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Detective Smith was still reaching out to me here and there. I obviously had Hard feelings. There was a lot of confusion. I didn't really understand why she hadn't put anything in my case file. But at this point, I was still kind of thinking maybe she's just really not good at her job, and there was just a misunderstanding. But I was still not really responding to her when she would reach out to me. When I had had a conversation with my prosecutor, I said, well, if we do go to trial, can my old detective come and speak to what she remembers of the interview? And will that give merit to the statement that he gave? The prosecutor said that it would under normal circumstances, but that she was no longer part of the police force. And I said, I thought she just left the Special Victims Unit to a different unit. And he said, no, she's resigned from the police force and she's actually left the country. She's living in Croatia now. I was obviously super caught off guard by this. So he was explaining that if she were to come back into the country, which he said that they could ask her to, she would be speaking as a civilian, she wouldn't be speaking as law enforcement. And law enforcement does have extra merit in the court of law. And because she wasn't part of law enforcement anymore, it. It wouldn't really have the same effect. And when I figured this out, I was really confused. This is when I started really coming to the realization of, oh, something weird might be happening here. I hadn't really talked to her in a long time. I hadn't really been responding, but curiosity got the best of me, and I wanted to know what information she would divulge. And I really just wanted answers. Like, I wanted to understand better what was going on in her mind and why she wouldn't have put this information in my case file. I texted her and I said, my prosecutor told me that she spoke with you. I hope you're doing well. And she said, hi, Marissa. It's so nice to hear from you. I hope you are doing well. I am in Utah for a little while. We will have to catch up. Let me know what works best for you, and maybe we can get together before I leave. I said, I heard you moved, and I need an update on how life is going. I. I'm free next week sometime. What's your schedule like? And she explained her schedule. Detective Smith had reached out to me shortly after that, and she asked me if I wanted to go to lunch. We agreed to go to lunch. She said that she would check in with the DA and make sure that everything was okay on that front for us to go to lunch. And then she said, I'm hoping he doesn't mind us meeting in person. We had decided the day that we were gonna get lunch, and my mom started to have a really bad feeling. And I had a little bit of a bad feeling, but was more curious, and so I didn't really want to listen to that feeling. She ended up calling the new detective, and the new detective absolutely lost it. She freaked out at my mom and just said, no, that's so inappropriate. That could completely dismantle Marissa's case. I don't know why Detective Smith would even offer that. She's worked in this department. She understands that, like, this would be very bad if this were to happen. That added to my feelings of uneasiness about Detective Smith. It just feels very inappropriate. I don't know if it was an emotional attachment that she had to me or if she felt like I was maybe a daughter figure to her. After the phone call that my mom had with the new detective, the new detective actually texted me and she said, hi, Marissa. I know your mom was going to reach out to you regarding canceling your lunch today with the old detective. I wanted to reach out as well. She no longer works for this police department and is now only involved in your case in a civilian capacity. It is not appropriate for the two of you to meet to discuss this case. Even if this was not your intent, it is how the interaction would be perceived. And I just want to quickly say none of this was my intent. It was Detective Smith's intent to meet with me. I also felt like this was a deflection, putting the blame on me that, like, I had set this up. She said your mom mentioned you felt like you had to meet with the old detective so she would cooperate with the case. However, know that the district attorney can compel her to cooperate if necessary. Moving forward, please know it is only appropriate to meet with anyone involved in the investigation in a professional setting, such as the DA's office, and with the DA in charge of the case present. This is simply to protect the integrity of your case and avoid any notion of collusion. I hope this makes sense. I just want your case to move forward as easily as possible. The DA is going to reach out to the old detective and let her know not to contact you again. Thank you. This was the most that the new detective ever said over text. Like, she would hardly have any conversation with me over text. I think she felt really compelled to send that. I do believe that she really felt the negligence of Detective Smith because she was the one picking up the pieces. When my case made it past screening, that's when they felt like they had enough evidence that they could make an arrest. Originally, he was facing two felony counts of rape and forcible sodomy. Knowing that he was going to be forced to take accountability for what he did, that was very validating for me. I think that a big part of me healed that day. Initially, the arrest warrant that went out was a no bail warrant, but somehow that got changed to a bail warrant. There were a lot of months where we were just kind of trying to track him down. That's another thing that's not really like the movies. They don't always just go to their house and present the warrant to them. I remember we started trying to figure out where he was, and finally his lawyer got back to us and had let us know that he was in a rehab facility in a different state. This was super upsetting to me because he was in the rehab facility for several months, and so my case could not move forward until he was out of rehab. This is all strong stuff to present to the judge that he has gone to rehab, sees the error of his ways, so sees that he had an issue. We waited months and months for him to be done with that. Finally, when he was done with rehab, he was arrested. He made bail shortly after, and that's when we started the process of deciding whether we were going to go to trial or whether we were going to do a plea deal. My prosecutor prepared me that the first plea deal that they would present would be something ridiculous. I can't remember exactly what it was, but it was like three misdemeanors. There would have been no jail time, no registry. Then we just negotiate that. We had gone back and forth a few times, and this is over the course of months and months. His biggest thing was that he didn't want to be on the sex offender registry. I thought it would be reasonable for him to be on the registry for what he did to me. As long as he's on the registry, he has to be in some form accountable to what he's doing and his actions. What my prosecutor said is, we can either get more jail time or we can get the sex offender registry. I decided that I would rather have the registry because, again, my purpose in all of this was to make sure that he didn't do it again.