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I am a late bloomer. In fact, a friend of mine you may have heard of, Chris Rock. He once called me the most late blooming mofo he'd ever met. Now some people might consider that snide, but I revel in it. I'm 55 and I'm here in this curvy body as someone who has done the work, lived the life, walked the walk in these very high heels and therefore is qualified to testify in the church and in the court of law that it does in fact get greater later. Now coming to this realization wasn't easy. At the age of 38, I was a very successful fashion advertising executive and I was really living what most people considered a dream life. I was jet setting the fashion shows, I was receiving free designer clothes. I was double kissing my way across the globe. I was and you know, it was everything that I ever wanted it to be. And then one day I realized I was only pretending to be happy, but I couldn't blow up my good life in my prime earning years. Right? Wrong. Which leads me to lessons my mother Lolli taught me. Lolly's number one lesson. Don't settle. Don't settle. Now I'm aware that my well paying, glamorous career is not exactly the humdrum I hate my job stereotype that most people equate with settling. But it was a settle for me. Because when I actually did quit my job at the age of 38, it was with the intention that every day be A great adventure. Now, sometimes it was a very scary adventure, like being broke from the age of 40 to 45. But even still, I wouldn't trade that for the safe and settled version, because if I had, I would not be here with y' all today. Yeah. So you know how when you, like, buck the system and go against the status quo, it makes people really uncomfortable. And invariably people will ask, where do you get your confidence? Now, some people mean it as a compliment, but very often it's shady and it's a silent judgment. And to those people, I respond with a quote from this Brooklyn poet you may have heard of Jay Z. She get it from her mama. I am she. And my mama is the epitome of a grown ass woman. Someone who has always been very comfortable in her skin. In 1965, my mom was 37 years old. She already had one child, my big brother Jerry. And she married my dad, but she kept her maiden name. And then she had my sister Stephanie, and I back to back. But she continued to work because she refused to be beholden to my dad for money. And I bet my mom was the only woman in our neighborhood who cooked once a week. She made Sunday dinner. It was an extravaganza. But that's all she did. She cooked one day a week. My mom is just amazing. And she also had this ability of talking to her children about real life and making sure that we understood the virtues of going your own way. Which is why I believe today, at the age of 94 and a recent widow, my mom is still carving out ways to find and determine and define her own version of happiness. She cooks for herself. She maintains her home exactly as she sees fit. She enjoys champagne and R rated films. My mom has managed to maintain her glamour, her sex appeal, you know, her independence. And I really hope some of that rubs off on me. You know, recently I've been thinking about one of the best lessons that my mom ever taught me, which is the literal beauty and aging. Now, we all know that black don't crack, right? Okay, Black don't crack. So at the age of 50, my mom could have easily passed for the age of 35. And you know, that's back during the time when people, women were really coy about the age. Oh, a lady never tells her age. My mom never subscribed to that. She was always proud of her age. As a matter of fact, she believes you may not tell your age, but your hands and your neck will. So make peace with aging or prepare for an entire wardrobe of gloves and turtlenecks. Yeah, my mom has always done these wonderful things like that, but I wish she could rub off on everyone because I feel like now I'm looking at even 20 somethings who have a fear of aging. I watch them on social media like, you know, compulsively practicing the latest 10 second dance craze and it feels like they're angst and asking and is that all there is? And I just want to yell yes, that is all there is. If all you're going to do is settle for dancing to someone else's TikTok beat. Settling is very insidious. It keeps us dancing on this string, waiting for this elusive better day to miraculously appear. Now, thanks to Lolly's tutelage, that's not my story. In fact, I take each day as it comes, but I try and make it better than the last. So, you know, I'm single, but I'm always ready to mingle. I'm an entrepreneur, but I keep multiple revenue streams. I'm a solo traveler, which means I've done the sepia version of Eat, Pray Love on six continents because I don't settle. What that means is that I also don't second guess my decisions. And I'm also not worried about my future because I'm firmly rooted in the present. Settling is a really sinister thing. It will keep you up at night tossing and turning, trying to figure out why and trying to answer that age old question of is that all there is? Personally, I don't have time for that because the only time I want to be kept up all night long tossing and turning is when I'm in the company of a fine ass man. That's it. I wish I could tell you guys that I learned all these valuable lessons from Lolly and they were instilled in me and it was great. But alas, I am a late bloomer in all regards. So I had to learn a couple of lessons from the era of Bitchy Bevy. What kind of person has 10 assistants in 5 years? Bitchy bevy, that's who. Now, I didn't start out my career with a toxic attitude. No, initially I was really happy to be in the fashion industry, you know, but then I began to compare my trajectory to others and I also began to feel burned out because I was burdened by these fursonas I had created that were allegedly going to help me progress in my career. I made a couple of mistakes. One, I thought that being snarky was a good career move. It wasn't. I also thought I Looked good in the color brown. I actually don't. Yeah, in my dream montage, I wanted to get away from Bitchy Bevy. I wanted to get away from the color brown. And so in the movie version of my life, as soon as I quit my job, I'm a yoga guru. I'm extremely limber and very happy. Come to think of it, though, guys, I'm actually limber and happy right now. But I would be lying. And I believe it is against international law to lie during a TED talk, so I'm not going to do that. And as a matter of fact, my insecurities popped back up as late as last year. I was minding my business as one does, perusing social media, and I saw people excelling in a space where I, you know, traditionally had a lot of success. So I'm looking at it and I'm like, well, why the hell they ain't call me for that job? And I have this, like, angst. And then I realized they didn't call me for that job because you already said you didn't want that job. You told the universe you weren't into working like that. You don't want a job. I really don't. I'm not into it. So that's why it happened. And what I realized is that intellectually I had grown and evolved, but emotionally, I was Tom Petty and I was living in Petticoat Junction. I told y' all that brown doesn't look good on me. Petty looks even worse. It's not my shade. And so what I wound up having to do was really get a grip. I had to assess a few things about myself and I decided to do a little self help ritual. Take a note, Give a note. And it's easy. When you see someone having something that you believe you deserve, you take a note, you ask yourself a few questions. Is it something that you really want? Perhaps that person is better suited than you are for that? Is the universe conspiring for you to have that really kind of try and be honest with who you are and where you're at in life? Once you do that, you take a deep breath and you say, their wins have nothing to do with my worthiness. And then you're ready to give a note. You go on social media and you say, congratulations on my personal favorite. You pick up the phone like it's the 20th century and you say, congratulations, kudos. You did that. Ow. You go, girl. You do all the things. Instantly you feel like a better human being because you have actually extended grace. You've extended grace. You've extended grace to someone else. And I believe that when you remove malice from your heart, not only do you feel better, you look better. I think you lose your frown lines and your wrinkles lessen and your age spots disappear. I think I believe it's better than Botox. Extending grace. I do. Yeah, no, but let me get back to the note thing. So one of my favorite notes is from Willie Shakespeare. To thine own self be true. Now, we've all read self help books, and the first line of defense is always be your most authentic self. And I believe in that. I believe that nobody can be you but you. So you might as well show up and show out. But here's the quandary that the bard never put forth. What if you don't really know who you are because you have suppressed your inner self? You've suppressed the core of you, You've suppressed the best parts of you because you took on these other identities and these Personas and in an effort to make your life better. Because, you know, we all buy into some things about what we're supposed to be doing and who we're supposed to be. So whether you squelch that, because I know I had to excavate to dig up little Brown Bevy. But the way I found it was there were three questions. Who am I at my core? How am I being perceived? How would I like to be perceived? Who am I at my core? At my core, I'm looking to authentically connect with people. I don't like a cursory, you know, interaction, and I do not believe in networking. I like an authentic connection. I'm also curious, and I'm adventurous and I'm kind, and I've got big dreams. How am I being perceived? Well, y' all know the nickname Bitchy Bevy, so, duh. But here's the problem. There's a lot of power in that Persona. And I actually really enjoyed it for a time, you know? Cause you can make a lot of money being a bitch, especially in fashion, but it's also incredibly lonely and isolating. And I didn't want to live that life anymore. And so I decided to change my life. And I left all of that alone. I really did, like, just change my spirit. And leaving fashion obviously helped. And when I did that, all of a sudden I let little Brown Bevy out to play. Lulu Brown Bevy. I love her so much. Lulu Brown Bevy is a nerdy girl. And so I let my nerdy pursuits come out to play. I must have joined every museum on Museum Mile in New York City. I began to travel the world just to look at architecture I'd always dreamed of. I learned how to be alone without being lonely. My spirit shifted. I became a better person. You can ask people. I became a better person. And now I get to stand here in front of you guys with no bravado, with nothing to prove. I tell you, with nothing to prove. I'm not trying to prove nothing to y'. All. Thank you. I have an open heart. And I can't even believe that Lulu Brown Bevy from 150th street and 8th Avenue from the Hamlet of Harlem, is now an award winning radio and TV host, an author, an actress, a creative consultant. I would do all those things for free. But here's the thing. I ain't cheap and I'm definitely not free. So don't get any ideas. But I am here in this mama, I made it moment as someone who can show up as her most beviest self because I've done the work. Yeah, my most beviest self, you know that I'm going to show up and I've got a pep in my high heeled red bottom step. I do have heaving cleavage and I've got a tell it like it is approach to life that's always dosed with a ladle of love. It took me 55 years to get here. So Chris Rock, you're right. I'm a late bloomer. And that's okay because I'm right on time. Because it gets greater later. Thank you. Foreign.

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That was bevy Smith at TED 2022 and this talk was originally published in May of that year. Thanks for listening to our ted talks daily playlist. 10 talks to motivate you. We've got many more talks that can motivate you, so if you have the time, head on over to Ted.com playlists to check out more curated playlists on a variety of topics. And that's it for today. TED Talks Daily is part of the TED Audio Collective. This talk was fact checked by the TED research team and produced and edited by our team, Martha Estefanos, Oliver Friedman, Brian Greene, Lucy Little and Tansika Sungmarnivong. Additional support from Emma Tobner and Daniela Ballarazo. I'm Elise Hu. I'll be back tomorrow with a fresh idea for your feed. Thanks for listening.

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