One hundred and twenty-sixth Episode released on 08/13/2021. Happy Friday UG Fam! Where do I even begin? First off, thank you if you are still here. I can't even count anymore the number of times I have dropped off on this podcast. I know I have a gift for this and I know that the creative in me wants this to work, but the consistency that I preach isn't there. This might end up being the longest episode description just due to the time gap but also everything that has transpired in my life. I think when I left y'all the last time I had just gotten back from a trip to Montana that was amazing. I brought in a ton of perspective from that trip and dropped it on here, so if you haven't listened to that episode go back and do that. Speaking of trips, thats where I've been, but a lot happened prior and after, obviously I wasn't gone for an entire month. Prior to this huge summer trip, I had pre-planned it out with one of my closest and realest friends since the start of the year. We created an itinerary for 3 cities, 2 on the east coast and 1 in the south. During the course of this past year, I had developed an unimaginable romance with a particular person. I can't even begin to explain the type of love that ran its course. It was unlike anything I'd ever experienced in my life. The start of the summer was filled with memories and build up with this particular love interest. So of course this itinerary was created around this person. I had pulled out all the stops, after all this was going to be my second chance to obtain this individual. We had already went through a split earlier in the year, after which I turned into a f****** beast. I had changed my entire life and was seeing the greatest output and energy I'd ever seen after the first split. So going into all this I was coming hard. Probably too hard, too much pressure. I'm a Leo after all. I won't get into all the details, but what I presumed to be a pivotal type of trip in my life definitely lived up to that. Just not in the way in which I thought. Instead, I was once again left heartbroken. 808's and heartbreak was the first album I played hopping in the whip. I turned to alcohol, one of my most troublesome vices to numb the pain. This was the very vice I had gained control over earlier in the year to turn into that beast I referenced. I let people down close in my life by not setting a good example and for that it weighed on my conscience. I know everyone makes their own decisions, but god damn Mike, you are supposed to be the one leading by example. I led poorly and I went to a dark place. The trip however, did turn out pivotal, just in a completely different way than I ever imagined. I still met a ton of amazing people, saw amazing talented creatives do their thing, ate amazing bomb food, had plenty of ab hurting laughs, and made a plethora of irreplaceable memories. Overall, I was placed in very uncomfortable situations and grew a ton. Coming back though, I had to unpack everything that had transpired. I had to dive deep into why things had transpired and that led me down a path I never wanted to go down. But one I had to take in order to really understand where I need to go from here on out. It's time, it really is. Thank y'all for the continued support. Still thrilled to be bringing you more content and I appreciate any and all feedback. Continuing to use my voice to spread growth to the world in my own way.

Today's episode touches on the following topics:

1. Heartbreak happens

2. Unpacking the contents to your life is difficult

3. In order to grow, you have to get uncomfortable

#BlackLivesMatter

#StopAsianHate

Thank you and I'll catch you later.

[Intro/Outro music credit: Instrumental produced by Hastro Beats]

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