Daniel Cormier (145:14)
Okay. I just come up with stories and shit in my head. But anyways, so I did my own hero's journey during that time when I was trying to eliminate all of the egos inside of me. And the easiest way to identify one of your egos is to ask yourself, what is it that you feel like you desire? You know, that's why I think in Buddhist philosophy and all of that stuff, it's always like, let go of attachments, let go of your desires, and that will lead. Like, just good shit will happen if you do that. And I was like, okay, cool, I'll buy into that a little bit. So I tried to identify all of these egos that were inside of me. I even went as far as naming all of them and giving them characteristics and personalities. Like, when I would notice an angry person inside of me, I would just name it Samson, give it a tiger's face, and, like, just treat it as a completely separate, imaginative piece of my psyche that I no longer wanted to be attached with anymore. Which is an idea that I came up with myself at the time. But it's an old idea. There's a really good book called Taming youg Gremlins. If anyone wants to look into that idea more. That guy does a really good job of doing that. So anyways, I started going through, like, my hero's journey. And I spend a lot of time, like, meditating a decent amount, but not just, like, normal meditating, like, fucking around in my own head type of meditating and just seeing what type of unconscious things are kind of below the surface of My everyday, like, Corey me. And so. So I'm walking myself through, like, okay, what is this? What are all of these things inside me? Or what are these desires that are inside me? I would name them, I would turn them into a monster, and I would kill the monster. And then at the very end of this story, and I'm like crying during this process when I was doing it or whatever. In the hero's journey, a lot of the time you have a mentor, like a Yoda. You have this thing that kind of guides you through how to defeat all these monsters and all of it. So I get to the end of my story and one part that they never really bring up in heroic stories is the return back home, which is a really big deal. Like, you've just eliminated all of this stuff and now you got to return back home. So I'm getting ready to return back home. And my mentor at the time, because I did grow up really religious, it was Jesus at the time where, like, Jesus was my homie at the time, you know, he was like this guy. And so we get done defeating all of these monsters and we're sitting at the cliff and it's like, okay, time to go home. And he's like, hey, man, like, you got one more monster to defeat. And I was like, well, what is it? And he was like, me? And I was like, what are you talking about? And he was like, man, like, I'm the last thing that you're attached to. Like, in order for you to continue on, I'm the thing that you got to defeat. And I was like, well, what does that mean, dude, I'm not about to stab you, bro. You know? And he was like, you have to push me. And I was like, push you off the cliff. He was like, you have to let go of me the same way that you let go of all of your other desires and fears and things inside of you too, if you really want to do it. And so I'm like, balling crying because that's. That was like a big. Like, that was a big thing. So I do it and Jesus falls. But then he grows wings, flies away, and says to me, now you can be like me. And then just flies off into the whatever. And then I return back home and I just remember that being a really big moment for me in my. I don't like to use the word spiritual because it sounds stupid. Stupid, but that was like a big deal for me in my development as a person because it really, like, made me understand and they weren't things that I was planning out. They were just unconscious things that were hitting me, like, over and over and over again. I found that through hypnosis and through, like, trying to see what's underneath things. You can't talk to it, you can't tell it what to do. You can't control your unconscious. You just have to watch what's underneath there. So it's just like a thing where. Where it's like, now I get to be like. You was like, a really cool thing that just, like, popped into my head. And I was like, well, shit, that's cool.
