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I'm Maggie Smith and this is the Slowdown. Today's poem rejoices in something at the heart of this podcast the pleasure of sharing our favorite poems with others rather than reading them alone. Abundance by Rick Barrett it must say something wonderful about my life that my first meal in America was a bucket of chicken from Kentucky Fried chicken. I was 10 hours before the arrival at the airport to the cacophony of relatives, then the drive to my uncle's house in the new winter cold, where the bucket waited like America itself. For once that one memory is not like the tattered band T shirt you only wear to bed, but like the crisp task the teacher gives to her students. She hands each of us a mason jar full of black, white, red and brown rice. She tells us to pour the rice on the table and and sort it by color, however long it will take. In this way, the counting and accounting, like the work of memory, is its own abundance along with that of the gorgeous rice. All my life I have been drawn to exercises and patience because so many of the things I love don't love me back, a claim that, to borrow an aching line from Miwosh, I make not out of sorrow but in wonder, the patience of bending over a table, counting the patience of hunger, the patience of love clinging to an image of sunlight on the a hazel eye. That day we lay on the summertime grass of the park and looked up at the maples the sun ruffled through. He told me about the stern way his grandmother had taught him how to play violin when he was a child. I told him about my childhood newspaper route, walking the neighborhood, sleeping streets at dawn, my hands black from newsprint, stung by the rubber bands that always snapped when we weren't talking about those things, we were talking about poetry beside ourselves. When reading out loud the Larkin poem about how parents fuck you up, whisperingly amazed, reading Dickinson's poem about how things fall apart in an exact organized decay, reading the poems with someone else, I had the thought that it was best to always read poems this way, like the trains in Europe where you have to sit facing each other. I had the thought that the space between the lines in a poem was like the space between two people facing each other on a bed, the space of breath in the park. The maples we lay under were Norway maples, a species considered invasive because it outshades everything around it. I didn't know this when I fell in love with the geometry of each astral leaf, or fell in love with the chorus the leaves made when the breezes conducted them. Often I am moved by all the information I've gathered but don't know what to do with that the needles used for upholstery are curved like parentheses, that there's a star somewhere 200 times bigger than our sun. That far back in its etymology, the closet, and actually meant a space of intimate privacy where you might welcome others, not a place of shame you're supposed to leave behind. The abundance of that closet, crowded now with my fierce friends, the abundance of having a new truth in the mind, the bloom in your senses like biting into a fennel seed, the abundance of America, its orchards and its libraries, its cemeteries and its airports, the circle of people praying in the basement of a church and the muddy field after a festival, the boy counting the 67 rings of the fresh cut log washed up on the beach and the girl wearing red sunglasses on the train in the morning, startled awake at her stop. Then, like all of us walking into the day, into the one thing there's plenty of the future. The Slowdown is a production of American Public Media in partnership with the Poetry Foundation. To get a poem delivered to you daily, go to slowdownshow.org and sign up for our newsletter. Find us on Instagram @downdownshow and blueskylowdownshow.org.
