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Hang on. I have to get dressed before we start the episode. Hang on. Okay, I'm ready. The sunglasses are done. I have so many things to tell you about. I ran away in the middle of the woods for like three days. Had some new awareness. Last time you saw me, I was like not done in the dumps. But I've been going through a whole reconstruction of self, ego, death. I don't know how many ego deaths I gotta go through. How many you got? Like, I've been through like 23, just about out. I'm like, how many ego deaths you got to go through? How many egos gotta die? We'll get to all the clarity I found in the woods, I also had to shoot at some animals. Scared the out of me. But I have to tell you about the sunglasses first. My excitement, my will to live is back and kicking. But my sunglasses are done. I have them on. For the people listening to the audio version of this. You have to go watch the video on my tick tock on my Instagram. I did an unboxing, but I want to leave this on the whole episode. But let me show you what they come with. Okay, audio people, you're just going to have to hear me describe it. So we got a nice box that they come in with a gold logo says LS Collection. So inside the box we got the leather hard case, but it also says LS Collection and gold at the top of the hard case. Okay, there's more. Hang on. So, Dan, I put you a little travel case. It's a little leather pouch and it's got a big LS debossed into it, the logo. Nice and dance. You can put whatever you want in here. And yes, it has gold little details on the court. Duh. But the opening of it, it's like a magnetic kind of like springy thing. So it's flat and then you got to squeeze the two edges and it pops open. Can you hear it? Next we got the little cleaning cloth with a gold LS logo on it. And yes, I put the logo at the corner so that you can use the cleaning cloth. It's. I hope companies put it right in the middle. Like, girl, I gotta clean my glasses, you know? Okay, last but not least, there's a little keychain that comes in it, and it's a screwdriver in case any of the hinges get loose on the glasses over time. Like, you know how you wear sunglasses and they loosen up? This is the little screwdriver. You could tighten them. And this screwdriver also works for every pair of sunglasses. They all come with the same hinges and the same little screws. So I got you all prepared, ready to go. Those drop on my birthday, March 7th. Now, these are the actual glasses I'm trying to move out of the camera so you can see. Damn it. I can't get the camera to focus. So I'm just going to insert some photos for you. But there's also these little gold tips on the back of the legs, and they're weighted to little pieces on the back so they don't slide off your face. I hate when the glasses fall off or like you're out having a good time. Dancing and the glasses fall off. No, I thought of everything. Also they're polarized and with the lenses you can barely see your eyes if you're looking at someone wearing them. Because when I look at my business, I like my privacy. Okay, one more thing. With the gold on the glasses, they took so long. Because I was such a stickler about the color, I made sure that it matched 14 karat gold exactly. So it looks exactly like jewelry. And the way that the emblem is cut reflects like jewelry. Ah, very me. And now they're perfect. And now I'm happy. And now that I've held them and I like have them and I unbox them, the full experience you guys are going to get. I'm very confident and I'm very happy about it. I think you guys going to love them. So the Leo Skeppy sunglasses are done and they're ready. But there is a little trick to launch because I'm only dropping a limited amount of sunglasses on my actual birthday, which is March 7th. They're all here and ready to go. This is not a pre order thing. Like these are done and ready. I made sure of it. Okay, so like I said, the drop on March 7 is going to be limited because I want to save most of the inventory for the pop up store I'm doing in Houston March 28th and 29th. So I'm in kind of like a catch 22 because I want to sell the glasses but I don't want people to come to the pop up and then not be able to get them. So I want to make sure I have majority of the inventory for the in person people who come all that way to come see me or people that live in the city and want to spend their time coming to the store. I want to make sure I have the products for you. So the online drop is going to be a little limited. We just going to have to see what happens. If I have to order more, I'll order more. But I'm very, very, very excited about that. I'll put the link in the description for my website. Yeah. Okay. So you want to talk about the cabin? Oh God. So I got real over stimulated, like really, really bad. And I was like this. I've been trying to travel less but I just get home and I'm like, I resent the out of my house. I hate it. Like I, I did hate it. Like I was so irritated with it because it's just a reflection of like my failure is what I was seeing it as. I'm like, no Matter how hard I've tried to decorate this, it doesn't look right. I hate it. I got this house as, like, a safety bet when I first moved here. Like, I didn't know how I was doing financially, and I take care of so many people, and I retired my mom, so I wanted to make sure I didn't overspend on a house. So I kind of settled and got, like, a house, like. Like a starter house for myself. See the area, see what I like, and then go from there. And then I made money last year, and I ended up giving half of it away. Half of what I made last year, I gave away like a fucking idiot. Ooh. Ooh. Like, I'm so mad at myself. I'm irritated about it. Like, yeah, I gave it away, and it's like, okay, good and great. Like, yeah, I did a lot of great things, and I helped a lot of people, but, like, I didn't prioritize for myself. Okay? So, like, looking at this house, I'm like, I gave all this shit to all these people, and it's like, I'm still living in this house. I'm unhappy with my neighbors. Somebody's over here having singing lessons with the window open. And then the garbage truck comes by, and. And then the pest control people come, and then my other neighbor's doing something with the kids, and they're up screaming down the block. And then there was just so many noises and so many things going on, and I couldn't hear myself. Like, I felt like I couldn't hear what I was feeling or what I was thinking at all. I was so overstimulated in that moment, too. But it's like, I feel like I couldn't hear myself for a couple days, and I was like, what the fuck do I do? I literally got so overstimulated. I came upstairs and I went in my closet because it's dead silent, and I could escape all the fucking noise. I get on airbnb. I zoom in to just woods, forest, like, anything green, where there was no roads and no nothing. I zoomed into the bitch, and all of a sudden, it popped up a listing, and I was like, I want to go to a cabin in the woods. I don't even care if it turns out like that movie and I die. I want to get away from civilization, okay? So I was like, should I do this? Like, I'm in the middle of, like, trying to plan this launch and plan so many different things, and I have the Vegas trip coming up. I was like, you know What? Fuck this. I'm good for. I'm standing in my closet right now because I want to go outside and start shooting my gun off and scaring everybody so they shut the fuck up. So I'm like, you've been pushed to this point, Leo. You can't hear yourself. You're irritating yourself. Let's just get out. Let's just go. Let's go run away. So I booked this cabin. I found it within, like, 10, 15 minutes. Booked it. It was like, an hour and a half drive from my house. So I've literally packed a couple of things. One little duffel bag. I'm a heavy packer, all right? I pack a lot of. I packed a duffel bag and three packs of cigarettes. I got in the car and hauled ass. I got to the cabin before they even approved the listing. But it was like God's timing, because as soon as I pull in. Oh, being approved. Here's your check in instructions. I was like, thank God. Like, I was fully okay with it, though. I was like, even if I just get out to the middle of nowhere and I'm sitting outside the Airbnb waiting on them to approve my reservation, so be it. I'll be at more peace. I want to go hear some birds chirping, and I want to just do nothing, you know? So this Airbnb is four miles from a main road and, like, where you could even go into town, this shit's far out and bumfuck nowhere. I. I loved it. So I pull up immediately. I feel at peace. It's like one of them Disney movies, like, when people, like, come home for, like, the holidays or something, and they just open the door and they, like, breathe in the fresh air of, like, that was me. Dramatic ass, me getting to their little cabin with. I fucking get out the car. I breathe, and I could just hear the birds chirping. The sun's out and I was like, oh, wow. Like, my nervous system finally got to, like, just relax and let go. I walk into Airbnb. Cutest thing I ever seen. It's like a studio type thing in the living room where, like, the bedroom was. I posted a tick tock. You can go watch. But there was also, like, a separate secluded bedroom. I was so at peace. That's my favorite thing to do is just go be in the middle of nature. I was outside. I was talking to the birds. I have a cigarette. I just enjoy. It's like, it's so quiet. Your ears start ringing. Oh, my God. Oh, my God. I love it. So Bad, like, this is what I want. And then I started getting irritated, like, with my house. I'm like, this is what I want. And I'm pissed off, like, with last year. I did all this and so much for so many people. And it's like, I still don't have, like, a house that I'm comfortable in or happy. And it's like, most of the people I did so much for, I'm not on great terms with anymore. I went through a lot of heartbreak last year that wasn't talked about. It's like, just so many people. I've lost faith in people. I have it back a little, but, like, I. Last year was a rough year. Like, it was. So many great things happened, but it was just. I gave so much and did so much and just got shit on. Like, why is violence illegal? I'll question that every single day of my life. But I'm out here in the cabin, okay? So I brought a journal with me, a blank notebook. I didn't want to do anything but just sit with myself and write because I resented God so bad, and I could not understand why. I felt like I needed to listen to myself, but I couldn't. I couldn't hear myself. So I escaped to a cabin in the middle of bum fuck nowhere. I. And I'm like, you know what? God, you and me. All right, Put your gloves on. He knocked the shit out of me with some awareness. Oh, my God. Yeah, you. God swings back. He does. Hurts my feelings. So I was having a lot of resentment toward God. I was. I was. I was just, like, irritated. Like, how the fuck can I do so much for so many people and do so much just in general and go in line with my integrity? And there's no. There's nobody that looks after me. There's nobody that takes care of me. There's nobody that, like, comes through for me, really. And I was just so confused because, like, I have my mom and I have my family, just in general. I felt like God turned his back on me. I felt like I, like, must have done something. Like, what the. Like, you don't. With me no more. You don't like me no more. What happened? But that's why I don't like feeling blessed, because I don't know what's going on. Like, I don't know why you love me or why you hate me. I don't like that. I, like, control it. Yeah. I just felt really, like, forgotten about before I went out to the cabin. I didn't realize resentment can, like, really like work a number. Like I was stuck in the two emotional states of hopelessness and anger. Like rage. I just kept going back and forth between like irritated and hopeless. Didn't want to get out to bed. That's not nice, that's not fun. And I didn't understand what was going on. And like I said, I could feel like an awareness coming to me, but I couldn't hear myself. I felt like. And this is why I always say, and I personally believe screaming at God is better than no relationship at all. Because if you have this thing that's all knowing and knows everything and he's looking down at you, he, she, it, whatever source itself. Source is everything. It's looking at you and you're just throwing a tantrum. God understands that you only see your limited perspective and you're upset, you pissed off. He's looking at you like, yeah, yeah, okay, right? Yeah. Like you're irritated just because you don't see everything yet. Like God is just gonna look at you and be like, oh, he's not gonna get mad at you for getting mad at him. He's so much bigger than you. So it's literally just like a little two year old coming up to me and throwing a tantrum. It's like me throwing a tantrum at God. I'm like, oh, you just don't see it yet. Oh, wait a it. Just wait, just wait. That's how I think God looks at people. That's how I think he looks at me. It's like just a little kid who don't know what the going on. So whenever I have a problem, I just like give it to him. And sometimes I'm really mad and sometimes I'm not. But when I just let him have it, I always get the awareness. It's like talking and having my attention and my awareness on that source and on God. It's like it kind of like links like a channel for information to fall through to me in a weird way. It's like you access that higher perspective by having your like your awareness and your attention fixed on it and like being irritated at it. If you're irritated, be irritated. If you upset, heartbroken. Can be heartbroken. Tell him, tell him about it. I just look at it like it makes a link with like consciousness so you can like receive more shit. So that's kind of what happened. And I was just kind of letting God have it a little. And I was writing and I realized like what I was feeling was resentment, like bad. And that was the reason that I was feeling all the ways that I was feeling. But when I say God punches back, you knocked the shit out of me. Hit me with a little two piece. My resentment is toward myself. It's not at God like way to piss me off. I was the problem. I was, I was. So yeah, I realized my resentments toward me and my whole all my feelings of feeling forgotten about and feeling like God turned his back on me. And it's like I can't do anything to get something to look after me. And I just kept seeing it all over my life. It's like if there's ever a ball to drop, I never drop it. Everything in my life goes wrong because other people fuck it up. And I'm so. I get that happens, that reflects in my reality. And I get mad at God because I'm like everybody want to make violence illegal. I could correct a lot of behavior real fast. A lot of stupidity and a lot of people just not giving a about quality and service and just people in general. I could handle it. I could fix a lot of problems for myself. But unfortunately for me to stay out from behind bars I have to play in little game playing these little laws we have. Oh please. But basically all of the things that I was feeling about God was myself. I turned my back on myself. Like that's my relationship to me. And I did an exercise that I heard Teal Swan talk about. It's a video she made called Letters to God. And you write a letter to God however you feel. And you just write it out like I feel like you've turned your back on me. I've Let me just read it to you. So I said dear God, I don't know what the is going on. I feel like you turned your back on me. This is because things out of my control go wrong. As there must be more at play besides my actions alone. Because those are in check. People don't honor me or care to treat me good. I can't get them to do right for me. I hate them. Everyone is a disappointment. You cut me no slack. I don't know how you expect me to trust you. I feel abandoned by you. I feel like you don't give a about me. I do all that I can and I get no help. You sit back and watch. I don't know how to earn your love. I don't think you'll ever love me. In a way I will feel. You confuse me. Sometimes shit's good but there's always some kind of catch. I don't know why the shit that happens to me happens. I get plenty of clarity around the unwanted and you keep hitting me with more. I'm not in control clearly. I feel alone and I'm ready to give up. Part of me already has. So the whole thing with the letters to God is you're supposed to switch every single time you say you and put me. So let me reread you this letter and this is what is really going on. Dear me, I don't know what the is going on. I feel like I turned my back on me. This is because things are out of my control and go wrong as there must be more at play besides my actions alone because those are in check. People don't honor me or care to treat me good. I can't get them to do right for me. I hate them. Everyone's a disappointment. I cut me no slack. I don't know how I expect me to trust myself. I feel abandoned by myself. I feel like I don't give a about me. I've done all I can and I get no help. I sit back and watch. I don't know how to earn my love. I don't think I'll ever love me in a way I will feel I confuse me sometimes shit's good but there's always some kind of catch. I don't know why the that happens to me happens. I get clarity of the unwanted but I keep hitting myself with more. I'm not in control clearly I feel alone and I'm ready to give up. Part of me already has. So that little exercise revealed the truth. My resentment is toward myself because I have been so busy trying to earn everyone else's love that I haven't earned my own. What I've been talking about in the past few episodes, this whole eagle death around like earning people's love and then you lose the scale of how to base your self worth on and then you perceive you have no way to perceive self worth so you feel worthless. And then it's the resentment for yourself of how you've discarded yourself and turned your back on yourself. It's like last year. I still live in the house that I live in because I didn't set aside money for myself to make sure I was okay. I was giving it to my friends, I was giving it to my family. I was making sure everybody was taken care of. Giving it to strangers, donating it, helping so many more people. Half a million dollars I gave away last year. That's close to half of what I made. So that's not even including setting aside money for taxes. I didn't leave myself with shit. And if you could buy love, I'd have plenty. It don't come from the external is the hard pill I've had to swallow. And the worst part is I resent myself because I didn't even realize I was doing this. I'm too smart for this at this point. I've been through this situation too many times. I'm so irritated with myself that I went through it. But I'm happy that I've gotten this awareness now because everything that I felt toward God showed me everything that I need to fix in my relationship with myself. And after sitting with that and journaling for two days straight, no phone, no nothing, the third day I checked my phone and I posted a TikTok. Being at the cabin because I got scared at night. I'll tell you the story in a second. I've had a whole lot of perspectives shift and like, the way that I see myself and the way that I feel about myself and the way that I feel spending time with myself. I don't know how to describe the peace that I feel. I feel like I can breathe again. I feel like I trust God again. I feel like I trust myself again because my actions can control me being taken care of. And that's not something that I've done. It's like I was so busy taking care of everybody else. Everything else, like the place that I'm in right now is not because of God. God gave me money and I gave it away. God gave me money and I didn't take care of myself with it. So of course I don't feel cared about. That's on me. And I love when things are my fucking fault. Thank you, God, for making it my fault because I can fix it. God forbid I leave something up in somebody else's hands, they'll fuck it up. I love when things are my fault. Oh, oh, Give me a little piece of control, please. I will take it. I will take gladly. I love when things are my fault because this year I'm going to be a selfish dick. I'm going to give. When I feel truly like my soul wants to give and help certain people, everybody else eats. There's so many times that I thought my soul was guiding me to do something, but it was like my ego and like other things, trying to earn love and earn approval. And it's like now I know how to discern between the two. After sitting in silence for two days and hearing nothing but a bird chirp, it's crazy. I feel like I've, like, re met myself again and I like me, I'm like, oh, you're fine. Like inside and out. Like, I'm. I feel really good and I feel very at peace because I just trust things again and I trust myself again. And I love that this is my fault. Thank God. It's my. Thank you a lot. Thank you. Thank you for letting me see that. It's my fault. Not mad at you no more. But, yeah, I know exactly what to do. I know exactly what to change. And I feel very at peace. And I experienced what our nervous systems are supposed to be like, being out in nature. I want that. That's my goal this year, is I want to go do my popup. I want to do my sunglasses launch, go to Vegas, do my pop up at the end of the month. And then I have my truck. And I've been traveling around doing shit. But it's like, now I'm on the hunt for. I want to go stay in a bunch of cabins and a bunch of random places. I love being in the middle of nowhere. And I want to figure out what area I want to live in because I want a mountain. Like, I want a little mountain view or something. Little cabin in the middle of nowhere. I'm talking 100 acres, minimum. I want to look out the door and not see a single soul. I want to be alone. And then I'll go into the city or I'll go, like, fly somewhere if I want to be around. Like, I just need that escape. Because when I can't escape people, that is, when I lose my mind, I have to come back to me. I like to hang out with myself. You know, I have to be isolated in the middle of 100 acres. So be it. I'll get a chicken or something. I don't want no chicken. I want some birds to tweet, wake me up in the morning. Be nice. But yeah, I got clarity around, like, what is my part to do and how to kind of, like, deal with myself. Oh, I can't believe I felt all those ways toward myself, like, after the reading that. Now I haven't read that since I left the cabin. Like, I was really, really down. And it's like after reading that, after spending the three days of myself, like, in nature, I'm like, I'm so glad this happened. I'm happy I met myself. And if you needed a retreat or you need an escape, go. But let me tell you about this story about this animal I shot at. I didn't shoot it, I don't think. But I'm outside this cabin. It's beautiful during the day, okay? There's little rocking chairs. Like, I'm outside on my rocking chair. There's one day I spent all day from sunup to sundown and outside in the chair, writing, just writing my thoughts, meeting myself, talking myself, hanging out with myself. Hanging out with the birds and smoked pack of cigarettes. Sitting there by myself during the day. Beautiful. I feel very at peace. The birds is chirping. The wind is blowing. The sun is down. Nice at night. Horror movie. Terrifying. So dark. Can't see your hand up on your face. And it gets so quiet. It's so quiet during the day, but it's nice because the birds, it's peaceful. If you're like a little Disney princess or something. At night, nothing. Horror. Pitch dark. Like, I. I don't know how to, like, describe how I feel. Like I was in a horror movie and I just had to, like, nut up and deal with it. But, like, I was in the middle of the woods and I brought my gun with me, Duh. So one night I'm up till, like, midnight, and so I step outside to have my last cigarette before I go to bed. I'm like, you know what? This is nice. Just smoking my little cigarette. All of a sudden, I start hearing footsteps. And there's not the brightest porch lights outside. You can't see 10ft away from you. So I hear footsteps walking toward me. And it was one of those moments where, like, fight or flight mode kicks on. And I felt like I was on that show naked and afraid. I had clothes on, but just, like, vulnerable, exposed, out in the middle of nothing. And I was, like, relying on my hearing to kick up so I could hear and my eyes. And I couldn't. Like, everything. All my, like, survival instincts, like the hunter killer came out. Ah. It was not flight. It was fight.
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So I'm like, who? If this is a person, it sounded like a person walking. I'm like, if this is a person, you're dead. Okay. I was in the middle of nowhere, and I was in a bad spot. So I was like, let's take it there. If you thought some random person was coming to an airbnb, and if this was like one of them hills have eyes type where people, like, try and come, like, mess with you or, like, rob you or attack you. Wrong one. I was very excited. I was in a dark spot with myself. Had my gun on me, fully loaded, 17 bullets, and I was ready to go. You thought you was going to come get me. Come try it. Please come try it. Walk close enough where I can make a figure like, of your body. If I can see the whites of your eyes, you're done. I was so excited, but I hear these footsteps. I cocked the gun. I'm like, if it's a human being, they're going to realize, yeah, wrong person to try and get in this cabin. Let me go ahead and go on my way. No, I cocked the gun. Footsteps keep coming. And then I started to pay attention. And I can hear, like, the walking pattern. It's like four. It's four legged, whatever it is, Four legged. And it ain't little for someone trying to say, oh, he's playing raccoon. There was no raccoon, all right? It wasn't a bunny. It wasn't hopping. It was like something walking. And I could hear the steps. And I was like, oh, my God, it's coming faster and faster and faster. And I was like, I'm going to shoot it. And then I was like, wait, because I'm on a farm. Is this potentially like, the owner's dog or something? Did it, like, come outside? I'm like, I can't shoot it because what if it's this person's dog? Imagine somebody comes to reach Airbnb, shoots your dog because they got scared. Not happening. I'm not doing that. So I'm like, you know what? I'm gonna wait till I can see the whites if it dies. Like, whenever it walks up, I'm like, I'm just gonna wait until I can, like, make out what it is. But it starts moving a little fast. And so I like, walk out away from the door like an idiot. But I wanted a clearer view. So I'm trying to see it fucking growls. And it was not a dog. And I was like, fair game. So I shot directly where I could hear it. But, like a foot next to it. Because I was like, I want it to. I don't want to kill it. If it's like a mountain lion or something, they're cute. Like a little mountain lion. Like, what if it was like a hog or something? I don't eat pork. If I kill something, I'm eat it. Unless it's a person. Like, that's how I was raised. Like, with hunting, if you're gonna hunt, you're gonna eat what you kill. So, like, I don't eat pork. I don't want to kill the hog. But it growled real, like, intimidating. I was like, it's gotta be a bear. I have to make it in my mind it was a bear. Because as scared as I was, if it was just a little mountain lion girl, if I could make you friends with you, buy a can of tuna, Shut the up. No, it's for me. It was a bear. It was a big scary bear. I had bear spray in the car whole time. I didn't even bring it inside. Stupid. Oh, my God. At least I was prepared. But to me, it was a bear. So I'm going with the story with the bear. So I shoot at it. One bullet. That's like a warning shot, because if it started running toward me, I was gonna unload the whole clip, but it stops dead stop. Doesn't run, doesn't get scared. I was like, oh, shit. What if it's a skinwalker? That's the first thing that popped into my head. I'm like, oh, my God. If it's a skinwalker, oh, my God. Are they real? I don't know. But I'm out here alone, and now I have 16 bullets left. So I considered that a truce, and I took off running inside, locked the door. I didn't hear it again. I did sleep in the bed with my hand on my gun the whole night. I put the safety back on while I slept, but that's how I knew I didn't want to unalive myself. That was a good clarity that dropped in. I didn't contemplate that, but it was like, a very, like, reaffirming. Yeah, that's not even a question right now. Even though I was, like, really down because, like, I wanted to protect myself and make sure I was okay. Yeah, I was scared, but, like, protector me took over, and he was there ready to stay every day. And then I thought I was a skinwalker, and we both hauled ass. Moral of a story. I feel my soul very strongly again. I feel better. So, yeah. And then all that. And then I came home to the final product of my sunglasses, and I got to unbox it. And it's like, the joy that I felt, the hope that I feel. Oh, I'm very happy about it. I'm very excited for you guys to get them. If you order them, if you want them, get them March 7th. And if you can't get them online, if they sell out or anything, or if you just want to wait the pop up, I'm gonna have a lot of inventory, so. Yeah, I'm so excited. Like, genuinely, I'm so giddy how I'm supposed to go to sleep tonight. I have things to do tomorrow. Ah, I need to stop talking about this because I get myself all amped up worked up for everybody who made it this far comment. A tree emoji or a bird? No, I want a bird. Come in a bird. Have you made it this far in the episode Come with a bird. Okay, next week I want to do a what would Leo do? So I'm gonna record it before I leave for Vegas. So I want to do like a fun, light hearted have a good time. So I'll put the link for the what would Leo do? Submissions in the description. They're all anonymous and keep it to the point. Okay. Like I get like 10,000. So like keep it to the focal point please. Like I want to get through as many as I can. So if there needs to be details you can add them. But like keep it to the point. I wonder how the advice has changed. We'll see. I also want to kind of do some fun ones too. Ask me anything. It could be like a Q and A, but also like a what would Leo do? So submit it. I'll put in the description. I'm also going to put my website but March 7th sunglasses drop. I've said it. Hard times. I'm excited. Can you tell me? I'm proud of them too. But I'll leave the link for my website in the description. I'm gonna be posting some teaser pics and things like that on Instagram and stuff. You gotta give me a second. Okay, I'm getting it. I'm working on. It's coming. I'll also add the details in the description for the Pop up event in Houston, Texas. So yeah, that's gonna be March 28th and 29th. That's all I got for this week. Thanks for hanging out with me. Love you so bad. Everybody be safe, take care of yourself and I'll talk to you guys next Sunday.
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Release Date: March 3, 2026
Host: Leo Skeppy (as "C")
In this introspective episode of Aware and Aggravated, Leo Skeppy shares the raw story of how three days of solitude in a remote cabin transformed his outlook on life, self-worth, and his relationship with God. Through candid storytelling, Leo details the emotional rollercoaster of ego deaths, personal resentments, and a breakthrough that led to renewed clarity and self-acceptance. The episode powerfully blends humor, vulnerability, and practical wisdom for listeners navigating similar emotional struggles.
Sunglasses Launch:
Leo enthusiastically unveils his new LS Collection sunglasses, going into the details of the packaging, gold accents, and innovative features (e.g., weighted legs and a mini screwdriver).
Launch Dates & Scarcity:
Limited online drop on his birthday (March 7th) and a larger inventory planned for the Houston pop-up (March 28-29).
Life Overwhelms & Home Restlessness:
Leo describes feeling trapped and resentful in his own home, viewing it as a symbol of sacrifice and personal neglect, exacerbated by noisy neighbors and a loss of personal peace.
Booking an Escape:
Overwhelmed, he flees to an isolated cabin, booking it impulsively via Airbnb.
Instant Peace in Nature:
The contrast between the cabin's serenity and his daily life is palpable.
Journaling and Self-Confrontation:
Leo brings only a blank notebook to journal, soon realizing his sense of resentment—originally projected onto God—is actually toward himself.
Technique Introduction:
Inspired by Teal Swan, Leo writes a letter to God expressing his grievances, then swaps "you" for "me" in the letter, exposing the real root of his pain.
Core Realization:
"My resentment is toward myself because I have been so busy trying to earn everyone else's love that I haven't earned my own." [23:34]
Leo reflects on how giving away so much (money, energy) left him depleted and unfulfilled, and on the importance of setting boundaries—especially for empathic, giving people.
Clarity and Empowerment:
Taking responsibility is liberating for Leo: "I love when things are my fault. Thank you, God, for making it my fault because I can fix it." [26:11]
New Boundaries:
"This year I'm going to be a selfish dick. I'm going to give when I feel truly like my soul wants to give...everybody else eats." [27:30]
Memorable Story:
Leo recounts in comedic detail a terrifying night when he almost shoots at a mysterious four-legged animal outside his cabin.
Dark Humor & Relief:
He jokes about rethinking suicidal ideation: "That’s how I knew I didn’t want to unalive myself...protector me took over." [31:55]
Coming Home:
After the retreat, Leo feels changed, at peace, and excited for the sunglass launch and upcoming travels.
Final Thoughts:
Encourages listeners to post a bird emoji if they made it to the end and teases next week’s “What Would Leo Do?” advice/Q&A.
On Self-Realization & Responsibility:
On the Letters to God Practice:
On Making Peace with Solitude:
Cabin Horror-Story Humour:
Listener Engagement:
Episode links: Sunglasses drop (March 7), Houston pop-up (March 28–29), and Q&A submission in episode description.