Transcript
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This is an I heart podcast. I'm the homegirl that knows a little.
B (0:07)
Bit about everything and everybody, you know, she don't lie about that, right?
A (0:12)
Lauren came in hot. Hey, y', all.
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It's Lauren LaRosa. And this is the latest with Lauren LaRosa, your daily dig on all things.
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Pop culture, entertainment news.
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I bring y' all some exclusives, but.
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Y' all know we get into those.
B (0:27)
Conversations that shake the room behind the scenes of the grind, checking in. I am right now in a space of just trying to figure out things as the eldest daughter in a family. I. I've been thinking a lot. You know, I spent time with my family. I told you guys, for. For July weekend, this weekend that just passed, I also did the same thing. And I don't know any eldest daughters who think that they're, you know, their immediate family's manager or just oldest child in general. If y' all are hearing me, you know, if y' all are listening, y' all know my pain. Y' all know the struggle. It's just a very different feeling watching your. Your parents and the people that you love get older. And seeing my mother and my grandmother age has been, you know, it's. It's a blessing to be able to see it and to be here with them and for them to still be here with me to do it. But at the same time, I've been having so much anxiety, like, to the point where, like, sleep is messed up and everything, just behind feeling like it's getting to a point where I want my mom and my grandmother to live with me, and I just wasn't ready for that.
A (1:38)
So I'm trying to figure all that out.
B (1:39)
Like, you know. You know, if you want to as an older child, oldest child in the family who's used to solving problems, you want to figure it all out all in 24 hours, to be honest with you. But things just don't work like that. So that's been something that, you know and that I've been dealing with. If I'm just being honest and I'm checking in for real. For real. Because I told y' all in the beginning, if I ask you how you feel on this podcast or if y' all are, you know, behind the scenes of the grind, checking in with me, y' all got to tell me how y' all really feel. So that is what I'm doing right now. So, yes, if I'm being honest, I am still dealing with, like, some anxiety. Maybe it's a guilt, too, of, like, you Know, having to be away so much, having to be pulled in so many directions, having to be people exhausted by the end of my day to the point where sometimes I. I don't even, like, have the bandwidth to sit on the phone with family the way that I. I normally do. And if I do, I'm just not as engaged as I would be. It's a very weird space to be in. It's a new space for me to be in. So I'm just figuring that out. And I don't really know if there's much to figure. There are certain things that I could physically do, but I think this is one of those things where you just go through it and you do the best you can and then you create a new normal. So that's where I'm at. I'm in the midst of, you know, a little bit of anxiety about that, but also creating a new normal so I can get away from this anxious feeling of like, oh, my God, I feel guilty because of, you know, whatever I'm not able to do at the moment. So that's where I've been.
