You Need Help to Help Her

Summary

Episode Overview

Podcast: Where Should We Begin? with Esther Perel
Episode: You Need Help to Help Her
Date: November 24, 2025

This episode features a one-time counseling session between renowned psychotherapist Esther Perel and a married couple grappling with the painful withdrawal and mental health struggles of their adult daughter. The couple seeks insight on how to support their daughter, who, after being an accomplished student, has retreated from life into severe isolation. The conversation explores parent-child dynamics, the pitfalls of secrecy and withdrawal, issues of adoption and belonging, and the importance of social support—for the daughter and for themselves as parents.

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Key Discussion Points & Insights

The Crisis: Daughter’s Retreat from Life

• Sudden Change: The parents describe their daughter’s shift from a “successful, motivated college student on a scholarship” to someone spending “22 hours a day in her room on the computer…not interacting in the world” ([03:22] A).
• Daughter is diagnosed with bipolar disorder, anxiety, depression, and PTSD—but the parents feel lost as to what these labels mean in practice and how to help her ([02:23] A, [10:01] B).
• Hidden from Others: The family has kept their daughter’s situation largely a secret: “I can’t keep lying. I feel like I’m lying to everybody, lying to family. I’m lying to friends.” ([02:42] A)

Parental Helplessness and Isolation

• Parental Support System: The parents have a strong marriage and have started couples’ counseling, but receive most support only from each other, lacking a wider network or peer group ([05:19] A, [06:23] A, [07:14] A).
• Withdrawing Alongside Daughter: Esther points out their parallel process: by hiding the truth about their daughter, they are “colluding with her in withdrawal from the world…so you’re trapped in her approach and there is no help that can come in.” ([07:33] B)
• Critical Insight: “You need help to help her…isolation only works when you have contagious disease. She does not have a contagious disease. You need the presence of others.” ([09:06] B)

The Overwhelm of Diagnosis and the Limits of Labels

• The conversation critiques the overreliance on diagnoses and medication; Perel argues the labels “give you a framework. I need to know her experience…help you have conversations with her.” ([11:57] B)
• The episode stresses focusing on lived experience and small human connections, rather than trying to “fix” through medication alone.

Triangles in the Family: Communication and Anger

• Daughter-Mother Rift: The daughter recently expressed she doesn’t want a mother-daughter relationship, even calling her mother by her first name. The mother lets it go, hoping the situation will improve over time ([12:32] A).
• The father often acts as the go-between, feeling triangulated: “the daughter uses the father to be her mouthpiece and her messenger to the mother” ([17:10] B).
• Perel’s Guidance: Rather than forcing the daughter to talk directly to her mother, Perel encourages the father to invite the daughter to share her feelings with him (“Tell me. One of the things that emerges is that the father is triangulated.” [16:25] B).

Adoption, Belonging, and Bullying

• The parents explain their daughter was adopted from South Korea and attended a predominantly white school, leading to self-esteem struggles and racial bullying—much of which they only learned about later ([22:24] A, [23:10] C, [23:30] B).
• The family had “always treated both of [their] children…as miracles,” but now realize that their wish for integration may have contributed to their daughter’s sense of isolation.
• Crucial Reflection: “When a child doesn’t come home to say I’ve been bullied at school, we do need to ask…is there something in the dynamic in the environment at home that silences the child?” ([24:26] B)

Parallel Lives and Secrets

• Both mother and daughter are living “parallel lives.” The mother’s insight: “I just can't keep lying. I feel like I’m lying to everybody… and I just can’t do this anymore. I’m not somebody who lies.” ([44:34] A)
• Esther points out: “You’re pretending life is normal as usual. And that’s what she feels she did for all those years…without knowing it, you’re doing the same thing now.” ([45:06] B)
• This realization is a breakthrough, providing empathy and understanding between mother and daughter.

The Need for Parental Support, Not Just Couples Therapy

• The couple realizes that while their marriage is strong, they need support as parents facing a child’s mental health crisis—not just as spouses ([06:04] B, [10:01] B).
• Perel urges them to “connect with other parents,” seek out support groups, and broaden their social circle to sustain themselves and break their own isolation ([11:55] B, [41:47] C).
• “You can’t keep this. It’s not an embarrassment, it’s not a shame…it’s going to deal with you not creating a parallel life in which you end up doing what she’s doing. Without the diagnosis.” ([41:56] B)

Family Dynamics and the Power of Systemic Change

• Perel encourages the family to think holistically: “A family is made up of interdependent parts…when one of the members changes their role because they are sick, because they have a breakdown…anything, the whole system adapts.” ([29:08] B)
• She cautions against making every choice feel dire: “Right now, the back on track is us not feeling that every slight decision is become an existential decision. If I say, come for breakfast, am I keeping her alive or am I killing her?” ([34:02] B)

Dealing with Helplessness and Finding Agency

• Perel articulates how depression creates a dynamic where the person struggling holds all the power: “The person who is the most down in the end has all the power because they have the power to disempower everybody else’s fantastic ideas and make them feel as helpless as them. And so we all end up in the same spot.” ([30:52] B)
• The couple comes to realize: “We don't have control over her illness. We do have control over our actions and how we react to her illness. So the best way that we can help her is…find ways for us all to communicate what's going on with her.” ([48:30] C)

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Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

• “[Our daughter] was born in South Korea and she went to a school that was mostly Caucasian kids. Now…she was told she was a mistake, but we didn’t know this till afterwards. She held this kind of stuff in and I don’t think…these things are the cause, but I think she internalized a lot of things over time that we weren’t aware of.”
  — Mother [23:30]

• “You need help to help her. Do you understand? The idea that you are protecting her by colluding in the same silence as her and by withdrawing from the world like her is creating shame for you. Isolation. And I’m not sure it’s helping her.”
  — Esther Perel [09:06]

• “We have a really strong marriage…I think every day about the people doing this alone. I don’t know how anybody could do that. And I’m really fortunate to be doing it with somebody that I could talk to and cry to.”
  — Mother [05:19]

• “I think she was really mad at…me that I wasn’t part of the conversation that morning. And I think that conversation really angered her…or put pressure on her, did whatever.”
  — Father on daughter’s suicide attempt [35:21]

• “You can’t keep this. It’s not an embarrassment. It’s not a shame…you’re not there to talk about her. You just have to say, I’m going through something really difficult.”
  — Esther Perel [41:47]

• “We’ve been so focused on what can we do to help her illness that we didn’t really see that how we’re reacting to her and her illness is making it worse.”
  — Father [47:49]

• “When things go well, you think it’s the right place. When things don’t go well, you start to question all kinds of decisions you made…with the purest intention.”
  — Esther Perel [24:26]

• “We don’t have control over her illness. We do have control over our actions and how we react…so the best way that we can help her is to…find ways for us all to communicate what’s going on with her so that we can deal with it.”
  — Father [48:30]

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Highlighted Timestamps

• [03:22] — The dramatic change in the daughter’s functioning described in detail.
• [05:19] — Mother’s gratitude for marital partnership in the struggle.
• [07:33] — Esther diagnoses the parents’ parallel process of isolation.
• [09:06] — Esther: “You need help to help her.”
• [12:32] — Daughter expresses not wanting a mother-daughter relationship.
• [16:25] — Triangulation and communication via the father.
• [22:24] — Adoption background and racial identity.
• [29:08] — Family systems theory applied to the crisis.
• [34:02] — The existential stakes of every family decision.
• [35:21] — Suicide attempt, emotions around helplessness and anger.
• [41:47] — Prescription for parental support and ending secrecy.
• [48:30] — Father’s realization about their sphere of control.

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Episode Tone and Closing Reflections

The session is raw, reflective, and often emotional—marked by the parents’ persistent confusion, sadness, and exhaustion, as well as Esther Perel’s compassionate, systemic approach. The episode closes with breakthroughs in reframing the problem: shifting from secrecy to openness, from helplessness to agency, and from focusing solely on “fixing” the daughter to tending the entire ecosystem of family and social networks. The holistic, networked approach is positioned as more powerful—and healing—than isolation for both the daughter and her parents.

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For Listeners

This episode is a powerful reminder that real healing—whether individual or collective—often requires breaking cycles of silence, moving from labels to lived experience, and drawing on a broader community of support. The deeply personal struggles recounted here are both particular and universal, offering insight for anyone facing similar family challenges.

Transcript

[A]

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[C]

Specific things of this happened or this happened or this is going on. It's not as important as we need to get her better. I mean, whether that's next week, next month, next year, we just need to get her better.

[B]

In a family, there are various couples. One, the intimate couple, the spousal couple, but the other is also the parental couple. This couple came in not for marital issues, but for difficulties and challenges that they were having between them and their daughter.

[A]

She was diagnosed with bipolar and anxiety and depression, ptsd, all of the above. In the last two years we haven't told.

[C]

We don't talk about it with our family. There's maybe two people who know, like.

[A]

I can't keep lying. I feel like I'm lying to everybody, lying to family. I'm lying to friends. I couldn't even imagine not doing this with somebody.

[C]

I could imagine it tearing people apart. Easy. Very easy.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

The parents have sought help, but they received help as a couple. And it seemed to me that this couple doesn't need help as a couple. This couple needs help as parents speaking to their daughter.

[A]

This is where should we begin with Esther Perel. She's gone from a successful, motivated college student on a scholarship to spending 22 hours a day, 22 hours a day in her room on the computer, talking with friends, but not interacting in the world. In the real world, she's really contained herself, maybe partly for preservation. It's a comfortable place for her. She's not going to school, she's not working, she's not interacting with family. She interacts a little bit with us. She's eating, but I mean, there's been days when she doesn't eat very well. She's taking medication, she sees a therapist. We went from her taking credits and being on the dean's list and traveling internationally with school to this 180 degree change in what she's able to do.

[B]

As I listen to them describe the voluntary confinement of the daughter in her room for such an extended period of time, two years, I'm reminded of the Japanese phenomenon of hikikomori, where young people withdraw into their rooms, become recluse, disconnect from society, and except through the Internet, of which they are in utter control over the curation of every detail of the story that they live.

[A]

We want her to be passionate about something, to be happy and healthy in whatever her future holds. And we're trying to work with her, but we don't understand what's happened or how to help her and what parts, what parts we even can help her with and what parts she just has to figure out. And you know, we have a really strong marriage, I think every day about the people or doing this alone. I don't know how anybody could do that. And I'm really fortunate to be doing it with somebody that I could talk to and cry to.

[B]

Who cries more?

[A]

I do cry more.

[B]

Sure. He started before you here.

[A]

It's something I've always done. I have very talented crier.

[B]

Tell me something. What support do you both get besides each other?

[A]

Yeah, we recently, like in the last month, we started to see a couples counselor who was suggested by our daughter's counselor. What's helpful, actually has been able to be in a place where we can talk with somebody who is, besides the two of us, who's not a friend or family member, somebody who's outside of the situation and can listen and make some suggestions, although she doesn't have answers.

[B]

Right. But do you have a group called of parents?

[C]

No, we're not.

[B]

No.

[C]

I mean, we have parents.

[B]

No, but a group of parents who have situations around their children, their adult children that are challenging.

[A]

No, no. And honestly, we haven't been talking about it a lot, so I'm not talking to somebody and somebody says, you know, I know somebody, a friend of mine or my sister in law or something like that.

[B]

They.

[A]

We haven't been talking about it.

[B]

Whenever I work with a family where there is an acute crisis like that and they have not gotten the help they need, I think that for many therapists there can be a trigger of wanting to have the savior in us, that maybe I'll be able to offer something because I experience their disappointment, their depletion, their despair and I want to jump in, but that's actually the moment where I have to hold back a little bit. Okay, here's what I'm going to suggest. We're going to talk together. I'm going to think out loud, but that doesn't mean I'm right. Okay. The last thing I want to do is barge in as if I have answers. I don't. But I have some ideas sometimes of. Or at least I ask questions out loud. And then we can kind of like for example, this idea that you think you are protecting her by colluding with her in the withdrawal from the world because you are withdrawing from the world as well. You're doing a parallel process. She's not talking, you're not talking. She's hiding, you're hiding. So you're trapped in her approach and there is no help that can come in. I understand.

[C]

I think that pretty well sums it up.

[B]

You need help to help her. Do you understand? You need the input so that you can then help her. The idea that you are protecting her by colluding in the same silence as her and by withdrawing from the world like her is creating shame for you. Isolation. And I'm not sure it's helping her. Isolation only works when you have contagious disease. For pneumonia. She does not have a contagious disease. You need the presence of others. And if you go into the silence, it only adds to the shame and to the lying and to the feeling that you are more and more removed from the world. And so now it's happening to her and now it's happening to the parents too.

[C]

Is there an alternative?

[B]

Yes. The alternative is I don't have a clue what the diagnosis is, but there's too many labels. What we know is you have a girl who was vivacious, talented, motivated, but with enormous pressure on herself and wanted to do well and may not have known to say this is too much or I don't want to do as much or this is a little too hard for me and fell apart and as a result is retreating. But not completely. The beautiful Internet allows her to type away for 14 hours a day. And she's talking about something with somebody. And for all we know, she may be talking with a group of other kids like her because there are lots of them who are also locked up in their robes. So that's very good. And I would continue to encourage her connecting with those people. But so do you need to connect with the people? Because if you don't get support, you won't be able to help her. And you don't need support so much as a couple. You need support actually as parents of a child who broke down in the midst of thriving and needs to rebuild herself slowly. Step, step. And it happens to the brightest of them. And sometimes they saw it coming. They felt something, but they didn't want to say. They don't want to disappoint. They don't want to disappoint the parents. Everybody's riding on them. There is pride, you know, of all what she's accomplishing. And so there's a sense of I'm letting everybody else down, let alone myself. Am I describing her somewhat?

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

The labels to me are important, but they don't describe anything. They don't describe the experience. They just give you a framework. I need to know her experience, and that means I want to help you have conversations with her. Who did you talk to today? You know, what are you discussing? You know, try to re. Engage in a normal conversation that is anything but. They were trying to get you to be better. She talks to both of you or only one of you.

[A]

She decided recently that she doesn't want to have a mother, daughter relationship. I'm not sure what relationship she wants, but she called me by my first name the other day instead of mom, and I didn't. I just let it go. I didn't react to it, if that helps. I'll take it.

[B]

Yes. But inside it was like, yeah, well.

[A]

I can think maybe down the road it'll turn around. You know, I can look forward enough to see that.

[B]

Do friends visit her? Nobody comes to see her.

[A]

No. She's really, as far as I know, her friends were trying to reach out for quite a while, but I think she just kind of blew them off or whatever over time. So it's been several months since she's seen any friends face to face, even family friends who she's friends with the children. The last time we got together, it was really hard push getting her to come out of her room and join us.

[B]

I mean, she did.

[A]

Well. She told Me, she would, but she told me she would not speak to me after that. I think to both of us.

[C]

She was angry because they're literally at our door waiting to go to a restaurant and she wouldn't. She had the covers over her head and just wasn't gonna come out. So I think she got mad because I took the covers off her head or something.

[A]

So she came out and interacted.

[C]

We went out, we got in the car. After dinner?

[A]

Yeah, right after dinner. We got back into our car and they said, oh, wasn't your meal good? Or, you know, just a small talk? And she didn't answer. And I thought, oh, she's doing exactly what she said she was gonna do.

[B]

Did you congratulate her for her determination?

[A]

No, I started crying. But that would have been a good, A good answer. That would have been a great answer.

[B]

I love that you haven't lost your spirit. You always were strong minded and that is still there. I'll take it.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

What you think?

[C]

I agree.

[A]

Yeah, we haven't done that.

[C]

I don't understand the anger that comes out. And I think she will admit that she's just very angry at her mom.

[B]

Is angry at daughter or daughter is angry at daughter.

[C]

No, no, no, no, no. I think there's just very deep, the way this whole thing came out with, you know, I really don't want a really a mother daughter relationship. She told me and I said to her, I said, you know, you have to. You can't just not, you know, say that and not carry through and tell her and then tell her why. Write it down.

[B]

You said you told your daughter. Yes, to tell mom why she doesn't want to have a relationship with her.

[C]

Communicate it somehow where there's a continual flow so you get all of it out so that we can understand it.

[B]

The question is very. You seem to have very strong feelings about mom and you seem to have given this a lot of thought because you wouldn't be arriving at such a conclusion what's been on your mind that way you're not telling her to do anything yet. And I wouldn't say talk to mom.

[C]

You wouldn't?

[B]

No, no. In this moment, if you're the one she's willing to speak this to, you can go tell mom or you don't go tell mom. You know, that's a separate thing. But the first thing I would just say, tell me. One of the things that emerges is that the father is triangulated. He is caught in a triangle between his wife and his daughter. And on occasion, the daughter wants to speak to mom by speaking to dad. And at times that needs to be redirected. And it is accurate for dad to say, this doesn't belong to me. Tell mom directly. But other times when daughter says, I am having struggles with my mom, I don't want my mom to be my mom. She's not the mom I want her to be. Those kind of things. I think the opportunities for him to simply say, how did you get to that conclusion? That's such a painful conclusion. What's going on for you? And not try to direct her. In fact, just offer the ear and offer the opportunity for her to be in conversation with them rather than just in conversation with her inner depression. You know, the question that often will emerge after that is, is the parent who is having those private conversations with their child meant to keep this for themselves or is this actually meant to become a conversation that is then relegated to the other parents? And I think it really varies. In this instance, I don't think there is a secret. The daughter wants the mother to know how she feels. The daughter doesn't feel she can tell the mother directly. The daughter uses the father to be her mouthpiece and her messenger to the mother. We have to take a brief break. Stay with us.

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[B]

I think there is often a unique power to the same sex between parent and child. Father, son, mother, daughter. There's something about the identification there. Not always, but you know, she was living out your dream. She was living out her dream too, but it was your dream as well. And the turmoil about letting you down. I don't want to do it, but I also let you down. Your reaction to her, which is part helplessness and part rage because of how helpless you feel. Rage is often the flip side of helplessness. And if I cut you off, then I cut off my guilt toward you, my feeling of how much I let you down and my resentment for the pressure that I feel to please you because I always was the great daughter that pleased you. And I don't know how to get from under this whole thing. It's a jumble.

[A]

Yeah, I could see. I could see how that could be. That there could be something to that.

[C]

Why wouldn't she have the same reaction to me?

[B]

Because you are a different person. Because maybe you're not disappointed in the same way. Because maybe she thinks you would love her no matter what. She doesn't have to please you in the same way because I don't know. You tell me.

[C]

I have no idea.

[B]

No.

[A]

She's adopted and we thought maybe that she was having that a conflict with that and related to self esteem and you know who she is. And there's been a few things that happened in her high school time that she talked to us about. One, she looks different than all the like most of the other kids in her school. And so I think she had self esteem issues because kids sometimes teased her. She looked different. Now she was born in South Korea and she went to a school that was mostly Caucasian kids.

[C]

Thinking at the time it seemed like the right place for us. But you look back on it and go it's just having no diversity at all just was not good, not good at all.

[A]

You know, and within our family, we accepted and didn't. The diversity wasn't even there.

[B]

I mean, it was just a family. Did you feel adopted? No.

[A]

You know, I've always said our son was born through a pregnancy that I carried. She was born, you know, on the other side of the world. They're both miracles. Like it's just. And we've always treated both of our children that they're just miracles. And this was how our, this is our family, I mean, just is. And we forgot that other people don't see that. And also just her being adopted, you know, kids are cruel. She was told she was a mistake, but we didn't know this till afterwards. She held this kind of stuff in and then I don't think either of those two things are the cause of this, but I think she internalized a lot of things over time that we weren't aware of.

[B]

It's exactly what you say when things go well, you think it's the right place. When things don't go well, you start to question all kinds of decisions you.

[A]

Made.

[B]

With the purest intention. The parents so wanted their daughter to be integrated and not to feel any different, that in the end she couldn't be who she was, which de facto was different, at least racially different. And they now realize that by putting her in an all white environment, she was isolated, bullied, taunted, and that she couldn't come and talk about it with them. And so a question that we do have to ask ourselves is when a child doesn't come home to say I've been bullied at school, we do need to ask, is, is there something in the dynamic in the environment at home that silences the child? It is where it is now. And she has been sharing all kinds of difficulty that she had. And sometimes there's not much to say but just to hug her and just to say, I'm so sorry. I didn't know that you were hurting so badly. I wish you had been able to come and tell me sooner, but I'm here now and I'm so glad I can hear you tell me, because what happens now is that you're so scared that you're becoming paralyzed. And that has the strange effect sometimes of sending the message to the kid. I was right not to tell because you can't handle it, because you become so upset when I tell you something that now I have to deal with the fact that you're upset rather than you deal with the fact that I'm upset. And what she's trying to say, when she says, I don't want to talk to mom, you know, does this. That would be my question. Is it because you don't feel that you can legitimately be her child, that.

[A]

She thinks that when we are down.

[B]

We have crazy thoughts? Crazy in the sense that we put ourselves down. We don't think we're legitimate, we don't think we deserve.

[A]

And then I guess maybe because then she's so isolated and she's talking with people who aren't part of our. We don't know. They don't know us. I think possibly she's confirming whatever she's thinking, that I'm a terrible this or.

[B]

That or that she doesn't deserve you, that you're not really her mother is what she's trying to say, but not because you haven't been a good mother, but because she doesn't feel legitimate. This is not a statement about you as much as a statement about her. And the hardest thing is to keep that in mind so that you don't feel so upset that you can't be there for her.

[A]

Right.

[B]

And that's why you need support. This is super hard to do. It's easy to say for me, but it's really hard to do. And we need, in those moments, help, support. But that's what will make it different. Not waiting and hoping that at some point it will get better. That is not exactly how it works.

[A]

Yeah, I think we've been focusing on that chemistry. The, you know, the.

[B]

You've been focusing on the brain, and I'm focusing on the life.

[A]

Yeah. Because I think it seems that, you know, her doctor is focusing just on the chemistry and doesn't. There's no counseling. That's medicine. And she talks to somebody, you know, to help her work things through. And I've felt this over time because we thought at first you go to a doctor, you get fixed. You know, your children are sick, we're sick. You know, you go to the doctor, they tell you to do this and this, and you eventually get better. This isn't a world I know like, I know about.

[B]

I totally understand.

[A]

Totally not. And I feel inadequate about not knowing more about it. And so I think we were focusing on the illness. You know, she got a diagnosis, and you get a medicine and you talk to somebody and yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, I'm with you. It's just not working for me.

[B]

This is a family issue. A family is made up of. Of interdependent parts and some of the parts are the parents and the grandparents and the children, but they all interconnect. And when one of the parts, when one of the members changes their role because they are sick, because they have a breakdown, because something is gnawing at them because they're struggling, anything, the whole system adapts has to change to make up for this, to respond to this. But the isolation is also part of how the system is reorganizing. You know, for example, if she's depressed, I have no idea. But if she's depressed, one of the things that happens when we're depressed and we don't feel like we can get ourselves out of our own hole is that everybody around us tries to get us out of our hole, and they come up with one idea after another. Why don't you do this? Why don't you do that? And the only power we have is to say no. And so we defeat everybody. So this very interesting dynamic occurs in which I feel powerless because I'm down, and I've checked out from all the things that used to be my life. But every time you say, do something, I say no. And in the end, you feel as defeated as her. So now we create a loop of helplessness. You see? How do you see this one? You're both shaking your hands and you're rolling your eyes like, I know this all too well.

[A]

Yes.

[B]

Is that it? You know, it's a bizarre thing. The person who is the most down in the end has all the power because they have the power to disempower everybody else's fantastic ideas and make them feel as helpless as them. And so we all end up in the same spot.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

It just needs music. The choreography is set. That is one of the things that family therapy wants to help you with, or would help you with, how you step up out of the why don't you do this? Why don't you do that? That pressure has to go, not because it's not a great motivation, but because it's not happening this way. I understand that you're struggling rather than, here's what you can do to stop the struggle. How do I join her differently? So any situation where she can address you and speak and there is actually another person so that you don't have to be modulating each other like that could be very helpful. And that you say to her, look, we have challenges. There are some things between all of us that this is a great opportunity. I think you have really highlighted that despite our best efforts and everything, there are certain Things between us that. That seem to have. That are causing you great pain and that we need to address all together, and we can handle it. And we're going to go find a place where we can safely talk.

[C]

As long as she doesn't exercise that ultimate power again and say no, you'll still go alone.

[B]

You'll get good coaching. And it may take 3, 4 sessions of you going alone until you find the right way of bringing her. That's been done.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

That's been done.

[A]

Okay.

[B]

There's good family therapists know to work with kids who don't want to show up teenagers or school abiding children or. I mean, you know, to you, she feels like she's in, you know, this unmovable thing, but she may.

[C]

I don't know, I'm just.

[B]

But they will also give you the right frame of. They'll analyze with you more. You know, they learn from you more about your daughter so that they have a good idea of how you can present it to her in a way that fits what is going on to say to her. You know, you've said some very important things here about mom, about us, and I think we need to listen to you because you've been trying to tell us quite a few things, and I don't know that we've been as attentive as we could be. And so we have chosen a framework where somebody is going to help us listen to you. What I'm conveying to the parents is that without having met the daughter, I have a sense this daughter has been trying to say something to the parents. And I have a sense that she will welcome a different response from her parents towards her.

[A]

I like that.

[C]

Okay.

[B]

You understand? And it's true. That's very different from. We have found a person who's going to help you get back on track. Right now, the back on track is us not feeling that every slight decision is become an existential decision. If I say, come for breakfast, am I keeping her alive or am I killing her? You know, do I continue to treat her like she still is the girl I knew and this is the family we are, right, or is everything out of normality now and I have to forego everything I built and stood for?

[A]

And that feels so wrong to me, but I don't. Yeah. I don't know.

[B]

Has she been suicidal?

[C]

Yes.

[A]

Yeah. In the spring attempt.

[C]

Mm.

[A]

Yeah.

[C]

Mm.

[A]

You called the ambulance and called me home from work, and so she was in the hospital for a few days. Um, she said that she did that because of Me.

[C]

Mm.

[A]

I think she was really mad at.

[C]

Me that I wasn't part of the conversation that morning. And I think that conversation really angered her. Or maybe not. Anger is not the right word. Put pressure on her, did whatever.

[B]

That morning was just another morning of more of the same. Get a job, do something. You need a passion. What's the matter, mom? Trying to prop daughter up with the best intention but completely ineffective. And that morning, the daughter said, get off my back. I can't do it. I won't do it. I don't want to do it. Enough is enough. We are in the midst of our session and there is still so much to talk about. We need to take a brief break, so stay with us.

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[C]

We haven't really processed any of that either.

[A]

No.

[C]

We just haven't had time to together.

[B]

Or with her either.

[A]

At all.

[B]

At all. It feels overwhelming.

[A]

I don't even want to think about it. I hope she never does that again. And I think what we've realized, not realized, but like, we can't control that. If somebody wants to do that, they're gonna find a way. Because we were trying to like, keep everything, like not have anything out. I mean, and then you realize you can't.

[B]

That's right. That's one of the things.

[A]

I mean, that's my head saying that, not my heart.

[B]

Your heart. You'd run and put yourself in front of the bus, right? But we own our lives.

[A]

Oh, God. I want her to be passionate about something so bad. She's so talented, she loves music, she plays instruments, she has taught herself languages, she's artistic and paints and cooks. She's smart. And I just like. I just want her to fall in love with one of them and do it, Love it and be passionate and just see all the good in life. And we can't do that for her.

[B]

What's happening to you when she speaks like this?

[C]

It's just been tough.

[B]

Say more.

[C]

I mean, we've a man of few.

[B]

Words, but say more.

[C]

We've done all this together, so I don't think, you know, it's not easier for one of us, I guess.

[A]

I don't know how we would do this without having somebody that we can go through this with. I couldn't even imagine not doing this with somebody.

[C]

I could imagine it tearing people apart. Easy. Very easy.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Do you have close friends and they still. And you have not talked with them either?

[A]

I've talked with two close friends.

[B]

You have got to. This is like a medical recommendation.

[C]

Gonna go home with a prescription for friends.

[B]

Yes. Friends or family. But other you. You can't keep this.

[A]

Right.

[B]

It's not an embarrassment. It's not a shame. It's not a. It's. It's not going to determine what's going to happen to her, but it's going to deal with you not creating a parallel life in which you end up doing what she's doing. Without the diagnosis.

[C]

I just don't have. I don't have that kind of a network. Not that I. I mean, I wouldn't mind. Maybe a prescription would help.

[B]

I'm assuming that your girlfriends are people that you also see with the partners.

[C]

I don't want to burden them. Yeah. And part of it is, again, it's not particularly their business, but it's also. Why talk about it?

[B]

If somebody came to you and said, we're struggling with the situation, would you feel burdened or would you feel honored that they trusted you?

[C]

I get that. No, I would feel honored. I get that part. But I guess what I'm saying is I wouldn't want to get together on a Saturday night to go out to dinner.

[B]

We're not talking about this becoming the subject of every gathering. I just want you to have the opportunity of people saying, how are you? Do you need anything? You don't want to feel like you live with a secret life is not lived alone. And these kind of situations, you don't have to confront alone. You're not there to talk about her. You just have to say, I'm going to something really difficult.

[A]

The way you're. The way that we're approaching it in here, with it being more holistic rather than focused on a particular illness, it really seems to make sense to look at it as a family dynamic, not as a person who has an illness. Illness. And that that's the cause of things, you know, and because we don't have control over that, but we can work on the family dynamic. We do have control over that. And so to realize the parts that are within our grasp, that's.

[B]

That.

[A]

Has the ability to have an effect where we've been trying to have.

[B]

An effect.

[A]

In a way that we're not effective. The idea of it being a conversation where we talk about the experience that we're having with our family or friends, I think we've really gotten to a point, or I've gotten to a point where, like, I can't keep lying. I feel like I'm lying to everybody, lying to family, I'm lying to friends. And I'm like, I just can't do this anymore. I'm not somebody who lies.

[B]

Right. But it's not just that. It's that you're pretending that life is normal as usual. And that's what she feels she did for all those years. She feels that she's been lying. That's what she's telling you. And without knowing it, you're doing the same thing now. That's the parallel life as well.

[A]

Right. That really sucks. I never thought of that.

[B]

I didn't until now either. In the moment that the mother realizes the impact of her lying, she also instantly understands the lying that her daughter has been struggling with. And maybe for the first time, she actually understands her daughter in a way that she has not before, that the daughter has been trying to get her to. And we are connecting some very important dots.

[A]

So she got to the point where she just couldn't do it anymore.

[B]

Yep.

[A]

And I'm going, I can't do this anymore.

[B]

That's right. But I just heard it with you.

[A]

And I could see how that makes it worse because, you know, every time like something comes out of my mouth, I'm saying something else and to myself.

[B]

Mm hm. And why you deserve all the support you need.

[A]

Yeah.

[B]

Both of you. Are we saying something?

[A]

It sounds so obvious though. But I think I was just so in the. So in the thing.

[B]

If I am in the weeds, I'm as blind as you understand something. This is not because of who you are. This is because when we are drawn in a vortex, our vision shrinks. It's easy for me to see I'm not in it. But if I was in my own, you'd be the visionary.

[A]

Thank you for that.

[B]

I mean that. I completely mean that.

[C]

I was, and you probably know I was very skeptical of coming. I didn't really think anyone could help. I think you have.

[B]

First of all, I highly respect your being skeptical and coming. I always respect the skeptics more. The others, it's easy. You know, you always want to ask the others if they would go to something that they are skeptical about. And now tell me how it was helpful.

[C]

Well, I think, you know, we've been so focused on what can we do to help her illness that we didn't really see that. How we're reacting to her and her illness is making it worse. It makes a lot of sense when you see it from the outside. You know, when you just step back for a minute and go. Of course, you know, we should have seen it two years ago, but when you see it, it's clear.

[B]

And what is it you see?

[C]

Well, I think we don't have control over her illness. We do have control over our actions and how we react to her illness. So the best way that we can help her is to, I don't mean to say be more normal, but we should be more normal and find ways for us all to communicate what's going on with her so that we can deal with it as opposed to just trying to deal with something we have no control over.

[B]

When mom speaks of the holistic view, the way I would define it is I am a family therapist. I think systemically, I think about problems in context, problems in an ecology, not just what causes them, but what maintains them. How is the relationship system? How is the family organized around the problem? And by having kept the focus so narrowly onto the daughter and on her mental health diagnosis, the entire family relationship system was left out of the equation. And yet the resources that the family can bring to helping the daughter were all in that relational system. And so I try to tap into the natural healing resources that are available in the family, not just the medication.

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