In this episode, I’m sharing how ayahuasca taught me what men actually want most in love, and trust me, it’s not what you think.

For years, I thought being a great partner meant being impressive. You know… beautiful, productive, healed, spiritual, totally “on it.” But the more I tried to be perfect, the more disconnected I felt, from myself, and from Ani.

Then, during a recent ayahuasca ceremony, I had this wild revelation that completely changed how I show up in love.

But it didn’t start pretty.

It started with emotional mud wrestling, loneliness, restlessness, and that deep ache of not feeling chosen.

And somewhere in the middle of all that chaos… the cosmic joke landed.

By the end of this episode, I’ll share what I finally realized about love, attraction, and what men truly crave, and how it has nothing to do with what you do, and everything to do with who you are.

🔥 What You’ll Hear Me Talk About

What men don’t want (and how I learned this the hard way)
The trap of performing in love — trying to prove, perfect, or “earn” your value
How ayahuasca mirrored my old pattern of hustling for worth
The loneliness that comes from believing your value is external
The turning point: from wrestling myself to realizing something way simpler
The “no-process process” — why presence is the work
The surprising energy that shifts everything in love and polarity
How I started practicing peace, belonging, and safety in real time

💎 Who This Episode Is For

This one’s for the high-achieving, self-aware woman who’s done all the inner work — but still feels like she has to earn love, control outcomes, or hold it all together.

It’s for the woman who’s tired of performing and wants to feel relaxed, desired, and deeply safe in her relationship — without doing more, fixing more, or processing forever.

🌹 The Untamed Moment

My Untamed Moment came right in the middle of ceremony, when I stopped trying to “process” my pain and just stood up — started dancing — and realized I could choose peace instead of working my way to it.

That moment flipped everything for me.

Because I saw that ease, safety, and love aren’t things you earn.

They’re states you return to.

💬 Reflection Question

What do you want in your love life — and how will you feel when you have it?

Can you practice that feeling now?

Let me know in the comments — I’d love to hear what state you’re choosing.

📲 Stay Connected

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