The Moth Podcast: "Jon Levin: Elevator ER"

Host Introduction

In the December 22, 2008 episode of The Moth titled "Jon Levin: Elevator ER," storyteller John Levin shares a transformative experience from his time working as a nursing assistant at Massachusetts General Hospital. This gripping narrative delves into themes of personal growth, responsibility, and the profound impact of unexpected events.

Background: From Dropout to Nursing Assistant

John Levin begins by painting a picture of his early life, describing himself as a "bright, happy, enthusiastic kid" (00:46). However, circumstances led him down a darker path, culminating in him becoming a "sullen, disaffected high school dropout." This phase of his life was marked by disillusionment, prompting him to test his way into Boston University before ultimately dropping out.

At 21, in 1990, Levin found himself seeking employment, not out of altruism but necessity: "I was only doing it because the job paid really well, $9 an hour, which was $3 an hour more than the job I had been doing working in a supermarket" (02:00). Securing a position as a nursing assistant on the night shift at Massachusetts General Hospital, he describes his role as primarily transporting patients to surgery under less controlled and more chaotic conditions compared to the day shift.

Life on the Night Shift: A Monotonous Routine

Levin's description of his nightly duties underscores a sense of detachment and routine. "I didn't see them so much as human beings... more like... packages that needed to be delivered to a specific room as efficiently as possible" (05:20). The patients varied widely, from a high school teacher fearing paralysis to individuals suffering from violent injuries. Interaction with patients was minimal unless they were awake and required reassurance.

One memorable interaction involved a patient named Alexander, a high school teacher concerned about his ability to teach if injured. Levin attempts to comfort him, stating, "Anyone who's only concerned about his students at a time like this is probably so dedicated to teaching that nothing will stand in his way" (09:15). This encounter, although initially superficial, plants a seed that will later influence Levin's personal journey.

The Elevator Incident: A Night of Crisis

The pivotal moment in Levin's story occurs three months into his job. Late one night, an ICU patient named Mr. Williams suffers complications post-surgery, necessitating an urgent transport back to the ICU. Levin, alongside Melissa, a young and nervous nursing student, is tasked with moving Mr. Williams in a heavily equipped ICU bed.

As they board an old, unreliable elevator, things take a dire turn. "The elevator arrived... and then the lights go out" (12:30). The descent is unnervingly fast, and the elevator halts abruptly, trapping them in darkness. Mr. Williams' heart stops, and the situation becomes life-threatening.

Faced with imminent danger, Levin recounts his shift from panic to action: "Denial and anger quickly gave way to, in this case, bargaining... But reality set in... I had to kind of get in the game here" (15:00). Utilizing his CPR training, he coordinates with Melissa to stabilize Mr. Williams, demonstrating remarkable composure under pressure.

Despite their efforts, the elevator malfunctions again, sending them careening until two members of the cleaning crew, Mr. Selwyn and Mr. Guppy, arrive to assist. Their combined efforts finally free them from the elevator's grip, but not before Levin and Melissa experience intense physical and emotional strain.

Aftermath: Recognition and Personal Growth

Once freed, the surgical team promptly takes over, saving Mr. Williams' life. Levin reflects on the moment: "It took me a really long time to recognize that I enjoyed what I did and enjoyed caring about it" (19:10). This life-threatening incident becomes a catalyst for his personal transformation, reshaping his outlook on work and self-worth.

When Levin briefly meets his boss after the ordeal, the minimal praise he receives surprises him: "Part of me was disappointed that that was the extent of the praise I received" (19:20). This interaction highlights Levin's newfound sense of pride and the internal shift from indifference to genuine care and responsibility.

Conclusion: A Story Worth Remembering

John Levin's "Elevator ER" is not just a tale of a harrowing night at a hospital but also a profound journey of self-discovery. Through adversity, Levin uncovers a latent passion for helping others, challenging his previous nihilistic worldview. This episode exemplifies The Moth's mission to share authentic, impactful stories that resonate deeply with listeners.

Notable Quotes

• John Levin on Motivation for the Job: "I was only doing it because the job paid really well, $9 an hour, which was $3 an hour more than the job I had been doing working in a supermarket" (02:00).

• On Viewing Patients as Transactions: "I didn't see them so much as human beings... more like... packages that needed to be delivered to a specific room as efficiently as possible" (05:20).

• Levin Reflecting on Personal Growth: "It took me a really long time to recognize that I enjoyed what I did and enjoyed caring about it" (19:10).

• Disappointment in Minimal Praise: "Part of me was disappointed that that was the extent of the praise I received" (19:20).

Final Thoughts

John Levin's narrative is a testament to the unpredictable nature of life and the potential for unexpected events to catalyze significant personal change. His experience in the "Elevator ER" serves as a powerful reminder of the capacity for resilience and the importance of finding meaning in one's work and interactions.

About John Levin

At the time of this podcast, John Levin was working on a satirical memoir while engaging in the television industry in New York City. His story underscores the profound impact that a single night can have on one's perspective and career trajectory.

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