Jim Kwik (12:03)
Yeah. And I'll build up. Just the 30 seconds before that I mentioned I had an accident when I was five years old, a very bad fall in kindergarten class. I went headfirst into an iron grade radiator. And that's where I became very shut down. My parents said Before, I was very energized and very curious, very playful. But I just emotionally, socially, just isolated myself. I mentioned the migraines and the sensory balance issues. I was never picked for sports, ever. I was always the last one that a team had to have. And. And when I was. Took me three years longer to learn how to read, which I mentioned when I was nine years old, I had processing issues, so teachers would have to repeat themselves over and over again in order for me to understand. And I was being teased one day more than others other days. And the teacher came to my defense. She pointed to me and said, leave that kid alone. That's the boy with the broken brain. And, you know, I didn't know I was broken. And adults have to be very careful of their external words because they often become a child's internal words, right? And so that label became my limit. So every single time I did badly in school, I would say, oh, because I had the broken brain. Wasn't good for sports. I had a broken brain. So that. That was tough. But because of it, my superpower. I talk about superpowers a lot, mostly because I got exposed to comic books, and they. They taught me how to read something about the illustrations. It just kind of bypassed and helped me understand in my learning language. And superheroes offer hope and help, and one person can make a difference. I loved all those themes, right? And I would escape in those comic books because I was in a lot of pain. You know, my parents, they immigrated to the United States, and my dad lost both his parents at 13, couldn't afford to feed them. We live in the back of a laundromat that my mom worked out, and everybody has their own story. For me, that was like, superheroes just was my. My escape and my inspiration. But going back to that, my superpower growing up was being invisible. Like, even talking about it, I could feel it in my voice. Like, I would compress myself so small, punch my shoulders in, collapse my diaphragm, because I didn't want to take up a lot of space because I never wanted to be called on in class, right? Because I never knew the answer. And I would always, like, sit behind a tall kid. I would get sick before every quiz or test. I would be sent to the nurse's office. And it wasn't just, like. It was just. It was a big challenge. And so I. My superpowers was being invisible. But because of it, I would just watch people, and I would be able to detect suffering because I know what it feels like. And also, I Wanted to be very quiet because I didn't want to be bullied, you know, that day or, you know, picked on. And so this is every day through school. It was elementary school, middle school, junior high, in high school, what you're referring to is I was failing high school English, and they called my parents in. And that was so embarrassing because I'm the oldest of three siblings. I want to be a good role model. My parents, they sacrifice a lot, had many jobs. That's probably why I had so many head injuries as a child. I wasn't very well supervised and. But I was so much pressure. And in this, you know, with the teacher, my parents, me, she was explaining to me, to my parents how I was just. I was going to fail. And I begged her to be able to give me a second chance, give me some kind of opportunity to make up for it, because I was very hardworking. That was the frustrating part. I would work three times harder than everyone. I mean, that was, you know, how I was raised. But I couldn't keep up. And so she offered to give me extra credit to do a book report on Albert Einstein. And, you know, pretty smart guy. And I was like, I'm going to do this. I'm going to. I'm going to show this class, the teacher, my parents, that I'm worth this. So every day after school, I would go to the library. This is before Internet, right. And I would spend hours there. And so after doing that for weeks, I was so proud of this final product because I just did so much. I found out, by the way, Einstein had his own set of learning challenges, right? And he learned differently than people around him. And so that gave me inspiration. But the day it was due Ed, my parents surprised me and had it professionally bound. And when I saw it, I was just so excited to hand it in. And throughout class, class wasn't until later in the day, all I was thinking about was handing this piece in to the teacher. And class comes towards the end of the class, I can't wait to hand it in. The teacher says, okay, class, we have a surprise for all of you. You, Jim, come to the front of the class and give your book report now. I didn't know I had to speak on this book report. I was just. I just thought I had to write it and be able to turn in and get my extra credit. And. And I was so scared. It's not like, I know public speaking is a big fear for everyone, but I'm phobe. I was phobic, so I couldn't breathe like my heart's beating out of my chest and I'm shaking, panicking, and I spit out, I lied. I said I didn't do it to the teacher in front of the whole class. And you could see her disappointment there also as well. And after the class ended, I was the only one there. And I remember it's like it was yesterday. I'm getting choked up even thinking about it, getting up from my desk, walking over to the doorway, and on the way out, I reach into my book bag. I took out the professionally bound book report and I threw it in the trash that was sitting, you know, by the doorway. And I think I felt like I was throwing out, I don't know, hope, my potential, my worth. And that that was kind of the place I lived in. A lot of self doubt, a lot of embarrassment, shame, fears. And it's. It's funny though, right? Because, Ed, my two biggest challenges growing up were learning and public speaking.