stairs over there?

[Courtney Miller]

It's not a matter of politics at all. It's like, oh, you're a human. Okay? You deserve to be treated like a human. That's not a political statement. Has anything changed for you guys?

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, I'm like, I'm just somebody's mom. Like, that's where I'm at.

[Tommy Bo]

And we all went out to Akbar, which is a club out here. Akbar has a pretty cool selection of, like. Selection. That's gross. Variety of people. That's what gay bars are, though, am I right? A selection of people.

[Courtney Miller]

So what's the deal? Every few weeks, changing my sheets. What's the big deal?

[Monica Vasudani]

Okay, one. You're disgusting.

[Courtney Miller]

No.

[Monica Vasudani]

Well, I've. Okay, I'm guilty of having gone a long time, but at least I acknowledge it's disgusting. But I change my sheets once a week because I'm, like, sweating. I am crying almost nightly.

[Tommy Bo]

And your tears smell like shit, Monica.

[Courtney Miller]

Well, do you have your own laundry set up?

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, I do, but.

[Tommy Bo]

Okay, but before I take.

[Monica Vasudani]

When I was taking my laundry to a laundromat, I still change my sheets once a week.

[Courtney Miller]

God damn.

[Tommy Bo]

That's.

[Courtney Miller]

You would go to. Okay, I've never had to go to a laundromat, but.

[Tommy Bo]

What?

[Courtney Miller]

Like. Like the one I go to, the complex laundry, but I've never gone to, like, a establishment.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, it's good. It. I mean, probably not right now, but in general, like, it's nice to have nothing else to do. Like, to just sit there.

[Tommy Bo]

It is weirdly meditative to just, like, sit there and watch everyone else be, like, as they, you know, spend three or four hours doing all of their laundry. I do my sheets every two weeks only because I'm lazy. It's not the best. I wish it was every Week. But, like, I gotta use quarters. I gotta go downstairs.

[Monica Vasudani]

It's a whole thing.

[Courtney Miller]

And it's, I'll say every two to three weeks sometimes because, like, I'm just. I don't be getting that dirty, bro. Like, I'm sorry. Also, if it's just me in there, like, for the most part, like, I'm not really, like, worried. And I changed my pillowcases, like, much more often.

[Tommy Bo]

I think the actual question is, do we shower before bed or do we shower in the morning? Because if you wash before you get in the bed, then that bed is not going to get nearly as dirty as it would other way around.

[Courtney Miller]

I shower in the morning and I go to bed sweaty. But I think it's fine because I think it's fine.

[Tommy Bo]

So we're all nasty.

[Monica Vasudani]

That's good. If I shower at night, my hair is wrong. And it's not that it's ever fully right, but it's closer to right. I will say though, that I share my bed with my wife and then my two dogs.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

During a break from work, I walked into my bedroom and my dog Dexter just had like a big old boner just like standing on the bed.

[Tommy Bo]

Hell yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

And I was like, yep, time to change the.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, my God.

[Monica Vasudani]

I don't know what he was doing with that. He just looked at me real guilty. And then I like kind of looked at him and like walked to the bathroom and he just. His eyes followed me and he was like, embarrassed, but also mad that I walked in on whatever.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, my God.

[Tommy Bo]

This is truly a 12 year old child. Like, that's, that's just a 12 year old discovering everything.

[Monica Vasudani]

It is actually his 11th birthday today, so. Yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

Okay. All right. Enough to chat about how disgusting we are.

[Monica Vasudani]

Plus our dogs.

[Courtney Miller]

Yes. Welcome to the Smosh cast. I'm sorry my burps are out of control this morning, but I am joined today by Monica Vasudani and Tommy Bo. A gang, gang, gang, gang, gang, gang. Monica's wearing our new merch that I'm actually very excited about. Heck yeah, tis I lesbian at this table. Which is came from the fan fiction reading. And we have the shirt in two colors on the Smosh store now. And actually, I'm pretty sure we don't have a Smosh Dot store anymore. It's all on smosh.com, baby. Yeah, we have the shirt in black and we have the shirt in a nice light blue. I. I also, I have the light blue here. I want to get the black one because I feel like that's like, more me, you know, like sad boy.

[Monica Vasudani]

I pushed. I pushed hard for the light blue because personally, I own a ton of black shirts.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, I know.

[Monica Vasudani]

So this was, like, just for me.

[Courtney Miller]

I think two colors isn't that crazy. You know, there's also, like, different styles. People got different tastes. They may want the tizai, but Courtney really hate that color.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, wait, let me write this down.

[Courtney Miller]

People have different style. Yeah. So. So this is the pride guest. You know what it is? In case you guys forgot, we're still here and we're still queer. Nothing.

[Tommy Bo]

Can you believe this?

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, the world's crazy right now. But the. The pride march had just happened a couple days ago. The big old pride march with blm. Everybody was marching. I'm really bummed that we couldn't go, but to stay safe out here. How did you guys. You guys. Did you go?

[Monica Vasudani]

No, no.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm in the same boat as you.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

I mean, for everyone that's listening, to clarify, because we're filming and we're going to be with a lot of people, we're taking the unfortunate but safe choice of not marching because we don't want to accidentally catch the roans and give it up to everyone at once.

[Courtney Miller]

Absolutely. Like, when some of the spirits, the Sposhcast went protesting, that was obviously a huge risk. Luckily, a bunch of us got tested and came back negative. It is dangerous. And some people were actually upset in the comments of the photos posted, being like, what the frick? You guys. You guys are, like, at high risk right now. But, you know, there was. There was a lot at stake.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah. I mean, there are a lot of people who are constantly at high risk. So, yeah. When it comes to human rights, do what you gotta do.

[Courtney Miller]

The stores near me are open. Like, open.

[Monica Vasudani]

It's so wild.

[Courtney Miller]

It makes me nervous.

[Tommy Bo]

It makes me nervous too. There's.

[Courtney Miller]

People are not wearing masks.

[Tommy Bo]

No. Everyone's just kinda like, okay, well, doopy doop.

[Monica Vasudani]

And it's nice eating in restaurants. Just like, hey, let me. How many people have drank out of this glass today? Cause I would like to put my lips on that glass.

[Courtney Miller]

This glass right here. There's like. There's these two girls outside the store, like, holding their phone and the mask just, like, in their hand as if it's like an accessory. And then would walk into a store as if, like, yeah, I'm wearing a mask. It's fine. I don't get it. I don't know. I don't know when I'll feel, like, fully, like, calm about going out yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, never.

[Tommy Bo]

I think it'll take. Exactly. I think it'll take. I think it'll take a vaccine or some kind of. I heard there was like a antibody, like potion that they give, like older. I don't know, there's just all sorts of, like fun science fiction ideas going around. But I feel like once we've got the medic, like the medicine support.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

Some sort of vaccine, hopefully we can go back to normal. But the good and bad news about all of this is I'm stoked that the normal is different. I'm stoked that everyone is a lot more awake to our government and general injustice in that department. Like, I know people around me and it took me for this moment to truly get pissed off. Which it's too. It's. It was too late to get pissed off, but at least we're pissed off now, right?

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. The time is now.

[Tommy Bo]

Exactly. So I'm stoked that that change has happened. As for, like, medicine, I mean, people in, in like China have been wearing masks forever. For a while now.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. I mean, Olivia has been posting on her Instagram story on planes when she was traveling. Like, been wearing masks since 88.

[Tommy Bo]

Like, and I get sick every time I fly. I'm like, I should have been doing this the whole time.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, I should have been wearing a mask because I'm like a little baby when it comes to getting sick. I feel like I just have no immune system. I get everything. Yeah. A little scary to realize, like, how disgusting I've been. Like, just like touching stuff and then touching my face.

[Courtney Miller]

I have a bad. I have allergies, but it's like, it's allergies where I sneeze and my eyes water and that's it. And so I have a nasty habit of touching the outer corners of my eyes, like, constantly. But washing hands helps.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, I'm a little.

[Monica Vasudani]

Just. Just a heads up, you guys might hear my dogs barking because they like to do that.

[Courtney Miller]

Love that.

[Monica Vasudani]

But hopefully Kevin will be able to, you know, get. Edit some of that out if possible and then just replace it with himself going, ah, just.

[Courtney Miller]

Kevin, delete the dogs, please.

[Monica Vasudani]

I would love if every time the dogs barked, we just heard Kevin, like, whispering instead.

[Courtney Miller]

Kevin's got a nice voice.

[Tommy Bo]

He does have a nice voice.

[Courtney Miller]

Kevin going, hello, Hello. Hello. Hello.

[Monica Vasudani]

Hey.

[Courtney Miller]

Hello.

[Monica Vasudani]

Hey.

[Courtney Miller]

Hello. Hey. Hey. So how are you guys doing? Anything on your mind, Monica?

[Monica Vasudani]

Honestly, close to nothing is on my mind. Feel like, just super overwhelmed. Constantly.

[Courtney Miller]

Yes.

[Monica Vasudani]

I'm trying to, you know, like, I'm. I'm super lucky. I'm employed. I have a wonderful family. I live in a comfortable home. Both the dogs just got baths so everybody's smelling good. At first the like lack of human interaction was really upsetting to me and then I kind of got used to it but it still sucks. And then now I feel like I'm not doing enough for the Black Lives Matter movement because I'm not able to protest. My kid is in daycare and so I can't like risk bringing protest germs to his daycare. I also have a weakened immune system like medically right now. So I've just been like reading a lot of things that make me feel shitty but I feel like are important to read.

[Tommy Bo]

Yes, exactly.

[Monica Vasudani]

That's part of it. Like I'm reading Between the World and Me by I might not say his name right but Ta Nahisi Coates. And that's pretty heavy. It's basically a letter from him to his 15 year old son about what it's like to be black in America and then just like articles that are bummers. But I'm still, I'm kind of hopeful that things are changing so that I.

[Courtney Miller]

Mean just in that first week so much, so much stuff that probably wouldn't have happened was able to happen because of the spirit that everyone had. I can, I can totally relate on not feeling like you're doing enough. I'm very, very privileged in that I have a job and I'm able to visit my family and I have a therapist that I talk to weekly and I talk to her a lot about how I feel like I'm not doing enough and it actually starts to show through in my other day to day life of like I'm trying to be as best as I can at what I'm doing with this movement. Trying to do it and be as knowledgeable and make sure I'm posting things that are factual and true and actually help same time I'm like it's affecting my relationships as like I'm, I'm too anxious. I'm just anxious all the time of like making sure everyone's okay because like that's what this, this movement is about right now is like making sure everyone is on board and everyone is, is informed and okay. I'm waiting on so many books to be delivered. Social media is, especially in these last couple days it's been really scary and like it, it definitely like has affected me. Like last night I wasn't sure I was going to be able to do this podcast today because like you know it's pride, but it's like, it's different. And this I'm still like, I have never been to any events to like celebrate being queer yet, like, still haven't. I'm so lucky that I have the support system that I have. And I was thinking about last night. It's so important to have like a support system of people that have different voices and are. Have like different things to give. Give you emotionally. Because if you're just surrounded by a bunch of the same people that are just. Yes. Manning you all the time, like, it's not going to be helpful in the long run. So I'm, I'm glad we have the team that we have, you know, and I think we're getting even more and more people involved that are. That are awesome.

[Tommy Bo]

Well said, Courtney.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, thanks.

[Courtney Miller]

I've been reading a lot and taking ginkgo biloba.

[Monica Vasudani]

Can I tell you what? I went down a weird rabbit hole that I just want to mention, which was gays for Trump on Twitter. What? I don't know how I saw the tweet. I think this comedian Danny Fernandez posted like retweeted a tweet that was these two guys kissing on a boat with Trump flags that were like, thanks for fighting for our rights. But it wasn't satire and I tripped out hard on that. So.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh my gosh. I feel like when you, when you stumble across right all like right wing people's content, I feel like I'm finding someone else's underwear and I'm like, oh, oh my goodness. This.

[Monica Vasudani]

Why does this have skid marks?

[Courtney Miller]

What is this? Why is it ripped up? I always feel so strange. And you like, feel like you're getting into in on a secret, just hearing other people's opinions. Because like on social media I feel like I'm always just being fed stuff that I agree with.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

Good news in the gay world, I guess since we, since we are the topic. I don't have all my details straight because I've been in an editing hole, but I had a brief hour yesterday where I was like, oh, hey, something good happened. The Supreme Court, I believe, correct me if I'm wrong, passed or decided. I don't know what the court. I don't know what the term is. LGBT people. And it's actually like inclusionary with trans people, which is, I think the most important part of this. Can no longer be fired from their jobs.

[Courtney Miller]

Yes.

[Tommy Bo]

Because they are trans or because you are gay or because whatever, LGBT.

[Monica Vasudani]

Right. It was still legal in, I think 26 states, but now, federally, it is no longer legal. And that's wonderful. It just. It's so crazy that news coming, like, hot on the heels of the news about health care specialists being able to discriminate and elect to not treat transgender people. The Obama administration had, like, in the. In the language of, like, gender, they have defined it, like, not just as biological, sexual. The Trump administration has pushed for that to be just biological sex. Like, in terms of certain coverage. And that's not, like, necessarily just gender reaffirming or gender affirming treatments. People can be transgender. People can be denied health care at all or.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, yeah. So, yeah, the. The New York Times says Supreme Court rules civil rights law protects gay and trans transgender workers. Trump was doing all this stuff with trans rights, and I was like, damn, he's really trying to go out with the bang, huh? Like, with all that stuff. Like, but I'm sure, like, I don't know how long those things take in the legal system to move. I mean, he's doing executive orders left and right. I don't know what the speed on those is, but this is the most in my life I've ever felt, like, close to or, like, physically or emotionally affected by politics. And, like, a lot of this stuff isn't even political. It's like, it's just straight up human rights. Like, it's not.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, exactly.

[Courtney Miller]

It's not. It's not a matter of politics at all. It's like, oh, you're a human, okay? You deserve to be treated like a human. That's not a political statement. Like, yeah, that's the one thing I've been debating a lot with family, or at least trying to, because, you know, Twitter and Instagram are like, yeah, these kids get it. Or if there's people that disagree, the community's handling it. But I've had family that are trying to nitpick so many things and just ignoring the big picture. And I've had some rough arguments of family to the point where people are hanging up on each other. Like, relationships are changing. Like, different opinions. They were like, you know, we're entitled to our different opinions. And I was like, you know, racism isn't really something that you can have an opinion on. Like, I just. As long as we can agree that racism is bad. Yeah, that, like. And it was hard for me to say because, like, I'm just like, there's so much that needs to be done, but I'm like, as long as we can agree on that, then we'll be okay. Like, that's like, ultimately long term will be okay. Yeah. I've had some rough. I've had some rough conversations with family where I end up feeling defeated and I didn't feel good about the conversation and I didn't obviously didn't win. I mean, you're not gonna win. It's not. You're never gonna win. Like, even if it ends poorly and you feel like you've lost, that person that you talk to is going to go to sleep thinking about the things you said.

[Tommy Bo]

It's battles within a war. You might lose the battle, but the war could be won over time.

[Ryan Seacrest]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

It's so hard though, to, you know, have a productive conversation with somebody who believes that only the things they already believe are true and everything else is just a lie. Like, rather than being like, oh, here are two sets of what I believe are facts. Like, it's, it's. You can't, you know, argue with someone who's just gonna be like, everything you tell me is fake. All media is fake. Unless it's coming from the people that I trust. And then if they say something that I don't believe in, then you know they're fake as well.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, it's like confirmation bias has been up the wall lately.

[Monica Vasudani]

Hey, Tommy, is your closet a little bit open?

[Tommy Bo]

It is a little back there. It is. That is what's happening back there.

[Monica Vasudani]

Is that a choice you made?

[Tommy Bo]

It's. I mean, at the end of the day, yes, but no. Because I have a problem where I am gifted a lot of clothes and I buy a lot of clothes and by gift, by. It's. It's like goodwill stuff.

[Monica Vasudani]

Right.

[Tommy Bo]

Or whatever. So I just never throw anything away or donate anything or. So there's just. I mean, try and imagine the most laundry you've ever imagined. Double it and stuff it back there. That can't close because it can't close vibes. Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

I was really hoping that that was the situation. Yeah. There was some physical thing in the way.

[Tommy Bo]

It is literally that. It is a my fourth laundry hamper. I have four buckets of laundry that are about 4ft tall. That one is all the way full and sticking out of my closet. Thank you for pointing that out.

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[Tommy Bo]

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[Kevin]

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[Courtney Miller]

I have a nasty habit of leaving drawers and cabinets open.

[Tommy Bo]

Oh, interesting.

[Courtney Miller]

It's a new thing that I've noticed about myself in this new apartment that I've been in for almost a year now. I just leave shit open.

[Monica Vasudani]

It would be great if your apartment was haunted, but you were like, oh, I guess I'm just dumb and I leave it open. But the ghost is, like, trying to do everything they can. Like, oh, I guess I left all the chairs stacked up.

[Tommy Bo]

Just like, all the chairs upside down again.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, my gosh. My. My couch is on the ceiling again. I'm so silly.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, there's goo everywhere. Mysterious goo.

[Tommy Bo]

Oops.

[Courtney Miller]

My lotion. I guess. Yeah. No, my. I actually had my sister. My sister saged my apartment recently. Recently. Because I wasn't sure if my apartment was haunted. But I also just was. I'm just, like, getting sick of my place and just needed to refresh the energy. I see that smirk. Monica.

[Monica Vasudani]

Sorry, I forgot you could see me.

[Courtney Miller]

I don't. I don't hardcore, like, believe in that stuff, but I'm not opposed to it. And if I. If it's, like, not going to hurt me, then, like, I'm down. Like, I use incense. Incense?

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, it's up there. Well, incense doesn't. I don't think incense does anything for ghosts.

[Courtney Miller]

It makes sense.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm in the same boat as smell like, you know, I won't spin your head around. Instead, I'll take a breather.

[Courtney Miller]

This girl has great taste. Sorry, go.

[Tommy Bo]

No, no, no. I'm in the same boat as you where I don't like, where I'm not like, yes, ghosts are real, but I'm not like, nah, there's some. I mean, this, specifically this current room that I'm in, this apartment has had some. Some stuff happen. Don't know the cause. Yeah. There has been a moment where me and my roommate went and followed the thing with the palo santo and the sage and went through every corner and, like, said, this is not your space. Please leave.

[Courtney Miller]

What? What? Are you willing to talk about what's happened?

[Tommy Bo]

Oh, my God. I'm trying. Let me. I'm trying to, like, make sure I hit all the points and condense it and don't just ramble on because I can. So it started off with. We had one of those Trash cans. That has the top that swings. You know, the little swingy tops.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

Every once in a while, my roommate and I would just hear a. And then we'd look over and it would just be swinging. So we're like, that's interesting that no one touched it, but it's swinging, huh? So we logged that away. And then standing in my kitchen, if you're face, you can like face out in the living room. Stand in my kitchen. To the back right is the stairs to go upstairs. My roommates, both of their bedrooms are upstairs. Mine's downstairs with the kitchen and living room. So I have my friend over. My roommate's also in the kitchen with me. We're talking and I'm like, every once in a while, Brandon. My roommate's Brandon. And I was like, brandon, do you feel the same way every once in a while when you're in the kitchen? You think you see someone standing in the stairs over there, like over in the corner. And he goes, yeah, I do. And then my friend in the living room goes, oh, you mean the person that stands in the stairs over there? And I was like, I got chills just now. I know. So there's that. And then fast forward. Middle of the night.

[Monica Vasudani]

No.

[Tommy Bo]

Yep. Oh, this is cliche. Middle of the night, I'm in my bed. My room's a little. I changed how it's set up, so don't reference this. I'm in my bed and then I hear what sounds like maybe 15 pound rat or something scampering. And like the corner of my room and the ceiling, which doesn't make sense because of how the layout of the vents are. And so I like opened my door and there was nothing there and it was still going like. And I was like, that's so weird. And so I was just kind of like, all right. And so I'm laying in my bed staring at where the sound is coming from. The sound travels diagonally, which is not a vent toward me in my room. The sound stops and I'm like, okay. And then my bathroom door goes, no. Yup, yup, yup. So the next day, and my roommate Brandon was like, what was that sound? And I was like, okay, so I'm not insane.

[Courtney Miller]

No.

[Tommy Bo]

So then we saged and did the thing and we were like, please leave. You know, like, this is not your space. And I tried to be very polite. I was like, hey, I'm sorry. I know this sucks, but like, you're dead. And like, this is my space now. I'm like, sorry. The following Day, the picture frames in my living room were off the wall.

[Courtney Miller]

What?

[Tommy Bo]

Since then, there has not been a lot of ghost activity.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, my gosh.

[Tommy Bo]

However, every once in a while. Thank you. Every once in a while, when I'm on my computer and I have my headphones in and I'm editing, I feel there's. I feel like there's something over there, but that's.

[Monica Vasudani]

Whoa.

[Courtney Miller]

How long has it been since you did the procedure?

[Tommy Bo]

Probably. The procedure.

[Courtney Miller]

Probably.

[Tommy Bo]

Probably a year now. Probably.

[Courtney Miller]

Okay.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, it's probably due for a refresh.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, so you have renewed the lease? Oh, yeah. No, it's okay.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm paying low, low price for this big white room. I'm not leaving.

[Courtney Miller]

Gosh, dude, that's terrifying. See, for me, I. I don't know what it was my mom ingrained in me. Like, telling ghost stories or doing Ouija boards or rituals or anything is, like, not okay. Even talking about them is not okay because that encourages the spirits to come in and hurt you. Like, she's like, it's bad to talk about spirits that way. And so, like, I get nervous even talking about them. I cannot watch ghost movies. I've talked about that before. I can't. I can't watch Paranormal Activity, none of that shit. I can't do it because it's just, like, you don't know if it's real. I'm pretty sure spirits are real, dude. I'm just. I believe it. Like, Shane's a very smart dude. He's had some scary experiences, and yet he still is. Like, there's science. And I'm like, yeah, there's science, but also there's ghosts. I'm lucky. I've never really had to think anything spooky happen to me like that in my life. Knocking on wood for myself now, Monica, have you ever had anything like that?

[Monica Vasudani]

No, but I'm oblivious to things like that. But also, like, I'm this. In this weird space where I'm like, no, I don't believe that. But, like, if there is a weird sound, then I'm like, oh, no. I'm so scared. Like, I'm a big baby. But I don't know, like, what I'm afraid of.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

But also, like, my wife will often point out to me, like, oh, there's a weird sound. And I'm like, huh? Like, what weird sound? And so I'm maybe too dumb to be haunted.

[Courtney Miller]

Interesting.

[Tommy Bo]

I mean, if you're having the reaction you're having a fight or flight to weird sounds, you at least have that ingrained in you.

[Monica Vasudani]

Right. Or, like, sometimes she doesn't do this anymore, but she used to, like, with me a little bit and be like, oh, there's, you know, like, something. Something like the old woman ghost. And I'm like, what? What old?

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, my God.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm in this. I'm in the same boat as you with the. No Ouija board. Courtney.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

No.

[Tommy Bo]

Never. There's never a reason to play with the Ouija board. Why?

[Courtney Miller]

Exactly.

[Tommy Bo]

It's like, it's. It is an open invitation. Like, so what if it. It might not be real? It doesn't matter.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. Why are we giving chance? Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

There's a. There's like, a 1% chance I could fall off my balcony. This is a horrible metaphor. I'm just not realizing. But if there was a 1% chance I could fall off my balcony, I'm not going to go up on my balcony, you know?

[Courtney Miller]

Right.

[Tommy Bo]

Why take that chance?

[Monica Vasudani]

Nobody's ever like, hey, I did a Ouija board, and then this, like, ghost left me all this money and, like, made me a smoothie. And, like. Like, they're not helping you out.

[Courtney Miller]

Shane has said, like, it was literally like a game. Like a toy.

[Tommy Bo]

He did it.

[Courtney Miller]

No, no, no. Like, he's just saying the way it was invented as just, like, a gag. Like a gag game. But, like, you know how there's, like, some horror stories or horror movies where it's like, yeah, it started as a story, but the story manifested it to be real. Like, if you put that intention and energy towards something. I used to watch Long Island Medium, and I've heard this actually. Garbage. I've heard. I've heard that it's. Actually a lot of it can be garbage. But she was like, I can't. This tattoo parlor. What's wrong? I feel something is wrong here. And then she's like, oh, there's a Ouija board on the wall over there. That's a portal. You need to get rid of it. Like, it's like a portal to the other side.

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, maybe it's like, you know when you don't see or think of a thing until, like, someone points it out to you, then you see it everywhere.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

So maybe it's like everybody is occupying this space of being too dumb to, like, notice and too oblivious. And then they're like, oh, now that I've done the Ouija board, I'm paying attention to everything. And so now I'm hearing the weird footstep sounds. And, like, I notice that all the cabinets are open.

[Courtney Miller]

Spooky.

[Tommy Bo]

I love spooky stuff. That's why I don't. That's why I'm like, so what if the ghost is here? Like, there's part of me that's like, this is fun. I don't know. There's something, like, exciting about it all.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, dude, it's. It's interesting. As long as they're not trying to hurt you. I've been scared of like, waking up with scratches or something.

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[Courtney Miller]

Monica.

[Monica Vasudani]

Huh?

[Courtney Miller]

Congrats on the freaking change of title, by the way.

[Tommy Bo]

Oh, yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

Mrs. Head Writer now.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

Do you refer yourself to a Mrs.

[Monica Vasudani]

I guess if somebody were to ask. Nobody asks.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

Hey, I got something to ask you. What's your abbreviation?

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, that's what it is when you, like, fill out those legal documents, doctor. Yeah, that's right. That's right.

[Monica Vasudani]

Doctor Head Writer over here.

[Courtney Miller]

I want to be a duke.

[Monica Vasudani]

Don't be a little dicky. What happened to you gonna be a little dookie?

[Courtney Miller]

What's up? It's me, Lil Dookie. What happened to royal titles? You know, like Esquire and stuff? What's up, Kevin?

[Tommy Bo]

Hey, I'm here. I actually had a topic I wanted to have discussed a little bit. So this is a one year anniversary, by the way, for you guys from last year's podcast. So I think it'd be great if you guys talked about that and how things have changed from that podcast and the conversations you had to.

[Monica Vasudani]

Now I can't even remember what we.

[Courtney Miller]

Talked about back then.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, I did not.

[Courtney Miller]

I remember I was very new to the community a year ago and you've.

[Monica Vasudani]

You've put a label on yourself now, right? Like you've identified with something pansexual.

[Courtney Miller]

Yes, I. And then when we first. Thanks. When we first. When I first, like, came out, I. I don't like, like, labels is not something for me personally. Like, if someone were to accidentally call me a he or like. Or refer to me as someone said tizai the lesbian at this table, I am like, I. I'm just, like, fully. I don't care. Like, labels don't matter to me. And then, like, you can. You can call me whatever you want, you know, like, there are people on the Internet who call me a. Like, you know, like, I don't. Like, people are gonna refer to me however they want to refer to me. Like, I know where I am and, like, even that I'm still, like, figuring out all the time. But it's just when people want to unders. People, like, to try and understand or sometimes people just really want to be respectful and. And refer to you the way that you want to be referred, which, like, makes complete sense. And that there are people who. Who stand for being referred to in the way that they specifically want to be referred to. And that's okay, too. I think that there's a level of forgiveness that needs to be there. But, yeah, I officially. I tweeted, I said I came out as pansexual year ago because, you know, because bisexual is two sexes. Like, being attracted to two sexes, male and female. But pansexual is, like, apparently, like a sub. Like, sub level of that of saying, like, I. Multiple sexes. Like, including gender fluid and. And Right. Right.

[Monica Vasudani]

And not multiple sexes. Multiple genders.

[Courtney Miller]

Multiple genders. Yes.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yes.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. I mean, there are. Hey, there are people with multiple sexes on their body, too. I don't know.

[Monica Vasudani]

That's true. Yeah. People, for sure.

[Courtney Miller]

I might. If I met one, who knows? I might think they're very hot. I don't know. I'm just like. I think I've just, like, officially left that door open because I. It's crazy. Like, looking back when you. When you look on your past, you're like, oh, yeah, now that I know this about myself, so many things about my past make sense. But yeah, I officially said pansexual because bisexual doesn't quite fit it. Realizing, like, pansexuality is. It's like, I'm attracted to the energy. There's obviously, like, physical features that I think are sexy and things like that. But, like, it's something I also realized with, like, when I was in school and this might. I might not be fully educated in these thoughts is just something that I've been thinking about is like, I didn't, like, really recognize until, like, after the fact that I. I had a lot of friends of color. And I like, it's not that I didn't see color. It was that I wasn't aware of cultural differences. I was friends with the people because of their energy, and I didn't recognize. Like, something I realized about my life is, like, the culture I was raised in. The culture I had was being unaware of other people's cultures, like, being in the Mormon religion. Like, it's very one type of person. And, like, I realized it wasn't that I didn't see color. It's like, I assumed everyone had the same privilege as me. Every. Everyone has the same life opportunities as me. Everyone's the same. Like, I never. I didn't recognize that until, like, when I joined the real world and, like, left my bubble of a hometown. But I was friends with people or I'm attracted to people because of the energy they give off. Still trying to figure it out. I also. Maybe some of those things were very naive that I said, but, you know, still got books to read, but. Yeah. Has anything changed for you guys?

[Tommy Bo]

Like, you want to go, Monica, or do you want me to go?

[Monica Vasudani]

Nothing has changed.

[Tommy Bo]

I mean, your. Your child is. Is older.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, I thought you meant in terms of, like, your sexuality. Of, like, my identity.

[Courtney Miller]

I'm even more gay now.

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, I'm like, I'm just somebody's mom. Like, that's where I'm at. I feel like. That's what I feel like most of the time. Because now I'm like, I just like, I'm like, ugh, toddlers. That's just where my head is at all the time. What has changed for me in the last year? I moved.

[Courtney Miller]

You're in a home. You're a house lady.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, yeah, we bought a house. I only got to do it because I had help from my parents. That's made me think a lot about generational poverty, how lucky I am. Everything's different, but the same.

[Courtney Miller]

Same, same, but different.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, I actually have a. Not a question, just like a kind of an idea or like a thing to explore specifically with your universe. Monica. I am a homosexual, but my parents.

[Monica Vasudani]

Are both Tommy's fucking hams over here.

[Tommy Bo]

My parents are both, you know, just run of the mill straight couple. Your kid is being raised in a lesbian household. That's very cool in my eyes. Do you feel that's so cool? Do you have any kind of, like, plans or ideas of, like, talking about that with him? Is it kind of just like he's kind of being raised in a world where this is more normal? There might not need to be a conversation.

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, we have A lot of, like, books that talk about, like, all the different kinds of families. And, like, some families have two parents, some families just have one. Some are, you know, two dads, some are two moms. So we have, like, three or four books that kind of talk about different types of families. But I think he's already tracking that he has two moms because he gets really excited on the two moms pages and, like, books that have two moms. My concern is, like, having a positive male role model for him, especially right now, and we're not seeing anyone.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

So I'm also like, I don't know how we're gonna teach him how to pee standing up, like, and I don't know how important that is. So I don't know. But it's weird if I'm just like, hey, Tommy, can you come over and teach my son how to pee? Can he just watch you pee a couple times?

[Tommy Bo]

I mean, what's. Can I give you a day rate for pee pee?

[Monica Vasudani]

I don't know. That feels gross. I don't want to pay for my son to watch you pee.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, my gosh. I was gonna say you have time. You have, like, the first five years are, like, what really counts for a kid. But pp Time sometimes is a. There's a window there. Right. I mean, he can learn that anytime. Right.

[Tommy Bo]

Also, I. I only pee standing up when I'm in a public bathroom. Otherwise, I'm sitting my ass down, I'm pulling my phone out, and I am chilling. Chilling out.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah. Why would you not sit down when you can? Like, I'm not gonna stand right next to a chair to do a task.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. Appreciate that. Yes. Also, like, then, I don't know. I think I poop a lot. Like, whenever I want. So it's like, when you pee, you can just. And you're sitting down, you can just go away.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah. You don't know what's gonna happen.

[Tommy Bo]

You don't know what's gonna happen.

[Courtney Miller]

You limiting your bodily functions, you know?

[Monica Vasudani]

And imagine how stupid you'll feel your pants while you're standing up and peeing. Oh, yeah, dude.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. Yeah. I might want to cut out this. Me saying I poop a lot. I don't know. I will say I was just looking. Kevin. Kevin found the topics from the previous pod. The Pride pod. Yeah. We talked about our coming out stories. Our first kisses kind of touched on. Cut. First kisses. The Smosh's unsavory history with LGBTQ characters. I still feel like we can get more into that. Even more I mean, there, like, there's no enough, you know, But I think that could be cool. We, we do occasionally still have like, queer characters. I think we recently had a female couple.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah. We try to. We try to put them into a lot of the scripts and I don't know, like, if it's like we're trying to just get an accurate snapshot of different types of couples and trying to normalize those relationships to be like, here is, you know, a queer couple. But that's not. Not the thing.

[Tommy Bo]

The focus.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, exactly. It's just normalizing that. It's a thing like. Yeah, like that's a thing that you see and that exists. And like. Absolutely.

[Monica Vasudani]

I like that because I don't. I mean, I don't know where you're at, Tommy, but like, I don't know. With my wife, like, I. I don't think about it all the time that we're like two women. I'm not like constantly tracking.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm in the same boat with. Well, I guess that's what's changed in my world since our last podcast, I think. Yeah, no, I definitely was single back then.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh. Yeah. I'm trying to. I think.

[Tommy Bo]

I think I had a quick little relationship that came and went and then I re. Met Kevin because we had gone on a date way, way long ago and it didn't time out. I wasn't grown enough yet. I didn't have my like shit together life wise, which I still don't, but it's at least more.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

And he's always been pretty put together, but aged. Aged and adult Kevin is. Is hot. Yeah. So time feels so bizarre in quarantine because it's been like three months now or so. We're hit. Wait, is today. What's today? I'm gonna check on the day. Oh, oh, it's today. Today is our. Not that I'm this person. I am not this person. However, it is our seven. Seven month anniversary today.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh, cute. Cute. And it's been three months of quarantine.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, that's like nine months of regular time.

[Tommy Bo]

Exactly. Yeah. Because he's been the one person that we've been each other's person that we're like, we will breathe at each other and so we're both very cautious and, you know, being responsible for each other in a way.

[Monica Vasudani]

But that's very sweet. Kevin's great. I really like him.

[Tommy Bo]

He's so great. I like that he's more personable and talkative than I am. I can just kind of like take a backseat and let him, like, be the personality. And I'm like, haha. And this thing. And then they're like, big talk is great. It's, you know, to loop it all back in. Like, Kevin and I are still white men. Like, yes, we're gay, but like, gay white men are just white men at this point. So. Yeah, it doesn't. There's never a moment that it. That I'm like, wait, I'm gay? Different. It's so. Especially in la. Never bounces off my radar.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Tommy Bo]

Bounces on. I don't know.

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[Monica Vasudani]

Apply dude, that's the weird thing about. I won't say exactly where I live now, but like, in the suburbs, in the Valley is when we were in the city and we would walk around, everything was like, totally chill. You know, like, people would wave and smile and all that stuff. And now I've noticed that, like, when I would take my kid for walks around the neighborhood, some people just like, I'll wave and say hi. And some people are not interested in doing that because my neighborhood is really diverse in that, like, there are people of all different, like, ages and races. But I. There's. I don't think there's any sort of gay community here. And there's also a lot of, like, old conservative white people who, you know, are not down. Which is very weird because I've been in this, like, sheltered bubble of being in Los Angeles.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

Where I'm like, nah, this is chill. And then I forgot what things are like in the suburbs.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

Dang, that's wild. Yeah. I had. So I made a sign of the. The Black Lives Matter fist for when I protested. And at first I didn't think I was going to be able to protest. I was like, well, maybe I can, like, put it in my window or something. But I genuinely. Where I live in this. This, like, small complex, I don't know if they. People. There are families and like, people in the complex, I don't think that they would be comfortable with that.

[Monica Vasudani]

So that's so crazy that saying Black Lives Matter is like. Yeah, that people would be upset about that.

[Courtney Miller]

I think they, like, take it as, like, it's intimidating for a while. People didn't. A lot more people, like, didn't get it. So maybe it seems like I'm asserting a sort of dominance or something by putting that. Because, like, my apartment overlooks everyone else's. And so, like, I'm above everyone with my sign there is the. The unit below me has a Bernie sign in their window. So. So I don't know.

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, I. I think about that a lot because I thought about, you know, putting some sort of sign, like, on our window or.

[Courtney Miller]

Or, like, a flag of some kind.

[Monica Vasudani]

And I've been grappling with my fear of, like. Okay, I have a neighbor, like, two houses down who's, like, very much a cop. Like, it's a cop family. And they make me nervous. They have, like, you know, all of the, like, big trucks with, like, I bleed blue stickers and stuff like that. And I'm like, are they going to then retaliate in some way? And then also, how much of a coward am I for not wanting to do that when there are people who constantly face that fear and that violence living in their own bodies? Yeah. Yeah. And then, like, so I think that maybe it's time to be like, all right, we have security cameras, so let's just make this statement. And then it's.

[Courtney Miller]

I can understand it being nervous because you're newer to the neighborhood. It doesn't feel like it's as much like your territory, yet you've entered their. Their neighborhood. Like. Like, that says a lot. Like, there are people who can't even do that. Like, Nadia, like, no chance. What would you put? What would you put?

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, I would probably. Like, we have a front window that faces out. I would probably just want to hit, like, a small rainbow flag in one corner and a small Black Lives Matter in the other and call it a day. I. I want to ACAB and abolish ICE and, like, really go for it. But that's, I think, asking for my house to get vandalized if.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

Where. Who knows how many other neighbors are cops.

[Courtney Miller]

I've thought about getting, like, car stickers, but I'm like, dude, I'm gonna get keyed. I feel like I'm gonna get keyed.

[Monica Vasudani]

Or you're gonna get pulled over, because they can do that for whatever reason they want to manufacture. So then you're making yourself a target.

[Courtney Miller]

Just put it. Because I Have like my dad's firefighter stickers there too. So what will that do? Because that people with firefighter stickers, it. It definitely affects how you're treated by cops.

[Monica Vasudani]

Dude, if you had a firefighter sticker next to an all cops or bastard sticker, I would love that.

[Courtney Miller]

I thinking about it now. I officially, like, paid off my car during quarantine. I have the paint slips and everything. Now it's mine.

[Monica Vasudani]

Good for you.

[Courtney Miller]

So screw it if it gets keyed. Did you guys have Shoot Dudes that you wanted to present today? Present Monica present to the class.

[Monica Vasudani]

I don't know if mine qualifies Shoot Dudes, because I didn't realize how embarrassing they were at the time. Yeah, so I don't know. I will say though, I would. I know that in the past you talked about my text exchange with Shane, the Shoot dude that I sent in. Do you guys know.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh yeah. Where. Where you actually said something?

[Monica Vasudani]

Tommy, do you know about this?

[Tommy Bo]

I don't know this. I'll be your audience.

[Monica Vasudani]

Okay, let me actually pull up the message so that I can read it to you verbatim. But basically what happened was I was texting Shane and then also texting my wife at the same time. And so I went into the wrong thread as a little background information. My wife and I have massage night where we listen to a specific podcast and I give her a massage, which is, you know, what you do when you're a married lesbian. So to Shane, I said, I've been avoiding listening to that noble blood, but I want to listen. So tonight is massage night. And that was in response to Shane being like, sounds good to me. When I. We set a meeting and then he didn't respond for hours. And I was like, fuck. Because he was on set for the Goldbergs that day. And so when I realized my mistake a couple hours later, I was like, oh, no. I realized I sent to see you instead of my wife, and now I want to die. Bury me. And then he said that he didn't actually clock the first text because he was on set. So he just kind of looked at it and like was going to worry about it later and would have definitely forgotten about it.

[Tommy Bo]

And then you not called it out?

[Monica Vasudani]

Yep. And then he minutes later walked right into the office and we made eye contact and I was like, don't. Don't say anything. Oh my God, I'm not ready to talk about this. Because that is. It would be better if it were a text, but it was such a like 30 something year old mom Level of intimacy I don't want anyone being a part of.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, I get that.

[Monica Vasudani]

Like, if I was like, oh, man, we're gonna go for it tonight. Can't wait to see them titties, like, I. That helps with the Persona that I'm trying to put out into the world versus, like it's massage night for my baby girl.

[Tommy Bo]

But that's a good Persona.

[Courtney Miller]

It's sweet.

[Tommy Bo]

We like that.

[Monica Vasudani]

It's not cool and it's not hot.

[Tommy Bo]

It's not. It's not black T shirt. It's a light baby blue T shirt.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, that's what it is.

[Tommy Bo]

You're embracing. You're embracing real Monica right now.

[Courtney Miller]

You're a blue tizai.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, I don't have a shoot, dude. I've been racking my brain this whole time since yesterday.

[Courtney Miller]

You've been very busy.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

Yes, you have. I'm very excited. I don't know when the video is going to come out, Tommy, but I think it's.

[Tommy Bo]

Is it not. Not next week, but the week after maybe?

[Courtney Miller]

Okay, so it'll come out after this.

[Tommy Bo]

By the time this is out? Yeah, I think it'll come out after this.

[Courtney Miller]

Okay, so, yeah, guys, Tommy and I did a video together. Very exciting. Maybe perhaps the first of several, depending. Because Tommy is a powerhouse of person. Both of you guys are. Monica's writing up the Wall and then Tommy's editing and producing up the Wall. But yeah, Tommy and I tried out making a video with Sarah, challenged us to make a song together. And I'm going to leave it at that. I want you guys to see for yourself what the experience was. But Tommy fricking killed it.

[Tommy Bo]

You killed it too.

[Courtney Miller]

Well, thank you.

[Tommy Bo]

You did. You did.

[Monica Vasudani]

Musically, I so thoroughly enjoy both of you. I cannot wait to see what this is.

[Tommy Bo]

It's pretty like for. What was it? I think like a four. Like probably a four day turnaround, if I'm not counting the weekend. So it's like from literally beginning to end. It was four days. So it's. The quality is pretty, pretty tight for the quick little window.

[Courtney Miller]

Absolutely, absolutely. I'm very excited. Music is something I've definitely wanted to pursue on Smosh, like more than anything. So it's exciting. But yeah, so it's. It's okay if you don't have a shoe. Dude. I'm trying to think if I have anything that's happened since this last year because I remember at last, last time I told the. The story about that girl who somehow managed to sleep over at my house because my Friend ditched me, remember?

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

And she like wanted to hook up and I was like. And at that point I was like, I'm as straight as it gets. Little did I know that was incorrect.

[Tommy Bo]

I just thought of a shoot dude, but it's just about me. It's very quick. I was with. It's not really a shoot dude. I don't know what I'm talking about. I was with a few gay friends of mine and we all went out to Akbar, which is a club out here. And Akbar has a pretty cool selection of like. Selection that's gross. Like variety of people. That's what gay bars are though, am I right?

[Courtney Miller]

A selection of people.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah, yeah. It's a buffet.

[Tommy Bo]

It's a buffet. And I think within five minutes, maybe six minutes of being there, I farted. But it was a full shart. And so I had to wait for the bathroom line because there is one bathroom and the line is long. Cause it's a bunch of people. So I had to wait with poopy pants with my oopy doopies. And then once I got into the restroom, you know, classic. Threw away the underwear, cleaned up.

[Courtney Miller]

Lil dookie.

[Tommy Bo]

Lil Dookie. And the person who came in after me for sure knew for sure. New and not the best way. Not too exciting, but oopy doopie Kevin says.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah, that's for sure. Shoot dude. Shoot dude. Little dookie do.

[Tommy Bo]

Little dookie dude.

[Courtney Miller]

Wow, that's crazy. I still have yet to go to any kind of a gay bar. Haven't done that. Never experienced, dude. I just like haven't, I haven't like pursued my queerness yet.

[Monica Vasudani]

I mean, that's why so many queer people, like as soon as they come out and realize who they are, they have that like second adolescence in their 20s where they're like all the shit that straight people did in middle school and high school is like the shit that 20 something year old gays do. Yeah, yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

For now it's just like, it's all in here, I feel like, except for like my style. I feel like has, has evolved more this last year with like how I was dressing in videos and stuff. But I now, I now look back on like old photos of me in high school where I'm like, oh, I was trying extra hard to dress super straight that time where I was like, I was definitely like a time in my life where I was feeling insecure about myself and like I would part my hair in the middle and like wear a skirt and like, and like goddess like Greek sandals and like Like, I love that I can find a photo of, like, us going to a concert, and I'm doing the whole thing. I hate it. I hate it. I found so many photos where I'm, like, doing the street Girl. Like, and it's so. I just. Look at that. I'm like, who is that? I was going to ask, I guess, one last thing. I wanted to know if you guys had any LGBTQ + icons or anybody that you really appreciate on social media or just any. Any icons or fig. Public figures that you guys really appreciate.

[Monica Vasudani]

Right now, I'm really enjoying Brittany Nichols. She is a comedian, but right now she is tweeting a lot of stuff about Black Lives Matter. She's a black woman. Her takes are excellent, especially because she's very passionate, and I think she's very smart in terms of how she analyzes things that are happening. And she's an LA local, and I've, for the first time, really been involved in LA local politics. And so to, you know, get her view on those things is great. And then it's, like, sprinkled in with a little bit of comedy. So.

[Courtney Miller]

Nice.

[Tommy Bo]

Yeah, I don't iconize anybody. I kind of have, like, an aversion to being, like, all. All in. Like, oh. But I've been paying attention to, or at least trying. Like, I'm populating my empty hours with focusing on black trans people who have, I guess, more of a reach than an everyday person like us or whatever. But Peppermint, who is on RuPaul's Drag Race, she's been very vocal and talking about, you know, just. I'm just, like, truly just, like, absorbing everything and just letting it all, you know, set in. I think there's a podcast that Bob the Drag Queen did with Peppermint that was. It was either a podcast or a video. I can't remember now, but they had a whole discussion. It was very insightful. So I. I recommend looking through. Looking through Peppermint stuff. What about you, Courtney?

[Courtney Miller]

I've been very much appreciating. Well, Bretman Rock. A lot of people know who he is. He's a beauty guru from Hawaii. It was great because very early in this movement this year, or like, like a few weeks, like, before a lot of the influencers were saying anything. He called out influencers being like, hey, if you're being afraid of brand deals or what, what, like, followers are going to. What's going to happen? Like, that's why you're not saying anything. Because you're worried about your brand, then you're doing something wrong. And he very vocally called that out and that the video of him who just did it on his Instagram story, but someone took it and posted it and it like blew up because it was like, it's so important right now as an influencer to use that voice. So I appreciated that. And I've always just appreciated him because I love how he, he goes about his sexuality and puts out his femininity or his masculinity, like any day. Like I, I love that so much about him. Then Eugene Li Yang from Try guys really appreciated what he's been doing on social media. Just a musical artist that I very much enjoy. LP and also my favorite, other favorite people of lgbtq, you guys, Lil Dookie.

[Monica Vasudani]

Little Duke Turkey.

[Courtney Miller]

Well, thank you guys for coming on. I think that's about our time, right?

[Tommy Bo]

I'd say so.

[Courtney Miller]

I don't know. Yeah.

[Monica Vasudani]

Tommy, you're just pulling this out of your ass. Yeah, that seems about right.

[Tommy Bo]

Yep.

[Courtney Miller]

Yeah. So that was great. This made me feel good. I wasn't sure I was going to be able to do this today, but I appreciate being able to talk to you guys and using our platform to do, I don't know, like for more than just making silly videos that ignore. Ignore the world, you know, because we don't, we aren't doing that. That's not what's happening.

[Monica Vasudani]

I'm proud of us too.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm proud of you, Monica. Mrs. Dr. Headwriter.

[Courtney Miller]

Dr. Head writer.

[Monica Vasudani]

Thank you.

[Tommy Bo]

Uh huh.

[Monica Vasudani]

What's the, what's the first thing you guys are gonna do after this ends?

[Courtney Miller]

I. My back of my knees are really sweaty so I'll probably air those out and then maybe make some food.

[Tommy Bo]

I'm gonna walk to the corner store and buy a jug of water because I haven't had any water today and my body feels like it's shutting down.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, it is shutting down.

[Courtney Miller]

Oh.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, I am gonna pee. I've had to pee for so long.

[Tommy Bo]

I hope you don't have a stone because of it.

[Monica Vasudani]

Oh, should I come out? Would you wear it?

[Tommy Bo]

Wear it around your neck? Yes, I would.

[Monica Vasudani]

Okay, then I'll do it.

[Courtney Miller]

Well, good luck with that pee pee diamond Monica. And good luck staying hydrated, Tommy. Thank you guys for listening and for those watching. Thanks for looking at us. And also peace keeping that tizai T shirt Monica's wearing. It is on smosh.com on our in our store in black and in light blue. And a portion of the proceeds will go to center for Black Equity, which is a non profit organization supporting black LGBTQ plus communities. So. So frick.

[Monica Vasudani]

Yeah.

[Courtney Miller]

To those watching and listening, we're. We have a. We have the audio coming out every Wednesday if you want to listen to us. And then if you want to look at our cute little faces, those. The full video comes out on Fridays on our Smoshcast YouTube channel. So subscribe. There was a rating. We are going to get back into the casual.

[Monica Vasudani]

Not.

[Courtney Miller]

We're going to get back into our usual shoot dudes. So if you guys got shoot dude stories, embarrassing moments, crazy things that happen to you, we got our email shoot [e-mail] that's shoot s h o o t dude. D o o [e-mail] we appreciate how open people have been in submitting stories of very scary. Some traumatic stories. We appreciate you trusting us with such personal, vulnerable moments, but we like to keep it light here and have, like, more silly stuff. I know we've had some. Some. Some spooky stuff happen. We're like, oh, you wanna. We don't want to out you with that. But yeah, if you got some crazy stuff, send it over and we will read them and. And relate to you and share with the world and laugh about it. So, yeah. Love you guys.

[Monica Vasudani]

Love you.

[Tommy Bo]

I love you. Men.

[Courtney Miller]

Men.

[Tommy Bo]

I love men.

[Courtney Miller]

Okay. Bye, guys.

[Monica Vasudani]

Bye.

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