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Meg Cabot (0:02)
Lemonada Author Meg Cabot catapulted herself directly into rom com royalty status when she wrote the Princess Diaries, which, I don't need to tell you, was turned into a classic film starring Anne Hathaway and Julie Andrews. The kingdom of Genovia became as familiar to a generation of girls as other fictional lands like Narnia and Middle Earth. But beyond that beloved series, Cabot has published a total of more than 80 books for children in teens, selling more than 25 million copies worldwide. Educating Caroline was originally published in 2001, the year after Cabot published the Princess Diaries, and it's definitely vintage Meg Cabot in the best ways. It tells the story of Lady Caroline Linford, a young woman In England in 1870, a time period not exactly known for its liberated views on the sexuality of women. In fact, as Cabot tells us in the newly published foreword for the book, many doctors of the time period believed that women were incapable of orgasm and Victorian ladies of high society were expected to stay pure and virginal until marriage. So what's a girl like Caroline to do after discovering her fiance in the arms of another woman? And how is it fair that men of nobilities are allowed to embark on extracurricular activities but not well bred young women? A novel solution occurs to to seek out the Lothario of London, Brandon Glanville, the most notorious rake she can find, to teach her how to make sure that her future husband won't need to turn to anyone else for satisfaction. Who else could better educate her in the ways of love? I think we all can guess what might be coming, but of course the path to true love never did run smooth. Cabot writes with notable wit and humor that's often missing from the deadly serious genre of historical romances, bringing a pleasant modernity to the story. It makes Caroline a very fun, likable heroine to root for. And you can definitely see Cabot's parallels about how slut shaming is not new or unique to the 21st century. The audiobook is narrated by Billy Fulfer Brown, winner of the 2024 Audio Award for Best Fiction Audiobook Narrator, an award for which she be out a little known actress named Meryl Streep. So you know you are in good hands. Today we'll be sharing the prologue of Educating Caroline as well as chapter one where Caroline catches her unfaithful fiance in the act and learns some tough lessons about the double standards for women in Victorian England.
Billy Fulford Brown (2:27)
Prologue Oxford, England December 1869 A full moon hung in the air over the high college Walls lighting the young man's way as clearly as any gas lamp. Not that there weren't gas lamps, of course there were, but the glow from that round white moon rendered the amber flicker of the gas lights quite superfluous. Had all the gas lamps in England gone out? Persons with business after hours like himself might still move about with relative ease by the light of this remarkable moon. Or maybe it was simply that he was so drunk. Yes, it was quite likely that this moon was in no way different from any other moon, and that he was still excessively intoxicated from all the whisky he'd drunk during the game, and that the reason he was able to find his way so easily through the midnight dark had nothing to do with the light from the moon, but everything to do with the simple fact that he had come this way so many times before. He did not even have to look really where he was going. His feet took him in the correct direction. He was able, as he walked, to concentrate on other things as fully as he was able to concentrate on anything, drunk as he was. And one of the things he was concentrating upon, besides the cold, which was considerable, was just where in hell he was going to get the money. Not that he felt truly obligated to pay it back. The cards had been marked, of course. How else had he lost so much in so little time? He was an excellent card player, really excellent. The cards had certainly been marked, which was odd, considering that Slater had been so convinced that the game was all right. Slater knew all the best games in town. Thomas had been lucky, he knew, even, to have been admitted to this one, seeing as how he was, after all, only an owl, and a brand new one at that. Why, that fellow with the moustache. He'd been a duke, a bloody duke. Of course, he hadn't acted much like one, particularly when, after losing yet another round, Tommy had declared the game fixed. Instead of laughing off the accusation the way a real duke might have done, this one pulled a pistol on him, really a pistol. Tommy had heard of such things, of course, but he had never expected it actually to happen to him. Thank God Slater had been there. He'd calmed the fellow down and assured him that Tommy hadn't meant it, though in fact, Tommy bloody well had. But you could not, Slater explained later, when they'd been alone, accuse a man of cheating without proof. And Tommy's only proof, that the design on the back of the cards looked strange and that he'd never lost so badly before was not particularly convincing. He was lucky, he supposed, to have escaped with his life. That Duke had looked as if putting a bullet through the brain of a fellow player was something he did every day. Though a bullet through the brain might have been preferable to what Tommy knew he had in store for him, trying to find the thousand pounds he'd need to pay off what he now owed. He couldn't, of course, ask his bank for it. The fortune his father had left him after his death just a little over a year before was being held in trust for him until his 21st birthday. And that was still two years away. He couldn't touch that money, but he could, he knew, borrow against it. The trouble was who to ask. Not the bank. They'd only inform his mother and she'd want to know what he needed the money for. And he couldn't possibly tell her that his sister was a possibility. She was already of age and had come into her part of their inheritance just that month. Caroline might reasonably be appealed to for a loan. She would want to know what he needed the money for. But she was quite easy to lie to. A good deal easier to lie to than their mother. And if Tommy came up with a good enough story, something involving poverty stricken children, for instance, or cruelly abandoned animals, since she was quite tender hearted, his sister, he was sure of at least 4 or 500 pounds. The trouble was, he didn't like lying to Caroline. Oh, teasing her was one thing, but outright lying, that was another thing entirely. It offended his moral sensibilities, lying so outrageously to his sister, even if it meant, as in this case, saving his own hide. The fact that Caroline would surely rather pay off his debts than lose him did not ease his conscience the slightest. No, Tommy knew he would have to find someone else to loan him the thousand quid. And as he mentally ran through a list of his friends and acquaintances, trying to remember if any of them owed him any favours, his feet, which had gone on walking, brought him to the gate to his college and stopped there. He reached out, still without consciously thinking what he was doing, and was not at all surprised to find the gate securely locked. It had been so, of course, since 9:00 and it was now well past midnight. His feet, again of their own accord, began moving once more, this time taking him past the gate and along the high stone wall that circled the living quarters he shared with 200 or so of his fellow academicians. He was still running over his list of friends, not even thinking about what he was doing, because what he was doing had become quite habitual over the past Few months. He was, of course, going over the wall. As soon as he came to the spot where there was a good enough toehold in the stone. That is, none of his fellow students had any money, that he knew they were all in the same position. He was waiting for their 21st birthdays and their inheritances. A few had fathers still living, and a few of those were occasionally the recipients of gifts of cash, but no one that he knew intimately enough to ask for a loan of a thousand pounds had been given anything like that amount lately. It was as he was dejectedly pushing back the dead ivy that covered the wall he was about to climb and stuffing his boot toe into a gouge in the mortar that a voice called his name. He turned his head, swearing a bit beneath his breath. All he needed now was for the proctor to be alerted to the fact that the Earl of Bartlett was once again scaling the wall. He turned his head and saw that it wasn't the proctor at all, but that great ass of a duke. The fellow must have followed him from the tavern where they'd had their game. One would think that a duke had better things to do than follow penniless earls about, but apparently not. Look, tommy said, leaving his foot where it was and resting an elbow upon his knee. You'll get your money, your grace. Didn't I say you would? Not right away, of course, but soon. This isn't about the money, the duke said. Really? But he looked nothing like a duke. Would a duke actually curl his moustache that way? And wasn't that waistcoat, though, velveteen a bit? Well, right. This is about what you called me, the duke said, and for the first time, Tommy saw that he was holding something in his hand. And in the bright white light from the moon, Tommy was also able to see precisely what it was. What I called you. Quite suddenly, Tommy hoped their conversation would be overheard. He prayed quite fervently that that idiot proctor would overhear them and open the gate and demand an explanation. Far better, far, far better to be sent down for being caught outside the walls after hours than to receive a bullet through the gut, even if that bullet would likely relieve him of his debt. Right. The duke kept the mouth of the pistol trained on Tommy's chest. A cheat, that's what you called me. Well, the duke don't cheat, you know. Tommy became aware of two things at once. The first was that it seemed unlikely a duke, a real duke, would possess so erratic a grasp of grammar. The second was that he was going to die. Say good night, My lord, said the man who was not a duke, and still pointing the pistol in the direction of Tommy's chest, he pulled the trigger. And then, quite suddenly, the bright light from the moon faded, taking Tommy's immediate troubles along with it. Chapter 1 London, May 18There was no light in the room other than that given off by the flames in the ornate marble fireplace. The fire was low, but managed to throw the couple on the divan into deep silhouette. Still, Caroline was able to make out their features. She knew who they were. She knew who they were very well indeed. She had, after all, recognised her fiance's love through the closed door, which was why she'd opened it in the first place. Unfortunately, it appeared she ought to have knocked first, since she had obviously interrupted a moment of utmost intimacy. And though she knew she should leave, or at the very least make her presence known, she found she could not move. She was riveted where she stood, staring quite against her will at the Lady Jacqueline Selden's breasts, which had come out of the bodice of her gown and were now bouncing vigorously up and down in rhythm to the thrusting hips of the man who lay between Lady Jacqueline's thighs. It occurred to Caroline, as she stood there with one gloved hand gripping the doorknob and the other clutching the frame, that her own breasts had never bounced with such wild abandon. Of course, her breasts weren't nearly so large as Lady Jacqueline's, which might explain why it was the Lady Jacqueline and not Caroline who was astride the Marquis of Winchelsea. Caroline had not previously been aware of her fiance's predilection for large breasted women, but apparently Lord Winchelsea had found her lacking in that particular category and had therefore sought out some one better suited to his tastes. Which was certainly his right, of course. Only Caroline couldn't help thinking he might have had the courtesy not to do it in one of Dame Ashforth's sitting rooms in the middle of a dinner party. I suppose I shall faint, Caroline thought, and gripped the door knob tighter in case the floor should suddenly rush up to meet her face, as often happened to the heroines of the novels her maid sometimes left lying about and which Caroline sometimes picked up and read. Only of course she didn't faint. Caroline had never fainted in her life, not even the time she fell off her horse and broke her arm in two places. She rather wished she would faint, because then she might at least have been spared the sight of the Lady Jacqueline inserting her finger into Hirst's mouth. Now why, Caroline wondered did she do that? Did men enjoy having women's fingers shoved into their mouths? Evidently they did, because the Marquis began at once to suck noisily upon it. Why hadn't anyone ever mentioned this to her? If the Marquis had wanted Caroline to put her finger into his mouth, she most certainly would have done so if it would have made him happy. Really, it was completely unnecessary for him to turn to Lady Jacqueline, with whom he was barely acquainted, let alone engaged, for something as simple as that. Beneath Lady Jacqueline the Marquis of Winchelsea let out a groan, rather muffled with Lady Jacqueline's finger in the way. Caroline saw his hand move from Lady Jacqueline's hip to one of those sizable breasts. Hirst had not, Caroline saw, removed either his coat or his shirt. Well, she supposed he'd be able to rejoin the dinner party more quickly that way, but surely with the fire, not to mention the heat Lady Jacqueline's body was surely generating, he must have been overly warm. He didn't seem to mind, however. The hand which had gone to cup Lady Jacqueline's breast moved to the back of her long neck, where fine tendrils of dark hair had escaped from the complicated coronet of curls atop her head. Then Hirst pulled her face down until her lips touched his. Lady Jacqueline had to remove her finger from his mouth in order to better accommodate her tongue, which she placed there instead. Well, Caroline thought, that's it then. The wedding is most definitely off. She wondered if she ought to declare it then and there, suck in her breath and interrupt the lovers in their embrace, if that was the correct term for it, make a scene. But then she decided that she simply wouldn't be able to endure what undoubtedly would follow. The excuses, the recriminations, Hirst ranting about his love for her, Jacqueline's tears. If Lady Jacqueline could cry, which Caroline rather doubted, really, what else could she do but turn around and leave the room as quietly as she'd entered it? Praying that Hirst and Jacqueline were too preoccupied to hear the latch click, she eased the door gently closed behind her and only then released a long held breath and wondered what she ought to do now. It was dark in the corridor just outside the sitting room door, dark and cool, unlike the rest of Dame Ashforth's townhouse, which was crowded with nearly a hundred guests and almost as many servants. No one was very likely to come this way, since all the champagne and food and music was a floor below. No one except pathetically abandoned fiances like herself. Her knees suddenly feeling a little weak, Caroline sank down onto the third and fourth steps of the narrow servant staircase just opposite the door she'd closed so quietly. She was not, she knew, going to faint, but she did feel a little nauseous. She would need some time to compose herself before going back downstairs. Leaning one elbow upon her knee, Caroline rested her chin in her hand. And regarded that door through the slender bars of the banister, wondering what she ought to do now. It seemed to her that the thing any normal girl would do was cry. After all, she had just caught her fiance in the arms. Well, to be accurate, the legs of another. She ought, she knew from her extensive novel reading to be weeping and storming. And she wanted to weep and storm, she really did. She tried to summon up some tears, but none came. I suppose, Caroline thought to herself, that I can't cry because I'm terrifically angry. Yes, that must be it. I am livid with rage, and that's why I can't cry. Why I should go find a pistol and come back and shoot Lady Jacqueline in the heart with it. That's what I ought to do. But the thought left her feeling more physically weak than ever. And she was quite glad she'd sat down. She didn't like guns and could not imagine ever shooting anyone with one. Not even Lady Jacqueline Selden, who quite thoroughly deserved it. Besides, she told herself, even if I could shoot her, which I quite positively couldn't, I wouldn't. What would be the point? I'd only be arrested. Caroline, finding a loose crystal bead on her skirt, pulled on it distractedly, and then I'd have to go to jail. Caroline knew more than she'd ever wanted to know about jail. Because her best friend Emmy was a member of the London Society for Women's Suffrage. And had been arrested several times for chaining herself to the carriage wheels of various members of Parliament. Caroline did not want to go to jail, which Emmy had described for her in all its lurid detail. Any more than she wanted to put a bullet through anyone. And supposing she thought, they find me guilty or be hanged, and for what? For shooting Lady Jacqueline, it would hardly be worth it. Caroline didn't have anything particularly against Lady Jacqueline. Lady Jacqueline had always been perfectly civil to Caroline. Really, Caroline decided, if she was going to shoot anybody, which she wasn't, of course, it would have to be Hearst. Why, not even one hour ago he'd been whispering into Caroline's ear that he couldn't wait for their wedding night, which was only one month away. Well, evidently he was so impatient for it that he'd been forced to seek out someone else entirely with whom to rehearse it. Cheating bastard. Caroline tried to think up some other wicked word she had overheard her younger brother Thomas and his friends call one another. Oh, yes, whoremonger. It would serve that whoremongering cheating bastard right if I shot him. And then she felt a rush of guilt for even thinking such a thing. Because, of course, she was perfectly conscious of how very much she owed Hirst. And not just because of what he'd done for Tommy either, but because, out of all the girls in London, he'd singled her out to marry her. To be the sole recipient of those slow, seductive kisses. Or at least that's what she'd thought up until very recently. Now she realised that not only was she far from the sole recipient of those kisses, but that the ones she'd been receiving were quite different from the ones Lady Jacqueline was apparently used to. Damn. She brought up her other elbow and now rested her chin in both hands. What was she to do? The correct thing, of course, would be for hers to call it off. The Marquis was invariably correct in all of his activities. Well, with the exception of this one, of course. And so, Caroline thought it was not unreasonable to hope that he might be the one to break off their engagement, thus sparing her the embarrassment of having to do so. Darling, she pictured him saying, I am sorry, but you see, it turns out I've met a girl I like a tremendously lot better than you. But no, the Marquis of Winchelsea was nothing if not polite. He would probably say something like, caroline, my sweet, don't ask me to explain why, but I can't in good faith follow through with it. You understand, don't you, old sport? And Caroline would say she understood because Caroline was an old sport. Lady Jacqueline Selden was a strikingly attractive woman who sang and played the harp quite beautifully. As talented as she was lovely, she would make any man a wonderful wife. Although she hadn't any money. Of course, everyone knew that the Seldenslady, Jacqueline's father had been the 14th Duke of Charles, were an ancient and very well respected family, but they hadn't a penny to their name, only a few manor houses and an abbey or two scattered here and there. That Hurst, whose family was just as noble but likewise just as poor, would have chosen to align himself with the Seldons wasn't surprising, though Caroline wasn't certain it was the most prudent thing he had ever done. What did he and Lady Jacqueline imagine they were going to live on anyway? Because unless they rented out all of those magnificent properties to some wealthy Americans. They hadn't any source of income to speak of. But what did income matter to two people in love? It wasn't any of Caroline's concern anyway how the pair of them got on. Her problem was this. What was she going to tell her mother? The Dowager Lady Bartlett was not going to take this well, not by any stretch of the imagination. In fact, the news was likely to send her into one of her infamous fits she quite thoroughly adored. Why wouldn't she? He had, after all, saved the life of her only son. The debt Caroline's family owed the Marquis was enormous. By agreeing to marry him, Caroline had hoped, in some small way, to repay his kindness. But now it was quite clear that winning Caroline's hand hadn't been any particular accomplishment for the young marquis. How humiliating. And the invitations had already been sent out. 500 of them, to be exact. 500 people. The best of London society. Caroline supposed she was going to have to write to all of them. She began to feel a bit like crying when she thought of that. 500 letters. That was a bit much. Her hand usually cramped up after only two or three. Hirst ought to be the one to write the letters, she thought bitterly. After all, he was the one who'd broken the rules. But Hirst, who was much more of an outdoorsman than an intellectual, had never written anything longer than a cheque. So Caroline knew counting on any help from him in that quarter was foolish to the extreme. Perhaps she could merely put an announcement in the paper. Yes, that was it. Something tasteful. Explaining that the wedding of Lady Caroline Victoria Linford, only daughter of the 1st Earl of Bartlett and only sister of the 2nd, and Hirst Devonmore Slater, 10th Marquess of Winchelsea, was regretfully called off. Called off? Was that the right term for it? Lord? How embarrassing. Thrown over for Lady Jacqueline Selden. What would the girls back in school say? Well, Caroline consoled herself, it could have been worse. She couldn't think how, but she supposed it could. And then, quite suddenly, it was. Someone was coming. And not out of the sitting room either, but down the corridor. It was someone who was looking for Lady Jacqueline. Caroline realised as soon as the light from the candelabra he was holding illuminated his features enough for her to recognise them. And when she did, her heart stopped beating. She was quite sure of that. Her heart actually stopped beating for a moment. It hadn't done that when she'd opened the sitting room door and seen her fiance making love to another woman. No, not at all. But it did so now, in spite of the candelabra. His foot hit the leg of a small table on which rested a vase of dried flowers. When Braden Granville's foot hit the table, the vase wobbled and then fell over, sending a number of dried petals floating down onto the carpet runner below. He cursed beneath his breath and leaned down to write the vase. Caroline, watching him from between the banister vase, saw that he looked more annoyed than he should for someone who'd only accidentally knocked over some dried flowers. He knows, she thought, good Lord, he knows. This might just end in bloodshed after all. Without conscious thought, she rose to her feet and said, hello. Only her voice came out, sounding extraordinarily breathless. Braden Granville looked up sharply. Who's there? He asked. Its only me, caroline said. Whatever was the matter with her voice? It sounded ridiculously high pitched. She made an attempt to lower it. Caroline Linford, I sat next to you last month at a dinner at Lady Chittenhouse's. You probably don't remember. Oh, Lady Caroline, of course. There was no mistaking the disappointment in his deep voice. As she'd been speaking, he'd raised the candelabra and looked at her. She knew perfectly well what he'd seena young woman of medium height and medium weight, whose hair was neither blonde nor brown but a sort of sandy colour, and whose eyes were neither blue nor green but quite emphatically brown. Caroline knew she did not possess anything like the stunning dark beauty of Lady Jacqueline Selden, but she also knew, because her brother Thomas had told her, and brothers were nothing if not brutally honest, that she wasn't a girl to pass over without a second look either. But Braden Granville certainly passed her over quite without a second look. As if he were anything much to look at himself, Caroline thought with some indignation. Conceited pig. After all, he wasn't nearly so handsome as Hearst, whereas the Marquis of Winchelsea was a golden Adonis. With his curly blond hair, blue eyes, fair complexion, and tall arrow straight frame, Braden Granville was dark as sin, broad across the shoulders to the point of being barrel chested, and always looked as if he needed a shave. Even Caroline was quite certain, right after he'd just had one. Braden Granville lowered the candelabra and said, I don't suppose you've seen Lady Jacqueline Selden come this way, have you? Caroline's gaze darted toward the sitting room door. She hadn't meant it to. She hadn't meant to look anywhere near that door, but her gaze was drawn to it as Surely as the moon drew the tide. Lady Jacqueline, she echoed, stalling for time. What would happen, Caroline wondered, if she told him she had seen Lady Jacqueline? That she was in fact just inside that door? Why, Braden Granville would kill Hearst. That's what Thomas had told her all about the man he referred to admiringly as Granville. How Granville, who'd been born in Seven Dials, the poorest, seediest district in London, had made a fortune in the firearms business. How Granville was as ruthless in his personal life as he was in his business affairs. How Granville was known for considering a bullet the swiftest way to handle problems in either area, a fact which was not hurt by his being a world renowned crack shot with a pistol. Why, Hirst couldn't have hit the side of Westminster Abbey with a pistol even by throwing the silly thing. Yes, Braden Granville said, eyeing her curiously. Lady Jacqueline Selden. Surely you know her. Oh, Caroline said. Yes, I know her well, he said. The patience in his voice sounded quite forced. Have you seen her go by here with a gentleman, perhaps? I have reason to believe she was not alone. Caroline swallowed how odious this was, perhaps much more for him than for her. Because of course there was the fact that Granville had supposedly bedded more women than any man in London. This was not something Caroline's brother had announced at the breakfast table, but something she'd overheard him discussing with his friends. According to Thomas, Granville apparently had as many lovers as the infamous Don Juan. In fact, Thomas and his friends called him with straight faces no less the Lothario of London. Only lately had the Lothario finally settled down and made an offer of marriage to the most beautiful and accomplished woman in all of England, Lady Jacqueline Selden, who at that very moment was straddling Caroline's fiance, the Marquis of Winchelsea. Just imagine how a proud, self made man like Braden Granville, a man who was universally admired for his skills as a lover would feel when he found out his own fiance had betrayed him. And with the Marquis of Winchelsea of all people, who hadn't a penny to his name, only his very pretty face to live upon, why, all Caroline had to do was say a word. Just one word, and she wouldn't need to worry herself again with the wording of the times announcement. Her wedding to the Marquis of Winchelsea would have to be called off due to his untimely death. She shook herself. Good Lord, what was she thinking? She couldn't allow Braden Granville to shoot Hearst, not after the way Hearst had saved Tommy. I did see her, caroline admitted finally. She pointed toward the far end of the corridor. She went that way. Braydon Granville's face hardened. He hadn't a very handsome face to begin with, in the traditional sense of the word, and it had not been treated kindly by life. He bore the deep scar of what looked like a knife wound in his right eyebrow, but when that face hardened with determination, it became almost frightening to look at. Like looking at the face of the devil himself. What in heaven all the women he'd bedded had seen in him, Caroline couldn't imagine. She looked away and concentrated instead on a vision in her mind's eye of the face of the Marquis of Winchelsea, which was every bit as angelic as Braden Granville's was not. Was she with anyone? Caroline scissored a glance in his direction. I beg your pardon? I asked. He took a deep breath, as if for patience. Was Lady Jacqueline with anyone? A man, caroline replied. Why, yes, she was there, she told herself. That ought to get rid of him in a hurry, and thus keep him from discovering the truth which lay just beyond that door a few feet away. The smile Braden Granville's lips curled into upon hearing this sent a convulsive shiver up Caroline's spine. So pleased, so diabolically pleased. Did he look that? For a moment Caroline's breath caught in her throat. Why, he really was a devil. Thank you, Lady Caroline, braden Granville said, sounding a good deal more cordial than he had before. And then he started down the hallway, and Caroline tried to breathe again and found that she couldn't. This was alarming to say the least, but she was determined not to let Braden Granville know of her distress. No, what was important was not that she could no longer breathe, but that he go away, far, far away, so that Hirst might have a chance to escape. Only her efforts to hide her discomfort did not appear to have been very effective, since just as he passed the staircase upon which Caroline stood, Braden Granville turned and looked back at her inquisitively. Are you quite all right, Lady Caroline? He asked. He knew, though she didn't know how. She'd made no sound. How could she? She couldn't breathe. She nodded vigorously. Perfectly well, she managed to wheeze. You'd better hurry or you might miss her. But Braden Granville did not hurry. Oh, he looked very much as if he might have liked to, but instead he remained exactly where he was, looking at her with what? If she hadn't already caught a glimpse of that wicked smile she might have thought was concern, but no one with a smile as evil as that could Be capable of feeling concern. I think you're lying, Braden Granville said, and Caroline felt as if her heart might explode. He knows, she thought frantically. Oh, God, he knows. And now he's going to kill Hirst and it will be all my fault. But then he said, you aren't perfectly well. You've lost all the colour from your face and you seem to be having difficulty drawing breath. Nonsense. Caroline gasped, though she was lying, of course. She was gulping in enormous amounts of air, only none of it appeared to be actually getting into her lungs. It isn't nonsense. Braden Granville retraced his steps. When he'd reached the stairs on which Caroline stood, he leaned over and laid a hand upon the back of her neck, just as, a few moments before, Caroline had seen the Marquis of Winchelsea lay his hand upon the back of Lady Jacqueline's neck. Caroline's heart, which had skipped a beat when she had first seen Braden Granville come down the hall, now started to beat so fast she was certain it might burst. Good Lord, she thought irrationally. He's going to kiss me. He's going to do to me whatever it is he's done to all those women he supposedly bedded. And I shall be perfectly incapable of stopping him because he's the Lothario of London. Oddly, Caroline found the thought of being kissed by Braydon Granville not in the least upsetting. Only instead of tilting her head up so that he could kiss her, the Lothario of London said commandingly, sit down. Caroline was so startled that she sat without question. She didn't suppose there were many people who would dare to disobey an order given by the Great Granville, which was undoubtedly why he was so successful a businessman, not to mention lover. Then Braden Granville's hand on her neck tightened and incredibly, he pushed her head down until it was between her knees. There, he said with some satisfaction. Stay like that and you'll be better in no time. Caroline, staring at the beading on her skirt, said, her voice muffled against the stiff white satin. Erm, thank you, Mr. Granville. Her disappointment that he hadn't tried to kiss her or molest her in any way, despite her dislike of him, was profound and disturbing. Think nothing of it, Braden Granville said. Whoremonger, Caroline thought to herself as she stared into her own lap. I suppose I'm not good enough to seduce. After all, who am I? Oh, only the daughter of the 1st Earl of Bartlett, a nothing, a no one. I'm certainly no great beauty like Lady Jacqueline Selden, and I don't have any manor houses. In the Lake District. But there's one thing I jolly well do have that Lady Jacqueline doesn't. The common decency not to sleep with another woman's fiance. Oh, she added mentally. And a bit of money, too, of course. She expected him to go then, but he did not. The strong hand remained on the back of her neck. It was surprisingly warm. Ridiculous things, corsets. Braydon Granville went on conversationally, ought to be abolished. Caroline perfectly astonished that a man as great as Bradon Granville should be standing in a hallway with his hand upon her neck, and even more surprised that he should have brought up a subject as indifferent delicate as her corset said into her lap. I suppose some people think so. Was this, she wondered, a prelude to taking her corset off her and then, good Lord, seducing her? But Bradon Granville only said, I'm surprised you wear one at all. Aren't you friends with Lady Emily Stanhope? This was such a surprising question that Caroline heard herself say, you know Emmy. Everyone knows Lady Emily. She's become quite infamous for her involvement in the women's suffrage movement. I had assumed, being her friend, that you were as well. Oh, caroline said into her skirt. I am. I mean, I don't go to the rallies or anything. I don't much like rallies. It's so much nicer to stay at home with a book than to go about shouting until you're hoarse and chaining yourself to things. I see that you are at heart, a true freedom fighter, Lady Caroline Braden Granville observed dryly. Oh, caroline said, realising how foolish she must have sounded to him. Oh, but I do support Emmy's cause, you know. Last month alone, I paid her court penalties twice because her father won't do it any more. And I only wear a corset because, well, I think I do look nicer in one than not. I see. He sounded amused. Your suffragist leanings end where your comfort and vanity begin. At least you were honest enough to admit it. He was making sport of her, she knew that now, so he certainly wasn't going to try to seduce her. Caroline didn't know much about men, but she strongly suspected they wouldn't bother seducing a girl they'd made sport of. She was relieved, she supposed, but it was a little insulting that he hadn't even tried. After all, he'd apparently seduced every other girl in London. Why not her? Caroline knew she wasn't an elegant beauty, but she'd certainly had her share of admirers, including, just that morning, a young man, a complete stranger who'd chased her for nearly an entire city block after she'd roundedly berated him for needlessly whipping his horse, only to tip his hat and say her smile was every bit as bright and pretty as a brand new penny, and that he'd never whip another horse again. But Braden Granville apparently hadn't noticed her smile, and then the memory of the reason why she'd lost her breath in the first place returned in a rush. All this time they'd been in the hallway discussing her corset, hirst had been in mortal danger of discovery. Whatever could she have been thinking? Hadn't you better go, Mr. Granville? Caroline asked, trying to disguise the urgency in her voice. If you want to find Lady Jacqueline, I mean. Yes, he said. There was no kindness in his voice now. Well, I'm sure there's no chance of that anymore. Caroline, alarmed, asked, no chance of what? Finding her. Oh, you're quite wrong. I'm sure she's still close. Then, realising what she'd said, she thrust a finger toward the opposite end of the hallway. I'm sure if you just follow her. No point, braden Granville said flatly. Then he added, almost as if to himself, I lost any chance I might have had at catching her out in her little game when I took a wrong turn ten minutes back and ended up in the kitchens. Little game? Caroline echoed faintly, like someone recalling himself. Braden Granville said, never mind. Feeling any better yet? Caroline inhaled. Her temples tightened with the beginning of a headache, but surprisingly she found that she could breathe normally again. Much better, she said. Thank you. And then, because she was worried he might know more about the details of his fiance's faithlessness than he was letting on, like, for instance, the identity of her secret lover, she added, Im sure you're wrong, Mr. Granville, about your bride to be. I'm certain she isn't involved in any little game with anyone. The laugh Braden Granville let out was every bit as wicked as his smile had been when she'd told him. Oh, why? Why had she told him that she'd seen his fiance with another man? How very good natured of you, Lady Caroline, he said in a tone that wasn't the least bit complimentary. But please allow me to assure you that your confidence in Lady Jacqueline is sorely misplaced. And when I get the name of the fellow, I'll be only too happy to prove it in a court of law, if necessary. You might mention that to her when you next see her quite open mouthed at this extraordinary declaration, and at the thought that she and Jacqueline selden were anything but the most distant acquaintance. Caroline fought to think of some sort of reply. She was saved, however, from making any when the door to Dame Ashforth's private sitting room opened and the Marquis of Winchelsea stepped into the corridor. Oh, caroline said, finding her voice at last. Dear.
