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One of the first patients that I tested this on when I was going to Beck's clinic, and I was still, you know, didn't know what I was doing really from a psychotherapy point of view. But she was referred to me from the intensive care unit of University of Pennsylvania Hospital because she had tried to kill herself, an elderly woman. And I thought, well, this would be a good one to, to test this new. What was new cognitive therapy in those days? And I'd been giving her pills and having her talk the way I was trained to do, and nothing had changed. I measured her depression every week and, and she was stuck. And I, I said, there's this new thing I'm learning. Would you mind if I present your case at the conference? We have a weekly conference with about six or eight of us, and maybe I'll get some tips on, you know, we could try this new cognitive therapy. And she said, sure. You know, I'D love it if you do that. So I said, Dr. Beck, here's this elderly woman, and she tried to kill herself and almost succeeded. And what. How would I treat her with this based on negative thinking? And he says, well, that's easy. Just ask her what she was thinking the moment she tried to kill herself. I said, oh, that makes sense. That's easy enough. So I went and I said, told her. I said, Dr. Beck said, I'm supposed to ask you what you were telling yourself the moment you tried to kill yourself. And she said, oh, yeah, well, I was just telling myself I was a worthless human being because I've never accomplished anything in my life. I've never done anything worthwhile. And I said, well, why is that? What. What have you done in your life? She says, I've. I've done nothing but, you know, clean people's floors and clean their houses and scrub their floors. And I've done that my entire life with my children, ever since I was a young woman, so I don't have any fancy accomplishments. And so she said, so what am I supposed to do? And I said, I don't know. Let me go back to the class again and find out what I'm supposed to do next. So she said, fine, you know, tell me next week. And So I told Dr. Beck, he says, well, just ask her to use a technique called examine the evidence. Tell her to make a list of three things she has accomplished. And I said, oh, that makes perfect sense. So I went back, and she said, what did Dr. Beck say? And, and, and I said, well, he said that you're supposed to make a list of three things you have accomplished. And she said, well, that's what I told you last week. I've never accomplished anything, so what am I supposed to do? And I. I couldn't think of anything to say. So I said, well, maybe you could take it as a homework assignment and see if you could think of something, and, you know, you could give me your list next week. So the next week I came back and I forgot about the homework assignment, and I did my things. You need any more pills and how are your symptoms and. And that type of thing? And halfway through the session, she said, aren't you going to ask me about my homework? And I said, oh, I forgot. Were you able to think of anything? And she gave me a piece of paper with about 10 things on it. And number one, she said, I forgot that when I was a young woman, you know, my husband and all of our family died in the concentration camps. But I managed to smuggle our two boys out of Nazi Germany, and we made it back to the United States and New York, and I got a job cleaning people's houses. So we put a roof over our heads, and I was able to put food on the table. And I thought, well, maybe that was an accomplishment of sorts. And my son just graduated number one in his class at the Harvard Business School. And I thought, well, maybe that was a good thing, too. And then I forgot about the fact that I speak four foreign languages fluently. She had listed that. And then number five was, I'm a gourmet chef. And she had all this stuff listed. And I said, well, how do you reconcile this with your claim that you're a worthless human being who never accomplished anything worthwhile? And she says, Dr. Burns, I can't. It doesn't make sense. I have no idea how I got that idea in my head. I don't believe it anymore. And I said, how are you feeling now? She says, I'm suddenly feeling a whole lot better. She said, do you have some more of these techniques? And I said, we have to wait another week. That's the only one I've learned so far. But that was kind of how it went. And it. And it lifted my heart so much to finally, after spending seven years, really, in medical school, another seven years in residency, and never learning one thing that would help people, finally to have found ways of helping people and connecting with people and seeing people go from suicide or tears or total belief that they're worthless to joy and laughter. And that's kind of been the story of my life. And the reason we've created the. The app, the Feeling Great app, is because, you know, I've probably trained 40 or 50,000 therapists in. In my life. I've done workshops all over the United States and Canada, and. And I've. I've discovered it's very difficult for human therapists to learn what I've developed. The techniques are great, but there's only a handful of therapists who can really do it at a high level of skill. And so I thought, well, I bet the computer would do it what I tell it to do, and could learn how to do this. And so we've got AI doing it, and the AI is doing it almost as well, you know, maybe even better than what I can do. And that's been my life, my dream, to develop a scalable way of getting this out to everyone, because I can't treat everyone by my. By myself or, you know, that. Anyway, that that that's kind of the story of my life.