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Focus features in Blumhouse Obsession. When I have a crush on a guy no one knows, Be careful. I wish Nikki loved me more than anyone in the entire world. Who you wish for? Obsession is 96% fresh on rotten Tomatoes. I love you so so so so much. It's blood soaked nightmare fuel. What kind of spills you put on her? You have been warned. Obsession. Rated R under 17 animated without parent only theaters May 15 with special engagements in Dolby. Ready to soundtrack your summer with Red Bull Summer all day Play. You choose a playlist that fits your summer vibe the best. Are you a festival fanatic, a deep end dj, a road dog, or a trail mixer? Just add a song to your chosen playlist and put your summer on track. Red Bull Summer all day Play. Red Bull gives you wings. Visit red bull.com brightsummerahead to learn more. See you this summer. Every single person who's ever told you that you're not enough or you're too much was just telling you about their capacity, baby, not yours. You were never too much. You were just around people who didn't have enough room for you. And now you're walking around like their opinion lives in your body like it's yours. It wasn't and it never fucking was. I want to take a quick second to say happy 200th episode, you guys. Oh my God. Thanks, tech guy. Guys, we did it. Two hundred and many more. Thank you guys for being part of this journey and thank you for being a very sweet addition to my life. Pun intended maybe. But we're in this together and I am so fucking grateful for you guys. Thank you to 200 and let's go to 200 more. Hello, hello, hello and welcome to another episode of the Sabrina Zohar show. The 200th episode to be exact. You guys, I am your host, Sabrina Zohar and welcome to the show. You guys, this is a really special episode. Episode, the 200th to be exact. And I am so excited. I thought a lot about what this one should be and I kept coming back to the question I get asked more than anything. More than attachment, more than dating, more than breakups, how do I actually believe I'm enough? How do I stop feeling like I'm the problem? And how the do I trust myself? So today we're talking about where insecurity actually comes from. Why just have more confidence is total advice. And what the research says about building self worth that doesn't collapse every single time someone rejects you. There was a tool of the week at the end you betcha, baby. And please stick around, guys, as always, don't forget to rate and review the show. Share it with a friend. It really is the only way that we can truly grow the community. The book is on pre sale. Why am I like this? Available on Amazon. Guys, I'm so excited. I couldn't be more grateful and honored. If there's a photo, yay, we have the COVID by now. And if not, don't worry, the COVID will be there soon. So please pre order save a screenshot. You guys are going to get a free course as a thank you. But this is the only way to grow the book, to grow the community. And I again am learning to ask for what I need from you guys. Guys. And all I ask back is just be here, please, please engage in the community. Be part of this and be the change you wish to see. Right? As cheesy as that sounds. But I'm just so grateful for you guys. I can't believe that we have done 200 of these and I can't wait to see what 200 more look like. All right, babies, without further ado, let's get right on into it, shall we? And guys, I always forget to say, if you want ad free, feel free. The ads are one of my favorite parts of the show because they're all brands that I get to actually use and engage with and only give you guys things that I think would make sense. And if you guys want ad free, feel free. You could work one on one join course. We got the foundation course, we have the going slow course, or just be here. I always like to share with you guys because you'd be shocked how many DMS I get on the Sabrina Zohar show. Go follow that asking if I do all of these things. So please note, I'm just letting you guys know before we get on into the episode and have some time together. And welcome to a little bit more of an intimate set. We're really trying to build a community of safety, of feeling like you're home with me. And we're just fucking kicking it like two friends hanging out. And the reason I chose this episode as the theme for the 200th episode is because I couldn't think of anything more that I personally struggle with than feeling like I'm enough, than feeling like there's nothing wrong with me and I'm not this damaged. Good. A lot of you guys are new and a lot of you guys have been here. So let's go down and walk quickly on Memory Lane of I started this show because I was a hot mess. I was the girl sleeping her way through the city. I was the girl that felt really low about herself. And as I started to do the work and really start to realize, like, I am more than this, I have more to offer than this, and I deserve more than somebody who's choosing me like an option and not the fucking choice. When I shifted and really shifted the way that I saw things, my entire life started to change. And I started this podcast and this community because I didn't want to feel alone anymore. I didn't want you to feel alone as well. And I knew that other people out there had to feel what I was feeling. It couldn't just be me. And boy, oh boy, was I right. And I think what I've learned along the way is like, I'm not too much. Maybe my behavior might be maybe the anxiety that I have in moments. Maybe the way that I can show up is what absolutely right. Like, we can always improve and grow, but who you are fundamentally is beautiful and deserving and worthy. And baby, I need you to see that. I need you to believe that if you want to see your life change. And that is the biggest reframe that changed my fucking life instead of you'll believe it when you see it. No, baby, you'll see it when you believe it. When you genuinely believe that you are worthy and deserving and that nothing is not for you and that everything that's in your life is meant to fucking be in your life, then your life will change. But start fucking showing up as that. Stop allowing people to waste your fucking time and then wonder why you're feeling empty and depleted after because who's there for you? And I really wanted to talk about that self worth component and showing up for yourself. Self love doesn't mean bulbas and face masks. It means validating yourself. It means showing up for yourself. It means how you speak to yourself matters. And if you're not showing up for you in the way that you needed someone to show up for you as a kid, then you're just perpetuating the same behavior that was taught to you in childhood and now you're doing that in your adult lives. And then you can't be shocked when you're not getting the relationship relationships you deserve. Because how are you showing up in order to receive that? Your insecurity is not a character flaw. It does not mean there's something wrong with you. It's an adaptation. Because somewhere along the way someone taught you that who you are is a problem and you believed it. It's not because you're stupid. It was because you're a fucking child. Or because maybe you were in love. Or because the person telling you had the authority in your life and that belief became the lens in which you see everything through. Growing up, my father reminded us often that he loved us. But that was conditional, right? He loved you when you were behaving well. He loved you when you were doing something well. He loved you when you weren't rocking the boat. But the second you had a need or an opinion, that's it. You're too much. Here we go again. Sabrina, always causing an issue. Then what happens? I had friends in high school and in middle school and in college and everything that came after that consistently treated me in the same fucking way. Because I was in a loop. Because being myself has always been the problem. How could that suddenly now be the solution? And that was a moment I had in therapy where I had to stop and say, wait a minute, could it have all been my fault? No, it couldn't. No matter what you've experienced in your life right now, it's not all your fault. And that's the perception of control. If I can take full accountability of it, then that means that I could have changed it. And if I could have changed it, then that means I don't have to feel in pain. If I don't have to feel in pain, then great, I won't have to be sad. But that's not how life works. You can't be in control of everything. Trust me. I wish if that's where then all of our lives would be different. You can only control how you show up and what's coming up for you and how much you allow this to impact you. But you can't control how other people. The same with the people that try to change the way I speak get bent. That's what I say consistently. No. And it took me so long. Do you know why boundaries feel so uncomfortable for you to set? It's because somewhere along the way, someone taught you that having boundaries meant that you were going to lose them, that this wasn't safe, and that there's something wrong with you for saying no. And now as an adult, you get to work through that and say, I do have needs. No is a complete sentence. And I'm not going to let somebody who didn't have the bandwidth and the capacity in my childhood to dictate who the I am and to control the rest of my fucking life in the way that they did when I was a kid. So if somebody had asked how to feel self worth in your body and not only know it intellectually, and this is the crux of so much of the meat and potatoes, you can intellectually understand, sure, I'm worthy and deserving of this. No, I'm not a child anymore. But your conscious is about 3 to 5%. Your subconscious is about 95 to 98% of your thoughts. 97% if we're going to be argument's sake. So it lives in your nervous system. You can tell yourself that you are worthy all day, but if your body is consistently bracing for rejection, your body is going to win every, every time. It's again, you're not lacking information. That's why when you say why did they do this and why did they do that? Okay, the why questions are keeping you from the deeper root here. And the deeper root here is I'm in pain. I feel like I feel discarded and dismissed and I feel like I'm not good enough and that no one's ever going to choose me. That's the real answer. And all this person was doing was slapping a band aid on that because you had the perception that you were being chosen. And now that you don't have them, you're trying to ask all these why questions to avoid feeling the pain. But the reality is you won't get over it unless you do. You will not move forward unless you allow yourself to feel it. The embodiment. The only way to embody it is to do the that scares you and not die. Confidence doesn't come after you act. It comes before you don't feel confident. And that's how you can suddenly do everything. When I first started 200th episode, that's why we're talking about this. When I first started doing all this, do you think that I felt confident? Not even by a fucking long shot. Whether it would be speaking up to Ryan or ending a friendship, right? Or starting a podcast or creating a TikTok or a reel. Every time I was scared, I used to have panic attacks and cry and freak out if I had to do something. And now I'm like, oh, girl, you've done this before. You've been there. And that's how confidence works. When your body realizes a new lived experience, when you have a new experience so your nervous system can have a corrective experience. Something as simple as someone telling you you look pretty, maybe you've never received a compliment before. That's real. Compliments can be really hard to receive. They go against your core beliefs. So somebody telling you, wow, you're so pretty, instead of saying thank you and sitting in that. Oh, God, no. I threw this on today. My sister gave me this shirt. It's not mine. We always come up with something instead of it because that's safer versus saying, no, this is what I want and need. And then after going, oh, I didn't die. Oh, I'm still here. Oh, I'm fine. I'm okay. That doesn't mean there's anything wrong. I'm not unsafe just because I have a. I. Speak up or have a. That is how you will change. This episode is brought to you by Batch. 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And if I have another day, that means I get another choice. And if I get another choice, that means I can change the future. I can't change the past, but I can change where I'm going. And that's the only control I actually have. So let's get into a study, my babies. So Mark Leary is a social psychologist, and he proposed that your self esteem is not a fixed trait. It's a gauge, like a fuel gauge in your car. So it monitors how accepted or rejected you are by the people around you. Acceptance, it goes up, duh, yay, they like me, right? They like me. They really like me. And then rejection, it drops. And rejection lowers self esteem more than acceptance raises it. So your gauge is more sensitive to the bad than the good. And so if you grew up in a house where rejection was constant, where love was conditional, your gauge was calibrated to expect rejection everywhere. You're not insecure because something is wrong with you, baby. Your gauge was set by people who kept rejecting you. I understand that because my gauge even will laugh. Ryan will joke when somebody says something of like, oh, I love the podcast. Oh my God, I'm obsessed with, with it. And Ryan will laugh and go, her core beliefs won't accept that. Because my social gauge, when I see the negative, I'm like, see, there it is. I knew it, I knew it. That's what I believe about myself. You saw it too, versus you're amazing and I love you. And all these. And you're like, yeah, yeah, whatever, that's fine, it's cool. It's whatever. It's like, yeah, sure, whatever. I'm just here because that goes against how we genuinely believe. And so don't be shocked when getting rejected hits the gauge a lot more than getting accepted. And that's also why getting accepted can feel anticlimactic. That's why 100 people can tell you you're amazing. And one person says something shitty, and that's the one you believe. Your socio meter weighs rejection more heavily than acceptance. And that's not a problem about you, baby. That's a calibration issue. So someone had asked how to not be insecure when every man I've cared about said, I'm not good enough. The harsh reality is that you went for them because they activated that wound. Every man reinforced the original calibration. Every rejection didn't just hurt in the moment. It confirmed the belief that was already there. See, they figured it out too. There's Something wrong with me. But there isn't. Your gauge just keeps getting data that matches the original setting. And the work isn't convincing yourself that you're enough. It's to recalibrate the gauge by surrounding yourself with people who give it different data. And also, if you guys are wondering, wait a minute, how are we writing into the show? How. How am I getting my questions at the Sabrina Zohar show? I do question boxes on Insta. Go follow along. There's also TikTok if you want Sabrina Zohar or on our YouTube, right here, Sabrina underscore Zohar. I am everywhere, baby. So if you guys want to integrate and actually be part of the community, you can either write it into in the trenches@sabrinazoar.com or you can write it into the question boxes when I do them. So that's the fun of being part of the community is I get to be able to help you guys in a different way. Which is also why I'm actually building a membership out so that we get some community together that you guys can be part of something every month. So stay tuned, it's on its way. But for now, thank you for being here on the podcast and thanks for pre ordering my book. It's called why am I like this? You guys are gonna hear about it so much, you're gonna fucking hit me over the head with it when it comes out. I can't wait. Okay, let's get back to it. My shameless plug. How do you stop letting what they think about who you are get to you? So an example was my ex calling me toxic. The thing is that your behavior might have been toxic. And that's okay. We want to be able to separate between was it my behavior? Because maybe there is some truth there. Maybe they were right saying you asked to have my location. Every time I said something, you screamed at me. You didn't allow me to speak. Right. Maybe there is validity to what they're saying, that there are traits. Now the other side of the coin is that we have to look and say, am I taking accountability and ownership of what's mine to take? If they're calling you toxic because you asked to have a conversation with them, right then that sounds like deflection election, that they don't actually want to take any ownerships and it's not actually about you, but if you can stop and say, oh yeah, I text them 173 times, maybe that was a little toxic, then that's you just taking accountability and ownership of your life in the way that you can right. Of saying, yeah, that is my part in it, and that's okay. And your sociometer treats their opinion as data. It doesn't know the difference between someone who knows you deeply and someone projecting their. So it just registers. They devalued me and your self esteem dropped. So the work is learning to filter whose opinion gets to calibrate your gauge. And again, we do all of this in the Healthy Dating foundation course to help you understand your North Star. So if you guys want more, everything's gonna be in the link in bio, in this, in the show notes. But it's also about knowing. Right? It's the same thing you guys will ask me all the time, like, how do you have your self esteem? How do you have the confidence? Because I've stood up enough to bullies. Yeah, I've lost when I've told people like, if you don't like this, then find another show. And they attack me. And you're like, okay, so that's one person I don't get to keep. But then there's a. That validate and accept me for who I am. So then I'm holding on to somebody that doesn't. No wonder my self esteem is taking a hit. All right? And I get it. The standard advice for insecurity is build your self esteem, love yourself more, affirm yourself. And there's a problem with that that nobody talks about. So Neff and Vonk did a study in 2009 that's a mouthful over 2000 participants comparing self esteem and self compassion. Self esteem is contingent. It goes up when things go well and comes crashing down when they don't. Only as stable as your last success. Okay, that I can understand. Right? Self compassion, though, predicted more stable feelings of self worth that were less contingent on outcomes. Stronger negative predictor of social comparison, self rumination and public self consciousness. And self esteem was positively associated with narcissism. Self compassion was not at all. So the things we've all been chasing, right? Higher. Self esteem is unstable by design because it fluctuates based by whether people approve of you. But self compassion, being kind to yourself in the mess, recognizing that you're a human and letting painful pass without becoming it, that predicts resilience that doesn't collapse when someone rejects you. And that's why I always say we got to look at how we're talking to ourselves. Are you talking to yourself in the same way people talk to you as a kid? Are you putting yourself down, telling yourself that you're an Idiot. Calling yourself names. And then you wonder why you're attracting people that do the same thing, that don't respect you, that don't care about you. Because look at how you're showing up. And if you're going to sit there and talk to you, how the are you going to accept anything different? It's going to be really tough because you don't believe that you're worthy and deserving. That on a fundamental core level, if you did, you wouldn't talk to yourself like that. Would you talk to your friend like that? Probably not. If you went to a friend and told them that they were stupid and they're an idiot and they can't do anything right, do you think they'd still want to be friends with you? Doubtful. So then why the are you talking to yourself like that? Shame. I don't think it has to be erased from society, but I think we need to stop shaming ourselves. You've been doing that enough. You've been shaming yourself for so long, you don't even know which way is up and down. So instead of showing yourself all the shame and blame which you can't control, try showing yourself an iota of compassion and start to see how your life changes and start to see how sick and tired of you get other people that are talking to you in any other way. This episode is brought to you by Tumble Guys. When I had Clemmie, it was so hard for me to find a rug that was not going to be an issue for having a dog, whether that be spill resistant. 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I'm not enough doesn't feel like a belief. It feels like the truth. The way you know it's a belief and not reality. You learned it. It has an origin story. You can trace it back. Facts don't have origin stories. Right. Your name is a fact. I'm unlovable is a belief someone gave you that you never returned. So we want to start to look Again, where did I learn this from? Oh, in school. I was always told that I wasn't pretty. No. God, nobody ever liked me. Nobody picked me. Oh, okay. That. Yeah, I learned that in childhood that I wasn't good enough, that nobody ever was going to. Okay. So then no wonder I'm choosing that in my adult life. So a core belief is something that you believe as fact. You know what my core belief has been? And it still rears its ugly head. Everyone else can have it but me. So for me, it was the healthy relationship. Everyone else can have the happy and healthy relationship but me with my career. No, everybody else gets success, not me. It was always that other people were going to get it, but not. Not Zohar. Zohar doesn't get it. Zohar doesn't receive that. Zohar just takes what she can get. She has to earn for it and work for. I was taught that because if maybe I had had two caregivers that taught me that who I am was enough and that I don't have to earn it and I don't have to work for it and I don't have to do anything. I just have to show up and I receive, I'd probably be in a different place right now. Who knows? I may not have met you guys, right? Isn't that the harsh reality? But what I've learned in 200 episodes of doing this is the stuff that you think is going to do well, probably won't, and the stuff that you don't think is going to do well, probably won't. Will. And that I've tried. I'll be honest with you guys. In the 200 episodes, I've cried a lot. Not just with you. I have sat down for hours trying to say, but I need to make it what they want. And how are they going to like it? And will they? And will they? And I totally lost myself. I lost. What made this so fun and special was being me. Now, of course, you know what my other core belief was? People don't come for me. And was that validated? Yeah, kind of. Right. When I had a show with a name that people wanted to identify with, I'm doing the work versus I don't know who Sabrina Zaware is. Her. I've had people that'll be flip it and. And walk off because I say something that they don't like, and all of a sudden they're losing their on me. They don't support me. They don't actually show up when I need them. They don't Even engage in any of my content, but they're upset that I don't make what they want. I've gone through that. It's the same in dating when you date people, that it's. Nothing's ever good enough, and you feel like you're always performing, and then you feel depleted at the end of it. And now it's about saying, I'd rather be alone than in bad company. I'd rather fine. If that means that I have a slower success or I don't have the relationship or I don't have the. That's okay. I'm okay with being where I'm at because that means I could be who I am without having to be somebody different. Sonny. I was talking to my client this morning, and he said, people call me intimidating. And he said, do you think I should change the way I speak? Should I maybe not talk about who I am and what I've accomplished in my life to not make them feel intimidated? And I chuckled and I said, but do you want to be with somebody who you can't be yourself around? I said, why do you have to water yourself down in order for them to feel more comfortable? Comfortable? And he laughed, and he was like, you're right. He's like, I've been with so many people that just like me because of who I am or because of what I've accomplished, but not necessarily who I am. And it's like, then show that. Show that. Because, you know, even with me, I get worried sometimes that Ryan's gonna leave me. Not because, oh, there's something wrong with me, because I'm very emotional, and I have high highs and low lows, and I have times where I could cry hysterically. And then I have other moments where I feel really confident and secure with my spirit. And of course, I'm thinking I'm too much. No one's ever going to want to deal with that because I don't want to deal with that. I struggle to deal with it. I struggle to hold space for myself. I struggle to have compassion for the human that I am. I struggle to believe that this is normal and that other people do this, too. Because for so long, I was taught that it wasn't that me having emotions isn't safe. Safe, and that somebody's always going to leave because I'm annoying them with who I am. And so I've had to work on that, saying, you're allowed to take up space, and if that means that person leaves, well, then they weren't meant to be in Your life then. And if they stay, that person probably really fucking loves you. I'm not gonna leave you. Thanks, babe. I don't know if any of you guys heard that, but you do deserve somebody that will see them mess and still love the mess and see the beauty and still love the beauty and see the composed parts and the breaking apart parts and still love you. And that's why I show you guys so much of me. Not just physically, but that's why I show you guys so many different parts of me. And some of you could say, I don't want to see it. And that's okay, you don't have to. But I still get to show it. Even if somebody is not ready to see it. Somebody asked how to build trust that you'll be able to pick the right partner in dating. How do you trust yourself? Well, baby, you build it the same way you build trust with another person. Incrementally, through evidence. I've talked to you guys about the guy I changed the way I dated. Do you think when I kicked him out of the house, I knew what was going to happen? No. In full transparency, I was hoping he was going to turn around and say I made a mistake. I was hoping that he was going to come with this grandiosity and say, I fucked up and I can't let you go. And instead I never heard from him again. Instead, when I reached out to him nine months later to try to see if anything changed, it hadn't. And I'm so grateful I didn't go for it, but. Because what changed was me. What changed was what I was willing to allow. And what changed was how I was showing up, not the other person. And what changed was showing myself that, see, you could do hard things and you're still okay. Because then I met Ryan two months later. And I am so grateful I didn't waste my fucking time with somebody who didn't even call me to let me know that they were in my goddamn city. Make a small promise to yourself and keep it. Listen to your gut once and see what happens. Set a boundary, say no, and don't abandon it. Each time you follow through, your internal trust account builds. You don't trust yourself because you decided to. You trust yourself because you have receipts. And that's again part of that corrective experience. The anxiety versus intuition is this my anxiety. It usually comes with a body sensation and a narrative and the tears and this anxiety, this urgency. Whereas the intuition, pretty calming. It's usually just more relaxed feeling of. I don't Know that just doesn't feel right. I don't know. That's not sitting well with me. Okay, then follow that. You don't have to have all the answers. And we have an entire episode. Is it anxiety, intuition? So feel free. I don't know the exact number, but feel free to go back and listen. But if we're trying to trust yourself, then that means that we have to look at what does it mean when you do to start to find corrective experiences. How did that feel in your body when you were like, oh, I did pick up on that correctly, Right. Ryan and I had had that we got over from something and I would look back and I was like, like. So that's what it felt like at the moment to go, no, it didn't feel right. And we had a conversation about it and it's like, I'm sure even with the guy that I told you guys about, the conventionally handsome guy that I changed the way I dated, when my best friend said, either we're getting played or this is the love of your life. And I said, I have a feeling we're getting played. Because what I realized in that moment was it wasn't this like highly anxious energy. It was actually a calming feeling of this just doesn't feel like how it's supposed to feel. And I just knew it. And it wasn't because it was a self fulfilling prophecy. Yeah. In the sense where he had showed me that from the beginning, the way that he had approached me, the way that he was coming after me, the way that all of this had happened, it just didn't feel authentic. It didn't feel sustainable. And I was right. And that's what I mean by ah, okay. There were signs. So trust that start to learn. When have you been right? Not oh, see, I told you. I'm always right. My gut always knows. It's like, yeah, trail it back, trail it back. To date one. When you picked up on something that you overlooked and then come back and tell me that you don't trust yourself. This episode is sponsored by Better Health. Help. Guys. Did you know that financial stress actually affects far more than your bank accounts? It can take a serious toll on your mental health and relationships. This was a really interesting study. 88 of Americans feel some form of financial stress at the start of 2026. You gotta remember, baby, money worries bring anxiety, sleep disruption and even depression. And that can be really, really hard in a relationship. I mean, I know with me and Ryan, I technically am the breadwinner, right. He works for my company. And so everything starts and stops with me. And that can feel really, really heavy at times and sometime overwhelmed, I'll cry. And having an outlet, especially an amazing therapist that you can work through this with is so important. So that doesn't necessarily always impact your relationship. And that's why I love Better help because they have quality therapists. So Better Help therapists work according to a strict code of conduct and are fully licensed in the US and they have a therapist match commitment so they do all the matching for you. And if you're not happy with your therapist baby, you just press new therapist and they will help you match somebody instantly. Guys, guys, I want you to remember this. You deserve to be happy and healthy and have an amazing relationship with money. And I just need you to believe that baby. So when life feels overwhelming, therapy can help. Sign up again. 10% off@betterhelp.com Sabrina that's betterhelp.com Sabrina we have a question. This one I want to celebrate due to dating as a 32 year old virgin with loose skin post 165 pound weight loss loss. Can we just talk about the fact that you just did one of the hardest things a human being can do. You lost 165 pounds co do all day. I'm clapping, I'm snapping, I'm doing all the things that takes discipline most people will never understand. And baby, the right person is going to see the loose skin and know what it represents. Someone decided to change their life and actually did it. That's the flex. Let's reframe, shift. Sure, I might have anxiety. You know what? I also have a ton of lived experiences that I was that made me who I am. I've got a lot of stories and I've got a lot of humor because that's what trauma will do for you. But I've got a lot more to offer than just the circumstance. I have the person that created the circumstance that created this version of me that survived it all. And so what you do is you don't apologize for who you are. Sure, this is who I am. You don't like it if I'm too much, go find love us. If they can't understand what it takes for you to be so disciplined, to do that and show up for yourself every day, then them if all they want is just a pretty package without realizing how long it takes to get that. How do I stop missing someone who is so bad for me who was really loving and then went cold? You're not missing them. You're Missing the version of them that made you feel okay about yourself, the hot and cold, is intermittent reinforcement. And sometimes they made you feel valuable, sometimes worthless. Intermittent. And reinforcement is the most addictive pattern there is. And it doesn't mean that you're weak for missing them. It means that your brain got hooked on inconsistency and now you get to decide what it is that you're worthy and deserving of and how much more of this you're going to allow. And we'll go. One more question. How to rewire thoughts that it will never happen for me. For now, it hasn't happened for you, baby. That doesn't mean it won't. Add like Mama Zohar always said, for now at the end of every sentence, that feels permanent. For now, I'm single. For now it's hard. For now gives your brain permission to believe things can change. Can I just show you? Where did I start? Where I started was in my kitchen with a phallic ass looking mic. No money at all. I didn't even know if I was going to be able to pay rent that month. And a dream and a goal. And I remember I launched the podcast and I had somebody reach out and say I wanted to work with you. And I had three people book with me in the first month. And I called my mom and I said if I continue at this rate, I could pay rent next month. And I booked out the next month. And the show was growing because I believed I could do it. And along the way, I lost that belief because someone took something from me out of I couldn't control. But when I look at how far I've come to now, having a custom studio in my home, the most incredible community, a book coming out, the life I've always dreamt of is here. Are you going to be ready for it when you receive it? Just because at one time it's not there doesn't mean it always will not be. Just because right now you don't have the love of your life or the career that you want or the opportunities doesn't mean you never will. You're a human and you're allowed to be sad. You're allowed to. To be scared. But add for now at the end of every sentence, because for now, you don't have it. But that doesn't mean you always won't. So get ready, baby, because just like you exist, someone out there, amazing, is ready and willing and able to be the partner that you need. You just haven't fucking met them yet. Going down. Memory Lane can feel painful sometimes, but it's worth it. And you know what? I've also had to realize if I don't gain the audience or if I lose people, or if they come and they go, go. That's okay. I gotta keep showing up as me because that's how we're gonna have some fun is when I fall back in love with what I'm doing. And then we can all fall back in love with what we're doing because we feed off of each other. So let's go into the tool of the week. You guys have earned it. You've watched me cry now twice. Okay, so the source. Check five questions and I want you to answer honestly. The first one, when you hear you're not enough. Whose voice is that? For me, it was my. My dad and sometimes my sister. Not the general feeling, the actual voice. Name them. That belief has a source and it's not you. The second thing, when was the last time you kept a promise to yourself? Not to someone else, to you? Why do you think now? I pay. I have a trainer and I have pilates. You know why I do that? So my ass goes because it hurts when I miss it. And I'm like, oh, I'm keeping a promise to myself because I'm saying I'm more than deserving of that. That's why I meal prep. That's why I do all of these things. So that when I wake up, I take care of myself because I'm holding a promise. Promise to myself that I'm going to be there for me. So then I actually need to be there for me Next one whose opinion is currently calibrating your self worth gauge and have they earned that access again? For me, it was my parents for a long time. And the next, what would you say to your best friend if they told you what you're telling yourself right now? Would you again, would you tell your best friend that they're stupid and they're mourn? Maybe if they genuinely, you'd be like, hey man, I don't know if that was the best decision, but I don't think you'd have a friend if you talk to them like that. So say that to yourself instead. And the last thing, what's one thing you've survived that you didn't think you could? That's your evidence. That's your evidence. I'll tell you right now, I never thought I was going to survive Clem's death. I even still right before I recorded, a photo of him came up and I cried. But I did. I survived it. I made it through the other side. I never thought I was going to survive a lot of these hard days. But you did. Because we can do hard things and you get to choose your fucking hard. And I want you to share some of these in the comments because I bet a lot of you are going to realize it's the same two or three things running your entire monologue and people. And these people don't live in your house anymore. So it's time to change the goddamn channel, baby. 200 episodes. And if I've learned anything, it's that there was never anything wrong with me. Your self worth is a gauge and it was calibrated by people who kept giving you bad data. And you don't need to like higher self esteem. It's not this arbitrary thing. You need a different relationship with yourself. One that doesn't collapse every time someone disappears. You don't need to become someone new. You need to stop abandoning the person you already are. That's the reality of it. That's why I always say what's a part of yourself that you don't think is lovable? That's who needs you the most. I love you guys. Thank you for everything. 200, 200 and many more. Let's go, guys. Don't forget to rate and review the show. Share it with a friend. Everything is@sabrina zohar.com. please don't forget to pre order the book. It's available on Amazon. On. It's called why Am I Like this by Sabrina Zohar. In case you're not sure who it's by. I'm so honored. Don't forget to save a screenshot. 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