Podcast Summary: Aware and Aggravated

Episode 61: "After 3 Days Alone In The Woods I Stopped Resenting God"

Release Date: March 3, 2026
Host: Leo Skeppy (as "C")

Episode Overview

In this introspective episode of Aware and Aggravated, Leo Skeppy shares the raw story of how three days of solitude in a remote cabin transformed his outlook on life, self-worth, and his relationship with God. Through candid storytelling, Leo details the emotional rollercoaster of ego deaths, personal resentments, and a breakthrough that led to renewed clarity and self-acceptance. The episode powerfully blends humor, vulnerability, and practical wisdom for listeners navigating similar emotional struggles.

Key Topics and Discussion Breakdown

1. Product Launch and Excitement [02:00-07:00]

• Sunglasses Launch:
  Leo enthusiastically unveils his new LS Collection sunglasses, going into the details of the packaging, gold accents, and innovative features (e.g., weighted legs and a mini screwdriver).

  • "My excitement, my will to live is back and kicking. But my sunglasses are done. … I think you guys going to love them. So the Leo Skeppy sunglasses are done and they're ready." [03:04]

• Launch Dates & Scarcity:
  Limited online drop on his birthday (March 7th) and a larger inventory planned for the Houston pop-up (March 28-29).

2. Overstimulation and the Desire to Escape [07:01–11:45]

• Life Overwhelms & Home Restlessness:
  Leo describes feeling trapped and resentful in his own home, viewing it as a symbol of sacrifice and personal neglect, exacerbated by noisy neighbors and a loss of personal peace.

  • "I was so overstimulated in that moment...I get home and I resent the out of my house. … I hate it." [08:36]
  • "I ended up giving half of [my money] away last year, like a fucking idiot." [09:00]

• Booking an Escape:
  Overwhelmed, he flees to an isolated cabin, booking it impulsively via Airbnb.

  • "I literally got so overstimulated. I came upstairs and I went in my closet because it's dead silent...I zoom in to just woods, forest, like, anything green...I was like, I want to go to a cabin in the woods." [10:23]
  • "I hauled ass. I got to the cabin before they even approved the listing." [11:20]

3. Alone in the Cabin: Confronting Resentment [11:46–20:50]

• Instant Peace in Nature:
  The contrast between the cabin's serenity and his daily life is palpable.

  • "I pull up immediately. I feel at peace. It’s like one of them Disney movies...I could just hear the birds chirping...my nervous system finally got to just relax and let go." [11:50]

• Journaling and Self-Confrontation:
  Leo brings only a blank notebook to journal, soon realizing his sense of resentment—originally projected onto God—is actually toward himself.

  • "I was having a lot of resentment toward God...Like, how the fuck can I do so much for so many people...There's nobody that looks after me." [15:40]
  • "I realized my resentments toward me and my whole—all my feelings of feeling forgotten about and feeling like God turned his back on me...I turned my back on myself." [19:55]

4. The Letters to God Exercise [21:00–23:30]

• Technique Introduction:
  Inspired by Teal Swan, Leo writes a letter to God expressing his grievances, then swaps "you" for "me" in the letter, exposing the real root of his pain.

  • Original Letter to God: "Dear God, I don't know what the is going on. I feel like you turned your back on me…" [21:30]
  • Transformed Letter to Self: "Dear me, I don't know what the is going on. I feel like I turned my back on me…" [22:10]

• Core Realization:
  "My resentment is toward myself because I have been so busy trying to earn everyone else's love that I haven't earned my own." [23:34]

  • This exercise shifts his awareness from external blame to internal responsibility.

5. The Hard Lessons of Generosity and Self-Abandonment [23:35–26:10]

• Leo reflects on how giving away so much (money, energy) left him depleted and unfulfilled, and on the importance of setting boundaries—especially for empathic, giving people.

  • “If you could buy love, I’d have plenty. It don’t come from the external is the hard pill I’ve had to swallow.” [24:40]
  • “The worst part is I resent myself because I didn’t even realize I was doing this. I’m too smart for this at this point.” [25:30]

6. The Breakthrough: Self-Trust and Fault [26:11–27:59]

• Clarity and Empowerment:
  Taking responsibility is liberating for Leo: "I love when things are my fault. Thank you, God, for making it my fault because I can fix it." [26:11]

  • He feels renewed peace, trust in himself, and a clear vision for his priorities: future pop-up events, travel, and finding a home in nature.

• New Boundaries:
  "This year I'm going to be a selfish dick. I'm going to give when I feel truly like my soul wants to give...everybody else eats." [27:30]

7. The Nighttime Encounter: Fear and Survival Instincts [28:00–32:10]

• Memorable Story:
  Leo recounts in comedic detail a terrifying night when he almost shoots at a mysterious four-legged animal outside his cabin.

  • “I was in the middle of nowhere, and I was in a bad spot. So I was like, let’s take it there. If you thought some random person was coming to an airbnb...wrong one.” [26:54]
  • “It fucking growls. And it was not a dog. And I was like, fair game. So I shot directly where I could hear it—but like a foot next to it. … But it growled real, like, intimidating. I was like, it’s gotta be a bear.” [30:35]

• Dark Humor & Relief:
  He jokes about rethinking suicidal ideation: "That’s how I knew I didn’t want to unalive myself...protector me took over." [31:55]

8. Integration and Closing Reflections [32:11–33:22]

• Coming Home:
  After the retreat, Leo feels changed, at peace, and excited for the sunglass launch and upcoming travels.

• Final Thoughts:
  Encourages listeners to post a bird emoji if they made it to the end and teases next week’s “What Would Leo Do?” advice/Q&A.

  • “I feel my soul very strongly again. I feel better. … If you needed a retreat or you need an escape, go.” [31:50]

Notable Quotes & Memorable Moments

On Self-Realization & Responsibility:

• "Everything that I felt toward God showed me everything that I need to fix in my relationship with myself." [25:48]
• “I love when things are my fault. … Give me a little piece of control, please. … I will take it.” [26:11]

On the Letters to God Practice:

• “Switch every single time you say ‘you’ and put ‘me’. … That little exercise revealed the truth.” [21:45]

On Making Peace with Solitude:

• “I feel like I’ve re-met myself again—and I like me...I feel really good and I feel very at peace because I just trust things again.” [27:48]

Cabin Horror-Story Humour:

• “If I can see the whites of your eyes, you're done. … I cocked the gun, footsteps keep coming…” [27:00]
• “If I kill something, I’m eat it. Unless it’s a person.” [30:30]

Timestamps for Important Segments

• 02:00–07:00: Sunglasses reveal and product launch details
• 07:01–11:45: Overstimulation, home frustration, booking the cabin escape
• 11:46–20:50: Settling in, finding peace in nature, self-reflection, and resentment toward God
• 21:00–23:30: Letters to God exercise and revelation
• 23:35–27:59: Processing self-abandonment, lessons on giving, reclaiming agency
• 28:00–32:10: Nighttime encounter with an animal, humor and survival instincts
• 32:11–33:22: Integration, returning home, plans for the future

Tone and Style

• Candid, irreverent, and honest: Leo’s storytelling is raw, laced with humor (often dark), and packed with emotional vulnerability.
• Conversational & Relatable: He directly addresses his listeners, oscillating between jokes, tough love, and genuine encouragement.

Key Takeaways

• External success and generosity mean little if you’re neglecting your own needs and self-worth.
• Resentment toward God or others often masks deeper self-abandonment.
• Self-awareness and true agency come from honest, sometimes uncomfortable, self-inquiry.
• Retreats into nature can reconnect you with your authentic self.
• Taking radical responsibility—even for your own pain—is the path to empowerment and peace.

Listener Engagement:

• If you made it to the end: comment a bird emoji!
• Submit your questions for next episode’s “What Would Leo Do?” segment.

Episode links: Sunglasses drop (March 7), Houston pop-up (March 28–29), and Q&A submission in episode description.