Ashley Jones (51:38)
I couldn't explain it to you. And it had been years since I had cried. Like, every bit of emotion was so locked up in me. Like, it felt unsafe. I felt unsafe all the time. And so I said, Jesus. And I just started sobbing. And I muted the phone because I'm too embarrassed. Like, there's no way I can show emotion to myself, much less anybody else. And she goes, hey, can I pray for you? And I'm like, okay, sure. I thought she was. You know, I dealt with a lot of religious people who are like, oh, I'll pray for you. And then they leave. And, you know, maybe they do, maybe they don't. And she was like, no, right now. And I'm like, this Is so weird. I said, okay, sure. I mute the phone. I'm sobbing. She starts praying. And she. To this day, it's the most prophetic thing I've ever heard in my life. She starts praying about the thoughts I'm hearing in my head, calling them out word by word. She starts praying over a pornography addiction that I had had for over seven years. She starts praying over the secrets of my heart. I want to read a scripture. Actually, we are in First Corinthians, chapter 14. I'm gonna read just really quickly, verses 24 and 25. And it says in, but if all prophesy and an unbeliever outsider enters, he is convicted by all and called to account by all. The secrets of his heart are disclosed. And so falling on his face, he will worship God and declare that God is really among you. And the scripture is talking about prophecy. I had never heard of prophecy. I had only heard of mediums and sidekicks. And I just thought, like, if you have that kind of power, it's from what I'm doing, not from whatever she's doing. And so she starts praying, man, and I am just undone. Like, she is undoing the knits and stitches in my heart, like, word by word, like, breaking me down. And I just remember being like, she knows something that I don't know. There is some kind of information that she's got that I do not have because I didn't even know the things that she's saying about me, but now that she's saying it, they're true. And I. I'm just sobbing. Kim K. Emoji Ugly. Crying, snotting. And she's like, are you there? I had to unmute the phone. I'm like, hi. I don't know what's happening. And she's like, I just want you to do me a favor. I want you to go in your room, and I want you to pray. And I'm like, alexa, the last time I tried to pray, he almost killed me. What do you mean, go pray? And she's like, but yeah, but pray out loud. And I'm like, that's so weird to ask me to do that. Like, but okay, obviously you know more than me, so I guess I'll just trust you and do it. So I went into my house, and I went into my room. I'm pacing. Like, I've never felt a panic like this in my life. Like, I am sweating. I'm shaking. I'm pacing. I don't even know what to say. I don't know how to pray. I don't know what to do. And so I just remember all I said was, Jesus. Like, that's all I could say. That's all I knew to say. I just said, Jesus. And every muscle in my body just, like, went. I hit the floor. Like, hit the floor hard. My muscles just gave out. And I was on the floor sobbing. And all I could say was, please help me. Please help me. Please help me. And I just was saying. I was begging over and over. Like, the only thing I could say was, please help me. I'll cry every time I tell it. It was the most desperate I'd ever been in my life. And I just remember it was probably like 20 minutes of that. And all of a sudden it just felt like I physically. I mean, physically, it was the most supernatural moment of my life. Felt a hug around me, like I had been waiting for it my whole life. And it was just so tangible. And I felt it. And I remember having a vision of Jesus holding me as I'm feeling this, like, holding me and looking, like, into my. Like, his head was right here into me like this. And I heard, like. And I'm careful to say I audibly heard the voice of the Lord. But, I mean, it felt like I audibly heard it. And I just heard him say, get behind me. She is mine. And I, like, I just sat there and cried for, like, probably an hour because I. All I could say was, thank you, thank you, thank you. And I was just praising God that everything that I had searched for was in surrender, but I didn't know. And he didn't require anything of me. I didn't do anything for him for that, you know, I came to him at the most dirty and ugly, undeserving, filthy place I'd ever been in my life. And he didn't ask anything of me. And he came to the depths of hell and pulled me out personally. And he does that for everyone. He does that for every single person. And every person's depths of hell looks different than mine. But it's a personal journey that he. His spirit comes, draws you in, and gets you out of wherever that you are. But I didn't deserve it. That's the point. I did nothing to deserve, to even be at his feet. But he met me there, and I just, for the next hour, just said thank you, crying on the floor. And I. I have one of those testimonies. And this is not to boast on myself. This is to boast in the Lord, because I was such. I was. I was filthy Rags, like I was nothing. And he, in the matter of a week, took my life. I broke up with my boyfriend, who this man I had been with for seven years. We lived together. He moved out the next day. In three hours. Stopped drinking. I was drinking a bottle of wine every single day, every night. Stopped drinking. I stopped smoking weed. My pornography addiction broke off of me like I. I was in a week. If you knew me the week before, you had no idea who I was. And I was so overwhelmed by who he was that I was so disgusted with who I had been. And so I renounced everything. Like, in that. In that week, I remember my best friend, Alexa. She's. She's still my best friend. I mean, glory to God for her. She is the reason I'm still here, because the Holy Spirit, through her, she came over to my house, one of my roommates, and she was like, all of this is the reason that you've been feeling this way. All this witchcraft. She's pointing at my altar, my crystals, my tarot cards, all of that. And she's like, this is why you've been feeling this way, and it needs to go. And I said, okay, whatever you say. Take it. We put it in trash bags. We got it out. And they laid hands on me. And I remember them just praying. Anything that has been bothering her, tormenting her, you will leave her and you will never come back.