Baby’s First Million

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Episode Description / Show Notes

What does it actually feel like to go viral?

In this episode, I unpack the moment everything changed: the first million views. The dopamine hit. The disbelief. The sudden, disorienting sense of scale. And the uncomfortable truth that the internet doesn’t reward depth — it rewards repetition, recognisability, and low cognitive load.

I reflect on my first truly viral video, why it worked (despite being objectively bad), and how chasing numbers quietly reshaped my sense of worth, curiosity, and ambition. We talk about the seduction of instant fame, the flattening of thought in the attention economy, and why virality has no finish line — only an ever-steepening climb.

This episode isn’t about blaming algorithms or audiences. It’s about what happens inside a person when a number becomes a benchmark for meaning — and why your “first million” might be the beginning of the chase, not the end of it.

Because baby, there is no “there.”There is only your first million — and a life spent chasing infinity.

Topics Covered:

What virality actually feels like in the body

The psychological impact of your “first million”

Why basic content so often goes viral

How numbers quietly recalibrate self-worth

The difference between visibility and value

Why the internet has no endpoint — only momentum

Listener Note

This episode is part of an ongoing exploration of internet culture, attention, and opting out. Future episodes will dig deeper into algorithms, incentives, and what it means to create without being consumed by the machine.

Written and recorded by Rebecce Felgate.

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