C (35:29)
Yeah, I'll never forget like first time I picked up my phone, I'm a big YouTube guy. Like that's kind of my vice as I'm on YouTube all the time and my wife thinks it's really annoying. But I'll never forget like grabbed my phone like for one of the first times after and for one just seeing so many text messages and just like feeling like man, like thousands of Unread sex messages in that moment, there was such a public element to it. But the return of that is that. And so obviously so much comes into that. And, you know, I wouldn't dare go in my DMs, but, like, the other side of that is I had. So I had literally thousands of people praying over me and my wife and my family and, like, our home. I had a. A friend of mine I ended up seeing maybe two months after, and we had dinner, and it's Peyton Smith, another country artist. We had dinner with him and his wife, and he said, man, like, when we heard, we didn't know what to do. And so we just got in our car and we just drove around your house and just prayed. He said. And when we got there, we saw other cars of people we knew doing the exact same thing. And like, the reality of that, that, like, dude, you have people. We weren't even there. We weren't even at my house. Like, people were literally just driving around our house praying for us, dude. And. And so the tangible piece of just like, feeling that is. Is life changing. But I'll never forget, like, pulling up my phone and like, going on YouTube, like, for the first time and first recommended video was NBC News with my picture. And I just quickly was like, not, not yet, you know, And I think. I think the reality of, like, of it was a lot of that wasn't really able to pierce my heart because of the protection of the Lord for one, and. And two, just like, knowing there was nothing I could do and just being even in that. Just how much the Lord had protected me in that moment, you know. And then as we've like, gotten to, you know, we took a few months off shows and then I think started playing shows again in August and had a bunch of shows committed. So we've done all those and they've been great. It's been great to get back out. It's been great to see people and their kindness has been incredible. And there's been so much more love than anything, like, like a hundred percent. But yeah, I mean, obviously it's just like. It just takes time to heal. We were very blessed, like, day after the accident, two days after the accident, miles from on site, who runs on site, an amazing ministry or. Or therapy group or whatever here in Nashville. He sent like, a trauma therapy person to our house, like, within two days. In sitting with him, I just was like, hey, like, I understand the amount of trauma that just took place and in my mind, in my brain, and just like the grief that you, I now carry. I just kind of said, like, I don't want to rush this process. Like, I want to fully heal. And I think through the Lord and through kind of those conversations, like, the Lord has done so much healing and all those things. But there is just like, especially in community. It's like, man, you realize in those moments how important community is to you and like in stewarding faith based Christian community because, like, that's all you have. Like, I'll never forget, it's one of my favorite stories, but one of my best friends in the world's Ben Pierce. We've been best friends since, since we were 12. I'll never forget. It was Tuesday morning and I woke up and like immediately just hit with such a wave of anxiety and like crippling because there's so many things up in the air here. And I went to my wife and I was like, I was like, hey, like, can you just tell Ben to come over at some point today? And like an hour later, 45 minutes later, like, it's like 10 in the morning and Ben ends up rolling up and I'm like, goodness. Like, this dude, like took off work because I said I needed him. He gets out of the car and he comes and hugs me. And he was like, sorry, man, I slept in. I was like, what? And I realized in that moment that he had, he had called off work the night before just in case I would need him. And it's like those moments of friendship, dude, like that, like, I spoke that story to him and at his wedding just was weeping because it's like, man, that's everything. And in those moments, like Mark said, like, you, I can't, I couldn't carry it, but like, to have people around me that could, that could carry it for me both on the career side and like in work stuff and then lawyer stuff and all those things, but then also in just like relationship, friendship and faith based community.