Bobby (3:11)
Hello everybody. Bobby here. You probably realize show's on vacation. And so I hate having a rerun. I hate having to put up podcast reruns. I hate. That is not what this is. This is not a rerun. So you don't even have to enjoy it. But I just want to make sure that something is up, something that is somewhat new and something that is somewhat compelling. And mostly I have a checklist of stuff that I've been meaning to talk about for a long time that I've not been able to talk about. So I figure, what better time than right now as I'm sitting alone on vacation making notes for when we get back very soon. I like to first start with dairy. Up on my list. Have dairy. I can no longer have dairy. I can have it. I just can't have it for a long time. I would say probably my whole life I did not know that I. I won't say allergic, but that my body does not agree with dairy. Now what sucks about that is I love cheese. Never been a big milk guy, unless it's cereal. And then I love milk and cereal, but love cheese. All kinds of cheese. Love cereal. Would eat multiple bowls a day. Love it. So it's been difficult to not eat dairy, especially when it comes to things I didn't even know dairy was in. Like, I would order a smoothie and I would try to keep it clean. And I had no idea. Now, this is just because I didn't look, but I had no idea that whey protein was dairy. So here I am. I've eliminated 95% of dairy and I'm drinking a smoothie and I'm telling my wife, like, my stomach hurts. She's like, well, track back, you know, what you've had. And I've had smoothie. And what's in your smoothie? Strawberries, coconut water, blah, blah. Protein. What kind of protein? Whey protein. Well, there you go. So the dairy thing has been difficult. Way more difficult than I thought. And I'm not even going to say that it makes me feel so much better, but I just don't feel terrible when I'm not eating cheese, having any milk or any dairy at all. But it is difficult. So, I mean, I'm like a third vegan at this point, and not even on purpose, but that's been a bit of a change in my life. Even if I order like a burger, there are some places that will order Ubereats or Doordash or whichever the service is that can get here the quickest. And they don't offer to take the cheese off the burger. And so it gets here and I've got a fork and I got to scrape the stupid thing off. So that's number one. Number one is my life is a bit different because I don't get to drink milk or use milk and cereal or eat any kind of cheese at all. And that sucks because I love it so much. That's number one on my list of ways that my life has changed in the past four to five months. I was in my therapist's office this past week, and I guess for the few weeks we've been talking about being a perfectionist. I do not consider myself a perfectionist in any way. I have friends that I feel like are perfectionists. I feel like I am the exact opposite of a perfectionist. Now, me feeling that I'm not a perfectionist doesn't mean that I feel like I don't work hard or I'm not tirelessly putting in effort, or I'm not consistently and constantly trying to be better. But to me, perfectionism seems like it would be counter to what I'm trying to accomplish, because I will easily try something I'm not good at, not be deterred if it doesn't go well. I'll just do it again. I'll just do it again. And my goal isn't for it to be perfect because I don't believe there is perfection, actually. But I'm sitting in my therapist's office and mostly it's me trying to figure out how to find just generally happiness or how to be okay with it when I do find it, how to not have guilt about it if I do have it for a second, how to acknowledge it Before I start assigning other thoughts to. Well, I don't think I'm going to be happy very long, so I better get ready or. Well, this went pretty well, but if I don't start killing myself now, it's never going to go well again. So I think it's kind of just like sitting inside of happiness. And so I like to read. I don't like to be the person that talks a lot about liking to read because those people tend to be annoying. Not people that read, but people that always talk about how much they read. I don't even mind people talking about great books they have read and passing them along. But it's the people that always want to talk about how much they read or how often they read that annoy me a little bit because I feel like they're only saying that because they want you to know that it's like the person with the big fake library in their house and they got all these books and, you know, they didn't read any of that crap. Or it's like the person that does CrossFit and has to tell you all about it. Or it's like the person that is a new vegan. I would say dairy, but I'm only a third vegan. I don't talk about it much, but I'm telling you, it has helped me a ton as far as like not having to be in the bathroom for an hour because I'd go to the bathroom for an hour and nothing would happen. It just felt like I needed to go to the bathroom. But I'm telling you, it wasn't like I was in the bathroom for an hour and I would be in there and bathrooming would be happening. There'd be no bathroom happening anyway. Off dairy. Off dairy for the most part. What I haven't tried, though, is the lactaid. I don't feel that I've been in a place long enough because if I'm going to eat dairy and tempt lactaid, I need to be somewhere that I'm comfortable if all doesn't go right, you know what I'm saying? Because when I was having big stomach and digestion issues, I had tubes everywhere. Like I thought I was sick. I thought something was broken inside of me. So I had the old tube up the butt. The colonoscopy, I had the other one, the endoscopy. They're looking at different things, but they're both oscopies. So not comfortable. Then you got to do the thing the day before where you don't eat, but then you drink like super soaker liquid. I'm not even sure what it is. And then I go to the doctor and he's like, man, you got the colonoscopy or the colon of a 9 year old? He actually didn't say that, but he was like, yeah, you look great. And so I framed up that picture. Picture of my colon in a frame with a heart over it that says Nashville right next to my bed. And it's like, well, if there's nothing wrong with me inside, then what's wrong with me? This is me getting back to therapy. And there's very much stress induced digestive issues. And you may have heard me talk before about stress. I don't feel stressed. Not that I don't feel stress as in I'm a superhero. I feel no stress. I generally don't feel that I am a stressed person because I feel that anything I need to do, I will just do. Anything that I am not able to do that I need to do it, I will figure out how to do it. And if I can't figure out how to do it and do it unsuccessfully, I will then, after unsuccessfully doing it, figure out how to do it better until I do it right. I'm not stressed out about that stuff. Like, I feel that I have no stress now. It's different whenever there are personal things that happen in your life. And there have been personal things that have happened in my life in the past couple of years that have been pretty traumatic. There have been two really severe situations that I haven't fully been able to acknowledge on the air. At some point I will, but it's a timing thing and I cannot yet for different reasons. But personally, I've had two very severe traumatic things happen in my direct circle. One involving me, one not involving me. And I think that stress is different. I'm talking about day to day stress. Now I have a staff of 15 people. Do I worry that my performance will not be quality enough for them to keep their jobs? At times I do worry about that. Because I got to be honest with you, if I go down, the whole ship goes down. That's the truth of it. I know that. So if I'm not performing at my highest and the show doesn't perform at its highest, I got a lot of people that are scurrying. And these are my people. If you know my show, you know that I've hired my people from my life. You know the radio show. Amy's been there for 20 years. I was talking to Somebody the other day about how long everybody's been with me, and they were blown away. I forget sometimes that it is abnormal to have people with you for that long. Amy and lunchbox are about 20 years. I mean, Eddie and I have been friends for just about that amount of time, but we've been working together on the show for 13 or 14. Ray, same thing. 13, 14 years. Mike D. In one capacity or the other. 12, 13, 14 years. Even Morgan, who came along way late, is now a decade in. And it's funny when people will comment on the environment of the show or, like, go after me or go after someone on the show, like, it's just so toxic. If it were toxic, do you think people would be around for 20 years, for 10 years? Like, there are things we do because we're close and we're able to rib each other, give each other a hard time. We're even able to cross the line a little bit because we know if we do accidentally cross the line, we have enough invested in the years that it ain't going to sink the ship. And so when people are always like, this person doesn't like this person, or they don't get along or they're fighting or I hate how they treat whomever, I do find that to be a bit comedic because if the culture was bad, you wouldn't have people there for 20 years or 15 years or 10 years, which is like the lowest. I think our lowest person is probably Scuba. And Scuba came over from Seacrest after a few years. Scuba's probably been there almost 10 years. So that just doesn't happen. Right. Like, I really take pride in the environment that I create. I hold myself to a very, very, very, very high standard, and I hold everybody else to a high standard, and I hold everybody else to have accountability to the other people in the room. And on the show, everybody's not going to be on every day, but you got to show up on time every single time. Now, how this all gets back to stress and perfectionism is that I don't feel stress, except I do. I did talk about this on the show recently. I didn't know that I felt stress. And you may be having some of these same feelings, except you're not feeling them like I don't. And you may not know it like I don't. And what I would say is, through a lot of therapy, when I am not a therapy kid, didn't have therapy, obviously, as a kid, didn't have any money, didn't go to therapy, didn't start Therapy until I was an adult, got insurance. It's probably like 25 or 26. And I was like, for 20 bucks, I can go to therapy. I can go to sit in a room with a shrink, because that's what they would call them on television. I could sit in the room with a shrink and just say stuff, and they'll give me advice. And it literally was going to be for a bit. And about the third time I went, I was actually getting feedback. And then I just kept going. And then I started to realize, how excellent is it to have somebody that has no bias giving you feedback? It doesn't mean they're right every time. They're not even trying to be right. I think that's one of my favorite things about therapy. Therapists aren't trying to be right. They're not calling a play. It's not third and six, and they're running a slant. And turns out you shouldn't run the slant because the corners were on the inside. You had no leverage, and you're like, well, that was a bad play to call. No, they're not. They're actually. Therapy is setting you up to make the right decisions or just to have the right tools to make decisions. So. And I've talked about it, been a big therapy guy. But the stress part, as I've learned, is that I have, since possibly even birth, lived under a certain amount of stress that comes with survival. I don't feel it now. I do at times when it manifests itself in weird ways. But when I talk about stress, stress feels different, is like an omnipresent force that when it presents itself, you're like, oh, yeah, stress, not a big thing at work, stressed out. I don't have that. Except what I have learned is that I live within that because I've never been out of that, which is why I don't know how to relax, which is why I don't have favorite place to go for vacation, which is why I don't like vacation. And I should say, it's not that I don't like vacation. I just don't like vacation. I think there's a difference. I don't dislike vacation, but I don't like vacation. I have no relationship with whatever vacation is because my entire life, I'm not even talking about wah wah was poor. I'm not even talking about that. Once I started working, I was at 105.9 klaz and I was making what, like seven bucks an hour? I doubt that. And I would get a week off I would use that time to fill it with what I didn't have enough time to do in other parts of work because, again, I had to pay whatever the rent was, whatever the car insurance was, whatever. And a lot of people have to do that. It's not even like a rare thing. But I never had a relationship with it because I never went on a vacation as a kid. And then when I became an adult and there was time for vacation, there was no real surplus of a couple hundred bucks to go on a vacation, nor did I know what I wanted to do on vacation, nor did I have anybody to do it with.
